IN HIS TIME
Part 1
August, September, October 2005

A Book About 
The Set Times
 Of The Lord

Joan Whitacre Royer

DEDICATION OF BOOK

I dedicate this book to the Lord Jesus Christ,
my best Friend.
May it bring Him glory
in the lives of others as they read it.

A SPECIAL THANK YOU

A special thank you to my daughter, Beth,
for inviting me to stay in her lovely quiet home
during the months of writing this book,
for letting me use her computer and printer,
for putting this book on the internet,
and for being such encouraging company.
Thanks, Beth!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

The author, Joan (“Jo Ann”) Royer, has a background in writing from childhood on, has a Bachelor’s Degree in Music and English, and a Master’s Degree in Education. She was involved in discipling others through the Discipleship Training program at a Southern Baptist Church in Columbia, Missouri, for 18 years. Then the Lord guided her to take a break from that and spend much time developing an even stronger and more intimate relationship with Him in her quiet times. During this time she worked as a secretary at United Methodist churches in Columbia, Missouri. 

After four years of developing this more intimate relationship, He lead her to begin writing her first book, Thoughts and Stories: On a Life God Leads, Guides, and Protects. He even gave her the title for the book and gradually, as she listened and wrote, He lead her in writing the whole book. 

Previous to this writing she had collected stories about ways God had impacted the lives of people. This was in response to His guidance from Psalm 96:3 that says: “Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.” She knew He wanted her to declare His Marvelous Deeds and share these deeds with others by writing them. All this came together in her book series called Thoughts And Stories, Books 1-5.

She currently has eight books (plus this new series) which can be found on her web site at www.doveministry.net. They are titled Thoughts and Stories, books 1-5, and Things The Lord Has Shown Me, books 1-3. This book is the first part in a series called In His Time. This series starts with writing from August, September, and October of 2005. More parts in this series will continue on with around 2-3 months covered in each part depending on how much the Spirit guides her to write.

She retired from her secretarial position in Columbia in 2004 and now lives in Lee’s Summit, Missouri, with her daughter, Beth, where the Lord has led her to set apart her days to listen to Him and write what He shows her. 

Writing is her passion and the way God is leading her to share with others what God has been doing in her life. Her desire is to encourage and mentor others through her writings--in the way that many in the Body of Christ have taught and mentored her through their writings.

Thoughts from the Holy Spirit are written in italics.

IN HIS TIME

PART ONE

AUGUST 2005

The Lord gave me a number of clues that He wanted me to write this book. Now I am putting those clues together for my own enlightenment and encouragement--and sharing them with you, my readers, so you can know His supernatural workings in my life, and in the world right now.

One clue was a dream on March 22, 2005 in which I was collecting spiritual riches to help the needy. The dream showed me taking those spiritual riches to other people through the books I've been writing. In this dream I was assigned a day to have my picture taken by one group, and then assigned the same day by another group for a picture also. Since this happened twice, I knew it was significant. I wondered if that set day was a time when God would give a revelation to me. The day given in the dream was Monday, the 22nd. The only Monday the 22nd on the calendar for the rest of 2005 was in August. I wrote at the time of this dream that perhaps this was the day representing the presentation of the book(s) to the world through publishing and distributing them. It was set and it was a new beginning. It also might be a day my picture (representing me) was taken and seen by others--meaning my being revealed to others through my books.

Another clue was on June 25, 2005 when I had a dream where the Lord showed me I was to celebrate June, July, and August, then pull in delights during September and October while crossing into new territory. What was to come in September and October would be needed to complete me. I thought these delights might include revival, along with manifestations and healings of the Lord. The new territory referred to a new place of being, a new place of dwelling, different than where I've been before, and a new Spiritual realm. The Spirit told me this was a prophetic dream giving me clues to what was coming so I could look for it, celebrate it, thank Him for it, and pray for it.

Another clue was when I had another dream where I saw a tiny box to click on, like with a computer mouse. The box was about 3/8" square, very tiny, and it was on a computer screen. The Spirit showed me that this represented only the beginning of the revelatory to be opened up to me. The tiny box included all the visions and dreams I had had by then. I was to compare that tiny box to the size of the full computer monitor screen and see how much was yet to come. So I knew He wanted to open up a lot of revelation to me in the future, and that what I had already seen was only a small part of that.

I'm wondering if this dream also was referring to the eight books that were to be "opened up" to me using a computer (which I used to write my books). The Holy Spirit said it included all the visions and dreams I had so far. I put many of them into those books! It seems there is still much yet to come, and the size will be great. 

Another clue: On Monday, August 22, 2005 (the day highlighted in the March dream) I recorded a dream which was a prophetic picture where I watched people responding to the Lord in their covenant relationship with Him. They were counting toward the completion and full measure of their covenant time on earth worshiping and prophesying before the Lord. The dream seemed to indicate this was almost finished.

Another clue came that day also: On that day (Monday, August 22) I read through another dream from the past in which I held a paper in my hands with the numbers 1-9 on it. I began to realize those numbers might refer to 9 books the Lord wanted me to write in the future. Since that dream I had already written 8 books, so I felt this was His leading me to realize He had at least 1 more book for me to write. I wondered about a title for this 9th book, and the thought came: In His Time. 

Back on March 22, 2005 I wrote that perhaps this is the day (Monday, August the 22nd) representing the presentation of the book(s) to the world through publishing and distributing them. It was set and it was a new beginning. It also might be a day my picture (representing me) was taken and seen by others--meaning being revealed to others. So another thought/clue came: Monday, August 22 could be considered the day my web site became available on the search engines since Beth placed them there Sunday afternoon, August 21. This above dream sure could be picturing my tiny web site with its first book available on it as compared to the world wide web where it became available through the search engines.

1.	Yes, I would say Monday, August 22 WAS a significant day in relation to my books - a day my picture (representation of me) was seen by others!

2.	It was also a day the Lord began to reveal to me that I am to write a 9th book: In His Time.

That is the story and the clues about how this book came into being. The Lord speaks to us in many ways. Sometimes we just have to wait awhile and put all the clues together that He gives us. Eventually He will open up understanding to us - In His Time.

Thoughts from the Holy Spirit are written in italics.

SCRIPTURES SHOWING HOW GOD HAS SPECIFIC TIMES FOR SPECIFIC EVENTS
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As I begin this book about the Lord's timing of events, I want to first look up Scriptures showing me how He has done this in the past with other people. Here is a list of some Scriptures I studied:

(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8)
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

(Ecclesiastes 3:11)
He has made everything beautiful in its time. 

(Ecclesiastes 3:17)
For there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed. 

(Psalm 31:14-15)
But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands. 

(Psalm 90:12)
Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. 

(Daniel 11:35)
Some of the wise will stumble, so that they may be refined, purified and made spotless until the time of the end, for it will still come at the appointed time.

(Daniel 12:4, 9)
But you, Daniel, close up and seal the words of the scroll until the time of the end….Go your way, Daniel, because the words are closed up and sealed until the time of the end.

(Habakkuk 2:3)
For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.

(Matthew 8:29)
Have you come here to torture us before the appointed time?

(Matthew 10:19)
…do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.

(Mark 1:15)
"The time has come," he said. "The kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe the good news." 

(Luke 1:20)
…until the day this happens…which will come true at their proper time.

(John 7:6, 8)
The right time for me has not yet come: for you any time is right….You  go to the Feast. I am not yet going up to this Feast, because for me the right time has not yet come.  

(John 17:1)
After Jesus said this, he looked toward heaven and prayed: "Father the time has come."

(John 7:30)
At this they tried to seize him, but no one laid a hand on him, because his time had not yet come.

(Acts 3:21)
He must remain in heaven until the time comes for God to restore everything, as he promised long ago through his holy prophets.

(Acts 7:17)
As the time drew near for God to fulfill his promise to Abraham…

(Acts 17:26)
From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. 

(Romans 5:6)
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.

(1 Corinthians 2:7)
We speak of God's secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began.

(Galatians 4:4-5)
But when the time had fully come, God sent his Son, born of a woman, born under law, to redeem those under law, that we might receive the full rights of sons. 

(Galatians 6:9)
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

(Ephesians 1:9-10)
And he made known to us the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure, which he purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment--to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.

2 Thessalonians 2:6)
And now you know what is holding him back, so that he may be revealed at the proper time.

 (Titus 1:2-3)
A faith and knowledge resting on the hope of eternal life, which God, who does not lie, promised before the beginning of time, and at his appointed season he brought his word to light through the preaching entrusted to me by the command of God our Savior.

(1 Peter 1:5)
…you, who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.

(1 Peter 1:10-11)
Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care, trying to find out the time and circumstances to which the Spirit of Christ in them was pointing when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the glories that would follow.

(1 Peter 5:6)
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.

(Revelation 22:10)
Then he told me, "Do not seal up the words of the prophecy of this book, because the time is near."

THE TIME HAS COME
“After Jesus said this, he looked toward heaven and prayed: ‘Father, the time has come.’”  (John 17:1)
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After reading this Scripture and meditating on it, the Spirit said:

Remember when I would talk about time and how it was or was not the right time? My timing is very important to seek so you can follow it exactly.

Satan knows enough to keep trying to steal and thwart My timing. He works on man’s impatience and lack of vision to try to alter it.

He often will try to anticipate what I am going to do and make a wonderful looking substitute - just before I bring My best into the picture. You can always watch to see if this is happening!

GOD'S TIMING
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From http://www.nbseminary.com/Moments/Moment_5.htm  from article Discerning God's Timing

The first words that Jesus speaks in Mark's Gospel (Mark 1:15) are these: "The time stands fulfilled and the kingdom of God stands near." Only Mark among the Gospels includes in Jesus' proclamation the statement about fulfilled time in relation to the coming of God's kingdom.

"Time fulfilled" is code that marks the beginning of a new action by God. He has a schedule for implementing His rule that He is following, only partially known to humanity and only as He chooses to reveal it. Yet it lies behind all that happens in our world. When Jesus preaches that "the time stands fulfilled", he declares himself to be God's prophet, one to whom God has revealed knowledge about His kingdom schedule and plan. Further, he warns us that a strategic new stage in God's activity is beginning and we must pay attention and discern what God is doing, otherwise we will be unable to keep in step with God.

In a very real sense Mark's entire story about Jesus revolves around people recognizing or failing to recognize what "time" it is according to God's schedule.

God's schedule does not end with the cross and Jesus' resurrection. One event still to occur is the return of the Son of Man (Mark 13:26-27, 32-33). Jesus himself told us that we do not know "when that time is." All we, as God's people, can do is to be in a constant state of readiness, vigilant and watching. The initial fulfillment of God's time (Mark 1:15) gives us confidence that the second part of God's plan will arrive on schedule, even though only He knows when that will happen.

JOURNAL 8-12-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT A MULTIPLYING BIRD
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In this dream I was inside a house looking out a large window (I think in the front of the house). First I saw a bird outside which looked like a hummingbird but was larger. Its coloring was in greens like a hummingbird. It was about 6-7 ft up above the ground suspended in the air. Then it became much larger and I saw this huge bird there. Its front looked similar to a stork with a long bill and neck, and its body became huge and oval-shaped, maybe 6 ft long and 2-3 ft wide with a large fluffy multi-feathered plumed tail. Along the top of the body there were many nests, maybe 8-10 nests, and on each nest sat a mature bird. In the tail there were many smaller birds mixed in with the plumy feathers. I kept exclaiming about this unusual bird and trying to name what kind of bird it was, but I could not think what to call it. I knew it was not an eagle. Later, as I looked at the names of some birds in the dream book, the closest I could come to what it's head and beak looked like might be a stork. I don't remember any colors associated with this huge bird.

A hummingbird is a beautiful bird which can suspend itself in the air and which is enjoyable to watch. A stork refers to being expectant: new birth, new baby; new experience; that which is forthcoming. They carry out God's purposes. "Even the stork in the sky knows her appointed seasons." (Jeremiah 8:7)

A bird can refer to the Holy Spirit or a message. They can also refer to leaders or messengers. "…a bird of the air may carry your words; and a bird on the wing may report what you say." (Ecclesiastes 10:20 NIV)

The big bird may symbolize CTC, our church. To me this big bird refers to lots of things being birthed from it, lots of mature birds, nests with eggs to be hatched, and young growing birds too. It also could refer to the church universal doing the same thing.

This can also refer to my books which are being used by the Lord to hatch and grow what He wants in the lives of many. I can picture this bird as the web site where my books are suspended, like in the air, and out of it may things will be birthed, hatched, grown, and sustained. This bird will be beautiful like a hummingbird and will be suspended in the air (web) for all to see.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a revelation picture of that which is coming to carry out God's purposes. It will birth God's message and carry it to others. 

JOURNAL 8-22-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT HEARING 100 MUSICAL SOUNDS TO COUNT
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I had a dream in which it seemed there were 100 musical sounds being made and counted. I heard several of them by instruments. Then I saw a circle of about 6-8 people who were stepping to the sounds and counting along with them. I heard them say 40 and count up from there. They weren't stepping to the beats as I felt were correct with musical rhythm, but just stepped and counted without being musically rhythmically accurate. I thought I would have trouble being part of that group because I didn't count rhythm the way they were stepping and counting. They stepped in and sideways from where they stood in the circle, but still kept the circle shape.

This was a dream which I saw but didn't participate in myself. I heard the musical sounds and wondered what the count was, but only saw and watched the people stepping and counting. Therefore I think this is a prophetic picture being shown me in this dream. It is a picture indicating the counting toward full measure (100) of the worship and prophesy (music) going on now in God's covenant (circle) people. It seemed I could watch this process and become aware of how far along the count was toward completion (100) of the measure to time for our worship/prophesying. To me this means I see God's timetable quickly coming to a close for His covenant people. 

I see a group of people that I have difficulty "counting along with" because they don't move to music and rhythm the way I have been taught in my life. Perhaps that is one way I "see" people in my church who have had a different past experience in relating to the rhythm of the Holy Spirit than I have had. I can watch them, but I might have difficulty responding the same way as they do.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture showing his people listening to His music and counting along to the full measure of His prophetic plan for His covenant people. I can "see" this happening even though I don't necessarily respond to His prophetic music in the same way they do.

JOURNAL 8-24-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT GRADUATING, TRADING HOUSES AND GOING UP STEPS
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In the first dream we were graduating and being divided into groups and trading houses. We were at a meeting where we found out which group we were assigned to.

In another dream: I parked my car, and walked up many steps to a door. They went up a series of steps, then had a flat area, then went up another series of steps at a left angle from the first steps. I clicked the door open so I could enter.

Graduating may refer to finishing a course of training. If our house represents our person or dwelling place, then trading houses may refer to changing our person/body or dwelling place.  A body can refer to what you have faith for and what you were born to do. This may be telling me I have finished a course of training and now I will be changing my dwelling place and be assigned to some group to do what I was born to do.

My car is my ministry, so I parked my ministry, and walked up steps (a process of promotion) to a door (entrance, opportunity, portal) and clicked (refers to using computer to function there) the door open.

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What the Lord has shown me here is regarding completing a course, changing my dwelling place, and being divided out for another group or action. My ministry is parked and I proceed upward and open a door to enter.

JOURNAL 8-25-05 Thursday

HOW THE LORD HAS LED ME IN WRITING BOOKS AS AN EVERLASTING WITNESS
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“Go now, write it on a tablet for them, inscribe it on a scroll, that for the days to come it may be an everlasting witness.” (Isaiah 30:8)

I wrote down the dates when the Lord spoke to me about writing the books I have worked on since May 1, 2004:

May 1, 2004 He told me to write a book called Thoughts and Stories: On a Life God Leads, Guides and Protects, Book 1.

August 20, 2004 He told me to begin putting together another book about Quiet Time Thoughts (which became Thoughts and Stories, Book 2)

October 20, 2004 I mentioned in my writing a possible name for my 3rd book: Thoughts and Stories, Book 3.

November 1, 2004 The Lord said He wanted me to write 5 books for Him (Thoughts and Stories, books 1-5).

December 31, 2004 He said after the 5 books were done I should write a book titled Things The Lord Has Shown Me.

March, 2005 He said when I finished writing Things The Lord Has Shown Me which included writings collected from many of my previous journals, that would be 1/3 of the writing on this topic. I would then continue to write 2/3 more into books after that about new things from then on. I did write 3 books total in this series.

Monday, August 22, 2005 I am impressed that I am to write another book, the 9th book, and call it: In His Time.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He has plans for my life and writing. He shows me a little at a time and leads me there.

JOURNAL 8-26-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT SEEING THE HOLY SPIRIT AS A GRAY RULER
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In this dream I was observing things. There were no people in the dream; therefore I think it is a prophetic dream for me. I could see a gray shape (like a ruler shape and size) in a white area in front of me. I knew I could use that gray shape somehow. It was like it represented the Holy Spirit and I could reach out and engage it. I would see it and somehow use it or incorporate it in what I did.

Gray can mean maturity and honor but also can mean not defined, vague, not specific, and hazy. A ruler is used to measure with. Being in front of me refers to now and in the future. So this dream shows engaging the Holy Spirit, even though sometimes hazy, in all that I do. The Holy Spirit's work sometimes seems unclear or hazy to me also. The dream could be showing me this is a stage with maturity in that relationship. It is a time of being surrounded by purity (white) also. It was a most pleasant and hopeful dream, and I wanted to try to describe the event in words, even though it was difficult to do. Then these thoughts came:

With the Spirit, the old has gone, the new has come. You see yourself and others and life differently. It's like "engaging the Spirit" and His wisdom, understanding and perspective on all you do and think. He's the great Counselor, Guide, Teacher, and Comforter throughout life. 

Take hold of My ruler, My measuring stick, and I will enable you to measure all that comes your way. You may look weak in your body, but you are strong in your spirit - in My Spirit. I have been growing your spirit with Mine so you could write this 9th book. Rest in Me.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture of my seeing His Spirit as a measuring ruler and using it (Him) as I encounter life events and write this 9th book.

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As I looked outside I noticed how lush and green and long the grass is now that we have had many days of rain. The Holy Spirit reminded me that it was the rain that made the difference between this and the dried, parched grass we had a couple of weeks ago. He reminded me also that His rain coming down on people would make the same thing happen--people would become fresh looking and green and renewed. Send Your Holy Spirit rain, Lord!

JOURNAL 8-27-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT SEEING A GARDEN WITH VEGETABLES AND WEEDS TOGETHER
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In this dream I was at Dad and Mom's house looking at their garden with rows of vegetables starting to come up but with lots of weeds too. I saw their German shepherd dog which they kept in their basement and I petted its head. Their garden had a sidewalk across the end and across the middle parallel to the end sidewalk. They were planning to build a shed area in the garden area to keep a wheelchair for someone coming to visit or stay.

“The person who plants selfishness, ignoring the needs of others--ignoring God!--harvests a crop of weeds.  All he’ll have to show for his life is weeds! But the one who plants in response to God, letting God’s Spirit do the growth work in him, harvests a crop of real life, eternal life.” (Galatians 6:8 TMB)

I was the sole human participant seeing and being in this scene. It may be a prophetic picture that I am seeing. I looked at the field of labor, the church, and at the vegetables (fruit of the labor of the church). I saw weeds there (works of the flesh) along with the good fruit. Is this referring to me, Lord?

This is you and all My people in the world. There are still weeds to pull and get rid of. I am still working on making My people spotless and without wrinkle. I have My watchdog around keeping watch over what is Mine. You are friendly toward Him. He is hidden, unseen, but still there. He is the Holy Spirit. There are sidewalks or special walkways in My garden area. I am building a place in the field (the church) for those who have difficulty walking, are facing trials and opposition. This will be a place of shelter from the storm for them. I want all My people to be able to "walk in the Spirit."

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What the Lord has shown me here it a picture of His field of labor including the fruit of His labor and the church's labor, but there are still weeds or works of the flesh in the field too. He is watching over His field and is building a place there for people to be sheltered from the trials and opposition that come that make it difficult to progress in their Christian walks.

A DREAM ABOUT PACKING CLOTHES TO FLY SOMEWHERE
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In this dream I was preparing clothes to pack for flying somewhere. I gathered all articles (blouse, skirt or slacks, undergarments, etc) for a whole outfit in pink for dress-up occasions, and articles for another whole outfit in aqua for dress-up occasions. I thought I should also choose some casual items for regular wear.

I was the only participant, so this dream is about me. I was preparing my clothes (my covering, attitude, anointing, what I was going to be doing) and packing them for flying somewhere. This refers to operating in a prophetic or revelatory realm, a spiritual activity God's taking me to. The colors refer to my being passionate (pink) and in communion with Him, having diving revelation from Him (blue). This is preparation for very special occasions coming. This sure seems to refer to the new book He is leading me to write now showing His special time and what He is doing in this special time.

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What the Lord has shown me here is my preparing for flying with Him into revelatory realms for very special occasions.

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Yesterday I listened to Perry Stone (www.perrystone.org) speak about the season we are now coming into. He explained the Jewish month system and the significance of those months coming:

Av	August 6 to September 4

Elul	Sept. 5 to Oct 3 (this is preparation time for judgment)

Tishri	Oct. 4 to Nov. 2	(October 4, Tuesday is feast of trumpets or Rosh Hashanna)
				(October 13 Thursday is feast of Atonement or Yom Kipper)
				(October 18 to 24 is feast of Tabernacles)

This he says is a season of God to pray intercessory prayers Sept 5-Oct. 13 (40 days).

In a dream awhile back the Lord showed me that September and October would be significant. It fits with this season on the Hebraic calendar.

JOURNAL 8-28-05 Sunday

At church this morning Leon and Jackie were visiting and Leon was the speaker. They are in Fresh Fire International children's ministry living in South Africa. They had asked our pastors, Alan and Carol Koch to be their pastors and covering, so Alan and Carol had a special time of prayer and prophetic imparting to them. Many people from CTC came forward with prophetic words to speak over them: Duane, Bill, Joyce, John, Delicia, Judith, and Gary. I am continually amazed at the number of prophetic people You have in CTC, Lord! It's wonderful!

When Leon spoke to us he kept interrupting his talk to speak prophetic words over people in the congregation as he walked around. At one point in time he pointed at me and spoke prophetic words over me, then came over and placed his hands on my head and spoke many things over me. As he was speaking I was feeling a shaking inside and tears came to my eyes. It affected me physically for quite awhile even after he finished. 

He said something about depression trying to get me down, that the Lord will come with the Holy Spirit and fire, that it was the time of harvest now, that I had given up a lot which was not seen by others, and that the Holy Spirit was inside me.

One of the things he said in his sermon which touched me was: "It's not about you; it's about who is in you."  He kept repeating Micah 7:7 "But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me." It fits with what I am to do for this next book the Lord has been telling me about all last week - I am to wait for Him and watch for Him. He will show me what to write.

Leon told us that revival is coming over America and it will not be stopped. He said this (CTC) building cannot contain what God has planned for this church. He said over and over that it's a new day! He said America will return to her first love.

A DREAM ABOUT A LOG FALLING FROM A BALCONY
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I saw a log of firewood falling from an upper balcony and bouncing on the pavement below.

This seems to be a picture/prophecy about spiritual building material coming down from above and touching my Christian walk. This could refer to the material the Holy Spirit is going to bring me to put in my newest book: In His Time.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of spiritual building material coming down from above and touching my Christian walk.

JOURNAL 8-29-05 Monday

I keep noticing signs that speak of God's specific timing for what He is doing in the world. Today, August 29, 2005 Hurricane Katrina hit the Gulf coast in Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, and the Florida panhandle, with the eye of the storm hitting just east of New Orleans. This prophetic message from www.ElijahList.com came from Steve Schultz telling about a prophecy Chuck Pierce gave exactly 1 year ago to the day, which may well be for today's event:

Chuck Pierce, August 29, 2004 prophecy:

"The WIND and WATER will rise in the midst of New Orleans. Many from the south will come north for refuge. Prepare. Prepare now for winds and water that will surprise you. I will renew the pattern not fully seen before. Worship will be here, and birthed in a new way from here. Prepare! Prepare! Prepare! Shift! Saul will be no more. David will arise from this day forward. The wind from the south will begin to blow. Watch for the effects. This will purify the land and bring great change."

Chuck led the people to pray for the south wind to come. This south wind would be a purifying wind, cause corruption to be blown on, and cause corruption to shake, and initiate a righteous move starting with the children, then moving to the youth. We were to watch the government and the Catholic Church shake, and watch New Orleans change.

Then Chuck prophesied, "I will put a mantle on African Americans in this land. That which was brought in through parts of this state and held people captive will let go. I will send the wind up the Mississippi River, and this wind will shake Missouri. You will see the land shake in Missouri because of the wind from Louisiana. Get ready. Don't brace yourself. Throw yourself up. Get ready, for the new is coming. Every place I blow on will shake. The wind is coming on Louisiana, and it will shake the entire state. I will fill churches. The south, purifying wind of My holiness will sweep across Louisiana. People will be on their faces in malls and shopping centers. Boldness will come upon My people in Louisiana. There is a worship call. Get ready -- the wind is about to blow. The river is changing courses. You will be one of the first that changes."

Steve Schultz wrote regarding the above prophecy:

"God is up to something. He's waking up a whole state. Be blessed as you watch and read this. God does not cause and require deaths in the day we live, but sometimes He prophesies over a state while simultaneously withholding a measure of grace -- for the short term -- in order to infuse a HUGE MEASURE OF GRACE in the LONG TERM in a region. This may be one such time."

JOURNAL 8-30-05 Tuesday

Today on the TV news they are showing some of the devastating effects of hurricane Katrina on the Gulf coast states: Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama. It is too much to comprehend seeing so much devastation: flooded areas, many roofs torn off and windows blown out on high rise apartments and hotels, many cars sitting in floods, and people on rooftops hoping to be rescued. There was a story of the flood waters coming in so fast one guy couldn't even take time to get to his shoes before running up to his attic or roof. Now fires are in various places with no way to get help to them. No electricity is expected in New Orleans for 4-6 weeks. It is hard to even think about all those displaced people who can not get to their homes, businesses, etc. Where did they all end up? Who helped them stay some place safe? Oh, God, help them all!!! Especially help those who are still stuck in their homes with no electricity or transportation out to get food, etc. Rescue those who need it, Lord! I pray that You use this terrible storm to bring many people to You, Lord, as they are so needy. Touch them in Your special way and give them Your hope and peace in the midst of such devastation.

A DREAM ABOUT HAVING DIFFICULTY DRIVING MY CAR
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I was driving my car on roads that were sometimes steep and difficult. At one time I turned on to a road that seemed to have cut grass on it. I thought that was the wrong road for me, so I turned around in the road and went back. Sometimes I couldn't get the pedals to work well, especially the brakes when I needed them. And sometimes it seemed like it was my feet and legs that wouldn't work the car pedals well. I struggled to try to use the brake pedal especially. It was a frustrating dream and I was glad when I awoke from it. 

My car represents my ministry. Perhaps this dream pictures my uncertainty about where I am going in it right now and what I am to do in my writing this 9th book. The road with grass cuttings on it may represent the direction of self or flesh, and I turned back from that way. Brakes can represent stop, hindrance, resist, wait. Maybe this means I need to stop and wait, but have a hard time doing that. My feet not working the way I want them to--may represent my heart/walk/way/thoughts not doing what I am trying to do. My legs represent my support, and that is weak in this dream. 

I was the only person in this dream, so it was about me. It shows my uncertainty about what I am to be doing now (I think in my writing) and that frustration. I need to heed the Scripture Leon kept giving us last Sunday from Micah 7:7  "But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me." (Micah 7:7)

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What the Lord has shown me is a picture of my uncertainty right now about my ministry direction, which way to go, and how to function rightly to get there.

JOURNAL 8-31-05 Wednesday

This morning I have been watching the TV news regarding the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina, watching the thousands left homeless, some sleeping out on a highway overpass to get above the flood waters, some in the Superdome where the conditions are horrendous, some being evacuated from hospitals which are closing down due to the floods, some being rescued from rooftops by helicopter, etc. I even saw one woman who was due to deliver a baby anytime now and she didn't have a home, food, or water for much longer, and didn't know how her baby would be delivered or where. 

Jim Cantore of the Weather Channel was reporting from somewhere in Mississippi. He was asked what he thought the most amazing thing was he was seeing right where he was reporting from. Jim had the cameras turn to an area where we could see 2 church steeples standing tall in the skyline. He said it was amazing in the midst of all that destruction and devastation that these two steeples were still there. He said it makes you think about it and wonder. Since there was a recent story about Jim Cantore in Guideposts Magazine I believe he is a Christian and he wanted to point that out for those who would see it as evidence of God's hand - even though he wasn't allowed to say that on TV.

Many times people have been saying to pray for them to the TV news reporters. God uses these disaster times to show Himself and show people their need for Him in their lives - perhaps to people who didn't consider Him very seriously before the disaster.

This is what it's going to be like from now on out. From now on until the renewal of the earth and heavens for My 1000 year reign. Disasters will change and devastate different parts of the world - as they have done that in the tsunami in SE Asia in December 2004, and as the winds and waters have done it in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama this week. 

There will be more, and people will be caught in desperate situations which will try them and test them to see who they really are down deep inside, and to bring many into a saving relationship with Me as they look death in the face. 

You are praying for people to come to Me during this tragedy, and that is right. Pray for My Kingdom to come and My will to be done in the midst of the troubles. You were right when you said this is the beginning of the tribulation. Actually it started with the tsunami on December 26, 2004, and will continue on from now on. 

There are many places in the world where devastation is rampant (like in Africa) and disease is rampant too. These ARE the end times, and you are living in the midst of them. It won't be long until My Bride will be raptured out and things will get MUCH worse almost instantly. But these current events are forerunners leading up to the Rapture and the time it gets much worse. Keep praying for many, thousands, to come to Me for salvation during these trying times. 

No, New Orleans will never be rebuilt like it was. There will not be enough time and interest and money to do that. Lots of people will never want to live in that sink hole again, below sea level and dependent on pumping the water out daily. Many will relocate elsewhere and start new lives elsewhere. 

And, like in Iraq, there will be many homeless refuges from these disasters. There will be quarrels over the resources still available in other areas. There will be limits on the ability of helping organizations which try to meet all the needs. There will be a pulling back into using your country's resources for your own people and therefore less sent to other areas of the World where there are needs too. It will get worse. 

Pray for thousands and millions to come to Me during the times of distress like now.

IN HIS TIME

PART ONE

SEPTEMBER 2005

JOURNAL 9-1-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT WANTING COINS AND A MONEY BAG FOR USE IN A DRAMA
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I was a participant in a drama. I had on a brown long coat or dress. I needed to carry money in a bag during this drama and we were trying to find a bag that would look like a money bag to the audience, perhaps some kind of drawstring bag. The money was paper held together in a rectangular shape and could be peeled off from the shape. We wanted coins to use so it would look larger and more visible to the audience.

This dream seems to be about me, and might be referring to the "drama" taking place right now in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama with Hurricane Katrina and its aftermath. I see myself covered in an anointing (in relation to this drama) with favor, power, provision for the situation and seeking to have grace, mercy and compassion as I pray for the many things I see on TV relating to it.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of myself covered with anointing to pray for the situation rising out of Hurricane Katrina and seeking for mercy and compassion and grace for the victims.

AN IMPRESSION OF SEEING AN EYE
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I saw an eye, the left eye, looking forward at me. Then it turned to the left and then turned back again and was covered up so I couldn't see it anymore.

It means I am seeing you and I am seeing what you are doing. You are a seer and see into My world. Turning to the left refers to turning toward the spiritual. The eye is covered when it is My time to do that. It is all up to Me and what I choose to do with you and in you and through you.

GIVING FOOD AT THE PROPER TIME
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"Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time? It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns." (Matthew 24:45-46)

Rick Joyner says in his book The Torch and The Sword: "A successful Christian life will not be based so much on how much work we have done, but rather on how close to the Lord we have become, and how obedient we have been. It is not possible to walk as we are called without a personal encounter with the Lord every day."

The part that is difficult to sustain is keeping yourself held apart from all that looks good to man and setting yourself apart for precisely, exactly what I have for you to do and at the time I want you to do it. You can get distracted and lose time by that. That is one very important reason you must set yourself apart to "encounter" Me and connect with Me each morning and be willing to follow whatever it is I call you and show you to do for that day. For you right now that is writing. You are not one to whom I've given a lot of power (like for healing and miracles and preaching and evangelism) but you ARE one I have called to "see" and "hear" and report it in writing. You ARE giving food to the servants in My household at the proper time - now.

JOURNAL 9-3-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT A BLACK GRAPE TIGER IN THE HOUSE
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In this dream I was inside a house (which I did not recognize) and there seemed to be at least 2 children (whom I didn't recognize) there with me, maybe 3. Somehow there was a tiger in the house which I thought was wandering around there. This tiger was black. It was about the size of a large German shepherd dog and maybe had tight curly black hair. In the dream I called it a grape tiger. I didn't know if it was dangerous or not but I was being very cautious and trying to think how I could get it out of there. I thought about trying to get a collar and put on it. I hoped it was out in the garage and we could shut it in there, but was not sure where it had wandered to.

I wondered if it was hungry and was wondering if it would eat cat food if I put it out. We seemed to have 2-3 cats in the house and I thought they might be hiding in small places where the tiger couldn't get at them. As I was talking with one child, a boy, about the tiger, he called it Ben.

In this dream I was inside a house (which I did not recognize). This house represents me, a part of me I did not recognize. It was not familiar territory. It was not a place I remember seeing before, so it represents some new area or unknown area within me.

There seemed to be 2-3 children there. These children represent a gift from God and something new birthing. They could represent new parts of me that are developing in the new territory/new area within me.

In this house (me), in the unfamiliar part of me, there was something powerful (tiger) and therefore seemingly dangerous, perhaps due to a lack of something or perhaps due to ignorance (black). It might be a covering, covenant, wisdom and anointing. It represents a fruit (grape), a fruit of the Spirit, but it is powerful like a tiger, and I am ignorant of it, like it's black with no color, due to my lack of knowledge.

I was thinking about how to get rid of this dangerous something, or how to control it, or a way to shut it out from inside me. This shows my fear of this powerful unknown element inside of me and desire to avoid confronting it.

Wanting to give this powerful something cat food represents giving it the food of independent thinking (cat) and self-will. The 2-3 cats in the house (me) represent some independent thinking and self-will still inside me, hiding in small places from this powerful something that seemed potentially dangerous to me. A child (This boy represents an angel, Joan.) representing a gift from God to me told me the name of this powerful something was (Ben) "mighty". I wondered about giving it food: the work of God, Word of God, foundational truth, teaching.

Now listen to Me and let me tell you about this dream. This tiger never threatened you, did it? (No). The threat was in your mind, in your independent thinking, in your old self or natural self which thinks of a tiger as dangerous and to be avoided. Being black means it's hard to see, not bright with color, difficult to distinguish, lacking color or visibility or brightness. 

This tiger is somewhere inside you, you think, but you don't know where, so you don't know how to avoid being confronted by it. This tiger is potentially powerful and therefore produces fear in you. You are not sure whether to try to feed it, or shut it off from you, or control it with a collar, partly because you don't know quite where it is.

 I gave you an angel child to tell you the tiger's name was Ben to show you it was mighty and "son of my right hand." My right hand represents My strength, power, and working in your life. Remember the picture of My right hand coming toward you? This tiger is also My strength, My power, and represents My working in your life - to protect you, to provide for you, and to inspire you, all the days of your life. It resides within you. It is the power of My Holy Spirit inside you. Yes, give it food: the work of God and the Word of God. My Spirit thrives on that. The Spirit and the Word go together, work together. 

There, now you have it. That is the interpretation of this dream I gave you. Know that there is something powerful inside you and its power is not very visible to you yet. Keep looking for that tiger power to make itself visible to you, and don't be afraid of it. It is My "mighty" working within you.

That's why I couldn't see the tiger, but just "knew" he was inside the house I was in. Your Holy Spirit is invisible, (like being black), but I know He is there and He is powerful.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that His Holy Spirit is powerful within me and mighty. His power has not yet all been seen by me.

JOURNAL 9-4-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT TRYING TO FINISH MANY WORK PROJECTS BEFORE LEAVING WORK
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I was in a building that seemed to be my workplace. It was a huge building with lots of sections and rooms. There were many other people there also. At first I seemed to be helping someone with a bunch of letters and bubble envelopes to mail. I took them to a mailing place and had them run through their stamping process. They found one bubble wrap package that was open, not sealed. It looked like it was cut off at the top. I said that one was mine, so somehow it was fixed and stamped also. 

In this workplace I was to quit work at 4:00. I was trying to finish up my work in time to leave then. A bunch of my relatives arrived to leave with me at 4:00 so I was under extra pressure to finish my work and leave. I was by some bed and laid against it a minute and stretched my hands back to the top of the bed. I felt hands touching mine and came to realize it was my relatives (women) who had hidden there to surprise me. They went to a far side of the work area and entertained themselves while waiting on me.

I tried to cross a strip of land and saw animals coming from a distance that would cross the path I needed to take. They were strange unfamiliar animals although they ran and looked something like horses. 

I ran into a man and told him I was sooo tired and laid my head on his shoulder. I showed him my watch and it was about 10 minutes before 6:00 and I still was at work and not finished.

The mailings represent my books which I am sending out to others to communicate with them. I don't know the cost of doing this.

I had to quit work at 4:00 (representing God's creative works, ruling and reigning) and my relatives (other Christians) were leaving with me. I felt under pressure to finish my work so I would be ready to leave on time. This fits with my working right now to finish the books and get them on the web before leaving this world.

When I stretch out on the bed and rest in the Lord I am touched by others who are also waiting to go "home" to heaven, or perhaps those who already are in heaven.

The horses represent time/work, the work of God's Spirit through man. So these horse-like animals represent God's work in my life at this time. They represent the time I am spending doing God's work right now. They are strange looking and unfamiliar, so that is what my work for God is like right now--unfamiliar but still moving along. Horses can also refer to a movement of God, so that may apply to my work on the books right now as a movement of God. And a movement of God is going on right now in the world. I had to cross paths or deal with this movement of God as I did my work.

Ten minutes (10) refers to a trial or testing. 6:00 refers to man. So the time is now a time of testing man. I put my head on a man's shoulder (he represents Jesus) and express my tiredness and desire to leave (go home, go to heaven). That is what I am speaking through this dream, to others who are Christians, by writing this book and sending it out (by web mail). I am ready to leave work and go home!

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am trying to finish many work projects (my books, the work God is doing through me) before leaving the earth to go home to be with the Lord along with my fellow Christian relatives.

JOURNAL 9-5-05 Monday

I have been reflecting back over what the Lord has been doing in my life the last few weeks while at CTC through prophetic people there. It is almost like He has been pouring out messages to me through them.

On the first Sunday in August (7th) He gave me the message through Kevin about continuing the writing--that he saw a quill pen, that he saw blank pages still to be written, that I was "the pen of a ready writer." And through the message John gave that day, I was encouraged to put out my next book (Things The Lord Has Shown Me, book 1) on the internet even if it means I might have to deal with rejection by some people for being exposed.

On Sunday, August 28, Leon from South Africa prophesied over me about God's fire being on me, about my sometimes dealing with depression, about my having given up a lot that others did not see. 

Then, yesterday, September 4th, Judith spoke over me: "Now here is a prayer warrior. Don't worry that what you pray doesn't have any effect, because it does. You won't know that effect until you go up to heaven. There is a great reward for you, a great reward. Don't give up or grow weary." I was very encouraged by her words that my intercessory prayers were actually being heard and had some helpful effect on what I prayed for! 

I am seeing such an encouragement given to me lately through prophetic people at CTC. It reminds me of the dream where God showed me that if I would faithfully do what He led me to do in June, July, and August, good things would be brought in to me in September and October. They already seem to be coming to me!

And yesterday God gave me two unique opportunities to speak with R & D and ask them about needs they wanted prayer for. And I have been praying for them. And I believe God is hearing those prayers. 

(1 John 1:14-15) This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him. 

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Writings about God's timing taken from Thoughts And Stories, book 3:

DIVINE DESTINY REGARDING GOD'S TIMING
“This child is destined to cause the falling and rising of many in Israel, and to be a sign that will be spoken against, so that the thoughts of many hearts will be revealed.” (Luke 2:34)
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Meaningful quotes from Books Of Destiny by Paul Keith Davis on divine destiny:

•	“In the aspirations of Heaven, timing is everything. The Father has appointed moments for divine destiny to be fulfilled.
•	“Our Father is determined to find vessels to use in profound and historic ways to glorify His Son. These vessels will be children of destiny who perform the prophetic mandates of a chosen generation.
•	“Specific appointments with destiny have been determined and reserved by the Father; these moments are established by God’s choice and authority.
•	“Almighty God selects and appoints specific times to render justice on the earth. It is by His design that His wondrous acts are performed through vessels of His choice. God humbles one and exalts another.
•	“People are apprehended by the Holy Spirit to fulfill their purpose and destiny by God.... Seeds of destiny are watered by the Spirit and produce a consecrated existence and fruitfulness.
•	“We need to understand that accomplishing our destiny is not automatic. Decisions and choices must be made; we must be conformed to the plan of Heaven to be led into authority and productivity. We must master valuable lessons to cooperate quickly and easily with Heaven. Once we have learned to be disciples, our diligent prayer should be to remain fully focused on God’s objectives and principles." 

THE SOLD-OUT ONES
“For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him.” (2 Chronicles 16:9)
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Meaningful quotes from Books Of Destiny by Paul Keith Davis on the sold-out ones:

•	“Today, the eyes of the Lord are roving to and fro throughout the earth to find hearts that are completely His. When these sold-out ones are found, Heaven’s full support will be placed behind them.
•	“Throughout history one common denominator has been apparent in the Lord’s choices for leadership. He chooses the common and ordinary in order to confound the wise.
•	“Commissions are being granted for ordinary people to live in the reality of a tangible and meaningful relationship with an awesome God. Their conviction will be a defining quality of His end-time army. Invitations and opportunities are being extended in this kairos moment of time.
•	“Presently we are at the threshold of a “fullness of time” juncture in Church history. A door stands open before us, and a Voice calls us to higher, heavenly realms. God invites us to understand experientially the unfolding of heavenly blueprints and to apprehend spiritual mysteries that have been hidden until now. These secrets of God and mysteries of His Kingdom are hidden in the depths of Christ.

(Paul Keith said at the conference on Saturday that it is NOW the “fullness of time”.)

This is your time, the time of the harvest of your destiny. Take it and cling to it. Don’t let anyone or anything stop you from fulfilling your destiny. I have grown that destiny seed in you until this time and for the purpose I have called you to. It is NOW. It is being fulfilled right now. Do not let it go. I started this and I will finish it. Just trust Me in this and wait for Me to fulfill it. Books, that is what I want you to write for Me. I will tell you what to put in those books and you write them for Me. OK?

Yes, Lord!

You have My favor and I will take care of all your needs. Do not despair, and do not give up when it is tough. I will refresh you when needed, and I will strengthen you all along the way. I have called you to this journey/walk and you have said yes. We will do this together!

JOURNAL 9-7-05 Wednesday

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
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Before I got up this morning I was again dealing with whether I should look up and see a family doctor, dentist, and eye doctor. It is wisdom to do that according to this world. But I believe I am called to live by a different wisdom, the wisdom of Christ which is (to me) a level above the world's wisdom. As I prayed about it and as I read Colossians chapters 1 and 2, I felt impressed to keep seeking God's wisdom. As I sit here writing in my journal for today, I want to record this struggle which has been increasing gradually over the last couple of years - a struggle about whether I am to trust completely in the Lord for all healing needed in my body, or whether to go to doctors also. This struggle arises in my mind every so often, and I again deal with it. 

One reason I struggle with the issue is that I do not have the financial provision yet to pay Medicare supplement fees and/or costs to the doctors.

My answer today from the Holy Spirit is to live by trusting in Jesus to be my Healer. I believe living with medical help is not wrong, but I am seeking to live by a higher plane, on a higher level, a level of trusting in the Lord for my health. 

It won't be long. It might be in September or October, but at least soon, that I will heal you. Remember I have an appointed time and place when I want to heal you--for My glory and purposes. Would you be willing to wait for that, so I could heal you at the time I desire?

Yes, Lord, I choose to wait for Your appointed time. Thank You that there is an appointed time!

“So be careful to do what the Lord your God has commanded you; do not turn aside to the right or to the left. Walk in all the way that the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live and prosper and prolong your days in the land that you will possess.”  (Deuteronomy. 5:32-33) 

JOURNAL 9-10-05 Saturday

Last evening I read a book by John Bolin called The Two Doors of Heaven: the Story of Your Future. It was quite interesting! I want to mention it here in my journal as part of a list of good books to read about life after death and how our choices now (while here on earth) affect that time after death. The description of the book says: "Journey with a man named Jack to the other side of eternity. After dying in a freak accident, he enters the afterlife with four others. In this new, hyper-real existence, they each see a vivid replay of their lives, complete with answers to haunting questions. Then comes the startling truth about what happens next. Two doors appear. One leads up. The other-down. Which will it be? Jack's inevitable destiny echoes the choices he made on earth. What if you could control where you're headed? Maybe you can. Find out what the two doors of heaven reveal for you…"

Another book I read recently which gives a description of heaven is called 90 Minutes In Heaven: A True Story of Death and Life by Don Piper. In this book Don actually dies for 90 minutes, then comes back to life through prayer and tells us the story of what it was like in heaven.

I am putting on hold another book on heaven called Heaven by Randy Alcorn. I am eager to read it.

JOURNAL 9-12-05 Monday

I want to tell you about what's coming and how you are to pray and how you are to prepare for it. This is what I say: I AM bringing judgment on America for her sins and wickedness. The places where I bring judgment will be places which have tolerated much much wickedness and have not repented. My people have prayed, and repented for those sins and for that wickedness, and that is good. But the wicked have not changed; only gotten worse. Wickedness has grown and grown to the extent that it must be judged. It is time to do that.

I know you want Me to protect America and spare her, but she must be judged. I can't and won't let the wickedness grow any farther without doing something about it. It is time to show My might and power and let people choose Me or wickedness. There is now no middle ground. People will have this one more chance to make their choice, and then those who have chosen Me will be taken out, and the rest left.

But the choice must be clear and plain for all those many people who are now still straddling the fence, who are refusing to make a deliberate choice, who don't want to make a clear stand. They will now be called to choose, and those who don't choose Me will, by neglecting to do so, choose the way of evil. Many would not want to do that, but won't choose good either. But they WILL be given one more chance- each one in some way or other through the next few months of judgments and events shaking them. They MUST be shaken in order to get them to choose Me or not choose Me. And they will. But there will still be some who are "left behind" who think they belong to Me when they really don't.

Remember those in the Bible who said they had done many things for Me and yet I didn't know them. The key is--I didn't KNOW them, and they didn't KNOW Me. The key to being taken out of the world before the wrath is "knowing" Me, and living in that "knowing" relationship every single day. That's what your books are demonstrating - a "knowing" relationship with Me. I want to use those books to give to others, who think they belong to Me, to see what it's like to "know" Me like you do.

Lord, I pray for all those who haven't yet come to You, who need to before You rapture us out. I pray for Your shaking judgments to bring them to committing themselves to You completely and to living for You daily. I pray for Your kingdom to come and Your will to be done on earth as it is in heaven.

And I WILL do that, My child. I will. My kingdom is on its way and has been for 2000 years or so. It is very close to being here with My ruling and reigning along with My church. The final decisions are being made right now for people on earth. According to their decisions they will get to be part of My kingdom on earth during the Millenium or get sent to destruction. All will be purified in order to start My kingdom including people and the earth.

A DREAM ABOUT THE BANK OF AMERICA
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This dream was about people and the Bank of America. I saw a whole group of kernels (like popcorn kernels) that were not pop-able. They were useless and stuck together in a clump. These were the poor. They seemed to represent people without an identity there anymore. 

So what does the Bank of America stand for? A place for storing deposits, a secure, dependable, safe, certain place, and can mean a reward reserved in heaven, a heavenly account, or the Church. These useless kernels were not able to pop. They clump together or gather together into bundles. They were poor because they didn't have heavenly riches stored in the bank. This was shown by not having an identity there--that could represent not having their names written in the Book of Life in heaven.

It seems this dream was about those people mentioned in the Holy Spirit words given me above--the people who haven't yet chosen Christ and therefore don't have their names written in the Lamb's Book of Life. And the Lord wants to give them one more chance. That chance seems like it will come in the judgments coming to shake our country. This was a prophetic dream or a vision about what is coming.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic dream about people in America who don't have a deposit in the heavenly bank.

A PIECE OF A DREAM ABOUT BEING FINISHED IN ONE YEAR
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In a dream the idea or words came: that in 1 year I'll be done, or in 1 year I'll be finished, something like that. I didn't remember it clearly but something about in 1 year.

The Lord asks me today if I would be willing to wait another year to come home to be with Him. I told Him that if that was what He wanted, then I say "yes," even though I prefer to go home this year instead of next year. Then He said:

I promise to take care of you - and your loved ones in your prayer bundle. Even though there will be many "shakings" and judgments in your land, I promise to take care of you.

JOURNAL 9-14-05 Wednesday

ON THE TOPIC OF HUMILITY
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Quotes from the book Humility by Andrew Murray:

"In our fallen state, humility points us to the only way by which we can return to our rightful place as creatures. As Christians, the mystery of grace teaches us that as we lose ourselves in the overwhelming greatness of redeeming love, humility becomes to us the consummation of everlasting blessedness.

"…nothing is more natural and beautiful and blessed than to be nothing in order that God may be everything… it is not sin that humbles but grace. It is the soul occupied with God in His wonderful glory as Creator and Redeemer that will truly take the lowest place before Him.

"Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant" (Matthew 20:26). He was teaching us the truth that there is nothing so divine as being the servant and helper of all. The faithful servant who recognizes his position finds real pleasure in supplying the wants of the master or his guests. When we realize that humility is something infinitely deeper than contrition, and accept it as our participation in the life of Jesus, we will begin to learn that it is our true nobility, and that to prove it in being servants of all is the highest fulfillment of our destiny as men created in the image of God."

"God desired to reveal himself in and through His creatures by communicating to them as much of His own goodness and glory as they were capable of receiving. But this communication was not meant to give created beings something they could possess in themselves, having full charge and access apart from Him. Rather, God… meant that the relationship of His creatures to himself would be one of unceasing, absolute dependence.  …but we must also present ourselves as empty vessels, in which God can dwell and manifest His power and goodness.

"The life God bestows is imparted not once for all but each moment by the unceasing operation of His mighty power. Humility, the place of entire dependence upon God, is from the very nature of things the first duty and the highest virtue of His creatures.

"And so pride--the loss of humility--is the root of every sin and evil… In heaven and on earth, pride or self-exaltation is the very gateway to hell.

"And so it follows that nothing can save us but the restoration of our lost humility, the original and only true relationship of the creature to its God. And so Jesus came to bring humility back to earth, to make us partakers of it, and by it to save us. And now the salvation He imparts is nothing less and nothing else than a communication of His own life and death, His own disposition and spirit, His own humility, as the ground and root of His relationship with God and His redeeming work. Jesus Christ took the place and fulfilled the destiny of man as a creature by His life of perfect humility.

"The life of those who are saved, the saints, must bear this stamp of deliverance from sin and full restoration to their original state; their whole relationship to God and to man marked by an all-pervading humility.  Without this there can be no true abiding in God's presence or experience of His favor and the power of His Spirit; without this no abiding faith or love or joy or strength… Humility is not so much a virtue along with the others, but is the root of all, because it alone takes the right attitude before God and allows Him, as God, to do all.

"God has so constituted us as reasonable beings that the greater the insight into the true nature or the absolute need of a command, the quicker and more complete will be our obedience to it… It (humility) is not something that we bring to God, or that He bestows; it is simply the sense of entire nothingness that comes when we see how truly God is everything. 

"When the creature realizes that this is a place of honor, and consents to be--with his will, his mind, and his affections--the vessel in which the life and glory of God are to work and manifest themselves, he sees that humility is simply acknowledging the truth of his position as creature and yielding to God His place.

"As strong as sin is a motive for it, there is one still wider and mightier influence: it is that which made the angels, Jesus himself, and the holiest saints humble. It is the first and chief mark of the relationship of the creature to God, of the Son to the Father--it is the secret of blessedness, the desire to be nothing, that allows God to be all in all.

"…this humility is not something that will come of itself, but… it must be made the object of special desire, prayer, faith, and practice.

"Let us at the very outset of our meditations, then, admit that there is nothing so natural to man, nothing so insidious and hidden from our sight, nothing so difficult and dangerous as pride. And acknowledge that nothing but a very determined and persevering waiting on God will reveal how lacking we are in the grace of humility and how powerless we are to obtain what we seek. 

"We must study the character of Christ until our souls are filled with the love and admiration of His lowliness. We must believe that when we are broken under a sense of pride and our inability to cast it out, Jesus Christ himself will come to impart this grace as a part of His wonderful life within us."

Quote from Charles Spurgeon: "Humility is the proper estimate of oneself."

Quote from The Spirit of Prayer, by Andrew Murray:

"…evil can have no beginning but from pride and no end but from humility… The truth is this: Pride must die in you or nothing of heaven can live in you. Under the banner of the truth, give yourself up to the meek and humble spirit of the holy Jesus. Humility must sow the seed or there can be no reaping in heaven. Look not at pride only as an unbecoming temper, nor at humility only as a decent virtue; for the one is death and the other is life; the one is hell and the other is heaven. So much as you have of pride within you, you have of the fallen angel alive in you; so much as you have of true humility, so much you have of the Lamb of God within you."

A DREAM ABOUT ORGANIZING A SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS
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I was a Sunday School class leader and organized people into 5 groups and gave instructions. The people were noisy and didn't listen well, so I was thinking about resigning. The five groups were in these positions in the room:
2	3
5
		1		4

A Sunday School class is for people to learn about Christ and study the Word of God. It's a school on Sunday for this. Perhaps "leading" this refers to the books (5 books on Thoughts and Stories) which I've written to help teach others about the Lord. People may not be listening to them. I wondered if I should resign, if my books were doing anyone any good. Perhaps this dream brings a thought inside of me about whether all the work on the books will be of help to anyone.

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What the Lord has shown me here is myself as a leader trying to help people, but being discouraged about their lack of response.

A DREAM ABOUT GIVING MUSIC LESSONS
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I was trying to give music lessons to people and to make up lessons they had missed.

I was turning light switches and seeing which didn't work so I could put in new bulbs as needed.

I was trying to get a boy named John to sweep and vacuum the floors.

I was giving organ lessons and being observed by a teacher. She was pleased with how I did.

I was trying to help people learn about worship, prophesying, and ministering in the gifts of the Spirit. I was trying to turn on the power of God and reveal God to people. I was trying to bring the strength of God into a situation to bring cleaning, repentance, and removal of obstacles there. This would be available through (John) meaning "God is gracious." The Holy Spirit says He is pleased with the lessons I am giving.

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What the Lord has shown me in this dream is that He is pleased with my efforts to bring others to Him for worship, prophesying, ministering, and cleansing.

JOURNAL 9-16-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT SINGING COLORS
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In this dream someone talked to me about "singing colors." In the dream I didn't understand how to do that, so I didn't think I could.

I thought I wouldn't record this part of the dream I had last night, but then I read the statement below from my book Thoughts and Stories, Book 4 which I am preparing to put on the web. It helped me understand what it meant to "sing colors." The Holy Spirit said:

Many colors are many aspects of what I am like and who I am. They will see these many colors in your writings. That is why I now want you to read back over your old journals and put them in writing.

So, in light of that, I believe "singing colors" refers to singing (worship of God, activity or action that proceeds from the heart) about who Jesus is and what He is like. For me this "singing" includes proclaiming who Jesus is and what He is like in the books I have written with the Holy Spirit's guidance. The Holy Spirit tells us about Jesus. "When the Counselor comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who goes out from the Father, he will testify about me." (John 15:26)

Jesus said He is Light. "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12) As sunlight goes through a round crystal, which is hanging in our window, it breaks into many gorgeous colors like in a rainbow. So these colors come from the Light--Jesus. It reminds me of the beautiful double rainbow I got to see this week after a storm passed and the sun came out.

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What the Lord has shown me in this dream is that I am telling others about Jesus -- what He is like and who He is. This might be called symbolically "singing colors."

JOURNAL 9-17-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT A FOLD-UP BATHTUB
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In this dream I was helping as a volunteer where stuff was being sold. In my free time I bought the outside decorations of a fold-up bathtub. Later I tried to buy the inside part and learned I had to order it and it cost over $200. I felt that was too much money for me to pay. So I wanted to return the outer part and get my money back. I was having difficulty finding someone to return it to.

Fold-up bathtub: a bathtub is used for cleansing. Having it fold-up may mean it can go with you easily and be used in different places. Outside part of bathtub: may refer to repentance/cleansing from things I can see/observe. Inside part of bathtub: may refer to inner cleansing from things I don't know/see (iniquities). To order the inside part may mean I need to request this cleansing from God. The cost is $200 (the full measure of being separated out unto God). This is a dream about me. Perhaps this dream is showing me that I still have some need for inner cleansing that I haven't yet done/paid for/ordered. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I still need to seek Him for more cleansing inside of me.

JOURNAL 9-21-05 Wednesday

Quotes from book Joshua And The Children by Joseph F. Girzone that I want to have recorded:

"Where is heaven?"
"Heaven is where God is, and God is everywhere, so heaven is everywhere, all around you."
"Why can't I see heaven?"
"Heaven is in a world beyond, just on the other side of a thin veil of time. If you could close your eyes and walk through that veil, you could be there. It is that close."

Joshua smiled. "I do not attempt to be religious. That has no meaning. To be perfectly human, as God made us, should be our goal. If we appear to be religious or pious, we've missed the point and our piety becomes a caricature and unauthentic. Real holiness is the natural growth of the human personality to its full maturity as an individual, and in the process, becoming a beautiful person. That is all that God wants of us. And since each individual is unique, and has a different task to accomplish in God's plan, each one has to grow differently, so holiness for each individual is different and has nothing to do with predetermined religious patterns and practices that mimic real holiness."

JOURNAL 9-22-05 Thursday

Recently I went to the grocery store and bought some food items. One of the items was green tea. As I was being checked out by the grocery clerk, she asked me if she had ever told me the story about her friend who was helped by green tea. She said she asked people that who bought green tea because it was such a great story. I had not heard her story before, so she told me how this friend had been diagnosed with some disease that I think was not curable. He had shortly thereafter begun drinking green tea every day. She said that was the only difference in his diet and what he was doing. It turned out the disease dissipated, and was eventually gone. She and the friend both attributed the healing to the green tea, so she was giving testimony to people who checked out green tea at the store.

This morning the thought came to me about what it might be like if everyone who had a testimony about what God has done in their lives was as eager to share that story with people they met daily.

GOD'S "NOW" TIME

In his book called God's Timing for Your Life, Dutch Sheets says "Life is a series of changes--a process of going from the old to the new--from chronos [a general process of time] to kairos [an opportune, strategic, or now time]. Growth, change, revival--all are processes. Life is connected. Not understanding this, we tend to despise the chronos times of preparing, sowing, believing and persevering… We're not losing or wasting time, we're investing it. And if we do so faithfully, the shift will come."

JOURNAL 9-23-05 Friday

On page 7 in his book called The Best Is Yet Ahead, (by Chuck Pierce and Rebecca Sytsema) Chuck Pierce says in regard to God's timing: "When God knit you together in your mother's womb, He had a distinct purpose and timing for your life. He knew before the foundation of the world the time frame for your birth. At that point of conception, your life cycle began."

On page 27 the book says: "God has a cycle of life for each one of us. Our life cycle begins at conception and moves along in the following progression:
1.	Conception, the beginning of God's purpose by knitting us together in the womb.
2.	Birth, the bringing forth of the new life God has created.
3.	Age of accountability with an awareness of our need for God.
4.	Rebirth when we are quickened from darkness into light.
5.	Receiving hope by searching for and receiving the expectation of God for our future.
6.	Maturing of our faith into an overcoming weapon of God.
7.	Demonstration of God's power and wisdom that unlocks our destiny.
8.	Manifestation of God's Glory and inner fulfillment of our identity in Him.
9.	A completion of our role in the earth realm, facing death and entering into eternity."

JOURNAL 9-24-05 Saturday

Quotes from book called Heaven by Randy Alcorn:

(p. 24) 	"Hell will be inhabited by people who haven't received God's gift of redemption in Christ (Revelation 20:12-15). After Christ returns, there will be a resurrection of believers for eternal life in Heaven and a resurrection of unbelievers for eternal existence in Hell (John 5:28-29). The unsaved--everyone whose name is not written the Lamb's Book of Life--will be judged by God according to the works they have done, which have been recorded in Heaven's books (Revelation 20:12-15). Because those works include sin, people on their own, without Christ, cannot enter the presence of a holy and just God and will be consigned to a place of everlasting destruction (Matthew 13:40-42)."

(p. 27) 	"If we understood Hell even the slightest bit, none of us would ever say, "Go to Hell." It's far too easy to go to Hell. It requires no change of course, no navigational adjustments. We were born with our autopilot set toward Hell. It is nothing to take lightly--Hell is the single greatest tragedy in the universe.
	"God loves us enough to tell us the truth--there are two eternal destinations, not one, and we must choose the right path if we are to go to Heaven. All roads do not lead to Heaven. Only one does: Jesus Christ. He said, "No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6). All other roads lead to Hell. The high stakes involved in the choice between Heaven and Hell will cause us to appreciate Heaven in deeper ways, never taking it for granted, and always praising God for his grace that delivers us from what we deserve and grants us forever what we don't."

(p. 28)	"Earth is an in-between world touched by both Heaven and Hell. Earth leads directly into Heaven or directly into Hell, affording a choice between the two. The best of life on Earth is a glimpse of Heaven; the worst of life is a glimpse of Hell. For Christians, this present life is the closest they will come to Hell. For unbelievers, it is the closest they will come to Heaven.
	"The reality of the choice that lies before us in this life is both wonderful and awful. Given the reality of our two possible destinations, shouldn't we be willing to pay any price to avoid Hell and go to Heaven? And yet, the price has already been paid. 'You were bought at a price' (1 Corinthians 6:20). The price paid was exorbitant--the shed blood of God's son, Jesus Christ."
	"The price has been paid. But still, we must choose. Like any gift, forgiveness can be offered, but it isn't ours until we choose to receive it…Christ offers each of us the gift of forgiveness and eternal life--but just because the offer is made doesn't make it ours. To have it, we must choose to accept it."

JOURNAL 9-25-05 Sunday

I saw an impression of a path straight ahead of me. It went between two groups of trees on either side of the path about 1/2 way ahead.

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As I sought the Lord about what this meant, He guided me to see that the path pictured my spiritual journey. The trees on either side represented leaders who helped me along the pathway. The trees could show a boundary line. Their influence and teaching will always be with me for the rest of my spiritual journey. Then on Tuesday I felt led to list the leaders that have helped me on my pathway since February of 2003 on. Here is the list:

February, 2003 Conference at the KC convention center:
	Mike Bickle, Paul Cain, Graham Cook, Jill Austin, Todd Bentley, Mel and Margaret

Fall, 2003 Conference at CTC:
	Todd Bentley, Paul Keith Davis, Bobby Connor, Ian MacCormick, Jill Austin

Fall, 2004 Conference at former IHOP building:
	Paul Keith Davis, John Paul Jackson, Bobby Connor, Bob Jones, Shawn Bolz

Pastors and leaders at CTC:
Pastors Alan and Carol Koch, Pastors Gil and Debbie Hiltbrunner, Pastors Don and Cindy Hilker, Pastors Joe and Ronnin Gabhart, Walter and Kathleen Waller, Mike and Cana Steinmeyer, Shirley Smith, Toni Solahi, Jim and Joyce Gochenaur, Bill and Judy Weinhaupt, Kevin and Kathy Basconi, Steve Bartlett, John McGirvin, Lee and Doris Harms, George and Sandra Binger

Visiting speakers to CTC:
Jim Goll, Jack Frost, Patricia King, Uncle Leon, Shawn Bolz, Paul Keith Davis, Che Ahn, Lou Ingle, Bob Jones

Teachers through web, CDs, tapes, books 2004-5:
Don Piper, Randy Alcorn, Joseph Girzone, Todd Bentley, Paul Keith Davis, Bobby Connor, Jim Goll, Jack Frost, John Paul Jackson, dreams conference speaker tapes, Perry Stone, Rick Joyner, Francis Frangipane, Kim Clement, Hal Lindsay, Steve Schultz, Ted Dekker, Karen Kingsbury, Andrew Murray, and the writers of the Bible

JOURNAL 9-26-05 Monday

Quotes from book called Heaven by Randy Alcorn:

(p. 42)	"By definition, an intermediate state or location is temporary. Life in the Heaven we go to when we die, where we'll dwell prior to our bodily resurrection, is "better by far" than living here on Earth under the Curse, away from the direct presence of God (Philippians 1:23). Still, the intermediate Heaven is not our final destination. Though it will be a wonderful place, the intermediate Heaven is not the place we are made for--the place God promises to refashion for us to live in forever. God's children are destined for life as resurrected beings on a resurrected Earth. We must not lose sight of our true destination. If we do, we'll be confused and disoriented in our thinking about where, and in what form, we will spend eternity."

(p.156)	"The moment we set foot on the New Earth, we'll know it's exactly where we belong. But we don't have to wait until we die to learn about Heaven.
"As a bride lives daily in anticipation of the bridegroom's arrival, coming to take her to the house he's built for her, we should think daily about Jesus and about Heaven. Instead of feeling abandoned, the bride feels honored because she knows that she will live in the home the bridegroom has lovingly constructed with her in mind. She may experience some loneliness and difficulty, but she knows he hasn't forgotten her and what he's doing for her will assure her future happiness. Her present happiness depends on trusting him, believing that he will come to take her home, where they'll joyfully live together forever."

A DREAM ABOUT PRAYING FOR MORE INDICATIONS OF GOD'S PRESENCE
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I was trying to call somewhere and describe what my dad wanted. I was to tell what we got and also tell what we yet needed. I was writing the ideas out on many pieces of paper. I knew I (or we) had a sense, a feeling, or a knowing that something (like the Lord) was near. Now we wanted more indication of it's being there. There was something about a truck, maybe carrying me, in this situation

I seem to be trying to call (pray) and describe what my Heavenly Father wanted, what we already had and what we still needed. I had a definite sense that God was with me, but I wanted more visible signs/indications. I was trying to communicate through calling (praying/intercession) and through writing (journals/books). A truck represents work/ministry, so maybe the work I am doing (writing books) is carrying me during this situation/time. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am trying to communicate to Him that I have a sense and knowing of His presence, but am now asking for even more signs and indications of His presence. This will be shown in my work/ministry.

JOURNAL 9-27-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT A MAN WHO TRIED TO DECEIVE PEOPLE INTO GIVING HIM THEIR MONEY
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In this dream I realized a man (R) was trying to steal money from a woman (J) by befriending her and talking her into using her money in such a way that he could then steal it from her. I overheard them talking about transferring their money to some cause. I wanted to warn her about his intentions to take her money and was trying to figure out how to tell her by herself so she would take me seriously.

Then the dream seemed to continue with the same theme only this time it was a young man who was in danger of being deceived into giving his money to the man (R). I was talking to the young man, or rather listening to him talk to me, and trying to figure out how to bring up the subject. Then a woman came over to us who had overheard us talking about the money and she told us about that man (R) bilking a doctor out of (?) $50,000 and how he's really smooth in doing that. I smiled as I saw the Lord opening a way, through her sharing, for me to affirm that to this young man and alert him to the situation.

I think the first thing this dream showed me is that I was holding R in judgment due to his perceived using me and others to try to get something for himself. I needed to forgive him for that and give him to Jesus to deal with him…and I did that.

$50,000 = mature service
Money = favor or loss of favor, power, provision, wealth, natural talents and skills, spiritual riches
R = a man who used people for his own purposes
J = inherent meaning: youthful, spiritual connotation: guided by faith
Young man = one possibly immature and not discerning
Woman = angel, messenger from God
Doctor = healer, authority, Christ, preacher, medical doctor

Lord, did You give me this dream? 

Yes

What does it mean? 

You see some people trying to "use" young, immature people and deceive them into doing things that will benefit the wrong purposes of those people. You want to warn them about this so they won't be deceived. You look for opportunities to do this. Then I send My messenger to prepare the way for you to do this. Stealing the wealth of the young people means keeping them from favor, power and provision for their God-given work/destiny. 

Why did You give me this dream? What do you want me to learn from this?

I want you to learn to watch for this among leaders and people who have influence and power to sway others. I want you to look for and ask Me for their motives and prophetic understanding of what is going on. Then I want to use you to help inform those who might be deceived. You can do some of this in your books, and some will be done verbally to specific people who might be harmed otherwise.

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What the Lord has shown me here is to watch for leaders and people with influence who have the power to sway others--and seek the Lord for their motives and for prophetic understanding about them, then inform those who might be deceived if that is their intention.

This is a dream which I had last May, but it deals with what God will do "in His time" so I am copying it here.

A DREAM ABOUT A DISH THING IN FRONT OF ME
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I awoke about 3:00 a.m. with these words in my mind that I felt I needed to write down: “And a dish thing in front of me.” In the dream just before I awoke I was observing myself walking or standing. It seemed like there were words traveling in front of me. I noticed that some of the words formed in a special way that set them apart, almost like they were surrounded by a parenthesis and perhaps in a different font. They were separate from the other words in this way and caught my attention. It seemed that if I “saw” this “something” group I could do it. It seemed almost like it was a vision or dream set before me but it was made up of words, not pictures. No one else was in this dream but me. It seemed to be showing me something about myself.

“Dish thing” could represent a satellite dish symbolizing broadcasting what I “see” (in words) to many others. This may be a vision or dream the Lord wants me to hold in front of my eyes during my spiritual walk/journey. This could refer to where my books (made up of words) are “going out” to many others—perhaps a dream I am to pray for and declare for. Being in front of me may refer to now and the future.

It’s like Dr. Cho holding a picture of a bicycle (that he had asked the Lord for) in front of his eyes and praying for it and envisioning it (in the 4th dimension). Or it’s like Todd Bentley “seeing” in his divine imagination himself speaking to 5,000 people with healings, etc. This was the way he “pulled it down” from Heaven (where it already was) to earth.

When I finished writing this much the clock said 3:33 and it drew my attention like it was meaningful. This could confirm to me the dream was from the Trinity and was set, established, and going to take place. It also could refer to coming into conformity to Him and being obedient to Him.

It’s like I am to envision my writing/books “out there” on a satellite ready to be “tuned in to” by all whom the Lord gives a “dish” to tune in to them and their message. It’s like I am to see the words ahead of me in my pathway and see them as special words going out to others through my books, and I am to envision that, and declare that, and pray for that.

This is not being arrogant or prideful. It is co-operating with the Lord in bringing this dream into being “on earth as it is in Heaven.” He gives the dream. I work with Him to bring it to earth.

It’s like in Bruce Wilkinson’s book The Dream Giver. God has shown this technique/idea to these 3 men who explained the same or a similar idea in their own ways: Dr. Cho, Todd Bentley, Bruce Wilkinson.

Seeing the dream before me (in my imagination) is my way of contending rather than striving. It reminds me of something I saw on TV recently that stuck in my mind. The idea was: “If you see it, you can build it.”

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am traveling a pathway in life and words are in front of me along that way. Some are extra special words (like a vision), and I am to see them as being sent out and received by others almost like by satellite dish. I believe this refers to the books still in front of me to be written, published, and distributed to others.

They (the books) are to be free, and they WILL go forth to others around the world, wherever I take them, and broadcast to others the message I want to take to them. I will publish these books at the proper time, maybe even after you leave in the Rapture, and I will see to the distribution, and I will tune people in to them so they can receive My words through them. I will do it all. You just pray it down to earth, one word at a time, and write those words down in books for Me to use – “In His Time” as you heard in that song this morning. Every word that I have you write, I will use.

JOURNAL 9-28-05 Wednesday

The Lord taught me this morning about how He deposits seed in us, how He does planting in us:

1.	Through the spoken Word which is alive and active and sharper than any two edged sword
2.	Through prophetic words spoken/prayed over us
3.	Through a dream depositing the word/idea in us

Once these seeds are planted in us, then they grow and eventually produce fruit for harvest. That's one reason it is important to "Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it." (Proverbs 22:6)  That child will have seed deposited in him that grows and produces right fruit eventually.

That's why it is important to speak and pray out loud the Word over us and others--it deposits a seed of that Word in us so it can grow and produce fruit eventually. This reminds me of the parable Jesus told about the wheat and the weeds where good and bad seed were sown:

Jesus told them another parable: "The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared. 
The owner's servants came to him and said, "Sir, didn't you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?' 
"An enemy did this," he replied.
The servants asked him, "Do you want us to go and pull them up?"
"No," he answered, "because while you are pulling the weeds, you may root up the wheat with them. Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn." (Matthew 13:24-30)

We must continually be careful what seed we sow into our own lives and into the lives of others through the words we speak, because they produce an effect. That's one reason gossip is cautioned against in the Bible.

IN HIS TIME

PART ONE

October 2005

JOURNAL 10-3-05 Monday

Today at sundown Rosh Hashanah begins, and it continues until sundown on Tuesday. It is a day of "the blowing of the trumpets" before the Lord. Since Paul tells about the Rapture of the Church coming with the trumpet call of God, I've often wondered if the Rapture will come on Rosh Hashanah. I actually don't expect it to happen today because it seems like there are still things the Lord wants to do to bring many more people to Him. Maybe next year. We'll wait and see, but we'll keep looking for His return to take away His Bride. I'm greatly looking forward to it.

"For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air." (1 Thessalonians 4:16-17)

Today I am rejoicing in the Lord that all 8 of my books have now been prepared and placed on the world wide web. Beth finished putting the 8th one on the web yesterday. The Lord had told me to have my part (preparation of the documents) ready by October 1st, and they were ready by then. I am so pleased that this milestone is accomplished and now I am going on to what is next for me.

JOURNAL 10-4-05 Tuesday

Beth and I started taking a class at our church on Prophecy taught by Bill. That class is mentioned in today's writing. After Quiet Time and soaking in the presence of the Lord for awhile, the Holy Spirit said:

I am here. I am here. I see you, and I am with you. I love you with an everlasting love. That means it will never stop and never end. It is forever. Yes, I know that is pretty mind boggling to you right now, but it is true. 

And I want to speak to you now and have you write for Me. Will you be My writer? Then write what I speak to you now.

I am with you forever and ever. That means I see you, I watch over you, I protect you, I carefully consider what I will allow to come into your life and choose what is best for you as you follow Me daily. I want what is best for you. You are Mine and I am shaping and forming you to be like Me. I want you to be like Me. I want you to join with all the others who belong to Me and have come to be like Me up here in Heaven. You will come here someday and meet all of them.

If you feel more at home now in the Prophecy class, think how very much more you will feel at home when you come up here and be with those here who are like Me. It will be beautiful, wonderful, marvelous, and all those words that express great and glorious things to you on earth.

Someday you will be up here. Someday you will REALLY see Me as I am, and you will know Me and you will love Me even more then.

I have plans for your future and those plans include more books to write. You heard My word to you last night from Bill that he saw books behind you and Beth, at least 12 books. That was to show you that I want you to continue writing books for Me. What you have already done is wonderful preparation for you (and for Beth) for doing the books that are yet to come. You need her and she needs you. This is a joint project of both of you.

I will take these books to people around the world as you were imagining this morning in Quiet Time…perhaps to a missionary in Africa who needs encouraging…perhaps to someone in China in the underground church who needs to hear words from Me, and will hear them from Me through you --just as you heard words from Me through Bill last night.

He speaks of "motor mouth" when I start giving him words to speak forth to others. You have anointed "motor fingers" and thoughts to type what I give you for you and for others--in the same way.  It comes from being in My presence and letting the wind or river of My Presence flow through you.

I have great plans for these books, and they will be carried out. They are not dependent on you once the books are on the web. They are dependent on Me. And I am dependable.

Beth will find an even better place for your web books to be placed--and under the Dove Ministry.net domain name. That is good, and I have been saving that for you. It will soon be time to switch to that. But I will show her the way. This is being done as part of her following Me. Trust her and trust Me to do it the best and right way.

JOURNAL 10-5-05 Wednesday

My heart is overflowing with the feeling of the love of the Lord this morning, especially in regard to the prophecy class and the teacher, Bill. I thank You, Lord, for Bill and how he reflects Your glory and nature in his life as he leads us. Thank You, Lord, for leading him and giving him all the marvelous experiences of Your Presence. Thank you for the way he faithfully shares that with us. Thank You that You have taught him to feel the "wind" of Your work and that You have taught him to "see" prophetic pictures for those of us in the class--and that he shares those with us to encourage us. Thank You that he is teaching us to be more sensitive to You and what You are like as You manifest Yourself to us personally. 

Thank You, Lord, for the intense sense of Your Presence with me and in me this morning, for giving me a good night's rest, and for keeping us with peace and quiet and protection throughout the night. I feel a sense of Your love upon me today and I am so grateful for that, Lord. I love you, and want to tell You that today. 

JOURNAL 10-6-05 Thursday

After reading about the Tree of Life in the book Heaven by Randy Alcorn I asked the Lord to let me eat from that tree and He said:

You have already eaten from the Tree of Life (I am that tree) and already have eternal life. That does not mean eternal life in your present body because your present body is of this present earth which is under the Curse and it is dying/decaying. This present body cannot eat from the Tree of Life as I don't want you to remain in it. I want you to have a new resurrected/transformed body. And you will have it. It won't be long until I come and change you to be like Me. Then you will have a body that can eat from the Tree of Life. Until then, keep seeking Me to heal your current body and keep it functioning well. You just keep going, and keep trusting, and keep asking. I will keep healing you bit by bit and keep you functioning ok until the Rapture.

JOURNAL 10-7-05 Friday

Quotes from the book Island of Saints: a story of the one principle that frees the human spirit by Andy Andrews:

(pp 117-120)
(Danny) "Daddy, why does Helen act mean?"
(Daddy) "Do you think Helen is mean?"
"No, Daddy, I don't think Helen is mean…I was saying, 'Why does she act mean?'"
"Well…you know Helen has had some tough things happen in her life…and because of those tough things, Helen has gotten mad."
"Mad at what?"
"Helen is mad at everything right now. She is a good person. But sometimes when a person is angry, that person can act mean. Helen has let her anger consume her. Right now it has become her. And anger is about the only way Helen expresses herself."
"Mama says that if Helen would forgive some people, then she would not be so sad."
"Forgiveness can occur only because we have been given the ability to make choices. We have the choice to forgive or not to forgive…and nobody can make us do either one. We begin to forgive by choosing to forgive…by deciding, not by feeling. Our feelings don't lead us to forgive. Most times, our feelings lead us the other way. That's why a person has to decide to forgive first. Our feelings always follow along behind our decisions."
"Forgive and forget, you mean?"
"Forgive and forget is not reality. It's not really possible anyway, which is a good thing, because it is not necessary. Forgiveness does not erase history or excuse what happened. What has happened…has happened, and nothing can erase the memory of it or its consequences. Forgiveness means relinquishment, it is that simple. It means giving something up. To relinquish something means to give up whatever power it holds over us. If you forgive somebody for something he did to you, that means you choose to never again allow that event to determine how you feel or how you act or even how you treat that person. You may remember the wrong, but by choosing to forgive, you have disarmed it. Then it can no longer determine what you think, what you say, or what you do.

(pp 128-130)
(Danny) "I'm sorry that you are sad and it makes you act mean sometimes."
	(Helen) "I'm sorry...was I mean to you? I didn't mean to be…"
	"It's okay. You aren't mean to me. And anyway, you only act mean sometimes. You aren't mean. I know because I talked to Daddy about it…I know why you're sad."
	"Why, Danny?"
	"Because your husband died in the war. That's the main reason."
	"That's right."
	"I know why you're sad, but is that why you're mad?"
	"I think that does make me mad."
	"But who are you mad at? If you are mad at a soldier, I think you have to forgive him. You want to know why?"
	"Yes."
	"I think you have to forgive him for you."
	"Why's that?"
	"Because whenever you get hurt by somebody, you can either think about 'em all day long and let 'em keep hurting you inside...or give them to God."
	"Give them to God?"
	"Unh-huh. If you forgive them it doesn't mean they get away with what they did…it just means that you don't have to think about it all the time. You can't do anything anyway, except be mad. See? You just give 'em to God. Then you can be happy."
	(Helen thought) So what does God do with them when He gets them? What do I care? They don't belong to me anymore.

JOURNAL 10-8-05 Saturday

Last night (October 7, 2005) Beth arranged for a different web site with the domain name: www.doveministry.net I will need to pay $80.00 per year for this ($4.95 per month and $20.00 for the domain name). She is in the process of putting all my books on that site now. For awhile we will keep the geocities site since so many people have that web address for me. But at Christmas I will send my newsletter along with my Christmas cards, and tell people of the new site. I am so glad to have the ministry name and domain name now set up! To me it is a significant step toward what the Lord is doing with my books.

Since it was on October 7 yesterday, the thought came to me that I had had a dream sometime back with October and 7 in it, so I looked this morning to find it. It was a dream last May about going to the bus station in Ft. Wayne and buying a ticket to "home". I said at that time there was something in the dream about the 7th month and October. I didn't know what that meant. Now my thought is that the 7th month for me may be like God using the 7th day of creation as a Sabbath rest, and October being my 7th month of Sabbath rest. 

This month I can see the 8 books God has led me to write are on the web for others to read and for the Lord to guide other people to as He wants. And this month I see the name of my ministry as a domain name and email name for me to use. This is good! And this month I am taking the Prophecy class and having the healing conference and continuing to write another book (started in August, 2005) called In His Time. Thank You, Lord, for this month of Sabbath rest in You.

A DREAM ABOUT EARNING GRADUATE DEGREES
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Paul had just turned in his Doctoral dissertation and was excited at doing that. I saw him place a thick book-like object down on a table and it was his dissertation. Others who were in the dream were working on their Masters degrees. B was telling us he had 1 more year yet to finish his degree.

What does earning a degree mean? 

Finishing a course of study that you set out to accomplish, and passing the exams, and doing the research/study work required. Going to a school to do this.

What does a doctoral study mean?

It's the highest course of study for a degree available here on earth. (Even though there are "post-doctoral" studies, or studies after doctoral degrees)

And who finished that by showing his dissertation?

Paul.

So Paul represents finishing the highest course of study on earth and showing his "dissertation" writing as the proof. There are people like this on earth. Paul is one of them. So is Les.  What does a Master's degree represent? 

Learning to be a "Master" or an expert on a special subject which is studied "in depth."

Ok, so those people are in the process of "becoming" an expert on some particular subject. There are many of these people on earth right now. You are among those people in this dream. Your area is listening to Me and writing what I tell you and putting it into books for others to read. And what does "one more year to go" mean?

That there is still studying and learning and testing and writing to go through to be finished earning a degree.

And what does B represent to you?

He represents those who think they are Christians, and try to act like they are, but may not really be down inside. They may not have Christ inside of them, and may not be filled with the Holy Spirit. They study academically and learn, but possibly don't have that personal intimate relationship with the Lord.

So what did your dream say about that type of person?

That they still have 1 year to go in their learning and achieving process. The 1 year may represent "a period of time" needed to establish a personal intimate relationship with Christ. Those might be the ones left on earth after the Rapture and will need to learn how to establish this relationship. And that's why my writings can be helpful to those left who need to yet develop a personal relationship with Christ and how to listen to Him.

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What the Lord has shown me in this dream is about people living on earth and the levels of learning they have accomplished--some Doctoral level, some Master's level, and some who still need to learn to have a personal relationship with Christ. Those might be the ones left on earth at the Rapture and so will still need to learn how to have that relationship.

JOURNAL 10-10-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT WATCHING VIDEO SCENES TWO TIMES
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In this dream I would play back scenes or pictures that seemed to be taken on something like a video camera. When I played these scenes it would play two times: the first time the scene was as it really was, and the second time the scene was slightly altered. So the main idea seemed to be careful to watch the scene so you could see it the first time it was played, so you could see it the way it really was. It almost seems that the first scene was in black and white, while the second scene was in color.

The first thought that comes to me about watching these scenes twice is that the first scene (possibly in black and white) could refer to scenes on this earth in this life, and the second playing of the same scene but slightly altered (possibly in color) is like living in Heaven or in the New Heaven and New Earth. I was the only participant that I can remember in this dream, so perhaps it is like a prophetic picture to me about how the "real life" or earthly life is in black and white and the Heavenly life, or "altered life" is in color. Being in black and white may symbolize being in a place that is under the curse, and being in color may symbolize being in a place that is filled with the light of Christ and God the Father.

That's what it is. You have the right idea here. Yes, it is important to focus on the "real life" you are living now, but know that a second life, being altered, is yet to come and is filled with color, with Me.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture of life on earth under the curse and an altered life in Heaven with Christ.

JOURNAL 10-11-05 Tuesday

Quote from the book Heaven by Randy Alcorn;

(pp. 307-313)
	"On the New Earth, some of our greatest discoveries may relate to the lives we're living right now. Columnist and commentator Paul Harvey made a career of telling 'the rest of the story.' That's exactly what we'll discover in Heaven again and again--the rest of the story. We'll be stunned to learn how God orchestrated the events of our lives to influence people we may have forgotten all about.
	"We won't ever know everything, and even what we will know, we won't know all at once. We'll be learners, forever. Few things excite me more than that.
	"We will find in Heaven a continual progression of stimulating discovery and fresh learning as we keep grasping more of God.
	"We can anticipate an eternity of growing in Christlikeness as we behold God's face and are continuously 'transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory' (2 Cor. 3:18). We can begin this joyful process here and now, and there's every indication it will continue forever.
	"When we enter Heaven, we'll presumably begin with the knowledge we had at the time of our death. God may enhance our knowledge and will correct countless wrong perceptions. I imagine he'll reveal many new things to us, then set us on a course of continual learning, paralleling Adam and Eve's.
	"We will also study… it's not only truth we want, it's also the pleasure of learning the truth. God reveals himself to us in the process of our learning, often in bite-sized chunks, fit for our finite minds.
	"Intellectual curiosity isn't part of the Curse--it is God's blessing on his image-bearers. He made us with fertile, curious minds so that we might seek truth and find him, our greatest source of pleasure. In Heaven our intellectual curiosity will surely surface--and be satisfied--only to surface and be satisfied again and again.
	"I believe that on the New Earth, we'll also read books, new and old, written by people. Because we'll have strong intellects, great curiosity, and unlimited time, it's likely that books will have a greater role in our lives in Heaven than they do now. The libraries of the New Earth, I imagine, will be fantastic.

So when you come to Heaven, what you have learned on earth that's good will be kept in you. What you learned on earth that's wrong thinking, will be cleansed from you. Then you will know only the truth and the truth will set you free. You will keep learning from Me and from others. There will even be books (like yours!) in heaven that you can read and study and find out what other people's experiences were like compared to yours. There will be many places to see and discover and explore - places you couldn't while in this earth life now. You will like it! You already love to read and learn and explore (when you feel safe) and you will get to do that to your heart's content in Heaven. 

And yes, I have prepared a place for you like I said…a place you will love and will suit you just right. Place is very important to people, and I know that. I made you that way. Place and people and what you do with your time… they are all very important to you now, and they will be important to you then too. Relationships--these will be ultra important, and you will keep increasing and improving your relationships with others. That will be another part of your delight in Heaven. Relationships with others and relationship with Me.

JOURNAL 10-12-05 Wednesday

I just finished reading the book The Last Jihad by Joel Rosenberg. In it Iraq tried to send a nuclear device to either Israel or the U. S. As I sat down for a nap the Holy Spirit said: 

There will be nuclear attacks, but you will not be here to see them. Pray for My people who will be here. 

And I prayed.

With my eyes shut I saw a dark wire or line with about 1-1 1/2" of white on the tip. I asked: "What is it, Lord?" He indicated it pictured a fuse that was lit.

The Holy Spirit said: 

The fuse is lit to begin the tribulation. It will not stop now. I'll not say how long until it explodes on the world scene--but it won't be long now.

JOURNAL 10-13-05 Thursday

A DREAM SHOWING MANY SCENES INSIDE A HOUSE
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I was in a house and other people were there too. I saw various things in the air, one at a time. 
•	I saw many gnats, a whole swarm, flying in a room. 
•	I saw a mouse running around. 
•	I saw a huge fly crawling across a wall. 
•	I saw water leaking in the family room on the ceiling and various parts of the room. 
•	I saw, near a fireplace, a spray of water coming down from the ceiling area and landing in front of the fireplace, running down onto the floor and making a stream of water there. 
•	I was trying to turn down music volume, but the volume dial was not there, so I couldn't. 
•	I was trying to get a pitcher of ice water to serve drinks to two guests who arrived: BB, and some other man I didn't recognize (I only saw his back). I didn't know they were coming so I wasn't prepared. I thought how I might have prepared ahead for them (gotten out glasses and ice water in a pitcher) if I had known. 
•	I wondered when I saw some of the flying things if I was seeing prophetically.

House could stand for me, my mind, my heart, my family, or my church. Seeing gnats flying in the air may refer to irritations, elusive things, or nuisances. The large fly refers to something negative, unclean, or corrupt. The mouse may refer to something negative, unclean, a devourer, a curse or plague, larger demons that feed off things in your life. 

Water represents Spirit, Word, or Holy Spirit. It represents a spiritual aspect of life. Seeing it leak into the family room on the ceiling and various parts of the room, may represent the Spirit coming into the family's minds and lives. This could be the church family or my own family, or me. The fireplace represents emotional warmth, heart warmth, the heart. So this second picture of the water (the Spirit or Word) spraying down from the ceiling (from above) and landing in front of the fireplace (the heart), seems to represent the Spirit coming upon hearts and flooding them, making a stream of the Spirit flowing there.

In the picture about music, the worship volume was very loud and I could not find anything to turn the volume of that down. This may refer to the great "volume" of worship coming out of the Spirit's work in us.

In this next picture I was trying to prepare a pitcher of ice water for unexpected guests. That may refer to my trying to get prepared to serve (ice and water) spiritual concepts (that are a blend of those that are understood and those that need contemplating) in a pitcher (that which I view which will quench a thirst or desire). The idea in the dream seems to be that I wasn't yet prepared, but trying to prepare for these guests. The two guests pictured may represent people I know and people I don't know. This pitcher of ice water makes me think it might refer to the books I am preparing for people I know and people I don't know and presenting spiritual concepts that are understood and some that need contemplating.

These all took place in the house. What does this house stand for, Lord?

All of these: you, your family, your church, and the world. It is taking place all over the world. There are irritations, devourers, negative, unclean, corrupt, etc. things going on all over the world, and in your church, and in your family, and even sometimes in you (but that is mostly cleaned out now). BUT, the rest of the dream shows My Spirit being poured out on hearts, My Word/Spirit leaking into rooms (hearts) where families and churches live, and you preparing ice water to quench the thirst of others and give them spiritual concepts to be understood and contemplated in the midst of this house - to those known and those unknown. Yes, your preparation is your books which you offer to others. And, yes, this is a prophetic picture you have seen.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of corruption and negative things all around the world, but also of His Spirit being poured out and flooding the world too. My books are what I am preparing to give to help quench the thirst of people

JOURNAL 10-16-05

WHAT TOOK PLACE DURING CHURCH TODAY

While at church today I could sense a fear in me of going to the Healing Conference this coming week - a fear of going forward for healing and being seen in front of many people. The Holy Spirit began speaking to me about that:

Don't be afraid of being embarrassed or humiliated. Go in expectation and joy. Go in My peace. Anytime you are afraid, close your eyes, focus on Me, and remember My great love for you. Let My great love overshadow you, and sink into you, and fill you, and cast out all fear.

SS came over to me and asked if she could pray for me. Then she prayed over and over for God's peace and His rest to be on me.

Later I said to Him: I want to pray what You want, Lord. And He said:

This is what I want you to do: pray and intercede - and write it all down to share with others. I will come--in power, in provision, in filling need--as you see My presence. I am pouring things into you. 

Later during a prayer time I went forward to receive prayer. Kevin spoke a bit over me, and I turned to return to my seat. Brian motioned for me to come back forward to the prayer area. He said he sensed a hunger in me and he wanted me prayed for again. He told Kathy, and she came to me and kissed me on the forehead and prayed for me. She put her hands over my ears so I couldn't hear what she prayed, and she prayed very softly. Then I returned to my seat. Brian came over and said that kiss was a kiss from Heaven - that he saw it.

Later the Spirit told me that the "kiss from Heaven" that I received at church today deposited in me a new name/characteristic. Now I will watch it unfold before me…watch it be manifested in me.

Later Kathy told me she doesn't often place a kiss on a person she is praying for, but the Lord told her to do that to me that time.

JOURNAL 10-17-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT BEING CALLED A "PAVER"
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In this dream I could see some box or triangular shape that was something compacted or concentrated with different gifts/roles in it. I could click on this box to open up details on it. I was told it was the role/gift of a "paver." 

When I asked what that meant, I was told a "paver" was one who "paves" the way for others to follow. The Spirit said I was a paver and that I should look up the Scripture about preparing a highway. He said that when He names me "paver" then that is what I am and what I become, what I manifest.

Isaiah 40:3
A voice of one calling: "In the desert prepare the way for the LORD ; make straight in the wilderness a highway for our God." 

Isaiah 62:10
Pass through, pass through the gates! Prepare the way for the people. Build up, build up the highway! Remove the stones. Raise a banner for the nations.

These are Scriptures which the Lord has given me previously many times in the past. I felt He applied them to me at those times too…that I am to be one who prepares a highway for people to travel on. Now I had this same idea coming in a dream. What does this mean, Lord? What are You telling me in this dream and through these Scriptures?

I am telling you that you are one who paves the way for others. You go first and make the way straight and removed the stones and build up the roadway, create the roadway, and then others can walk on it also. Your books are paving the way for people to read them and see the way to walk to get close to Me, and then they can do what you did, and come close to Me. I WANT them to come close to Me. I want MANY to come close to Me, and I want to use your books to pave the way for them to come to Me. I will use your books for that in ways you will not know until later - in Heaven. I know how you admire other people's books (like Jim Goll and Randy Alcorn) and others will admire your books too for the help they give them. 

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What the Lord has shown me is that He gave me a new name (which was given in the kiss from Heaven yesterday) and then He showed me what the name was in today's dream.

JOURNAL 10-22-05 Saturday

Today is the fourth day of the 4-day Healing School led by Kevin Basconi. Last night David  taught us about the "word of knowledge."  He gave us exciting and marvelous stories about how God would give him information about someone that God was working in or ready to heal, etc. and David would pray for them and see them healed. Then they prayed for all of us in the school to be imparted that gift of "knowledge" and had us spend time listening quietly to see if any of us got impressions of knowledge. Many people did. Kevin had them come up one at a time and tell the knowledge they had, then asked if anyone there had that infirmity. Almost every time, and possibly even every time, someone there went forward for prayer for that infirmity. The person with the word of knowledge prayed for the one needing healing. Soon there were small groups praying all around the front.

There was one man who saw the sign outside the church saying "Healing service 7 p.m." and came due to that sign. I learned later his name was Rick and he had Lymes Disease. He received prayer for migraine headaches that night and came back on Sunday and went forward for more prayer. Praise God for that!

Another man named Walt was healed when a word of knowledge was given about a right eye (I was wishing it was the left eye so it would be for me!) with problems. He later told us his right eye was damaged during the birth process when forceps, which were used to help the delivery, hit his eye and damaged it. He had had a number of surgeries (maybe 2-3) to help fix it, but it still wasn't right. God healed it Friday night through that word of knowledge and following prayer. Praise the Lord!

I was afraid to be one who went forward and called out a word of knowledge, mainly because I didn't want to try to pray for them, afraid I didn't know how to do that (just like on the healing room prayer teams). I really need to be freed from fear. Today we will be taught about generational curses, and I expect that will be one I will need to have broken off of me.

I went forward for prayer for adult onset diabetes and Fred prayed for me. I saw Joyce praying for TMJ problems, so I asked her to pray for mine. Later when Kevin called for any others who wanted prayer not mentioned in the words of knowledge, I asked for prayer from him for my eyes to be healed, especially of the macular hole problem. I believe the Lord keeps telling me He will heal my eyes sometime here in Lee's Summit. 

My big fight is against fear and unbelief regarding my own healing, even though I had experienced the Lord's healing quite a number of times. I want to list the healings I remember here for my own remembrance: 
•	From intestinal distress during chemotherapy. (I had called out to the Lord when it got really bad. He has said that if I asked Him, He would heal me. I asked Him, and He did!)
•	From breast cancer which I discovered a year or two after having a mastectomy (when the surgeon mentioned to me how they could hardly find a cell of cancer). I had had the "elders" of my church anoint me with oil and pray for healing just before going in for the surgery. When the surgeon later said that to me (1-2 years later) I began to realize that I had been healed during the prayer time.
•	From numerous times when I felt a cold coming on me and prayed to be healed.
•	From my left knee about a week ago when I was limping due to the pain in that knee, and prayed and declared it healed, and spoke to it to be healed, and it stopped hurting.
•	And likely a number of other times I don't remember just now

But I realized during the healing school that there was a reason the enemy could come in and bring infirmity and sickness. There was an entry point (some reason) like fear, or trauma, or distress or anxiety, as well as generational curses. I see possibly these generational curses coming to me: fear, infirmity, poverty spirit, hopelessness. I also think infirmity and sickness was able to come through the distress of the breakdown of my marriage and the separation and divorce difficulty. 

Now I want you to write from Me. I want you to know I am with you. I honored your wish last night to NOT give you a word of knowledge that you would then be obligated to go forward and tell others and pray for them. I know you are a very private person and don't want to do that. It's ok with Me that you weren't ready for that. But you DID receive the impartation and you WILL see it functioning in you from now on, even more than before. You can use the gift privately and that is ok with Me. I know your heart wants to minister to others for Me, and you will. I honor your willingness to stick with the healing school all these long and tiring days so you can learn what I sent you there to learn…and have imparted to you what I wanted to impart to you. You and Beth have both had much imparted to you, and you will be using that from now on. 

You ARE a part of the revival that is coming and has already begun, it even now is happening. I know that is a dream I have put in your heart, and in Beth's heart, and you both are already part of it. I have connected you both into the very midst of it here at CTC. You will continue in this. Trust Me. I am pleased.

JOURNAL 10-23-05 Sunday

I want to talk to you about the healing school you just finished attending. It was for you, for your healing (seeds planted and growing) and for your impartation of many good ministry gifts, that I wanted you to go there. It was worth all the energy you expended to go, and worth doing without full meals, but had only snacks, many times. It was worth everything you put into it and even more. I gave you good gifts there. I taught you a lot, especially about the end times ministry growing and expanding in the world right now. You have envisioned it as you read Tommy Hicks vision I gave him, and you have wanted to be part of that end time revival army. Well, you are now a part of it. You and Beth joined that army yesterday when you contended for the revival throughout the world.

Yes, some spirit came off of Beth and she was freed from its effects on her. You accept her and love her just like she is, and that is very important to Me because I do too. I love her with an everlasting love, and I am growing her in My grace more each day. She (and you) will break free of more and more shackles the enemy has had on you and over you. The freedom is coming; it is on its way. You asked Me for freedom from bondage, and I gave it to you--and I will keep growing that freedom in you. It's a process, an ongoing ministry I have to you and Beth. You have both been freed from MUCH, and will be freed more. Trust Me for this. It's coming.

You both were great encouragement to D and R. There are those who aren't ready for the great "electric" experiences that some other people have… and you can minister to them by sharing that experience of not having some of the manifestations you see others having. I wanted them to be pleased and not left disappointed with the healing school, and you helped Me to say that to them… that it was ok to not have some of the experiences others seemed to be having because I was working in them what I have gifted them in, and that I have increased their gifting through this school. 

JOURNAL 10-24-05 Monday

I want to mention here about the things for which I had prayer for healing at the Healing School last week and tell what I experienced due to that, along with all the teaching, prayers for the whole group, breaking things from us, etc.

I went forward for prayer for my ears for healing from the damage caused by ear infections as a child which left my right ear especially damaged and with a partial hearing loss. Also gradual hearing loss seems to be a generational curse through the Whitacre side of my family since my dad had hearing loss as he grew older…and my sister uses a hearing aid. 

Kevin Basconi, and Kathy, prayed two times for my ears to be healed and cast out the deaf and dumb spirit that causes that hearing loss. Walt also prayed for them, and George prayed for them. Altogether I think my ears were prayed for four times. I tested my hearing ability at the conference to see how well I could hear in the most difficult circumstances (with lots of people talking around me and with music playing at the same time). I kept hearing a little better and a little better. I purposely quit turning my left ear (which I used to do a lot) toward the person speaking to me to see if I could still hear them without doing that. I could hear better than I used to. I also tested it through how loudly I needed to turn the volume on the TV and don't think I needed it as loud.

Kevin wanted me to get up in front of the church and give my testimony Sunday morning, so I did, and it was without fear! (PTL!) I told about my hearing difficulty through childhood infection and damage to my ear and how I could hear better as I was prayed for. It was/is a progressive healing and Pastor Alan mentioned that as a way of healing too.

I believe I did that without fear attacking me because at the Healing School I also broke the curse of fear handed down to me from a generational curse from my ancestors. The Lord had been showing me that a curse of fear was placed in me and on me even in the womb through my mother, and through my father as he was harsh in discipline and controlled his children through fear. I also believe fear came to me through my older sister who likely took care of me often as a child and I learned her fear of dad. So when we had a session on generational curses, I broke that curse of fear in the name of Jesus. I asked God to free me from bondage and to set (the captive) me free…and He did! (PTL!)

I also had prayer for my lower back pain from arthritis which was diagnosed from x-rays by a doctor at IU Medical Center around 1967. I was told at that time it would get gradually worse over time, and it did. Doris Harms prayed for my back and broke off those words spoken over me and repeated by me over the years. I have definitely felt less pain in that area since then. I want more healing prayer for that area and need to continue praying for it myself, but it is definitely better. (PTL!)

I had Joyce pray for my TMJ area in regard to those joints slipping out of proper alignment occasionally and snapping and moving around. She prayed, and it is better too. (PTL!) 

I also asked Fred to pray about diabetes one night when he got a word of knowledge about diabetes and pancreas trouble. He prayed for me about that, and I definitely have better circulation in the toes of my feet and less evidence of nerve damage there. So far there is still a slight feeling of numbness in my toes, especially in my big toe, but it is much better. I expect the other diabetes symptoms to be better too: itchy skin, frequent thirst, frequent urination, blurry eyes, and any other damaging things diabetes has been doing in my body that I don't even know about.

I asked Kevin to pray for my eyes to be healed and he prayed, and Kathy prayed. I trust there is now sown a seed of healing for them, and I expect that seed of healing to grow and progress until it is complete.

One thing we were taught was that miraculous things usually happen quickly/instantly and healings can come often as a progression where the healed area/situation gets healed gradually over a period of time. For that reason we often need to keep praying for that healing and applying the Word of God regarding healing over it. For example: "by His stripes we are healed." (Isaiah 53:5) And "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits; he forgives all my sin and heals all my diseases." (Psalm 103:2)

Another area which brought great healing to me was the teaching about generational curses we get handed to us through our ancestors. I had a long list of generational curses which I felt needed broken from my line of ancestors: criticism, fear, rejection, infirmity, poverty/financial lack/fear of poverty, hopelessness, insecurity, heart problems, fibromyalgia, cancer, back and hip pain, withdrawal from people, depression, breakdown of family and marriage, death wish, shame, and doubt and unbelief. 

I plan to listen to the CD's of that teaching session and take more time to pray through the things David taught us there. I believe breaking myself off from those things given me through my ancestors will free me for more healing that will stay. It will take away the "landing area" for Satan to place things on me to keep me from growing in my relationship with the Lord, with others, and in ministry. David may be able to come back to our church sometime in 2006 along with Patricia King and present the materials they plan to write and record during December to take to others in ministry. If that works out, Beth and I really want to attend that and/or buy the CD's of that. David also teaches about the wounds we received in early childhood which harm us even as adults.

David also told us we could break the generational curses off adopted children from their parents, grandparents, and adoptive parents. I want to go through that for Kim.

I want to mention that I had a terrific spiritual battle regarding even going to the sessions of the Healing School. I was so afraid of what might happen and that I might be embarrassed and humiliated by that. I had to go in spite of the fears and even if I didn't want to go. I gave myself permission to skip part of the time if I wanted/needed to do that. However, after getting past the first 1-2 teaching sessions I did not want to miss any teaching even if I had to face it in fear. By Sunday morning the fear was gone and I even went up and gave a testimony without fear attacking me. It was gone! Praise the Lord!

The Holy Spirit said to me one day at the school that in regard to my healing from cancer in 1990 from the prayer of the elders - that He allowed me to go through surgery, chemo, and the follow up checkups and tests to teach me a lot through the suffering of going through all of that. He didn't give me the disease, and He did give me healing, but I didn't realize I had been healed. Now I wish I had believed more that the prayer brought healing and wish I had asked for another mammogram after the prayer time, but I don't recall even thinking about that. I just felt led to follow the instruction of James 5:14-15 which said to have the elders anoint you with oil and lay hands on you and pray for healing - and I wanted to be obedient to that instruction. I did not realize until years later that I was likely healed at that point in time, but the verification of that healing came years later when the surgeon said they could hardly find any cells of cancer (at the most 1-2 cells) to put on a slide for their tissue files.

FURTHER NOTES FROM HEALING SCHOOL 101 WITH KEVIN BASCONI

Regarding faith:
What's important is to use the measure of faith I give you (like different talents). Whatever measure I give you, use it to do what I lead you to do. I'll give you enough for whatever I ask you to do. I've given you the faith for writing. You have to be faithful with the faith God's given you.

Kevin Basconi said 2005 is the year for declaring His works as in Psalm 105:1-2. I surely identified with that since 2005 is the year God has led me to tell about His Marvelous Deeds through the books He has had me write and guided Beth to publish on the internet at www.doveministry.net. 

Kevin said to have the supernatural experiences of the third heaven, etc. read accounts of people who are having that. Ask God to do that to you.

Some other ideas: 
•	Sin is a predator
•	We don't have to be sick to die
•	"The tongue is a pen of a ready writer" = what the Father says, I'll speak (for me, write)
•	Curse has to find a landing place
•	Sometimes a curse is deflected and not broken
•	We speak healing words out of the healing inside us
•	Through repentance and renunciation we are freed from curses
•	Renounce the pleasures those sins gave
•	I can break the generational curse off my children. For an adopted child break off the orphan spirit and spirit of shame and spirit of abandonment. Release the Father's love into her/him.
•	Condemn the word said (if wrong word), not the person

After the meeting and breaking off generational curses:

Now you are free, free to be the person I designed you to be. I love you so much, My child. I have desired this day and time so much for you! It is finally here! You are before My throne now…and you are so much cleaner and purer before Me - and FREE! You have My permission (authority) to do what I said you could do and be what I said you could be.

Luke 5:10 "Do not be afraid, for I will make you fishers of men." 

This is for you. You are going to be an evangelist, but in My way - the way I have for you. You are going to be a healer, but in My way and My time. It will come! (Acts 2) I trained them, then I filled them with power. I brought you here to train you and I will endue you with power.

During Quiet time go through this sequence:
1.	Outer court: repentance
2.	Inner court: intercession
3.	Holy of Holies: rest in His Presence

JOURNAL 10-25-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT A DRIVEWAY
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In this dream I saw the front driveway of what seemed to be my house. It was attached to (like a duplex is attached) a neighbor's house. It seems the neighbor changed his driveway arrangement and in the process changed my driveway also. I had a 2 car garage and had had a 2 car driveway, but the neighbor changed it so the car on the right side of my garage could back straight out, but the car on the left side of my garage could only back out the length of the car, then had to turn and back out on the right side driveway. It puzzled me why the neighbor would do that. I saw 2 cars outside the garage on my double driveway, but the one on the left side was stuck without a way to back out the rest of the way until the car on the right moved out of the way.

If this neighbor living next to me represents my ex-husband (which is my first thought about it), then he changed things so that it took away some of my ability to maneuver my car (life, person, ministry). I was restricted by not having enough space to move my cars with freedom. The car on the left side (spiritual) was hindered, even though the car on the right (natural) was free to move.

JOURNAL 10-26-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT SCOOPING UP CIRCLES OF GRASS AND WEEDS
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In this dream I saw a machine, rather like some of the machines I see working in this neighborhood Beth and I live in, that had something like a scoop on the front. With that scoop it picked up circles of 2 different types. Each circle was perhaps 18" in diameter. One type of circle had long weedy looking plants growing in it. The other type of circle had short something, maybe grass, growing in it. The scoop would pick them up and put them together and mix them up.

One of my first thoughts is that these circles are similar to the wheat and the tares in the Bible parable. It seems that these circles (those people of the covenant, those who are or seem spiritual) are being dug up and moved so they are all mixed together. This makes me think of the "professing church" made up of some who belong to Jesus and some who don't, but say they do. These are all mixed together in the "church." 

JOURNAL 10-27-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT TEACHING KINDERGARTEN AND GOING ON A FIELD TRIP
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In this dream I taught one of two kindergarten rooms. We both were planning to go on a field trip the other teacher was planning. I kept trying to learn the amount of time and the day of the trip so I could plan around it.

My first thought is that Jesus and I are the two teachers and that the field trip refers to the Rapture - which I wanted to know about--when it would happen, etc. so I could plan around that information. We each were teaching kindergartners -- those who were just beginning school. This may refer to wanting to know how much time there is before the Christians leave in the Rapture, and how much time left to prepare to teach those left who become Christians after the Rapture--those just beginning school in that growth process. I think about my books and what the Lord still wants me to do to teach the new Christians through them after the Rapture.

A DREAM ABOUT PLAYING CARDS
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In this dream some man and I were playing cards--rummy. I had a thick stack of cards and he only had 16 cards. I decided I needed to put down on the table the sets I was holding in my hand, so I first picked out a set of Aces, then a set of Queens, then a set of 5's. I also had lots of cards with strange pictures on them, not like regular playing cards. All these cards I held were about 5x8" in size, not regular playing card size.

In this dream I was dealing with facts (honesty, truth, wisdom, that revealed). Jesus (the man) was (#16) without boundaries, without limitation, and was salvation. I revealed or laid out cards (facts) about God (aces), and those who rule (queens), and about grace and service (5's). 

JOURNAL 10-29-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT GOING INTO A RED BUILDING
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Elaine and another lady and I went in a car (I wasn't driving) and parked at the back of a red painted building with the car blocking the street or alley, across the opening. We were there so they could pick up something for their office - like a machine or something. I looked around in the store for some panti hose I had bought there before at a good price. They were named NEW (some name I don't remember). I saw things on display inside the store (seemed like a drug store or beauty shop). I went outside to find the car and couldn't find my way to it. After walking around a lot I was just about to find the car (the area looked familiar) when they found me. Elaine made some comment like, "Did you think we'd leave without you?"

The main thing that stuck out in the dream was the red building. It was the only thing that I remember in color and it was a vivid painted red - most unusual. It was almost like the red was highlighted to me.

Going into a red building could refer to going into a church, family, or work that was full of passion, enthusiasm, zeal, wisdom, power, anointing, and redemption. Inside that church/family/ work I looked for a covering for my support/spirit/strength. It was something new. This is about my life, person and ministry. A message from the dream is that they wouldn't go without me; they would take me along too. I didn't find the way to the life/person/ministry for awhile, but after looking around awhile I found it and they found me. Elaine represents a person in ministry and servanthood. Perhaps part of the message is the scripture for the name Elaine: that the Lord will "give grace and glory and withhold no good thing" from me.

Yes, what you have there is true. I AM taking you to a "new" anointing and covering over you that has wisdom, power, and passion for it. This is added on to the anointing you already have in prophecy and writing and intercession. This is something new like you have gotten before and are looking for it again in My storehouse of gifting and anointing. You WILL get it - and soon. I love you, My child, and I want the best for you. I WILL give grace and glory to you and withhold no good thing from you. Remember that and believe in that. I am trustworthy!

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He is taking me to something new that has passion, wisdom and anointing.

JOURNAL 10-30-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT VISITING A CHURCH AND LOOKING FOR WATER
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In this dream I visited first UMC and the service had already begun. I slipped into a seat and learned I was in the midst of the choir. When then sang they used very short notes (representing short worship?) and I held the notes long (representing long worship?) so I was noticed. Paul was the pastor. I could see him in a special place where the pastor stood. I knew Carol had switched to that church, but I didn't see her.

I wanted some water and was looking around in a room with many places with pipes like there could have been water, but there was no way to turn the water on to get some.

Since I was the only person participating in this dream it is about me. The music refers to worship which is short in some churches and I now have longer worship. The inherent meaning for Paul is small which may refer to this being small at this time. But the spiritual connotation is "dynamo of energy and faith". This may mean in the dream that the one leading this service is small at this time but it is a dynamo of energy and faith which will be strong and grow. Carol refers to "song of joy" so her being in the dream may refer to the joy in this place. Since the church seemed to be "first" it may refer to the church being first or in the front of those going into the faith and joy movement. When I arrived the church had already been functioning - which is true of my current church, CTC. The short and long worship notes may refer to my spending long times in God's presence during my days compared to some others who possibly spend a short time. 

In the second part of the dream I was looking for water representing the Holy Spirit or the Word of God.  I could see places where I expected to get water, but there wasn't a way to open it up. Perhaps this refers to my desire to seek and receive much from the Spirit, but don't know/see how to get to it or to get it to me.

What do You want to tell me about this dream, Holy Spirit? Is it from You?

Yes, My child, it is from Me. I want you to know it is a good dream, a positive dream, showing you how you see yourself in relation to your church right now. You see yourself (this is a prophetic picture) as someone who worships a little differently, who came in late to what was already happening there, and looking for Me, the Holy Spirit, and how I fit with you in this church (or how to access Me there). Isn't that right? You feel somewhat out of place at CTC because you don't seem to respond to Me the same way many at CTC do. You feel a bit awkward about that. If they sing short notes, you sing long notes - different. You see places where water (My Spirit) is running through, but there is not a way for you to access that water (no faucet). Does this fit with how you feel?  

This is a dream about you and your perspective towards CTC. I want you to know it is ok to see from a different perspective than some there do. I made you like you are, and I love you as you are. I want to keep you as you are, and still I want you to grow closer and closer to Me daily. You may not ever fit in to CTC as you see the people there, but it is still where I want you to be. I still have things to teach you there. Your ministry may never be inside that church, but there is a ministry for you from Me. Right now it is writing for Me and with Me. Later it may evolve into other things too, but perhaps not within the walls of CTC. It is ok that way. Do not expect that, ok?

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am to continue attending CTC to keep learning things He wants me to learn, but I may not ever have a ministry there. However I will have a ministry somewhere and He will lead me there.

NOTES ABOUT WORSHIP SERVICE AT CTC THIS MORNING

Before going to church the Holy Spirit said to take paper and be prepared to write as He wanted me to take notes during church service. These are the notes I took:

Things are coming to a head now (in the world), where the bad is so bad it will overbalance the good if I don't release more good. So I am releasing more good, as of today…good that will be so obvious it will be seen publicly and on the news media. I want you to write it all down in your journal book. Start in church this morning.

When Bill says he sees light upon you, that's not because you say lots of prayers. It's because you are in My Presence a lot. That's what an "intercessor" is - in My Presence as was Brother Lawrence. Write down what you hear from people today, especially testimonies.

During the worship time for the first 1 hour and 15 minutes there was prayer and warfare contending for the lives of Danielle, Bret, and Cathy (who all have life threatening illnesses (cystic fibrosis, ALS, and cancer). The Holy Spirit told me His will is to heal all three of them and bring Himself glory. The Scripture was read regarding the walls of Jericho and Gill had us all shout for victory. He said he saw some darkness leave.

In My Name I declare freedom. I set the captives free.

Pastor Alan asked those who had been healed in the past week to stand and give testimony. Many stood and did that - told of healing they experienced. Then Pastor said he believed God wanted to heal backs today and asked those who had back difficulties to stand. About 25 or so people stood. Then he called for them to come forward for prayer. Kevin said he believed many were already healed as the Pastor called forth that word of knowledge. So we were asked to test our backs and see if we were already healed. About 8-10 people declared they were. So they were told to come and pray for the rest of us who had back difficulties. A lady prayed for me (I don't know her name). Then Irene prayed for Beth. Brian came up beside Irene and mentioned me, and I told Irene that Brian had given me a special message a couple of weeks ago. It ended up that both of them prayed for my back. They felt I would eventually be like a "mother" in the CTC congregation. And Brian said when he stood in front of me he kept sensing there was "more" for me yet to come…like he did a couple of weeks ago.

Pastor Alan asked Kevin to preach the sermon that morning. Kevin told us about a dream or vision he had had years ago where he was driving a cement truck and the cement was wet and was to be poured at the church, etc. Then he told us that one day in Lee's Summit the Spirit drew his attention to the road work that was being done on the road that runs in front of our church. The Spirit said that on the day the Healing School began (October 19, 2005) the road work would be happening right in front of our church, and that is what happened. It was a sign that God was tearing up the old highway and laying a new foundation as in Isaiah 35:8 regarding the highway of holiness. As he talked about this I was reminded of the many events that took place in my life over the past 2 weeks that confirmed that God was dealing in my life about that highway of holiness…and that I was to write all that 2-week journey event in my journal on Monday.

One man (Sam) came forward when Kevin asked if anyone had a word of knowledge. The man said he had had 11% cure of his multiple heart problems by surgery, but he was believing for 100%. And he had a word from the Lord this morning that Kevin would pray for that and he would receive it. So there was prayer for him and we await his testimony about what went on in him. Then Kevin called for anyone else with heart problems, high blood pressure, etc. to come forward for prayer. I went forward for prayer for high blood pressure and Kevin and Cathy both prayed for me. I felt tears in my eyes and shaking within my body as that happened. The tears started coming even before I was prayed for, so I felt something was happening within me by the Spirit. Afterwards the Holy Spirit said, "Now you can stop the blood pressure meds!" So I stopped them Monday morning and plan to check my blood pressure on Wednesday when I return library books.

JOURNAL 10-31-05 Monday

Now I am going to write out the things that have happened in the last 2+ weeks that seem to point to that "highway of holiness" Kevin talked about yesterday. I believe I am to put it down like a story and put it in a box.

THE HIGHWAY OF HOLINESS

God has been guiding me to desire to walk on what He calls the Highway of Holiness. He has been giving me glimpses into this guidance for a little over two weeks, and just yesterday helped me put the pieces together to understand this. One of the pieces is that I felt I was to get a book from the library by Henry Blackaby called Holiness. I have been reading it off and on over the last couple of weeks. I marked some quotes from it that I especially liked: 

"God is calling His people to return to Him and be a highway of holiness over which He can come to the lost world. But before we can become a highway of holiness, we must understand the issues of sin. In order to understand sin, we must see our sin from God's perspective. We must build our relationship with God in such a way that our lives can be a highway over which God reaches the rest of our nation in a great revival among God's people, and in a sweeping spiritual awakening in the hearts and lives of those who do not know him…If revival in America depended on your prayer life, would there be a revival? If you have to say, No, not my prayer life, then you must change your prayer life. To have a renewed prayer life requires a simple matter of a personal choice. Your life is the product of choices you have made…When I get my life right with God, my life becomes a highway over which God can go to convince and convict others of their sin."

Then on Sunday, October 16, during a prayer time I went forward to receive prayer. Kevin spoke a bit over me, and I turned to return to my seat. Brian motioned for me to come back forward to the prayer area. He said he sensed a hunger in me and he wanted me prayed for again. He told Kathy, and she came to me and kissed me on the forehead and prayed for me. She put her hands over my ears so I couldn't hear what she prayed, and she prayed very softly. Then I returned to my seat. Brian came over and said that kiss was a kiss from Heaven - that he saw it.

Later the Spirit told me that the "kiss from Heaven" that I received at church deposited in me a new name/characteristic. Now I will watch it unfold before me…watch it be manifested in me.

Later Cathy told me she doesn't often place a kiss on a person she is praying for, but the Lord told her to do that to me that time.

On Monday, 10-17-05 I wrote out a dream I had during the night. In this dream I could see some box or triangular shape that was something compacted or concentrated with different gifts/roles in it. I could click on this box to open up details on it. I was told it was the role/gift of a "paver." 

When I asked what that meant, I was told a "paver" was one who "paves" the way for others to follow. The Spirit said I was a "paver" and that I should look up the Scripture about preparing a highway. He said that when He names me "paver" then that is what I am and what I become, what I manifest.

Isaiah 40:3
A voice of one calling: "In the desert prepare the way for the LORD; make straight in the wilderness a highway for our God. 

Isaiah 62:10
Pass through, pass through the gates! Prepare the way for the people. Build up, build up the highway! Remove the stones. Raise a banner for the nations.

These are Scriptures which the Lord has given me many times in the past. I felt He applied them to me at those times too…that I am to be one who prepares a highway for people to travel on. Now I had it coming in a dream. What does this mean, Lord? What are You telling me in this dream and through these Scriptures? Then the Holy Spirit said:

I am telling you that you are one who paves the way for others. You go first and make the way straight and remove the stones and build up the roadway, create the roadway, and then others can walk on it also. Your books are paving the way for people to read them and see the way to walk to get close to Me, and then they can do what you did, and come close to Me. I WANT them to come close to Me. I want MANY to come close to Me, and I want to use your books to pave the way for them to come to Me. I will use your books for that in ways you will not know until later - in Heaven. I know how you admire other people's books (like Jim Goll and Randy Alcorn) and others will admire your books too for the help they give them. 

So what the Lord has shown me is that He gave me a new name (which was given in the kiss from Heaven yesterday) and then He showed me what the name was in today's dream.

On Thursday, October 20, I added a Scripture verse to the two I previously wrote down because Kevin made reference to it several times during the last week. It is Isaiah 35:8 and I felt it also applied to the dream about being a "paver."

Isaiah 35:8 
And a highway will be there; it will be called the Way of Holiness. The unclean will not journey on it; it will be for those who walk in that Way…but only the redeemed will walk there and the ransomed of the Lord will return.

On Sunday, October 30, while preaching the sermon, Kevin told us about a dream or vision he had had years ago where he was driving a cement truck and the cement was wet and was to be poured at the church (there was more to the vision). Then he told us that one day in Lee's Summit the Spirit drew his attention to the road work that was being done on the road that runs in front of our church. The Spirit said that on the day the Healing School began (October 19, 2005) the road work would be happening right in front of our church, and that is what happened. It was a sign that God was tearing up the old highway and laying a new foundation as in Isaiah 35:8 regarding the highway of holiness. As he talked about this I was reminded of the many events that took place in my life over the past 2 weeks that confirmed that God was dealing in my life about that highway of holiness…and that I was to write all that 2-week journey event in my journal on Monday.

During the prayer time Irene prayed for Beth. Brian came up beside Irene and mentioned me, and I told Irene that Brian had given me a special message a couple of weeks ago. It ended up that both of them prayed for my back. They felt I would eventually be like a "Mother" in the CTC congregation. And Brian said when he stood in front of me he kept sensing there was "more" for me yet to come…like he did a couple of weeks ago. It was a very encouraging message for me. I believe a "Mother" to others is somewhat like a "paver" of a highway that others may journey on.

This is October 31, 2005 and is the day Kim Clement prophesied about something "unusual" happening, so I have been watching the news for something unusual. One of the first things I noticed (that was quite unusual) was the casket of Rosa Parks in the Capital Building Rotunda and lots of people walking past it. The news said this was the first time the casket of a woman was ever in the Capital Building like that - it previously had been usually presidents. That truly is most unusual. She was famous for taking a stand against racial discrimination around 50 years or so ago when she refused to give up her seat on a bus for a white man and was arrested for that. She was 92 years old when she died.

(Watch for In His Time, part 2 coming soon)