IN HIS TIME
PART 2

November, December 2005

A Book About 
The Set Times
 Of The Lord

Joan Whitacre Royer

DEDICATION OF BOOK

I dedicate this book to the Lord Jesus Christ,
my best Friend.
May it bring Him glory
in the lives of others as they read it.

A SPECIAL THANK YOU

A special thank you to my daughter, Beth,
for inviting me to stay in her lovely quiet home
during the months of writing this book,
for letting me use her computer and printer,
for putting this book on the internet,
and for being such encouraging company.
Thanks, Beth!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

The author, Joan (“Jo Ann”) Royer, has a background in writing from childhood on, has a Bachelor’s Degree in Music and English, and a Master’s Degree in Education. She was involved in discipling others through the Discipleship Training program at a Southern Baptist Church in Columbia, Missouri, for 18 years. Then the Lord guided her to take a break from that and spend much time developing an even stronger and more intimate relationship with Him in her quiet times. During this time she worked as a secretary at United Methodist churches in Columbia, Missouri. 

After four years of developing this more intimate relationship, He lead her to begin writing her first book, Thoughts and Stories: On a Life God Leads, Guides, and Protects. He even gave her the title for the book and gradually, as she listened and wrote, He lead her in writing the whole book. 

Previous to this writing she had collected stories about ways God had impacted the lives of people. This was in response to His guidance from Psalm 96:3 that says: “Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.” She knew He wanted her to declare His Marvelous Deeds and share these deeds with others by writing them. All this came together in her book series called Thoughts And Stories, Books 1-5.

She currently has eight books (plus this new series) which can be found on her web site at www.doveministry.net. They are titled Thoughts and Stories, books 1-5, and Things The Lord Has Shown Me, books 1-3. This book is Part Two in a series called In His Time. This series starts with Part One from August, September, and October of 2005. Part two covers November, December, 2005. More parts in this series will continue on with around 1-2 months covered in each part depending on how the Spirit guides her to write.

She retired from her secretarial position in Columbia in 2004 and now lives in Lee’s Summit, Missouri, with her daughter, Beth, where the Lord has led her to set apart her days to listen to Him and write what He shows her. 

Writing is her passion and the way God is leading her to share with others what God has been doing in her life. Her desire is to encourage and mentor others through her writings--in the way that many in the Body of Christ have taught and mentored her through their writings.

Thoughts from the Holy Spirit are written in italics.

IN HIS TIME

PART TWO

NOVEMBER-DECEMBER 2005

JOURNAL 11-1-05 Tuesday

A highway shall be there, and a road, and it shall be called the Highway of Holiness. The unclean shall not pass over it, but it shall be for others. Whoever walks the road, although a fool, shall not go astray.  (Isaiah 35:8 NKJV)
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Now it's November and the time you've been waiting for - and I've been waiting for. Now we've come to the highway, the Highway of Holiness which I've built for My people to walk on. You will walk on it, and others will follow you. Holiness unto the Lord. That is what this highway is about - setting apart on this highway those who are holy (set apart) unto Me. 

The decision time is here. It is today. Today is the day to make your decision, people. Make your decision whether you belong to Me or to the evil one. That is the choice--as either he is your king and ruler, or I am your King and Ruler. So decide, today, people. Whom will you serve? Decide today. If you choose Me, then you get to walk on this Highway of Holiness I have made/built for you.

As I read Scripture this morning I am again impressed with a Scripture in Isaiah 30:8 which says:

Go now, write it on a tablet for them, inscribe it on a scroll, that for the days to come it may be an everlasting witness.

I believe that is one reason I am spending my days writing books for and with the Lord…because they are to be an everlasting witness to others in the days to come. I am writing these on a computer (rather than a tablet) and inscribing them on the internet web site (instead of on a scroll), but the goal and reasons are the same - to be an everlasting witness to what the Lord is telling me to write. That everlasting witness includes witnessing to the Highway of Holiness which we each choose to travel on, or not to travel on. It's a choice we make by choosing to believe in Jesus and choosing to commit our lives to Him, or choosing not to. 

JOURNAL 11-3-05 Thursday

Today the Lord has guided me to make part 1 out of the materials in the book In His Time from August, September, and October 2005. Then I am to begin part 2 with writings from at least November and December, perhaps more, we'll see. I am to have Beth put part 1 on the web page with my other books. (Note later: She did this on November 6)

In His Time is my 9th book. The thought that just came to me is that it may have 9 parts to it of perhaps 2-3 months of writing in each part. Some of the idea regarding this is to get the writing on the web soon after it is written. Since 9 is the number representing "harvest" I see this 9th book (a series with 9 parts to it) as a book about the harvest time we are living in right now. If each book has ~ 3 months time covered then that would take 24 more months including this month…2 years more. This could be a clue to His timing.

(Quotes from the book Heaven by Randy Alcorn (p 453-4): Questions in light of heaven:)

•	Do I daily reflect on my own mortality?
•	Do I daily realize there are only two destinations--Heaven or Hell--and that I and every person I know will go to one or the other?
•	Do I daily remind myself that this world is not my home and that everything in it will burn, leaving behind only what's eternal?
•	Do I daily recognize that my choices and actions have a direct influence on the world to come?
•	Do I daily realize that my life is being examined by God, the Audience of One, and that the only appraisal of my life that will ultimately matter is his?
•	Do I daily reflect on the fact that my ultimate home will be the New Earth, where I will see God and serve him as a resurrected being in a resurrected human society, where I will overflow with joy and delight in drawing nearer to God by studying him and his creation, and where I will exercise, to God's glory, dominion over his creation?

JOURNAL 11-7-05 Monday

This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:5-9)
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Thank You, Father, for purifying us from all our sins by the blood of Jesus. Thank You, Jesus, for giving Your blood on the cross that we might be saved through Your sacrifice for us. Thank You, God, that You are light and in You there is no darkness at all. Thank You that You are faithful and just! I love You, Lord!

Thank You for all the multitude of blessings You are pouring out over me and my prayer bundle  (the group I pray for daily) today. Thank You that You watch over us day after day and keep us safe and set apart unto You while we are living in this world. Thank You for all the encouragement You give me day after day and for giving me a purpose for living - to have this close personal relationship with You. I know that You are faithful, and that what you have begun in me, You will be faithful to complete (Philippians 1:6). I look forward to coming up to Heaven and meeting You face to face. Thank You for Heaven, and the hope we have in You.

Peace, peace, wonderful peace, that's what I'm bringing you today. Rest in My peace the whole day. Go to the prophecy class tonight and watch for ways you can minister to others. I will show you how and when. So far you have mainly been there to receive something; now I am sending you to give something. Watch and wait for it. I will show you and/or tell you, whichever I choose to do.

Below are portions of two messages I received via email which deal with time:

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(Excerpt from November 6, 2005,  "The Tent of Meeting," by Francis Frangipane www.frangipane.org )

When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.” (Psalm 27:8)

A Time to Seek God

There are certain times when the Lord calls us out of the routine of our daily lives. These are special seasons where His only command is, "Seek My Face." He has something precious and vitally important to give us that the familiar pattern of our daily devotions cannot accommodate. During such times, people are often delivered of sins that have plagued them for years; others discover a depth in their walk with God that leads to greater effectiveness in ministry and prayer. Still, others experience breakthroughs in their families and are used by God to see loved ones brought into the kingdom.

Yet, here we are not seeking God for things or even for other people. We are seeking God for Himself. Maturity starts as we break the cycle of seeking God only during hardship; holiness begins the moment we seek God for Himself. A touch from God is wonderful, but we are in pursuit of more than just an experience -- more than "goose bumps and tears." We are seeking to abide with Christ, where we are continually aware of His fullness within us and where His presence dwells in us in glory.

(Excerpt from: Nov. 4, 2005, "2006 Shepherd's Rod" by Joni Faith (Ames)
www.joniames.org )

Sons Of Issachar Clock

The Lord spoke to me about a spiritual Sons of Issachar clock we have been given in this time and showed me that every minute that passes is like money passing through our fingers. It came with directions: value the time you are given as you would value money.

Spend time wisely. Time is life. Time can be used to make money, but money can't be used to buy time. Every minute is far more valuable than money.

Save time. We can save time through a variety of things. 
(1) Delegate instead of micro manage. That is even helpful when training others. It gives them a sense of responsibility, accountability, and trust. And it delivers us from a spirit of control! 
(2) Make "to do" lists. 
(3) Don't drive all over town for the things you are looking for. Let your fingers do the walking through the phone book and find the place that has what you need and go there. 

Set time aside for what is important: the Lord, family, friends, and vacations. Even Jesus, who is perfect, knew that He had to take time aside to be refreshed. You'll be a better spouse, parent, friend, and person, for doing so.

Mark/measure time. You may want to keep a journal of what you do with your time. Keep a journal of your prayer requests and when they are answered and how they are answered. There are many times of "spiritual markers," and it is important to mark those times. The Lord writes a book of remembrance about us, and we need to do so for Him!

Be time-sensitive and handle time-sensitive things in an appropriate manner. Don't miss out on those "Kairos" moments when you have a small window of time in which to do something.

Don't be discouraged by time delays or waste your time during a delay. Sometimes, God allows us to be delayed in a traffic jam to keep us from being in an accident. Sometimes the delays to our goals take longer than we desire -- months or years longer. Don't get into murmuring and complaining in that time frame. Use them wisely as time to draw closer to Him.

Know the time of your visitation. 

JOURNAL 11-8-05 Tuesday

Last night Beth and I went to Prophecy Class. The Spirit had told me not to expect anything for myself from the class, but to give something to others instead. As I listened to the conversations going on I heard mentioned things about being in the Lord's right timing, and it caused me to think about yesterday's writing about that topic. So when Bill looked at me and said he saw the "wind chime" being tapped over me, he asked if I was getting anything to share. I mentioned about my current book being about God's timing and that the Lord had given me that title…that I picked up on their mentioning His timing. That started Kim telling a neat story about the Lord's perfect timing in her life recently when He had her call some friends to come over and led her to go to her ATM and get some money to give them…and how this was such perfect timing for needs in their lives.

Later in the class I kept thinking about the dream I had awhile back about a huge bird, like a stork, with nests on its back and birds on those nests. Then I looked around our classroom and could see that our seating arrangement was similar to the shape of the back of the bird with all the nests. Then I began to wonder if that dream picture could apply to this class where there were many prophetic ministries being shaped and birthed. I said to the Spirit that I would share that if Bill mentioned again hearing the wind chimes over me (which meant that I had something being given me to speak out). But he didn't say it, so I didn't share that. 

After class I felt strongly that I should mention the dream to just Bill, and as I walked toward him he said he saw those wind chimes as I walked up. Only this time there were four chimes and the wind was blowing all four, where previously he had only seen one chime being tapped. So I felt that was a confirmation that I was to tell him about the dream, which I did. I said I would draw the picture and bring it to him next week. The dream was on 8-12-05.

The lesson for me was to learn to wait until it was the Lord's timing to share something, and to seek His timing when something came into my mind instead of just telling it right then. Bill says that is very important to learn and that he only shares a small portion of what he is shown. The rest might be for later or for intercession. He tells us often that the prophetic and intercession go together and that as intercession is applied to the prophetic picture/vision, then the prophecy can come into manifestation. It's certainly a lesson about the "timing" of the Lord. And it helps explain why God has given me such a desire to do intercession along with the prophetic images/ideas He gives me. I had not previously realized how important it was to pray regarding the prophetic things being shown me.

JOURNAL 11-9-05 Wednesday

What do you think I am doing today? I am drawing you closer to Me and am drawing many many others closer to Me. The time is here for people to make their choices about where they stand - with Me or not with Me. I want ALL to come to Me, but I know they won't because I gave them free will. They may choose their own way if they want to. My way is the best way, but still I allow people to choose their own way. Choose My way today, Joan. That is the best way for you. Come to Me often and seek My face. I want to spend time with you today and talk to you and love you with our sharing things together. My time is a great gift I give freely to those who choose Me. Choose Me, Joan.

A DREAM ABOUT TRYING TO KEEP CATS AND DOGS OUT OF MY HOUSE
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In this scene I was in a street (maybe a crossroad) which was flooded with water. I looked to see how high the water rose along the road, then walked out of it to my home. At my home I tried to open the back door to enter. There were some small dogs and cats just outside the door and a little to the left of it. When I opened the door they tried to sneak in to the house. A few of them got in and I got a broom and tried to push them out.

I am the person this dream is about. I am standing in the street (the Christian way of life) or perhaps in a crossroad (a decision time about change). I am somewhat overwhelmed or inundated by what I am experiencing. Right now I see this inundation as possibly the prophecy class and/or the healing school. I make my way out of the flood to my home which signifies my place of comfort and security where I can shed affectation. This may mean I wasn't comfortable and secure in these flooded situations and wasn't myself. I try to enter into the new opportunity and experience it to progress along my path of life. As cats (independent thinking) and dogs (friendly or fearful) try to enter my comfort secure area I sweep them out (look past the surface, sweep away surface debris to get a clearer perception of what's beneath).

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of a decision time I am in where I am a bit overwhelmed and seeking to return to my place of comfort and security while trying to keep out independent thinking and fear.

A DREAM ABOUT GETTING BOXES TO PUT SILVER COINS IN
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In this dream scene I got boxes to put coins in. I got a shiny red box which was circular and was black and non-shiny on the inside. I also got a white square box like a shirt box. I saw silver coins like quarters.

In this dream I saw myself getting boxes (containers) to put coins in (little recognized blessings, spiritual wealth, revelation knowledge). One box was red and shiny on the outside (showing to others passion, wisdom, anointing) and black on the inside (mystery, unknown). The other box was white (purity, goodness, positive aspects of life), but it was rectangular shaped like a shirt box (legalistic, religious). I saw silver coins like quarters (revelation knowledge).

This is a prophetic picture about me and my attitude toward money/wealth. Perhaps the two types of boxes represent me. One picture shows on the outside I show passion, wisdom and anointing while on the inside I am a mystery and unknown. The other picture shows purity, goodness and a positive attitude toward life, but shaped showing legalism and religious. I saw coins representing revelation knowledge and spiritual wealth, and opportunities that are there for me.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am a container for revelation knowledge but this container still has some legalism as well as having passion, wisdom and anointing.

JOURNAL 11-10-05 Thursday

Today on ElijahList.com there was posted this article regarding the prophecy by Kim Clement saying there would be an unusual event on October 31, 2005. Since I mentioned that prophecy in Part 1 of this book, I wanted to share about this fulfillment of that prophecy:

Covenantal Awakening:
Fulfillment of Prophecies Point to a New Season of Revival
Jon & Jolene Hamill
Lamplighter Ministries
lamplighterjon@earthlink.net 

In writing this prophetic perspective, I am keenly aware that we "see in part and prophesy in part." So let the witness of the Spirit guide you as we examine together recent events that indicate a major shift into a season of national awakening and revival.

In mid-October, Kim Clement prophesied there would be an "unusual occurrence" on October 31, which would be followed by a four year season of harvest and the greatest move of the Spirit our nation has ever seen. 

Kim prophesied this word at a conference with Cornerstone Fellowship in Frederick, MD, where Jolene and I serve as prayer coordinators. After talking with our pastors, we decided to pray as a church through the evening of October 31, standing for the Lord's promises to be fulfilled. 

Just after 9:00 p.m., while we were worshipping and praying, we experienced an "unusual occurrence." A few of the intercessors saw a huge fireball passing through the skies of Frederick!

Television news reported that the fireball was actually a meteor, seen from Philadelphia to south of Washington, D.C. Local 911 emergency centers were overrun with calls, and in the metro D.C. region, many reported the fireball was so bright it lit up the insides of their homes. One NASA scientist told a DC television station that "this is a rare event," and that he couldn't remember seeing another meteor this big in the past 12 years.

Confirming the Word

In line with Kim Clement's word, the fireball was definitely an unusual occurrence. I believe this was a sign from the Lord that the awakening we've all been praying for is now at hand. 

During the conference, Kim also reiterated a prophetic word he shared early in October that America would be mourning on October 31 and that within the dates of October 31 through November 1, our nation would be moving from death to life. He also prophesied that the breath of the Spirit would be restored in the northeast, with the eventual release of an anointing to even raise the dead in the greatest move of the Spirit our nation has ever seen.

Kim's word on the wind of the Spirit is remarkably similar to a prophecy given by Chuck Pierce in Vermont, on October 9. On that night, Chuck prophesied that the awakening of the nation had begun and that the "north winds of awakening" would be released from Vermont, across the northeast and the nation. 

Later in the article, I'll share how these prophetic insights relate to America's covenantal heritage as a nation of awakening. But first, lets look at two significant events related to Kim's word that came to pass in Washington, D.C. on October 31. 

More Confirmations on October 31

First, America truly mourned on October 31-- though not due to a terrorist attack or a hurricane. Instead, America mourned the loss of the great civil rights pioneer Rosa Parks. A devoted Christian, Parks' act of gentle defiance brought new meaning to our pledge of "liberty and justice for all." As one political leader noted, Rosa Parks wasn't just the mother of the civil rights movement, but she was "the mother of the America we grew to be." 

Her passing was bittersweet. From October 30 through October 31, Parks became the first woman and the second African American to lie in honor in the Rotunda of the U.S. Capitol. 

Also on October 31, President Bush nominated Samuel Alito to serve as the next justice on the Supreme Court. Many speculate that Judge Alito, who currently presides over the Third US Circuit Court of Appeals in Philadelphia, could be key in overthrowing legalized abortion in our land. 

Is it possible that, on October 31, Bush nominated a man called by God to shift America from a legacy of death to the empowerment of life? His very name caught our attention, as we had been praying for a nominee with the qualities of the biblical Samuel, who served in Israel as both prophet and judge. 

Down in Texas, Cindy Jacobs ended 40 days of prayer and fasting for the release of a new season of miracles in our land. Coincidentally, the last night of Cindy's fast was October 31 -- the day Rosa Parks was honored, Judge Alito was nominated, and a meteor blazed across the D.C. skies. 

New Season of Awakening and Justice 

God is Neither a Republican Nor Democrat, and He Has Mightily Used Both Parties 

Clearly, we have entered into a season where a "Third Great Awakening," promised by the Lord, is now being released. Jolene woke up from a dream this morning repeating the words "Bigger than Finney, bigger than Finney." Charles Finney was the primary catalyst of America's Second Great Awakening. Perhaps the Lord is saying that what's now at hand is even bigger than the Second Great Awakening, which Finney himself described as the greatest outpouring since the Book of Acts.

Interestingly, Charles Finney was a passionate abolitionist. The Republican Party was birthed in the embers of the awakening as an anti-slavery party, with Abraham Lincoln as its presidential candidate. 

But in truth, he could have been a Democrat. I believe that the Democratic Party was originally offered a mantle from the Lord to abolish slavery. When the mantle was refused, a new party was raised up out of the Democratic Party to shift America into this facet of God's justice.

Today, you won't find a Democrat with a pro-slavery platform. Instead, the Democratic Party has been a champion of civil rights for all. And fifty years from now, as the blemish of abortion is cleansed from America's soul, I prophesy that neither Democrat nor Republican will want to reinstate this practice because eradicating abortion is not a party issue -- it's a justice issue. 

At the outset of this Third Great Awakening, the Lord wants the governmental leaders of America to fully understand. He wants justice at our gates. We do not understand the consequences of ignoring this trumpet call. When the awakeners of Finney's era called for repentance, leading to a peaceful end to slavery, their plea was ignored. That's when the Civil War began.

Now, America is again divided over the issue of civil rights. This time it's the civil rights of the unborn. Will we pick up the mantle of justice, or will we retreat into division and see the reaping of the death we have been sowing as a nation? Truly, it is time for us to come out of our chambers and weep between the porch and the altar. 

The Pilgrims Covenanted with God

When our forefathers stood against injustice, a nation of awakening was birthed. The Pilgrims set out for the new world to establish a land of religious freedom. On November 11, 1620, they signed the Mayflower Compact, entering into covenant with Jesus Christ by dedicating our land and government to "the glory of God and the advancement of the Christian Faith."

During both the first and second Great Awakenings, we saw two dimensions of this covenant with the Lord in manifestation. We saw God's glory -- the tangible manifestation of His presence and power -- across the land, resulting in societal transformation. And we saw evangelism -- the advancement of the Christian faith -- as unprecedented numbers of people turned to Jesus Christ. 

The Huguenots Covenanted with God

Before the Pilgrims landed in Massachusetts, another weary group came to America seeking religious freedom. Led by Jean Ribault, the Huguenots established a settlement in Ft. Caroline, Florida, again with the hope of reaching nations with the gospel. 

The Huguenots at Ft. Caroline were martyred at the hands of Spanish conquistadors. Jean Ribault died chanting Psalm 132, literally begging God to make this nation a dwelling place for His presence. But instead of praying, "Lord remember the afflictions of your servant David," he prayed, "Lord remember the afflictions of your servant Jean. How he swore. . . not to give rest to his eyes, nor slumber to his eyelids, until he found a dwelling place for the mighty God of Jacob."

God remembers the cry of His friends. Part of this Third Great Awakening is that covenantal blessings aborted in previous seasons will find life and expression at this time.

It is interesting to note that, centuries later, another forerunner was gripped by Psalm 132 and the dream in God's heart for our land to be a dwelling place for His presence. At the outset of his ministry, Mike Bickle came into covenant with the Lord, according to Psalm 132 -- a covenant that eventually brought forth the 24/7 International House of Prayer. 

Prophecy Fulfilled: A Comet Across the Sky

This is where we come full circle. The IHOP movement began in 1983, when Bickle called a 21-day solemn assembly after receiving supernatural confirmation from prophet Bob Jones. Bob shared with Mike that the Lord was releasing a great move of the Spirit across North America and that a comet would flash across the sky on the day he started his fast. This comet, undetected by scientists, would be a sign from the Lord that revival was coming. Mike arbitrarily picked May 7 to start the citywide solemn assembly, and on that night, a comet previously undetected by scientists flashed across the sky! 

 

JOURNAL 11-11-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT A NON-FUNCTIONING LOCK ON THE FRONT DOOR
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The setting of this dream was my childhood home in New Haven. I was inside the house by myself as an adult. A man and woman came to the front door and wanted to come in. I let them in, then noticed that the front door wasn't locked, it was loose. As I tried to lock it, the lock didn't seem to be screwed into its place. It looked like there was a new door there that had not yet been completely installed, so I couldn't keep it locked and keep people from coming in. The man I had let in began to pick up things and it looked like he was going to steal them. Other people came to the front of the house but I didn't invite them in. I kept trying to get the lock to work, but couldn't. The woman started to work in the kitchen, perhaps washing dishes. I didn't want to leave her alone either as I didn't trust her to not steal things when I wasn't looking. I went out the back door to feed the dog. Just then John and Carol drove up in a sport car that was white, yellow, and pink colored. I told them about the front door to see if John could fix it. I was pleased they came by.

The setting of this dream was my childhood home (past family issues, heart, identity, roots). I was inside the house by myself as an adult (I was seeing myself in my childhood circumstances but from the point of view of an adult now). I am the person this dream is about.

A man (angel, oneself, or demon, person with evil intent, danger) and woman (spirit, seducing spirit, temptation, deception, God's messenger angel, one's own self) came to the front door (entrance, Christ, new opportunity, future or now, immediate, current) and wanted to come in. 

This refers to something new and unknown wanting to come into your life, and you let it in. This represents something that will come to you as a possibility in the future. You can be forewarned and watching for this "unknown" man and woman asking to come into your life in regard to your childhood/family issues.

I let them in, then noticed that the front door wasn't locked, it was loose. As I tried to lock it, the lock (emphasizes a secure aspect) didn't seem to be screwed into its place. It looked like there was a new door there that had not yet been completely installed, so I couldn't keep it locked (couldn't keep unwanted things out, didn't have lock functioning yet, therefore wasn't secure) and keep people from coming in. 

Now that this new something has come into your life (in the dream), you can't seem to lock other things out and you are afraid of even what you already let in. This man and woman represent something good or evil and you are not sure which. You are afraid they will steal things that already belong to you and take them away from you. They might take things you want to keep.

The man I had let in began to pick up things and it looked like he was going to steal them. Other people came to the front of the house but I didn't invite them in. I kept trying to get the lock to work, but couldn't. 

This bad experience of the man and woman set you up to not allow others into your life and you were trying hard to lock them out.

The woman started to work in the kitchen, perhaps washing dishes. I didn't want to leave her alone either as I didn't trust her to not steal things when I wasn't looking. 

I went out the back door (past, previous event or experience, that which is behind i.e. in time, unaware, hidden, memory; denotes a way out) to feed the dog (friend, something precious, refers to one's friends and close associates).

You went outside (through past experiences of handling situations) to your friends.

Just then John (God is gracious) (literal brother, brother in Christ, self, characterizes a close male associate in life, a male who is a close friend), and Carol (song of joy) (someone she reminds you of, the dreamer when the dreamer is female) drove up in a sport car (life, person, ministry, new ministry or new way of life, small, fast, streamlined, noticeable) that was white (purity without mixture, unblemished, spotless, righteousness, blameless, truth, innocence, Spirit of the Lord, holy power; applies to purity and goodness, the positive aspects in life), yellow (mind, hope, gift of God, contentedness, inner peace), and pink (passionate, heart of flesh) colored. 

Your friends, those close to you, came to be with you and you asked them for help. They came in purity and hope (their ministry). These could be actual people or they could be friends you found within yourself, your ministry, your heart/identity of purity, hope and passion.

I told them about the front door to see if John could fix it. I was pleased they came by.

You found hope and pleasure in your friends you could trust would help you.

So, what does this dream mean, Lord? What are you saying to me through this dream?

I am saying you are still using some of your childhood learned techniques to make choices in your adult life. It is fearful to let in new adult choices because they might steal away parts of yourself that you want to keep or are afraid to lose. That which would be stolen or lost is unknown, so you are afraid to risk it. You look to spiritual resources, friends, those things you know and feel confidence in, to help you keep out what you fear might steal from you. This refers to something which may come now or in your future, so you can watch out for it. It is a prophetic dream to forewarn you. Watch for these "new, unknown" circumstances appearing, and seek ME when they appear. I will show you the way. I am the One you can trust in.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a forewarning dream to watch out for some new adult choices that may come my way soon. When they come I am to seek Him about what to do with them.

(Quotes from Paul Keith Davis' email newsletter from WhiteDove Ministries 11-8-05 
regarding the church crossing a threshold in heaven's time line)
(www.whitedoveministries.org) 

SPIRITUAL TRANSITIONS AND TIMELINESS

Moses My Servant is Dead

That evening during worship, I was contemplating the message that I was going to share. This was now going to be the culmination of the conference and I wanted to leave the people with a spiritual deposit for hope and restoration related to their heritage.

As my mind was focused on this objective, I heard the Lord's voice speak to me saying, "Moses my servant is dead." As soon as that statement was made, I was immediately reminded of Deuteronomy 31:2-3, declaring,

And he [Moses] said to them, "I am a hundred and twenty years old today; I am no longer able to come and go, and the LORD has said to me, "You shall not cross this Jordan. It is the LORD your God who will cross ahead of you; He will destroy these nations before you, and you shall dispossess them. Joshua is the one who will cross ahead of you, just as the LORD has spoken.

With that realization I then heard the Lord ask the question, "how long has been since the seeds for the modern Pentecostal movement were sown." As often as I had preached the historical account of the last century's spiritual heritage, I had never actually done the math. As I calculated in my mind that this was the year 2005 and the beginning was 1885, I then realized it had been 120 years. I knew that the Moses Era was over. We have been called out, but we have not yet crossed over.

The Lord is saying to this generation,

Moses My servant is dead. Now therefore, arise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people, to the land which I am giving to them-- the children of Israel. Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given you, as I said to Moses.... No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life; as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you- Joshua 1:2-5

The season of transition is upon us and a new commissioning is about to be announced in the order of Joshua.

The Moses Generation

This last 120 years of spiritual activity has functioned in the order of Moses. Clearly, Moses was one of the greatest men of God who ever lived. His intimate friendship with the Lord set a standard we aspire to today. Even so, the totality of his original mandate was not fully achieved in his lifetime.

Moses brought the people out of Egypt under God's mighty hand of power through miracles, signs and wonders; but, that generation did not cross over into their destiny. According to Deuteronomy 29:4, they did not possess the revelatory anointing essential to co-operate with God.

Their eyes and ears were not opened and their hearts were not devoted to the revelation of Heaven's plan. As a result, they were disqualified and a season of discipline ensued.

Nevertheless, the next generation emerged with spiritual hunger and desperation that captured Heaven's attention and positioned them for their inheritance. That is the same model we have followed over the last century.

Naturally, that is not to point a condemning finger at the saints of the prior generation. Clearly, there was a remnant of very godly people who openly embraced the fullness of God's desire. Even so, a prudent analysis of history reveals that the corporate church as a whole did not embrace the open door opportunities set before them to cross spiritual Jordan.

According to John G. Lake's analysis in 1925, "the people were more captured by the phenomena of God than the Person." That mistake was made during the early 20th century and repeated in the '50s. For the 21st century generation to cross over in a Joshua anointing, it will likewise require God's great-grace for walking intimately with Him, along with a thorough understanding of the lessons learned from past achievements and failures.

Hebrews 13:7-8 declares, 

Remember those who led you, who spoke the word of God to you; and considering the result of their conduct, imitate their faith. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

This biblical admonition requires that we remember and be constantly mindful of those who have gone before us. Furthermore, we are to consider well and observe accurately the end of their lives. This examination positions us to imitate their faith. In so doing, the Lord will do through us what he did through them by mighty expressions of His power and authority, because He is the same yesterday, today and forever.

The Lord promised Joshua that He would walk with him as He did with Moses. Our assurance is the same. As the Lord accompanied the mighty champions of the last century, so also will He be with us. Even so, what we do may appear totally different. Joshua's accomplishments were distinctly different from those of Moses.

In the Order of Joshua

Much has been spoken and written in recent years about the emerging Joshua Generation. Many people have prophetically foreseen this transition. The Church has now crossed a threshold in Heaven's time-line for the apprehension of this promise.

One of the difficult things for the modern church has been to adequately understand spiritual transitions and timeliness. It has been our observation that most shifts of this nature develop slowly with one season overlapping into the next.

Although 2005 ended a 120 year cycle, it may take some time for this new manifestation of God's attributes to be fully revealed. Even so, it will transpire.

Joshua was promised the same manifestation of God's Spirit that rested upon Moses. Like Moses, Joshua had his "burning bush" experience. However, the Lord did not appear as a pillar of fire in a bush that was not consumed, but as "Captain of the Lord's Host." He said,

No; rather I indeed come now as captain of the host of the LORD." And Joshua fell on his face to the earth, and bowed down, and said to him, "What has my lord to say to his servant? --- Joshua 5:14

The Lord was with Joshua as He was with Moses but in a different manifestation of His nature. He came NOW as the mighty warrior God. So shall it be in this day.

A holy militancy is about to emerge in the Bride of Christ. Many leaders will begin to surface with a Joshua anointing. Joshua means "Jehovah Savior." This form of leadership will function in the Church with concise direction and profound anointing for salvation and deliverance.

These leaders will also do in the last days what Paul did in the beginning. Paul brought to the Church the message of God's Kingdom by a revelation of Jesus Christ. He wrote in Galatians 1:12,

For I neither received it from man, nor was I taught it, but I received it through a revelation of Jesus Christ.

Great and profound mysteries of the Kingdom are about to be unfolded that will begin to displace the giants that inhabit our inheritance. These will not be the precepts of man but the manifestation of Jesus Christ. This will be a wonderful and rewarding season of Church history.

JOURNAL 11-12-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT WEARING A LONG WHITE COVERING THAT COULD BE WRITTEN ON
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As I awoke I remembered a piece of a dream where participants of a conference were standing up with white coverings over them--like a long coat which hung from on top of their heads (like a veil) hanging down around them. It seemed things could be written about them on this covering. Each thing written was to begin with the letter C.

As I pondered this dream piece, the Holy Spirit began to speak thoughts to me with words or phrases starting with C for my covering:

	Called as a witness to Me
	Caring about eternal salvation of others
	Constantly seeking Me
	Casting all your cares on Me
	Covenant relationship with Me
	Christ-centered

You cast all your cares on Me - give them to Me - and I take them and give you back your inheritance you have in Me. Give Me your sickness and I'll give you health.

I have been battling a cold for many days. How do I give You my sickness?

You listen to Me and follow My instructions. That's what I got you up for this morning - was to listen. Today is the day for you to be healed.

This comes out of fasting and prayer. You may drink all the juices you want but eat no solid food. You may take any medicines you want…no solid food. Fast solid food today until I say stop. Fasting applies spiritual power you are unaware of. Trust Me on this.

You want me to be well, don't You?

I want you to be well and I want to show you the way to wellness so you can stay there. Wellness is a spiritual place in relationship with Me. I want you to learn how to live there.

There's an upsetting of some necessary balances in your body that allows the cold disease to land there and take root and grow. These are what medical practitioners strive for with substances, but this "balance" can be found spiritually - that's what I want to teach today and have you put in your current book.

Will you come to My school of fasting and prayer today? (Yes, Lord.) Then you keep fasting and listening to Me all day - and I will show you the way. I AM the Way. 

Remember what I told your Mom? There are little "healing agents" available in your body that can bring healing in the right atmosphere. They can function then. What is that right atmosphere? It's called (on earth) faith. Remember faith is a substance (Heb. 11:1)

I am the Source of all wisdom.

The right atmosphere within you for healing is created by faith. Faith is a substance that moves things around within you so that that atmosphere comes into existence. When that is there, then healing will take place using these little "healing agents" which are already a part of your body. I created your body with the ability to be well and to stay well, but your soul (mind, will and emotions) can throw your body "out of balance" so these healing agents can't function as they were created to. So your job is to use your soul (mind, will and emotions) to put your body back in balance. Your soul functions under the authority of your spirit. Your spirit is under My Spirit's authority when you belong to Me, as you do. So My Spirit speaks to your spirit and we come into oneness/unity. Then My Spirit can speak into your spirit to your soul. As you fast and pray I will do that.

So as you fast and pray today I want you to imagine yourself placing in My care your body, your whole body, not just the cold symptoms. I want to get your whole body into right balance and into the conditions for health.

Know that by our covenant together, the covenant with My blood (the New Covenant or New Testament), I take everything which you give Me, cast on Me, and I give you back what the New Covenant has for you. You've heard this before and semi-understood it. I want you to learn that lesson more completely today and learn to live in My covenant blessings. "Blessings" is what you call the part of My Covenant which I give to you. Lack of blessing is what you call living outside My Covenant. I want you to learn how to live in My Covenant today. 

BLESSINGS
Blessed in city and country
Children, crops, livestock blessed
Food and bread blessed
Blessed coming in and going out
Enemies defeated before you
Barns and land blessed
What you put your hand to blessed
Established as His holy people
Abundant prosperity
Open heavens, His bounty, rain in season
Bless all the work of your hands
Lend to many nations, but borrow from none
Head and not the tail
Always at top, never bottom
Joy, gladness, praise
Knowing Him, abiding in Him
Healthy, healing
Preserved from evil, protection
Strength
Success
Victory
Power, love, sound mind, peace
Guidance, teaching
Unity
Cleansed, forgiven
Favor and honor, kindness, love
Rest, sleep
Every blessing in heaven

(Quote from Mike Bickle from article "Overcoming Temptation: Understanding Its Deceptive Process" from conference on Intimacy With God on November 11, 2005)

The Christian life is a cooperation with God's grace. God will not do our part and we cannot do His part. If we do not do our part, then God withholds some of the blessing He wants to give us. Our part includes making quality decisions to deny ourselves (say no to sin), to feed our spirit on the Word, to ask for God's help through prayer with fasting, and to embrace Godly activities (serving) and relationships (fellowshipping, confessing our sins), etc. God's part is to release supernatural influences on our heart (power, wisdom, desires), on our body (healing) and on our circumstances (provision, protection, direction) and relationships (favor).

JOURNAL 11-14-05 Monday

I am now reading this wonderful book called Desiring God by John Piper and I want to share some meaningful quotes here:

(Quote from John Piper in Desiring God, p 313)

To love God does not mean to meet His needs, but rather to delight in Him and to be captivated by His glorious power and grace and to value Him above all other things on earth. All the rest of the commandments are the kinds of things that we will do from our hearts if our hearts are truly delighted with and resting in the glory of God's grace.

JOURNAL 11-15-05 Tuesday

(Quote from John Piper in Desiring God, p 56)

The proper understanding of everything in life begins with God. No one will ever understand the necessity of conversion who does not know why God created us. He created us "in His image" so that we would image forth His glory in the world. We were made to be prisms refracting the light of God's glory into all of life. Why God should want to give us a share in shining with His glory is a great mystery. Call it grace or mercy or love--it is an unspeakable wonder. Once we were not. Then we existed--for the glory of God!

(Quote from John Piper in Desiring God, p 65-66)

Repentance and faith are our work. But we will not repent and believe unless God does His work to overcome our hard and rebellious hearts. This divine work is called regeneration. Our work is called conversion.

Conversion does indeed include an act of will by which we renounce sin and submit ourselves to the authority of Christ and put our hope and trust in Him. We are responsible to do this and will be condemned if we don't. But just as clearly, the Bible teaches that, owing to our hard heart and willful blindness and spiritual insensitivity, we cannot do this.

We must first experience the regenerating work of the Holy Spirit. The Scriptures promised long ago that God would devote Himself to this work in order to create for Himself a faithful people:

"And the Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, so that you will love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live." (Deuteronomy 30:6)

"I will give them a heart to know that I am the Lord, and they shall be my people and I will be their God, for they shall return to me with their whole heart." (Jeremiah 24:7)

"And I will give them one heart, and a new spirit I will put within them. I will remove the heart of stone from their flesh and give them a heart of flesh, that they may walk in my statutes and keep my rules and obey them. And they shall be my people, and I will be their God." (Ezekiel 11:19-20)

"And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules." (Ezekiel 36:26-27)

	These great promises from the Old Testament describe a work of God that changes a heart of stone into a heart of flesh and causes people to "know" and "love" and "obey" God. Without this spiritual heart transplant, people will not know and love and obey God. This prior work of God is what we mean by regeneration.

JOURNAL 11-17-05 Thursday

MY FAVORITE SCRIPTURES FROM MY READING YESTERDAY AND THIS MORNING IN PSALMS AND PROVERBS:

But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. (Psalm 1:2-3)

But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. (Psalm 3:3)

I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety. (Psalm 4:8)

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you. For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield. (Psalm 5: 11-12)

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge. (Proverbs 1:7)

But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm. (Proverbs 2:33)

My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding, and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He holds victory in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones. (Proverbs 2:1-8)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. (or will direct your paths) (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Honor the Lord with your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine. (Proverbs 3:9-10)

My son, do not despise the Lord's discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in. (Proverbs 3:11-12)

Do not withhold good from those who deserve it, when it is in your power to act. (Proverbs 3:27)

JOURNAL 11-19-05 Saturday

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY:

When the foundations are being destroyed, what can the righteous do? The Lord is in his holy temple; the Lord is on his heavenly throne. (Psalm 11:3-4)

For the Lord is righteous, he loves justice; upright men will see his face. (Psalm 11:7)

And the words of the Lord are flawless, like silver refined in a furnace of clay, purified seven times. (Psalm 12:6)

JOURNAL 11-20-05 Sunday

AN IMPRESSION ABOUT THE BREAD OF PROVISION COMING
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Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty." (John 6:35)

I saw this sliced loaf of bread and saw a thin see-through scarf-like cloth (like wide ribbon) being wrapped around it. It seemed I might have been doing the wrapping, but I'm not sure of that. Then I saw 2 gold cup hooks in a wall area.

What does this mean, Lord? What are You showing me here?

What does the bread stand for, Joan?

Bread stand for life or Word, doctrine, covenant, the Church, substance, provision. You said You were the bread of life, Jesus.

And what about the thin see-through scarf?

A veil which is see through means concealment, hidden, concealed, covering
A scarf (M) defines an open attitude toward new ideas

If I put these two ideas together with the bread, they could refer to an open attitude about provision, or about You, or about life, or Your Word which is somewhat hidden, concealed or covered but still visible through the scarf.

And what do you think the 2 cup hooks might refer to?

Two can mean divide, judge, separate, discern and multiplication, division
Gold can mean holy, purity, glory, great value and glory or wisdom, truth, something precious, righteousness, glory of God
Hook (M) alludes to certainty; security; a secure aspect
Cup (M) symbolizes one's personal perspective on the quality and quantity of one's life situation.
Wall can refer to a barrier, obstacle, limitation, unbelief

Putting these ideas together could refer to a certainty (hook) of great value (gold) being multiplied (two) regarding my personal life situation (cup) fastened into the limitation (wall). The wall may refer to my life which has been limited in its provision (bread) and that new provision is being shown to me even though it is still hidden or concealed. This may be showing me there is multiplication of that provision coming into my personal life situation and it is of great value to me.

Now, what do You say, Lord?

I say you are partially right. Let Me explain that the bread is Me and I am the One to meet all your needs, your provision in every way, not just financial. At the moment all that I am is partially seen by you and partially hidden from you as shown by the scarf/tie around the bread, but at the same time you can see through it to the bread. 

The cup hooks are a sign of multiplication coming of great value which will hook you and hold you in your personal life even with its limitations and barriers while on this earth. You will be provided for, Joan, and I know you have been looking for answers for that much lately. It is time. Time to have more of your provision revealed. 

It will come in steps/stages, a little at a time. Not one big blessing, but many, multiple smaller ones which together will become great blessing. You will begin to see a little this week, and I will show you what to do after that and with that. But know that this is just the beginning of a financial blessing (Me/bread) being revealed to you. There is much more to come after it begins. You have waited long and beseechingly for this time to arrive. It is time. Now. The long-awaited time has arrived/come. I am your bread, your provision, of all your needs. Keep looking to Me for this.

You will say, "My cup runneth over, surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever." (Psalm 23:5b-6)

JOURNAL 11-21-05 Monday

I want to write about an event which took place last Saturday at our house. On Halloween someone threw an egg at the front of the house while we were gone at a meeting that evening (at least that's when we think it happened). Beth had tried to spray it off with the hose, but it didn't all come off. She told her sharing group she meets with on Thursday evenings about this, and one of the host/leaders, Larry, said he would come over on Saturday and clean it off. 

Well, Larry came and brought with him a buddy of his named Rick. They took the tall extension ladder off the van and mounted it up against the front of the house. Since the egg had hit at the top of the second story just beneath the eaves, it took such a tall ladder to get near it. Larry climbed up there and washed the egg and drippings off the house with hot water and soap, then he rinsed it down. That was such a blessing! 

Then they fixed a light fixture in the kitchen, reset the ceiling fans, and looked around the house at other things that needed fixing and discussed them with Beth. She really needed that help, and God blessed her with those men helping her. Larry said some of the men's ministry group were also going to help Jean (a single mom) and Sandra (whose husband is in the military in Iraq or soon to go to Iraq). I just wanted to mention in my journal what a blessing this was and thank God for it here!

JOURNAL 11-22-05 Tuesday

A DREAM SERIES LIKE PUZZLE PIECES TO FIT TOGETHER
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In this dream I kept awaking and having a little piece of a dream or a thought or a word to write down. I think I am to write out all the pieces and see how they might fit together like a puzzle.

1. I saw a person walking along. Each time the person came to something (maybe an X) that something became a prayer going up. It was almost like a puff of smoke going off. His life became the ministry as he came to each (X or something) and walked through it. I was aware of Susan in this dream also, but I don't know why.

2. Studio B

3. [5:15 am] I'm the 1 on the clock standing between two 5's [graces].

4. [5:28 am] I'm giving you a puzzle to put together the pieces. Write that down.

5. [5:35 am] Lord, how could she know--more than know? How can I bring you delight and joy unless you listen to Me?

6. As the length of each word I write determines what words there is still room for on the next line…that is the way my life is also. What I put in each day determines what there is room for on the "page" of the next day.

1.	A person walking along may represent this person going through life's journey. This may be a prophetic dream showing a picture of what is taking place. This person comes to a marked place (this may represent a marker or milestone or special event) and smoke goes up. This could refer to prayer and/or the manifest Presence of God being seen at that place. The person's life became a ministry as he/she came to each special marked place and went through the experience there. I associate Susan with prayer so perhaps that is why she is seen here, to tie this dream in with prayer. Perhaps this person represents "people" who are Christians who go through life with outstanding events they hit every so often where God manifests Himself in their lives in meaningful ways, especially through prayer.

2.	Studio B is a Fox News program at 2:00 in the weekday afternoons with Shepherd Smith, so perhaps this piece of the puzzle puts news broadcasts in it.

3.	During this event or time sequence I am to recognize I am standing with the grace of God on both sides of me.

4.	I am to put the pieces of this dream together like putting a puzzle together.

5.	This seems to raise the question of how I must listen to the Lord in order to know, and to be brought delight and joy.

6.	The idea here is that what I do each day affects how much I can receive or do the days after today. My life events are based partly on what I do daily and how those events prepare me for the next step or stage in my "journey."

The whole sequence seems to relate to a life journey/walk. This walk is affected by prayer and the presence of God, by what is happening in the world, by the grace of God being with me, by how I listen to the Lord, and how well I prepare to receive and do what God wants.

JOURNAL 11-23-05 Wednesday

SOME MEANINGFUL SCRIPTURES I READ IN MY QUIET TIME:

I said to the Lord, "You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing." (Psalm 16:2)

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. (Psalm 16:5-6)

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. (Psalm 16:7)

I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. (Psalm 16:8)

You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. (Psalm 16:11)

A DREAM ABOUT PLANTING PLANTS
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I had some plants in a round shaped planter bowl. The larger taller plants were doing well, but the smaller plants didn't have enough dirt to do well. So I was trying to lift up the plants and add dirt under them, and also some stones to fill up the space below the plants in the planter bowl. At one point I tried to put a rubber band around the taller plants to hold them while working on the dirt underneath. I saw a very tall plant in a different bowl and said it wouldn't look right in the planter I was fixing up, that it was too tall.

Another piece of a dream: I wanted some paper to write on, looked for it, and couldn't find any blank paper. So I went to a student's room and took/borrowed his notebook thinking I'd return it when I was finished using it.

This dream seems to be showing me working at fixing up my area of labor displaying my personality and talent in a spiritual container. I was adding the work and witness needed to display and grow the gifts/talent in this spiritual container, especially so the smaller plants (gifts/talents) could grow and prosper and be displayed well. I seemed to reject a different type of plant (gift/talent) that didn't fit with my planter/container.

In the second part of the dream I seemed to want a means of writing down information or communicating information and couldn't find the paper to do that. I went to the room of one who still requires further learning experiences and used that person's notebook. This student is probably referring to me - to that part of me that still needs further learning experiences to have something to write on. This may refer to my seeking daily what the Lord wants to teach me and have me write for others to read at some point in the future.

JOURNAL 11-24-05 Thursday, Thanksgiving Day

It is a beautiful sunny day here today. I am thankful for so many many things the Lord has provided so bountifully! I spent a prayer time this morning naming these and giving thanks to Him for them.

(A Quote from Steve Schultz of ElijahList.com regarding Thanksgiving Day and Faith)

Faith and thanksgiving are very similar. Faith means, "I've watched you. I've tested you, God, and I've found You Faithful. Therefore, I'll trust you." God sees that faith as gratitude--as THANKSGIVING, IN OTHER WORDS.

SOME MEANINGFUL SCRIPTURES FROM PROVERBS 8

Choose my [wisdom] instruction instead of silver, knowledge rather than choice gold, for wisdom is more precious than rubies, and nothing you desire can compare with her. (v. 10-11)

I love those who love me [wisdom], and those who seek me find me. With me are riches and honor, enduring wealth and prosperity. My fruit is better than find gold; what I yield surpasses choice silver. I walk in the way of righteousness, along the paths of justice, bestowing wealth on those who love me and making their treasuries full. (v. 17-21)

Blessed is the man who listens to me [wisdom], watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway. For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the Lord. (v. 34-35)

A DREAM ABOUT PLANTING A FIELD OF MULTIPLE GRAINS
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I planted a field of rice and other grains in a room inside [in the middle area of] my house and I was trying to keep it wet so the rice would grow.

This dream seems to show me [my heart and mind] with a field inside of my heart that shows an interest in God's work in the world where I am planting grains [things bringing nourishment] and keeping this field watered with the Word of God and through His Spirit

JOURNAL 11-25-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT ANIMALS
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In this dream I saw various animals. First I remember being in a car in the back seat and someone else was driving the car. Out the back window I could see a yellow puffy suit -- like people wear to cover themselves completely for biological warfare possibilities. It seemed that inside this suit there were several wolves trying to look like they were a human person by being in the suit. I could see through the suit enough to see the wolves inside.

I also was inside a building looking out the glass doors into the yard and saw a lion walk by. Then the lion seemed to be dressed in human clothes and standing on its hind feet so it looked more like a man. He came to the door and tried to open the sliding door to come in. I shut the door on his hand to try to keep him out.

I am the only person functioning in this dream so it is about me. The car driver was there and I talked to him, but I didn't see a person, I just knew he was there. So I am seen here in my person or my ministry. I am being taken somewhere and controlled by another one, I think the Lord. I have revealed to me the truth about something in my past that I was unaware of, something in my memory. It seems to be about a person who was really a predator, devourer, false prophet, evil minister, or a person seeking his own gain. This person was covered or clothed with fear, cowardliness, pride or timidity. His covering could be seen through, so I could tell he was really made of wolves inside. 

Again I am the only person involved, so this dream is about me. It relates to my church, my family, and/or my work.  I am standing by a window-door looking out so it involves revelation, truth and/or understanding which can involve an entrance, opportunity, way [for Christ] to enter. I see a lion outside and I am afraid it will try to come in. Even though a lion can be positive or negative, I am thinking negative. Then I see a lion come to the door dressed in men's clothing who tries to open the door and enter. I quickly shut the door so he can't enter, and his hand is caught in the door. This seems to represent his hand being used to try to enter where he isn't wanted. His hand may represent his direction, a relationship, his works, his deeds (good or evil), his labor, his service. I shut the door on this. I'm not sure if this lion represents someone good or evil, but it shows me not wanting him to come into my church, family, or work.

Do you have anything to say about this, Lord?

Yes. I want you to know these are both negative scenes. One shows an experience in the past involving you, and the other shows an entranceway into you involving you. The past experience could relate to either of the people you mention or to your father too. Whoever it was, it represents people who misrepresent themselves before others (from your past). The second dream piece shows you someone trying to get into your life currently by coming in uninvited and unwelcomed. This is something you can look for, watch for now. You will not be sure whether this person(s) is good or bad, but you don't want him/her entering your life/space/work. If you see this happening you can come to Me for clarification about what to do. This is a warning dream about something/someone you can watch for now.

A DREAM ABOUT CHRISTIANS GATHERED TOGETHER
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In a room with a group of Christians who were being arranged into groups. The leader wanted to get me involved in helping plan and prepare breakfasts for the group(s) on occasions. I didn't think that was something I would like to do or would be good at. In this room I seemed to see many people I knew or had seen before. I moved around among the people listening to them and speaking to them. I wasn't sure if or how I should participate with them. It seemed I wasn't ordinarily a part of these groups they were forming.

I was in a place involving the Church, I think. The people there were Christians, followers of Jesus. They were in groups (which could refer to different churches or denominations). I was not a part of any group (tied to a specific church or belief system), but I seemed to know and fellowship with some of the people. The leader (Jesus?) wanted to get me involved in planning and preparing food for in the morning for the people and I didn't think I would be good at doing that. 

The idea comes that this may refer to my past experiences of being involved with and knowing people from many different church groups and affiliations, but not feeling compelled to be with any certain one. The food preparation may refer to the books I am writing which could be useful "in the morning" or at the beginning of a new day among Christians after the Rapture. What do You say about this dream, Lord?

You are right--there is no more I want to add to what you wrote. It's just to help you see yourself as part of Christian fellowship but not tied in to any one specific group - and that is ok. You don't think you would function well preparing food for others, but I know you do and will. This is a very positive dream for you.

A DREAM ABOUT PRUNING A FLOWERING TREE
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In this scene I was outside a house that seemed like maybe my parents' home in NH. I was in the side/back yard area near the driveway between the entrance and the garage. There was a tall tree there with blooming flowers on it. I was pruning the tree with large scissors-like pruning sheers. I told someone I really didn't know how to do pruning, but it needed to be done, so I would. Then someone else came and took over, maybe E. 

This dream seems to refer to something in my past that is now blooming (the tree), something fragrant (flowers) and showing glory and of God. Scissors denote a permanent separation. They were used to cut or prune a tree (me). This tree could represent a person or covering, a leader, a shelter. Perhaps this shows my being pruned of things so I can grow and produce better from now on. I didn't know how to do the pruning, but I was willing to try to do it anyhow in this dream. Then I let someone else take over that process, perhaps the Holy Spirit (represented by a male I know who is Spirit-filled).

JOURNAL 12-1-05 Thursday

I haven't written for several days because I have been sick with a bad cold and haven't felt well. I slept a lot and rested a lot and "endured" a lot. But the Lord was with me and brought me healing faster than the (sometimes) 2 weeks it takes to get over a cold. Thank You, Lord, for being with me and healing me! Thank You for creating us with built-in systems that bring about healing, even though it takes time for that to transpire.

Yesterday I had what I call a divine appointment regarding the prescription drug coverage which is now available (starting January 1, 2006) under Medicare. I have spent many many hours reading about the options through Medicare Plan D which I could have along with Original Medicare, and/or through HMO and PPO plans offered through various insurance companies. I was at the place where I felt I knew as much as I could learn through phone calls to Social Security Administration, to insurance companies, and through the internet, and didn't quite know how to make a final decision. I didn't know which was the best option for me. So I was waiting to hear from SS about whether I qualified for the extra help with my prescription drug coverage, and hoped I would know how to make the decision based on that information. I liked a Humana Gold Plus HMO plan, but didn't think I could sign up for it and also receive the extra help program.

I needed to return some books to the library yesterday even though I didn't feel quite up to traveling outside our home yet. Then I wanted to go to Walmart to get Beth's birthday gift. After returning the books to the library I went to my car. I had a coughing spell there and seriously considered going straight home. But I really wanted to get the Walmart gift bought, so I went over there to do that. When I arrived I needed to use their restroom, so walked to that area. Right outside that area I saw the representative from Humana set up in a little booth. (I realized later that I might not have even seen him if I hadn't had to use the rest room!) Then I remembered that I wanted to talk to that representative (even though I didn't have that in mind when I planned the Walmart trip). 

After talking to him for around 45 min. to an hour, I was convinced that the Humana Gold Plus HMO was the plan I wanted to sign up for, especially since he answered all my questions letting me know I could, indeed, receive the extra help plan through Humana. What a relief! I signed up and he filled out all the necessary enrollment forms as well as telling me about the primary care women doctors from a clinic that sounded like a good place to receive my primary care. I finished that process and walked away praising the Lord for bringing me there and getting all my questions answered and getting that difficult decision made--when I didn't even go to Walmart for that purpose (I thought!) Thank You, Lord, for all Your help. You kept saying to me that You would help me to make that decision at the right time, and You did!

JOURNAL 12-2-05 Friday

This song keeps going through my mind this morning. God is speaking to me through putting this song in my mind. He has done this often for me in my life -- spoken through a song He puts in my mind. When I pay attention to the words of the song, I know what He wants to tell me. Today's song is "God will take care of you."

Be not dismayed whate'er betide, 
God will take care of you,
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God will take care of you.

God will take care of you,
Through every day, 
O'er all the way.
He will take care of you.
God will take care of you.

What a wonderful message and affirmation this morning, God! Thank You!

You're welcome, My child. I am your God and your Father. I will always take care of you. Always! That is My message to you today. Thanks for listening to Me and listening for My voice. I speak to you in many ways, and you discern those ways as you look for Me everywhere you go, whatever you do. I love you, and I want to show you My love, demonstrate it, in every way today. You are a beautiful child of Mine and I delight in you--as I showed you in Proverbs today. Let Me share all your day with you--whatever you do--whether you address Christmas cards, or cook, or do dishes, or read a book, or iron, or clean, or talk to others--whatever you do, I want to share it together with you. Will you take Me with you wherever you go and whatever you do? 

Yes, Lord.

Then that will be My delight and your delight. Remember that the purpose of man is to enjoy God and reveal His glory. You enjoy Me when you share your life with Me, and that also brings Me glory and reveals it to others. As you live, you share Me. As you speak, you reveal Me. As you seek, you find Me. I am your All in all.

(I read this email newsletter article by Francis Frangipane regarding God's appointed times. I wanted to include it here since this is about "In His Time.")

Your Appointment Awaits You
Francis Frangipane

Appointed Times
In spite of escalating turmoil in our world, there still remains one last, great outpouring of mercy before the time of the end (Matt 24:14; Acts 2:17). This supernatural season is not something for which we must beg God. No, its coming has been predetermined. It is the “appointed time” of the Lord.

For those unaware, an “appointed time” is, in truth, an open display of the sovereignty and power of God. In it we discover with absolute certainty that nothing is impossible for God. It is a season when God fulfills the hopes and dreams of His people. The Psalmist wrote, “But You, O LORD, abide forever, and Your name to all generations. You will arise and have compassion on Zion; for it is time to be gracious to her, for the appointed time has come” (Ps 102:12-13). 

During an “appointed time” it’s as though the Lord physically rises and moves in unfailing compassion on behalf of His people. It is the time when divine promises, dreams and spiritual hopes are fulfilled. Recall: Abraham and Sarah had waited in faith for a quarter century for the promise of God. Finally, as they neared one hundred years of age, the Lord told Abraham, “At the appointed time I will return to you . . . and Sarah will have a son” (Gen 18:14). One year later, “at the appointed time” (Gen 21:2), Isaac was born to aged parents! 

While there are, indeed, appointed times of judgment (Mk 13:33), the phrase most frequently represents a time, preset by God, when He invades mankind with “wonders, plans formed long ago, [that unfold] with perfect faithfulness”(Isa 25:1). 

Demons may stand arrayed against the Lord; nations may align themselves to fight Him. It does not matter. He who sits in the heavens laughs. For He makes all things His servants (Ps 119:91), even His enemies’ plans for evil are reversed and made to serve the purpose of God (Gen 50:20; Rom 8:28; Acts 2:22-24). 

If God gave you a vision, a spiritual hope or dream for your future, there will be an appointed time when that which God spoke comes to pass. Thus the Lord assures us, “Record the vision and inscribe it on tablets, that the one who reads it may run. For the vision is yet for the appointed time. It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay” (Hab 2:2-3). 

If you have a vision or promise from God, that vision also has a time of fulfillment. Though it tarries, wait for it. For it will certainly come to pass at the appointed time. 

Appointed Servants of God
Prior to the unveiling of an appointed time, God has, of course, been actively working in hiddenness. When He rises and moves, He is moving the power grid He laid in secret. The work manifests suddenly, but the preparation may have taken years. Likewise, the Lord also appoints people. He predestines the time of their breakthrough in advance, even as He works silently within their hearts in preparation. 

JOURNAL 12-3-05 Saturday

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I'VE READ RECENTLY:

You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. (Psalm 18:28)

He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me. (Psalm 18:33, 35-36)

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. (Psalm 19:14)

With humility comes wisdom. A man of understanding holds his tongue. A trustworthy man keeps a secret. He who sows righteousness reaps a sure reward. The Lord…delights in those whose ways are blameless. A generous man will prosper. The righteous will thrive like a green leaf. The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life, and he who wins souls is wise. (Proverbs 11:2, 12, 13, 18, 20, 25, 28, 30)

JOURNAL 12-5-05 Monday

Today the Lord guided me to read back over my journal writings for August, September, October, and November. As I did, He brought to my remembrance many things He had shown me. Some of them are:

•	That people would be saved and helped through my books.
•	That I am wise to receive what the Lord freely gives me
•	That I am to go forward even though I fear disapproval
•	That the books he is having me write follow me for the rest of my life
•	That I experience spiritual warfare along with other Christians
•	That I am helping others get healed and cleansed
•	That I am "swimming" in the Spiritual realm along with Him
•	That I am to keep Jesus as first place in my life
•	That my ministry is like a multiplying bird
•	That I am playing a duet with the Lord in the prophetic work I do
•	That my ministry is parked in the right place right now, even though it might make a turn later
•	Other people help me get my books in the right place
•	Jesus is coming soon to tell me what I am to do/be next
•	He showed me a picture of my (soon) coming to sing in His choir in my celestial robe
•	Kim needed to be part of our family because she was one who belonged to the Father
•	My writing will continue until the completion of a set time (of the division of those who receive Him and those who don't)
•	God's angels help get my books to the right people
•	We're counting to 100 showing the full measure of His prophetic plan for His covenant people
•	I am given revelation about writing a 9th book called In His Time
•	I am shown a dream about graduating, trading my dwelling place, and going up steps to an open door to enter
•	The Lord has led me in writing books as an everlasting witness. He shows me a little at a time
•	The Holy Spirit is like a gray ruler that I am to take hold of and He will enable me to measure all that comes my way
•	He is preparing me for flying with Him into revelatory realms for very special occasions
•	There are spiritual building materials coming down from above and touching my Christian walk
•	The Lord has shown me there is a pre-programmed set of 3 steps coming to bring healing to me
•	The Lord is working in many places, in the foundation of people with the foundation of the Gospel, and there are no barriers stopping Him right now
•	The Lord is "seeing" me and seeing what I am doing. I am a seer and see into His world.
•	A successful Christian life will be based on how close to the Lord we have become and how obedient we have been to Him.
•	The Holy Spirit is powerful within me and mighty. His power has not yet all been seen by me
•	A dream showed me trying to finish many work projects before leaving the earth
•	Judith spoke over me that I am a prayer warrior and that I won't know the effects until heaven
•	Leon spoke over me about God's fire being on me, that I have fought depression, and that I have given up a lot that others do not see
•	Kevin spoke over me about continuing writing: that he saw a quill pen, blank pages still to be written, and that I was "the pen of a ready writer"
•	God said He is bringing judgment on America. It will be in the places which have tolerated much wickedness and have not repented. People have this one more chance to make their choice, and then those who have chosen Him will be taken out and the rest left. The final decisions are being made right now for people on earth.
•	I had a prophetic dream about people in America who were poor because they don't have a deposit in the heavenly bank
•	I dreamed about being finished in one year (on September 11 during night and recorded on 12th)
•	I dreamed of "singing colors" which means telling others about Jesus and what He is like and who He is - His many colors of Light
•	I still need to seek for more cleansing inside of me (later He told me this was happening as He replaced my heart with His own, as Bill told us to pray for)
•	I will soon be celebrating the birth of something new in me through the Spirit

JOURNAL 12-6-05 Tuesday

The Lord told me this morning that humility and dependency (on Him) go hand in hand. He is keeping me humble by keeping me dependent. It's for my good that He is doing this. Thank You, Lord, for doing this!

The Lord says I have prophesied through my books and through my prayers. He said I don't see it or hear it (being fulfilled) because I do it by faith.

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I READ

(Proverbs 12:11a) He who works his land will have abundant food. (He reminded me that my "land" is my writing, and that as I work at my writing on a regular basis, I will have abundant food)

(Proverbs 12:14) From the fruit of his lips a man is filled with good things as surely as the work of his hands rewards him.

(Proverbs 12:18b) The tongue of the wise brings healing.

(Proverbs 12:26a) A righteous man is cautious in friendship.

(Psalm 21:7) For the king trusts in the Lord; through the unfailing love of the Most High he will not be shaken.

A DREAM ABOUT A LONG WHITE HAIR PIECE
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In this dream I was at a beauty shop. A lady in the shop showed me a long white hair piece which could be put on my head. It seemed they had done something to the hair piece and it could no longer be colored, so it was not of much use to them to use for their clients. She let me try it on. As I did I combed it into my own hair and it blended in with my natural hair wonderfully and didn't look separate, but it did add a lot of white to my hair look.  It was long and flowing and full, and I really liked the look, but I wondered about having that much white in my hair. I realized it would keep on fitting/blending with my hair as my natural hair kept getting whiter. It included a lacy attachment that came down around my shoulders and back and had a covering over the upper third of my body. I felt pressure on the sides of my scalp where it pushed with a tension bar, and didn't think I would like to feel that all the time so I wasn't sure I should keep it.

The Holy Spirit said about this dream: 

The white wig - it's as I see you with long flowing white hair--as wise/with great wisdom. It blends in with your natural hair--My wisdom and yours blend together. It is long--as your wisdom has been growing for a long time.

A beauty shop can refer to the Church, preparation, vanity, or holiness. Hair refers to your covering, your covenant, and gray hair to wisdom and anointing. White can refer to the Spirit of the Lord, holy power, purity, without mixture, spotless, righteousness, truth, and innocence. This hair piece blended in with my natural hair beautifully and they looked like they were one. That is how the Lord's wisdom and my wisdom blend together. It included a "covering" around the upper part of my body also. The covering over the upper part of my body may refer to this covering my heart as well as my head (mind). The pressure on the sides of my head may refer to the pressure put on someone with wisdom to be careful about when and where to share it. I was wondering if I should keep that, due to the pressure it put on my head/mind.

(Continuing in my Journal readings today where I left off yesterday)

•	Bill proclaimed to me that I am an intercessor, that there was light around me, and he saw prophecy on me. He saw angels going up and down over me, and he saw wisdom in me too.
•	The Word and intimacy and intercession all go together
•	The longer you move in the prophetic, the quieter His voice gets
•	Don't just share revelation knowledge; share God's heart
•	As you get close to Him the prophetic is going to happen
•	Don't build a ministry; build a relationship (with God)
•	God has called us to be obedient, not to understand. Often the understanding will come as you obey
•	Fear of the Lord is freeing; it breaks off fear of man, fear of transition, fear of change
•	Moving prophetically is exactly like jumping off a high dive when there's no water in the pool. Just before you hit the pool, it fills up with water
•	Bill saw for me: light bulb, intercession, lots of time in the Word, clear window, vision, seer anointing, gift of intercession, eyes really clear, ascending and descending angelic presence in the home, precious jewels in me, real deposit of wisdom, I yield myself to Him in such a way that I allow Him to flow through me, and he saw Beth and me as a real team
•	From Uncle Leon: I am baptized with the Holy Ghost and with fire, depression wanted to come on me because of the things I was thinking, but this is a new day. There is joy and peace in the middle of the storm. I have power inside me because I've got the Holy Ghost inside me. He goes with me every place I go. The fire goes with me. I have given up a lot, but it's like seed. God says it's time for the return of the harvest. The power of God is going through me right now; it's like Jesus is doing an operation on me right now. It's the anointing. Destroy the yoke. There's a prophetic anointing on my life. I am to move into more than what I've ever done before. I am powerful in God. The day is coming because of the healing anointing on me that people will open up to me and share what's in their hearts. It's like an anointing of inner healing. People will trust me. It's an anointing of inner healing that will flow through me.
•	As I prayed for the ability to see prophetic pictures over people as Bill does, and for the knowledge of prophetic language to interpret what I see, the date came of Dec. 27, 2005
•	The Holy Spirit said what is discipling but helping people grow in the Lord and that perhaps I will eventually use prophecy to do that
•	The Spirit says in my Quiet Time I go to heaven, the world beyond, just on the other side of a thin veil of time
•	Real holiness is the natural growth of the human personality to its full maturity as an individual, and in the process, becoming a beautiful person. That is all that God wants of us. (J. Girzone)
•	(Chuck Pierce) God has chosen to use us as a necessary link to bring His will to earth. He calls us to come into dialog with Him, listen to His voice, and gain prophetic revelation so the hope of our calling can be fulfilled. He asks us to take that revelation and prophesy it into the earth realm. This action of declaring prophetic revelation is called prophetic intercession.
•	The Lord says I have prophesied through my books and through my prayers

JOURNAL 12-7-05 Wednesday

Before I went to sleep the Holy Spirit said:

 I am showing My prophets about the times and seasons. Write down the dreams I give you tonight.

A DREAM ABOUT DISCUSSING MINISTRY PLANS
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Three of us were discussing ministry plans to help others. I wanted to share an idea regarding how people sometimes do/say things that are hurtful. I thought we might do a drama to demonstrate. I didn't get to share it in the time we had to meet together because another person took all the time talking about his ideas. Then we got up and started leaving. The one who did the talking was not even supposed to be at the meeting, just me and the other person (unknown).

What does it mean, Lord?

It means I am giving you and the Holy Spirit My (Jesus) plans for your ministry instead of using your plans. The time is short and it is important to use My plans instead of devising some yourself. The meeting was between you and the Holy Spirit, but I came and gave you both My plans, then we left so you two could do them.

A DREAM ABOUT A MINISTRY ACTIVITY
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There was a strip where the ministry (or something) took place. It seemed to have some activity taking place on it.
										  ___________
Perhaps the strip represents my life? The strip looked like a long rectangle: |___________|  

Perhaps this is depicting my life span and indicates that "activity" is happening in that time for me. What does this dream mean, Lord?

It means a picture of your life span (as you discerned) and that I am active in your life. Be encouraged by this. Your time on earth is short compared with eternity, so I need to be very active in your short time on earth. This is a picture of that happening.

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23)

He who guards his lips guards his life. (Proverbs 13:3a)

Righteousness guards the man of integrity. (Proverbs 3:6a)

The light of the righteous shines brightly. (Proverbs 3:9a)

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. (Proverbs 3:12)

Prosperity is the reward of the righteous. (Proverbs 3:21b)

He who spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is careful to discipline him. (Proverbs 3:24)

(Continuing in my Journal readings today where I left off yesterday)

•	In a dream He showed me I have a sense and knowing of His presence, but am now asking for even more signs and indications of His presence.
•	I am to watch for leaders and people with influence who have the power to sway others--and seek the Lord for their motives and for prophetic understanding about them--then inform those who might be deceived.
•	The Holy Spirit said He called me to be a key to open doors for others
•	Bill said I have a well within me to share with others
•	When rejection doesn't bother me anymore, neither will acceptance
•	Dreams impart deposits in me
•	Bill saw me with goggles on as a welder putting things together (he thought praying for unity)
•	We need to have a core group of people who are "safe" among which we can be vulnerable and voice our feelings, people who can help us deal with our struggles
•	Character issues take time to mature, the gifting can come in an instant
•	As I grow in the prophetic, my eyes will be opened even more
•	The Lord deposits seed in us through the spoken Word, through prophetic words spoken over us, and through a dream depositing the word/idea in us
•	We must continually be careful what seed we sow into our own lives and into the lives of others through the words we speak, because they produce an effect
•	God will keep me in His care until the Rapture
•	Once my books are on the web they are not dependent on me anymore, they are dependent on Him--and he is dependable
•	Bill said he saw me putting my face down in a pool of water that said healing on it. My eyes and understanding were opened to healing then.
•	Many prophetic words are invitations to intercede
•	The Lord wants leaders who will sense His presence, follow the Spirit, and stay out of the way
•	It's in the rest and peace that we'll be able to hear His voice clearly
•	Bill said to Beth and me: he saw lots of books behind us (12), a river flowing through them, a cloud of His Presence upon us, new sandals to take us on a new path, a new life, follow Him, greater understanding, he saw me handing Beth the fire (all my intercession going way back), and to me: a blue thread, part of garment handed down through generations, an anointing getting stronger with each generation, a curtain being drawn open, wind chimes, very sensitive to Spirit even as a child

A DREAM ABOUT A HOUSE WITH CHUTES TO UPPER LEVEL WINDOWS
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I was in a house which wasn't familiar. It didn't seem to have any furniture in it. It was an old house but seemed to be new for me to be in. It seemed like Beth or someone was in the kitchen doing some ironing. I was walking around the house looking at it. A man came to the front door that just had a screen door on it. He had come earlier and fixed some things and came to see if they were ok. So he walked around to see that. I looked from what seemed like the living room, which had blue walls, to a place where there was a rectangular opening in the wall. As I looked in it, I saw that it was a curved vent or chute or opening to the next higher level and seemed to end at a window. There were two of these from the living room to a higher level. The windows at the end seemed to be light and bright with thin maybe lacy curtains on them.

An old house can refer to the past, your inheritance, your ancestor's religion, ways, temperament or established tradition. This house had areas that needed to be fixed or patched up. The man who came to the door seemed to have done some of that. Maybe he represents Jesus (unknown man). The house probably refers to me and my past. I seemed to be looking over this unfamiliar place which may refer to looking into places inside me from my past experiences. The blue walls refer to spiritual walls. The chutes going upward seem to indicate communication with God from inside of me and revelation through the windows. This would fit with what Bill said in prophecy class about my having ancestor(s) who prophesied/prayed for me. 

JOURNAL 12-8-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT PLAYING CLARINET AND TRANSITIONING TO SOMETHING NEW
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1. I was learning how to play clarinet notes; I was teaching myself and I was only using the left hand to push down the keys. I tried to figure which fingers to use for which keys.

2. Beth and I were in a room. I was putting dresses away. I was turning a pink lacy formal gown right side out. A boy was also in the room. I didn't observe any interaction among the three of us, just what I was doing with the dress. I left the door open to the hallway and J came in.

3. I was walking into the hallway when a man in front of me started to tell me something which he called a miracle but he wanted it kept a secret at that time. Then I woke up.

1.	In this part of the dream I seemed to be working gradually on learning how to prophesy and how to minister to others through spiritual gifts, perhaps how to worship God by doing this. The left hand being used may refer to this being spiritual and in God's strength. It seems to picture my recent interest in prophesying by taking the Prophecy Class taught by Bill, and in reading the book Light Belongs In The Darkness by Patricia King which teaches about prophesying also. This might be showing a picture of prophesying through my books (clarinet can symbolize lyrical verbiage, enhanced statements according to MSR dream book)

2.	Beth and I being in a room may refer to my dealing with issues. Putting dresses away might mean I was dealing with my mantle or anointing which was pink. Pink could mean having a heart of "flesh" or being sensitive to God, having a passion for God. I was turning it right side out, so this may refer to getting my heart of flesh turned right side out. The boy could refer to me and Beth could refer to me. Since I was the only one doing anything, this seems to be about me. J coming into the room may represent Jesus, My husband, coming into the situation.

3.	Going from room to hallway may refer to going from an issue into a transition or in a direction. The man may represent an angel or the Holy Spirit telling me some revelation for me which might be unknown to others or that I was not to share with others. The miracle would represent something supernatural that God was doing or going to do.

What do You say this dream series means, Holy Spirit?

This means you are learning to prophesy and getting things turned right side out and are walking into a transition where you encounter Me and learn My secret knowledge. You are in a transition stage right now. This dream is all about you, Joan, and is a prophetic picture of what is happening in your life right now. You are transitioning to something new and, for now, a secret from others, and it is supernaturally from God. It is to encourage you and give you revelation about what I am doing in you right now. You can expect this.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of a transition taking place in my life especially involving prophecy.

SOME MEANINGFUL SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY

Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. (Psalm 25:4)

According to your love remember me, for you are good, O Lord. (Psalm 25:7b)

Who, then, is the man that fears the Lord? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him. (Psalm 25:12)

The Lord confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. (Psalm 25:14)

There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death. (Proverbs 14:12)

A gentle answer turns away wrath. (Proverbs 15:1a)

The eyes of the Lord are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good. (Prov. 15:3)

The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life. (Proverbs 15:4a)

The house of the righteous contains great treasure. (Proverbs 15:6a)

The prayer of the upright pleases him [the Lord]. (Proverbs 15:8b)

(Quotes from the book Light Belongs in the Darkness by Patricia King)

(83) "I want to emphasize that the source of the true prophetic is the Holy Spirit and the testimony of Jesus (see Rev. 19:10). The false can be the carnal mind, the voice of the world, or the demonic. We need to learn to discern the true voice of God.

(84-87) "A Christ-directed life is easy to walk in, if we walk by faith according to His truth. The key to prophesying is simply to identify God's voice. We know that He speaks to His children, so it is just a matter of getting tuned in to His wave-length. Once you hear His voice, then you can communicate as He directs.

"Development of Godly character is the most important aspect about operating in the prophetic gift. The heart's motive must be pure, or the prophetic flow can be defiled.

1.	A Single Heart: In preparing our heart to prophesy, we need to consider our commitment to the Lord…to be effective in the prophetic, we must have a single focus.
2.	Posture: A posture of waiting on the Lord will allow us to hear His voice and receive from Him.
3.	Repentance From Sin: Repentance removes any contamination that can block the prophetic from flowing.
4.	Childlikeness: The prophetic word is best received when we embrace childlike simplicity. Children don't strive--they trust and enjoy the benefits of their parent's provision.
5.	Faith: Believe that you can prophesy. You have everything you need to prophesy, but the gift must be activated by faith. When prophesying, believe that God speaks and that He will speak to you. Also, believe that He desires to bless the person you are ministering to; you can reach into God's heart and hear the special word for that person. Finally, believe that the Lord will enable you to deliver what He has revealed. The gift of prophecy is always operated by faith.
6.	Humility and Servanthood:  We are to love and serve in a spirit of humility. We always point people to Jesus when prophesying.
7.	Faithful in Little: When beginning to prophesy, you might feel as if you don't have very much to offer. (She often said "God loves you with an everlasting love"). That word is true for all people and for all time. The testimony of its power is amazing! Having been faithful in little, God gave me increase.   

WAYS TO HEAR FROM GOD

(87-91) 
"God speaks to His people in many ways, but most predominantly through "God thoughts," which are pictures or impressions seen in the imagination.

1.	God Thoughts
"Your mind is an organ of the soul that God gave you for the purpose of enhancing relationship with Him. He has given you the ability to think and reason through your thoughts, which is the place where you will most often share communication with Him. The mind is a vital organ for spiritual growth. God speaks His thoughts into your mind consistently, so it is just a matter of learning to recognize them. Thoughts can come from your soulish nature, a demonic source, the world's influence, or the inspiration of the Lord, so we must be able to recognize the source. A word from God is loving, righteous, kind, pure, aligned with truth, and full of wisdom and encouragement.

"In preparing to hear from God in your thoughts, take time to cleanse your mind and set it apart for the Lord's use. Invite Him to give you "God thoughts," and He will. One way to strengthen your ability to receive God thoughts is to sit down with a journal and Bible and then ask the Lord questions, believing for an answer. This process is called "inquiring of the Lord." David often inquired of the Lord and so can you. Before you begin to inquire, pray for cleansing over your thoughts. Then, invite God to forgive you for any defiling thoughts that entered your mind up to that point. Declare to the enemy that "the voice of a stranger you will not hear." Bind satan's influence in Jesus' name and cast down all thoughts that come from your carnal nature. Asking the Holy Spirit to fill your mind with His thoughts is what prepares you to hear from God.

2.	God Pictures
"Just as the Lord places thoughts in our minds, He puts images in our imagination. Our imagination is a vision center created to receive pictures from God. You will never receive a visionary experience without the imagination being involved to some degree. The imagination is the place in your heart where you see vision.

"Again, consecrating this organ is very important. In our life, we can be tempted to receive vain, evil, or lustful imaginations. Therefore, it is vital to receive cleansing by asking the Lord to forgive wrong imaginations and then to set ourselves apart, afresh for His purposes. As with the preparation process for the mind, make sure to take captive any demonic or carnal influence and bind the enemy from interjecting his images. One way to stir up your vision center is to meditate on prophetic visions in the Bible." 

JOURNAL 12-9-05 Friday

This morning the Holy Spirit guided me to imagine/dream about what might come next for me, in my next season of life after this "interlude" at Beth's house. As He spoke to me I got up and wrote down what He was putting in my mind:

I've got another season for you after you leave Beth's. It's a season you won't want to miss. After you get into it you'll realize that. You will continue to write as I've said. I want you to have this. It's good. Don't despair because you have to move again. I will provide for all your needs. I love you and won't desert you. Now rest in Me.

(The clock now said 5:55 a.m.)
Triple grace to you in this next season, and triple service to others too. And I will provide triple provision too -- meaning all you could want. Remember that's what you wanted? All you needed and not more to deal with? That's still a good desire for you -- and it's what I'll bring you. It's accessed by faith, just as it has been all along. You've done it (accessed it) this far and you can the rest of the way too. It's there for you to access.

I love you and I won't leave you in your old age. There will be many who will need discipling.

As long as you have Me, you have all you need.

(Quotes from the book Light Belongs in the Darkness by Patricia King)

HOW DO YOU DISCERN THE TRUE FROM THE FALSE

(91) The following are a few helpful plumblines to test true prophetic words.

It is unto edification, exhortation, and comfort. Your words should encourage those you minister to. Ask yourself this question: "Is this word encouraging? Will it bless the one I'm ministering to? Will it build them up or bring comfort?"

It does not conflict with the Scriptures. John 17:17 states that a true inspired word from God will never violate the counsel of the Scriptures. Always search the Bible in order to support your revelation.

It represents God's nature. 1 Corinthians 13 shows God's nature to be loving, kind, and merciful; He is full of truth and righteousness. Since they represent the Author, true prophetic words will never be rude, distasteful, judgmental, critical, boastful, or corrupt. They will always represent the heart of God's saving grace as "the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy" (Rev. 19:10). Jesus means "Savior," and the spirit of prophecy represents His saving nature.

It bears witness. Most often, a true prophetic word will bear witness in a person's heart, although sometimes a person might not understand the word right away.

It is often confirmed by outward circumstances. When you speak a word over someone, he or she can usually confirm it through situations that are happening in his or her life.

Does it come to pass? If a prophetic word has a foretelling dimension, then, of course, its fulfillment is the ultimate proof.

GROWING IN THE PROPHETIC

(92-3) Practice, journal, be under good accountability, make wrongs right, overcome Jezebel. Jezebel is an evil spirit that attacks the prophetic gift. Most often, Jezebel uses intimidating thoughts and accusations to assault those stepping out in faith. Don't allow intimidation to hold you back.

(95) Carol Arnott: "It is simply understanding that He is always with us and will give us what we need to bless another person. It's not about us and what have to do; it's about Him and what He longs to do through us… When I approach someone to share the gospel, I know He'll be there. When I pray for the sick, He'll be there. When I need to give a prophetic encouragement, I am confident that He is there to give me the inspiration. In the same way that He is with me in my prayer and soaking times, He is with me everywhere I go and in everything I do. His presence is always there. it is just so fun holding on to Father's hand and watching Him move."

(Continuing in my Journal readings today where I left off yesterday)

•	It won't be long until He comes and changes me to be like Him.
•	He will keep healing me bit by bit and keep me functioning ok until the Rapture.
•	Sometimes the Lord provides for me by stretching the money I have to cover my needs by giving me discounts, etc.
•	Some people are earning doctoral degrees, some Master's degrees, and some have not yet learned to have a personal relationship with Jesus.
•	At the Rapture or at death, it will be like the electricity went off suddenly and just as suddenly will be back on, but in another place.
•	In heaven there will be many places to see and discover and explore. I will have a place there I will love and will suit me just right. Place and people and what I do with my time…they are all important to me now, and they will be important to me in heaven too.
•	Bill said he saw the Presence like a thick cloud over Beth and me and a very strong bond between the two of us, a rare thing, we complement each other very well, almost the same in some ways.
•	The fuse is lit to begin the tribulation; it will not stop now. It won't be long until it explodes on the world scene.
•	My books are what I am preparing to give to help quench the thirst of people.
•	Anytime I am afraid I am to close my eyes, focus on Jesus, and remember His great love for me. I am to let that overshadow me and sink into me and fill me, and cast out all fear.
•	God wants me to pray and intercede and write it all down to share with others.
•	The "kiss from heaven" given me by Kathy B deposited in me a new name/characteristic.
•	The Lord showed me in a dream that I am a "paver" who paves the way for others to follow…like a Highway of Holiness, a highway for God, to remove the stones and raise a banner. He will use my books for that.
•	Bill said: submitting to and staying under Divinely ordained authority is like having a bunker for a safe place during a battle.
•	Judy saw me with headphones with music playing; Bill saw lights/angels behind me. He prayed that I would hear the worship of heaven and singing of angels.
•	Bill saw me as an altar of intercession. He saw the Lord drive His sword down into us through our heads, prayed that we would know Him as the Living Word with more of His presence to be released into our home.

JOURNAL 12-11-05 Sunday

During worship time at CTC this morning the Spirit spoke this to me and I wrote it down:

You don't know how very much pleased I am to be in the presence of such praises and worship. I am here watching and noting your hearts poured out toward Me. It's while you're living in the darkness on earth that your light (of Me) shines even brighter and I see it. I am pleased!

A DREAM ABOUT DESIRING TO STOP EATING SWEETS
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I dreamed I was telling a man I had diabetes and wanted to be accountable to him to quit eating sugar. I awoke with the desire to stop eating sweets as it was foolish to help the devil hurt my body.

I believe this dream is not a symbolic one, but it refers to my believing I have diabetic symptoms and believe it would be better for me to give up desserts. I think I was telling Jesus I wanted to be accountable to Him regarding giving up sweets. As I discussed this with Him, He said that was for desserts and was not for sugar I used in drinks (like tea, cocoa, and cranberry juice). Just desserts I was to give up.

As usual (always?) when a commitment is made, there is a testing of that commitment. At church I succumbed to accepting a free sweet roll that Jean described to Elton was delicious and he took one with him. So I brought one home and cut it into pieces, ate a piece, and froze the rest of the pieces. The Lord says I can keep it here for the once-in-awhile times when I really want something sweet and He says it is ok to eat it. I am accountable to Him as to when it is ok.

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I READ RECENTLY

The Lord is my light and my salvation--whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my live--of whom shall I be afraid? (Psalm 27:1)

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. (Psalm 27:4)

For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. (Psalm 27:5)

My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, Lord, I will seek. (Psalm 27:8)

Teach me your way, O Lord; lead me in a straight path. (Psalm 27:11)

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Psalm 27:14)

Better a little with the fear of the Lord than great wealth with turmoil. Better a meal of vegetables where there is love than a fattened calf with hatred. (Proverbs 15:17-18)

(Proverbs 15:19, 22, 25b, 30, 33)
The path of the upright is a highway. (19)
Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisors they succeed. (22)
He keeps the widow's boundaries intact. (25b)
A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones. (30)
The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor. (33)

(Notes from reading my past journals for August-November, 2005)

•	The Lord says He is preparing me for the revival in the vision by Tommy Hicks…and I am to receive it.
•	He says I am going to be an evangelist, but in His way - the way He has for me. He says I am going to be a healer, but in His way and His time. It will come.

(Quote from Director's Cut by Alton Gansky page 85)

"The Pacific [Ocean] is aptly named. Looking at it always gave me a sense of peace. No matter what happened around me, the ocean never changed. That was how I had come to think of God…  Through the difficult and even life-threatening events in my life, God had been there, unaltered by the chaos that surrounded me. Like the ocean, he could change everything around him, and not be changed in the process. There was comfort in that."

JOURNAL 12-13-05 Tuesday

Last night before I went to sleep this song ("My Dreams Are Getting Better All the Time") kept running through my head.

A DREAM ABOUT BETH FIXING SOME PINK SHAPES
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(5:20 am) I had a dream which I knew as I dreamed that I had had it before--therefore I knew it would turn out ok. It seemed to deal with Beth fixing something and it was a surprise how it came out. But it did work out well. It seems I/we wondered if we saw smoke at one point in time, but weren't sure we did. It seems like there were some pink pieces or shapes on a black thing/shape being fixed.

My first thoughts on this dream are that the pink things Beth is fixing on something black refer to things inside her (which seem invisible or dark or unable to have color or emotion) will be fixed a piece at a time to show "a heart of flesh" which the Lord will give her in those areas. This worked out well for her and was positive. Wondering if we saw smoke may refer to thinking we saw the Manifest Presence of the Lord in the situation. This seems like a dream to comfort me regarding some changes Beth is going through currently. It will turn out well.

A DREAM ABOUT A CALENDAR WITH A TORN OUT SECTION
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(Later) Seems like I was aware of a calendar with a section torn out on the right side.

•	Calendar: time, date, event, appointment; (MSR) signifies time, a specific date. This dream fragment is usually presented as being important for the dreamer

The thought that comes as to the meaning is that some of my time will be torn away from me. If the placement of the torn area signifies something, then it looks like the last part of each week is what will be torn away. Holy Spirit, do You want to talk to me about this?

Yes. It refers to something that is coming which will take part of your time so things will be changed from what they are now. There is no specific month shown in the dream so the timing of this "time taken away" is not yet known as to when it will happen. It is not a negative dream, but just a dream letting you know something is coming that will take some of your time differently from what it is now. That's all you need to know now.

JOURNAL 12-14-05 Wednesday

Praise the Lord! He brought me a great provision today! Yesterday I had to borrow money temporarily from Beth so I could buy groceries, knowing that my Social Security check would be deposited today in my bank account. Today when Beth checked my account online, she found out that an extra amount was being deposited today - the end of the year Social Security catch up amount that I was hoping and praying for. The amount I get depends on my ex-husband's earnings through the year and if he made more money than previously, then I get more in my SS check. Evidently he did make more than SS had figured my payment on, and so they sent me the rest today. It will be enough to pay my personal property taxes before the end of this month! I am so grateful, Lord! Thank You, thank You, thank You!

Praise be to the Lord, for he has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. (Psalm 28:6-7)

I love you, Joan, and I will always take care of you! Trust in Me because I am trustworthy. Now you can pay off the things you owe Beth, and pay the property taxes as well as have some extra to help ease the way into next year. 

Since the Lord has shown me that my next book will be Stories of Miracles and Revival, I wanted to include this story sent by Claudia who is a missionary to Mali who attends our church (Christ Triumphant Church in Lees Summit, MO) when she is in the KC area and can come. She is a very courageous woman and I thank the Lord for this good report of revival in her ministry work. I received the report through our church email on December 14, 2005.

SPARKS OF REVIVAL IN MALI
My heart is full of joy, full of excitement, at the sparks of revival I'm seeing here in Mali. I have now been here for over 2 years. I came with the fire of God, a fire that over time would grow smaller because of all the fire-extinguishers working against it, so I would go back to the US to rekindle the flame and restart the cycle upon my return. I became frustrated at the fire not spreading, not even to my own team.

Just over two weeks ago, we did a symbolic act of erecting an altar of God in the middle of the church/house, where the fire would NEVER go out! That night was very significant for me, as the oil of Holy Spirit was poured on the fire inside of me, so that it flared up brightly again and removed all the fire-extinguishing stuff.

Two days later we could already see a change in our team prayer meeting, as also a week later, with the theme of FIRE coming up again and again. This past Saturday, we were worshipping the Lord, with prophetic song flowing, when Emma spoke up, starting to share the visitation from the Lord he had on Friday. It was the first of a 3-day fast he was doing. He heard a Voice telling him several times to read Isaiah 58 before he finally did, and he was amazed, as the Lord started speaking to him. And then Emma saw Jesus Himself in front of him, and He took Emma's hand. When He did, the power of God hit Emma. The Lord spoke many things to him, most of which he hasn't shared. I've asked Emma to write down all that happened with his own words, whatever he can share, and I will pass it on to you.

So, it's Saturday night, Emma is sharing all this, while the Lord is telling me what to do next. God changed what I had planned for that night. There were Simeon, Paul, Seybou, Emma and I. First, I knew that Emma had to preach that Sunday, and then that he had to pray for each one of us. The presence of God had already increased in the room, as we were around the spot where we had erected the altar two plus weeks earlier. I kept playing softly, while Emma started praying for the first one, then the second and third. I stayed near him, behind him, as a support. The power of God was visibly on Emma as he prayed, flowing through him. Emma was regathering his forces, while we were singing softly, when Simon-Pierre walked in. Amazing timing! Simon-Pierre was in our Bible School last year, but now we hardly see him (he is doing his final year at High School). He has never come on a Saturday night before! As he walked in, I knew he was next to be prayed for. Emma started praying, and the compassion of God came down on him, a spirit of intercession for Simon-Pierre, and he started sobbing and trembling while praying for Simon-Pierre. It was very powerful. After that, Emma laid down on the floor and I told him to stay there and refill, and I'd pray for him. Little time later Emma was back up, and I had him pray for me. The Lord filled me with His joy, filled Emma with joy, and Paul as well, as we were on the floor or on our knees. The fire of God had come down!

I want to put this quote from Patricia King in my book because I feel it is the clearest description of the covenant we have with God that I have ever read or heard.

(Quote from the book by Patricia King called Light Belongs In The Darkness  p. 111-126)

(111) "If believers are going to bring light into darkness, then we need to understand the message of the gospel of love. The key to seeing a soul come to Christ is not found in a technique or an evangelistic program, but rather in a revelation of Jesus Christ, Savior of the world. I am amazed at how many Christians do not understand the message of the Cross or the eternal, unbreakable, love covenant that God secured for mankind through Christ. Understanding this very message is crucial to bringing light into darkness.

(112) The gospel message is the message of love in its purest form--it is the revelation of Christ, God's gift to mankind…What manner of love would motivate a perfect, holy, and righteous God to offer a sinful and rebellious person the right to become His very own dear child and heir of all that He is and has?

God desired children, and everyone ever born was desired by God. No one was a mistake. Everyone has value and purpose. God is love, and the nature of love gives and lavishes goodness and kindness on others. God desired a family so that He could lavish His love on each and every one; this is His nature.

(113) God deeply desired children, yet even before man was created, He knew we were going to cause Him great pain. As a result of foreknowing our sinful failures, He initiated a plan to rescue our lives from the power of sin. In the Bible, this act is called "redemption." He actually took care of the problem for us before we even acted out the problem.

God's plan for mankind is to have an eternal relationship established through a covenant, which is a legally binding agreement between two people or parties. For a covenant to work, there must be absolute integrity in its making and in keeping all terms.

(114) God is a covenant-keeping God. He is full of integrity and always keeps the terms of the covenants He makes.

The original meaning of the word covenant was "where the blood flows." Ancient covenants always set terms and exchanged names, weapons, and resources. Almost always, these covenants included a consummation ceremony through the mingling of blood. At the end of the ceremony, a covenant meal was served to celebrate this union.

God's covenant plan for His relationship with man was a blood covenant (Christ's blood shed for us at the Cross). He set the terms (through the Old Testament law and prophets) and then defined a name exchange (Jesus said, "In My name ask…"), a weapons exchange (Jesus' weapons and armor are ours), and a resource exchange (He became poor that we might become rich). In ancient civilizations, a representative of one tribe would cut covenant with a representative of another tribe. When the two leaders cut covenant on behalf of their peoples, both tribes enjoyed the benefits of covenant. Christ did the same for us when He represented mankind in a covenant with God. Jesus was, and is, our covenant representative and leader. As our covenant representative, His responsibility is to keep all terms for us. In exchange, we receive all the covenant blessings. Wow!

(115) God desired to make a covenant with mankind that would secure us in relationship with Him for all eternity. He knew, however, that once we fell into sin, we would never be able to keep covenant. Humans were now filled with a sin nature, which made it impossible for us to hold up our end of the agreement. To fulfill the covenant terms, God required a sinless representative for mankind who would keep all the conditions. But no sinless person could be found. As a result He chose to fill this position Himself. By becoming a man, He took our place in covenant. Jesus also took God's place in covenant--because He is God. He is both Man and God; in reality then, He was cutting covenant with Himself. This is how God could cut an eternal, unbreakable, unfailing covenant with humans. To fulfill this plan, Jesus, who was fully God, left Heaven and came into the sinful world as a man.

When He came as a man, He had to fulfill all of man's covenant terms as laid out in Old Testament law. If He failed to fulfill every point of the law, or if He gave in to temptation just once, then He would not qualify as a keeper of covenant on mankind's behalf.

(116) Jesus came just as the first Adam did. He was of mankind's nature, yet without sin. He was to fulfill man's requirement in covenant with human power and capabilities. The Holy Spirit came upon Him to empower Him, just as the Holy Spirit empowers you today. Through the Holy Spirit's power, Jesus the Man remained sinless throughout His entire life on the earth. You need to understand that He resisted sin in man's strength, with the power of the Holy Spirit helping Him. Even though Jesus was perfect and without a sin nature, He had a huge wrestle in His soul against sin.

Jesus had to wrestle to secure the victory as a man so as to restore mankind's rightful place in relationship with God, like the first Adam had before the fall. Ultimately, at the end of His "covenant course," Jesus Christ would be acknowledged as a perfect God and a perfect Man who would sit on a throne at God's right hand.

Christ did not have an easy time resisting sin. At one point, He found resisting temptation to be so grueling that He sweat drops of blood (see Hebrews 12:4). Jesus did it in man's power for all of us, so we wouldn't have to in our own strength--because we couldn't. Everything required for mankind to enter covenant with God was fulfilled through the Man, Jesus Christ. He fulfilled all the law and the prophets.

(125) Through simply receiving Jesus as Savior by faith, everyone is invited into eternal relationship with God. All the work for mankind's redemption has been completed in Christ--it is finished! He cut an eternal, unbreakable covenant between God and man. In this covenant, He took the place of both man and God, which is why it can never be broken. The sinless, perfect Lamb of God has done everything for us. All we have left to do is simply believe.

Everyone who believes in Christ has the gift of everlasting life and is forever sealed into a legally binding love agreement between God and man. This covenant is an eternal one that is impossible to break because it is between Jesus the Man and Jesus the God. Through His own sinless life, Jesus won our place for us. Believing in Him saves you from the separation from God created by sin. Your identity as a Kingdom child is not in your own ability to accomplish anything, but in His completed work. His ability is past tense--it is finished!

Pleasing God in your own strength is absolutely impossible! The only way anyone can please God is by believing in Christ. The arms of Jesus are open to all sinners. Simple faith connects believers to this glorious eternal salvation. All one needs to do is simply believe--that's it."

JOURNAL 12-15-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT DRIVING ON A SANDY ROAD WITH A DEAD END
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1. I was attending the second to last class at school/college. There was some package with Japanese writing on it, so I took it over to a Japanese class member to read. There were other people in the class and there was a teacher. After class I walked outside and saw I had on two different shoes of two different colors (perhaps one tan and the other green). 

2. Then I was driving home before I was to attend the last class. I got on the wrong road because I wasn't looking carefully for a short time. It was a road made of sand, not concrete, and it was soft and easy to sink into ruts. I drove through a small creek that ran over the road. Finally I came to a dead end that was surrounded by green grass. I had to go back to try to find the right road.

1. This was a dream about me, not about others. I was the main character and doing the activities, even though others were in class too. This "second to last" class may indicate the time I am living in right now - almost finished with my time and work and learning on earth with one more period of time (class) to go. Something about the class (package and some students) was alien, perhaps heavenly, perhaps needing a different perspective or idea, perhaps not of God. As I continued along my journey or pathway I had words, preparation, peace, and covenant (shoes) that was partly growth, prosperity, life, healthy and growing (green) and partly neutral, possibly indecisive, possibly not wishing to be noticed, having an introverted personality even though repented and born again (tan).

2. This seems to refer to my spiritual pathway or my ministry that is traveling on after the first class and before the second class. During this time I wasn't watching carefully enough and got lost and on the wrong road, wrong way of life. The road I found myself on was sandy which could refer to its being of the flesh, with an improper foundation, and having weakness, weariness, drudgery or a hindrance in it. It was difficult to drive on due to the sand and was rutty. That seems to indicate the lack of soundness of that pathway and the difficulty of going that way. It even goes down a hill and across a creek bed which could refer to a trial in regard to the Spirit or life. Finally I arrived at a dead end which may be showing me that I need to change directions, stop, repent, or review the way I am going and what I am doing and make the necessary changes in direction. It may refer to certain failure or no advancement possible. Having green grass all around the dead end can refer to growth, renewal, health and life in my self and/or in the revelation of Christ. That could be showing a positive possibility there at the dead end, even though I can't drive on that road anymore. It looks like the Lord may be giving this as a warning dream about something I am to be aware could be coming if I am not very alert and careful to take the right road. Now what do You say about it, Lord?

I say that you've done pretty well in interpreting the dreams. Now how do you apply what you have interpreted? 
1.	Pray about it-- that I will give you the right shoes to wear on your journey between classes, and 
2.	Pray that I will keep you alert to the road you are taking and get you on the correct road so you don't have to turn around and retrace your steps, and 
3.	That I will save you from the difficulties and trials of taking the wrong road.

OK, Lord, I pray and seek You to take me on the right road and put on me the right shoes for the journey. Keep me alert to the road I am taking and warn me when I begin to think and consider the wrong way. Remind me of this dream at that time so I will be extra alert and careful. I place my life in Your hands all the days of my life. I pray this in Jesus' name.

SPECIAL SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY

Ascribe to the Lord, O mighty ones, ascribe to the Lord glory and strength. Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name; worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness. (Psalm 29:1-2)

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. (Proverbs 16:3)

Better a little with righteousness than much gain with injustice. (Proverbs 16:8)

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. (Proverbs 16:9)

JOURNAL 12-17-05 Saturday

Thirty-four years ago today around 1:00 in the afternoon I gave birth to Elizabeth Ruth Royer, my second daughter, but first by biological birth, since my oldest daughter, Kim, is adopted. That was a day I expect to never forget because of the experience of birthing a child. God was with me and enabled me through the whole experience, and I can now call it a glorious one. I am so thankful God gave her to me as she is a delight to me and is my very close friend right now. She is providing a place for me to stay while I write the books I am being led to write, and she is letting me use her computer and printer, as well as putting my books on the web. God has knit us together in a working and living relationship to accomplish His purposes in and through both of us. Thank You, God, for the gift of Beth!

God has led me in the last week to commit to being an intercessor for two different ministries. One, last Sunday, is Vicki and David Grindstaff who are missionaries to Turkey who are home on furlough right now and attending CTC. They told us about their ministry and asked for commitments to pray for them, and I felt I was to make that commitment, so I did. Vicki told us of the vision God gave her regarding the shaking and revival He is going to bring to Istanbul, and I am praying for that.

The other ministry is King of Glory Ministry International (KOGMI) led by Kevin and Kathy Basconi who also attend my church, CTC. Kevin interned under Todd Bentley and now has his own ministry to the nations. He has an orphanage in Tanzania, and does Miracle Healing Crusades in Africa as well as in the U. S. He sometimes works with Todd, sometimes with Patricia King, and others too. He led the Healing School 101 which Beth and I attended in November. I have wanted to help support his and Kathy's ministry for quite awhile, so yesterday I went on his web site and signed up for financial partnership and prayer partnership.

God has blessed me so much and I want to invest/sow into other ministries. I don't see myself going to Africa or Turkey to minister, but I can go there instead with prayers and financial help. That way I get to participate in those works of the Lord. Thank You, Lord, for this opportunity!

JOURNAL 12-19-05 Monday

Last night in a dream I heard the name Wade Taylor a couple of times. He seemed to be a person who was significant in my life right now for some reason, but I didn't know exactly why. Then, when I opened up my email today, I saw this article by him on ElijahList.com and feel this is a significant message to me today, which the Lord was alerting me to, so I would be sure to read it right away TODAY. It is a today message to me from the Lord. He had told me in June that December 19th would be a significant day for me, and I marked that date on the calendar, so I was looking for something significant showing up today. In June I awoke and looked at the clock, and it said 12:19. The Spirit spoke to me saying I was to write down that date, as it would be significant. So I got this wonderful and encouraging message today reassuring me the Lord really does want me in a willingly dependent relationship with Him. Thank You, Lord, for showing me this today. I needed to hear it!

December 17, 2005

"The Purpose of 
Submissive Dependence"
-Wade E. Taylor 
Wade Taylor Ministries
www.wadetaylor.org
wetbanner@aol.com

"Who is this that comes up from the wilderness, leaning upon her Beloved? . . . " -Song of Solomon 8:5

There is a particular quality about this "one" who is coming up from the wilderness that attracts special attention. She is "leaning" upon her Beloved. This position of leaning demonstrates the fact that she has become completely "dependent" upon Him. Something has taken place within her during this experience of the wilderness, resulting in her becoming "submissively dependent" upon the Lord.

Throughout Biblical history, the Lord often used the wilderness to test His servants in order to perfect His purposes within them. The wilderness speaks of a barren and desolate area. It is a place where inner needs become intensified in their desire to receive satisfaction but where there is no availability of the things that are necessary to meet those needs or to satisfy those desires. In the wilderness, needs can only be met through an external source.

In contrast to this barren wilderness, the Lord had planted a garden in Eden, supplying everything that could be desired. It provided an environment of both beauty and provision--complete beyond imagination.
"And the Lord God planted a garden eastward in Eden; and there He put the man whom He had formed. And out of the ground made the Lord God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil." -Genesis 2:8-9

Adam and Eve were placed in this garden and commanded:
"Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat: But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, you shall not eat of it: for in the day that you eat thereof you shall surely die." -Genesis 2:16b-17

This made them dependent, as they were required to obey the word that the Lord had spoken to them. There were two specific things that were required:

1. Adam and Eve were to eat of the tree of Life in order to maintain eternal life (Genesis 3:22).

2. They were to abstain from eating the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

Through their act of disobedience, they forfeited their position of "willing dependence" upon the Lord.

The only restraint to their eating the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil was the "word" that the Lord had spoken to them, telling them that they were not to partake. This tree was in the midst of the garden. It was very desirable and easily available to them. Eve had observed that the fruit of this tree was good for food, pleasant to the eyes, and a tree to be desired (Genesis 3:6). Herein was Eve's problem: the fruit of this tree was very appealing. However, she knew that God had said "no."

Therefore, when Satan approached Eve, he came against the Word that the Lord had spoken by raising doubt: "Has God said. . . ?" In effect, he was saying, "Would God tell you to give up something that is really good, something that you like and want?" Even though the Lord had said, "You shalt not eat," the attraction was so enticing, and the fruit seemingly so desirable, that Eve disobeyed and partook.

Through this act of disobedience, Adam and Eve forfeited their position of "willing dependence" upon the Lord. They failed to "overcome" their fleshly desire in the test that had been placed in their pattern of life and became spiritually separated from God. As a result of this, the process of death entered their being, and they no longer "leaned" upon Him. Along with this, they lost all that would have developed on their behalf had they been obedient and had they overcome in this testing.

An overcomer is one who submits to the Lord. . . 

The Word of God is silent concerning what might have taken place in their relationship to the Lord had they chosen to remain submissive and obedient to Him. The only clue that we have as to what might have been is to consider the outcome in the testing of the "Last Adam." Jesus took upon Himself, in human form, the identity of a new Adam and then faced a test that was similar to the one that the first Adam had faced.

"And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, He was afterward hungry. And when the tempter came to Him, he said, 'If You be the Son of God, command that these stones be made bread.' But He answered and said, 'It is written, man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.'" -Matthew 4:2-4

Jesus, as the Last Adam, overcame in every situation where the first Adam failed. As a result of this, after paying the penalty for our sin on the cross, He was resurrected and then ascended to sit with His Father on His throne.

"Even as I also overcame, and am set down with My Father in His Throne." -Revelation 3:21b

An overcomer is one who submits to the Lord and then abides in a leaning position upon his Beloved. This is an indication of their complete trust in and dependence upon the Lord. It is the result of having become obedient and submissive to the will of the Lord. Being an overcomer means rising above all that is less than the Lord's revealed or known best. It involves our facing the test of the wilderness and remaining dependent upon the Lord for provision.

Adam and Eve were tested concerning the possibility of their becoming overcomers. Because of the desirability and the attraction of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, they chose for their own seeming good and failed to overcome.

All spiritual gain must be tested if it is to abide and become productive. Adam and Eve failed their test while abiding in a perfect environment, and they entered death as a result. Jesus, as the Last Adam, had to face a similar test in order to qualify for the place in life that the first Adam had forfeited.

Dependency Upon the Father for Our Needs 

In contrast to the perfect environment of the Garden of Eden, Jesus faced Satan in the barren environment of a wilderness that provided nothing.

"And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, He was afterward hungry." -Matthew 4:2

There was nothing available that could satisfy the intense hunger that Jesus felt. Then, Satan appeared to Jesus and suggested that He turn stones into bread in order to satisfy this gnawing hunger.

There was nothing inherently wrong with turning these stones into bread, except that God had not said to do so. Jesus refused to act on a word from Satan and waited for supply from His Father. Had Jesus exercised His Deity in order to provide for His own need, He would have become independent. He qualified by remaining in a place of total dependence upon His Father for provision.
This was exactly where Adam and Eve failed, for Satan had said to them:

"For God does know that in the day you eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and you shall be as gods, knowing good and evil." - Genesis 3:5

Satan told Adam and Eve that they could be independent from God and do as they felt best. They could decide for themselves what was right or wrong. Now, Satan was telling Jesus that He could act on His own to provide for Himself, just as he had told Eve to do.
Jesus confirmed His complete dependence upon God when He said:

"Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God." -Matthew 4:4

He refused to act apart from a Word from the Lord, and He came forth from the wilderness in the "power of the Spirit" (Luke 4:14).

Be Patient During Your Times of Being Tested. . . 

As a result of His willing obedience by which He remained dependent upon His Father, He is qualified to say to us:

"To him that overcomes will I grant to sit with Me in My throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with My Father in His throne." -Revelation 3:21

We also will be tested, as Jesus was, "if" we desire to come into this relationship of "submissive dependence" upon Jesus. Those who choose to abide in this position of "leaning upon Him" will then be led by the Holy Spirit into a specially prepared wilderness, (a place of spiritual barrenness) where we will develop a deep inner hunger (dissatisfaction), along with an intense desire (frustration), in some area of our being.

Then at a critical moment--when it apparently seems to us that the Lord is no longer interested in our problem and that He is delaying His answer--the enemy will be "allowed" to come and tempt us. He will try to provoke us to act in some way to produce, or to bring about, the satisfaction that we desperately long for--which is presently apart from the Lord's provision for us. If we will steadfastly refuse this temptation and stand fast, in due time, the Lord will feed (satisfy) us.

"But He knows the way that I take: when He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold." -Job 23:10

If we will be patient during our times of being tested and "wait" for the Lord's provision for us, then it can truly be said:

". . . Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God has prepared for them that love Him." -1 Corinthians 2:9

The first Adam failed and lost his place or position as an overcomer. This was regained by Jesus, who overcame as the Last Adam. He was faithful in maintaining His place of dependence. As a result, He is seated with His Father on His Throne. Now, Jesus is offering to all who overcome, a place with Him on His Throne. These overcomers are the ones who were seen coming up from the wilderness, "leaning upon their Beloved."

There is no greater joy than that which comes from making a determined choice to become dependent upon Him and then to faithfully abide in this newfound place of "submissive dependence," until the greater day comes.

Wade E. Taylor 
Wade Taylor Ministries
www.wadetaylor.org
wetbanner@aol.com	

As I read this article, the Spirit told me that I DID NOT fail my test in 1994 when I told the Lord I couldn't go on living this way anymore, that I needed to get a job and earn some money so I could pay my bills. (At that time I had been living by faith on His provision for 5 years, and I was having a very hard time financially.) He said that I waited on His Word to say it was now ok to go and get a job (which He gave me at that time), and I waited on His Word about which job to take. Previous to today, I felt I had given up and failed His test to live by faith for my finances to be brought to me by Him.

MEANINGFUL SCRIPTURES FROM PSALMS AND PROVERBS

But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands. (Psalm 31:14-15a)

How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you. (Psalm 31:19)

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. (Psalm 31:24)

Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered.  (Psalm 32:1)

You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance (Psalm 32:7)

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. (Psalm 32:8)

The Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him. (Psalm 32:10b)

For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. The Lord loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of his unfailing love. (Psalm 33:4-5)

But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations. (Psalm 33:11)

Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord, the people he chose for his inheritance. (Psalm 33:12)

But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. (Psalm 33:18-19)

Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife.  (Prov. 17:1)

A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. (Proverbs 17:22)

A man of knowledge uses words with restraint, and a man of understanding is even-tempered. (Proverbs 17:27)

The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe. (Proverbs 18:10)

Humility comes before honor. (Proverbs 18:12)

A man's spirit sustains him in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear? (Proverbs 18:14)

He who is kind to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will reward him for what he has done. (Proverbs 19:17)

Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. (Proverbs 19:20)

Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. (Prov. 19:21)

The purposes of a man's heart are deep waters, but a man of understanding draws them out. (Proverbs 20:5)

The righteous man leads a blameless life; blessed are his children after him. (Proverbs 20:7)

Lips that speak knowledge are a rare jewel. (Proverbs 20:15)

A man's steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way? (Proverbs 20:24)

The lamp of the Lord searches the spirit of a man; it searches out his inmost being. (Proverbs 20:27)

JOURNAL 12-20-05 Tuesday

Last night the Prophecy Class met at our home to discuss if we wanted to continue to meet now that the class is officially over. We decided we wanted to meet weekly on Monday nights starting January 9, 2006 and would plan to meet for January and February (8 weeks) and study together the book by Jim Goll called The Seer which deals with prophecy. We will meet in different homes and have those who will, lead a week at a time. This will be a group where we can share what the Lord is doing in our lives, where we can share dreams and visions, where we can pray for each other, and where we can practice giving prophetic insights to each other in an atmosphere of a safe and trusting group. Then at the end of February we will again discuss whether we want to continue meeting and, if so, what we want to do. 

I mentioned to the group how the Lord gives me the names of my books and that the name of the book determines what content He wants in that book. Then I mentioned that I was currently writing a book called In His Time which deals with the appointed times of the Lord and how important it was to discern His timing, etc. Terry then gave me a Scripture from Ecclesiastes about that:

(Ecclesiastes 8:5-6a NIV) Whoever obeys his command will come to no harm, and the wise heart will know the proper time and procedure. For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter.

I also told them the title for my next book (which is Stories of Miracles and Revival) and said they might be giving me some of their stories and that I might get some through testimonies at CTC as I am expecting miracles and revival to come soon.

SOME MEANINGFUL SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY

To do what is right and just is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice. (Proverbs 21:3)

He who pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity and honor. (Proverbs 21:21)

There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord. (Proverbs 21:30)

I sought the Lord and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. (Psalm 34:4)

The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them. (Psalm 34:7)

Fear the Lord, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing. (Psalm 34:9)

The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their cry. (Psalm 34:15)

JOURNAL 12-21-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT A BUSH WITH FIRE ON IT AND WATER SPRAYED THROUGH A WINDOW
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1. I was in a class and evidently missed a morning session and an afternoon session, so I was trying to arrange with the teacher to let me listen to cassette tapes of those sessions so I could catch up with what had been taught.

2. I was trying to gather my stuff and put it away so I could leave class. The other people were doing this too. I kept getting interruptions with things that came up and wasn't able to get ready to leave as I was trying to do.

3. I was applying for a scholarship to attend a conference. It seemed that some man (I've forgotten his name, but maybe he was head of the school) may have written a negative recommendation due to my being divorced. His report sounded like he blamed the divorce on me and I wanted him to hear my side of the story about that.

4. I was in a hallway and looked out a window. I saw fire in the bush outside the building. The fire seemed to just be on the ends of the branches, on the leaves, and it would flit about from leaf to leaf.  I knew the fire department would be coming and spraying it with water, so I looked and saw an open window (with screen over it) in the next room. I called to someone I called Mark to come and close the window so the water sprayed by the fire department would not come in the window, but he didn't get there and get it closed soon enough. I heard the water being sprayed inside through the screen.

1. I was a participant along with other classmates (other Christians) and a teacher (the Holy Spirit). We were in a learning situation. I missed a morning session and an afternoon session. I was seeking the teacher to learn/hear what was taught during the time I missed by listening to cassette recordings (recordings of what others learned but I didn't) so I could catch up with them. I believe the teacher was the Holy Spirit and I was seeking to learn some things others learned--by listening to tape recordings, (also reading books, and listening to people) so I could learn some things about the Spirit/from the Spirit that I missed. This describes well what I have been doing this last 1 1/2 years here in Lees Summit at CTC through conferences, books, watching, listening, etc.  This may be a word of guidance from the Holy Spirit that I am to listen to some recording today. When I asked Him about that, He showed me which recording I am to listen to today from among the many I have waiting here to listen to.

2. This part of the dream may refer to the Rapture (leaving class here on earth) and we were all getting ready to leave. I wasn't getting ready fast enough to suit me.

3. Perhaps this part of the dream is telling me that, even though I want to go places (to a conference) by way of a scholarship (no cost to me) and learn more, God is saying I am not ready to go yet because of something I have separated myself from and it's my fault.

That's right, Joan. You have separated yourself from some part of Myself, the part of the husband who is faithful to His wife. That part of Me you distrust because of the unfaithfulness of your earthly husband. You judge Me by what he did. So you are not yet ready to go on to learn more until you get "married" or back into a covenant relationship with Me, trusting in Me to care for you with love and faithfulness to you. Our covenant means I will always provide for you and you don't need someone else to provide your food for you. You don't need anyone but Me. I am your Provider. I work to keep you in a home, with food, with medical help as needed, with help growing in your relationship with Me. I want you to recommit yourself to our covenant together (which I have been teaching you about recently).

I am your Husband as well as Father, and I will take care of you. You have waited faithfully on Me for these 1 1/2 years here in Lees Summit, even though you have had some tough times making it. You have now finished your time "in the wilderness" regarding finances (as Jesus was at the end of His 40 day fast) and Satan has tempted you with having the "world" supply for your needs instead of Me. My Word to you today is - look to Me and wait for My Word about supplying your need for finances. I will do it a different way.

As for a place to live: wait for My Word as to where you are to live, when to move there, how to move there, and how to pay for it. You will know it is from Me when I speak My Word about it to you. In the meantime you may look into retirement places and gather information, but don't make a decision until you have My Word. 

And most of all, do not fear or be anxious about this. Perfect love casts out fear. I give you perfect love, so you have no need to fear or be anxious. Remember Philippians 4:6-7 and do not be anxious about anything…remain in My peace and I will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

4. I was in a hallway (a place of transition) and looked out a window (a place for revelation). I saw (as a revelation) fire in the bush (God's fire getting my attention like the burning bush of Moses). The fire was on the leaves (words or life, covering, covenant, testimony) and moving around to different leaves (different people, different words, different covering/covenant, testimony). I knew people would spray water on the fire to try to put it out (the people who don't belong to God, and maybe some who do, will try to put out the fire--passion, zeal, revival--from the Lord). When the water was sprayed, it came into the room because the window (of revelation) was open (people were open to the water from the Spirit and the water of the Word). The screen (to keep out bugs) didn't keep out the water of the Holy Spirit coming inside.

Yes, it's coming, Joan. That's why I told you your next book would be titled STORIES OF MIRACLES AND REVIVAL. You will see these and record them for Me for others to read about also. I want you to do this. That's why I am preparing you now so you will be ready when you see this start soon.

1.	He's teaching me
2.	I'm getting ready for the Rapture
3.	I am to renew my "marriage" covenant with Him
4.	Then the fire of the Spirit comes and the water of the Spirit comes.

SOME SCRIPTURES I LIKE THAT I READ TODAY

A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold. (Proverbs 22:1)

Contend, O Lord, with those who contend with me…Say to my soul, "I am your salvation." (Psalm 35:1a, 3:b)

O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. (Psalm 139:1-3)

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:13-16)

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!  (Psalm 139:17a)

When I awake, I am still with you. (Psalm 139:18b)

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24)

JOURNAL 12-22-05 Thursday

SOME FAVORITE SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY

Humility and the fear of the Lord bring wealth and honor and life. (Proverbs 22:4)

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it. (Prov. 22:6)

Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong. (Psalm 37:1)

Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:3-4)

Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. (Psalm 37:5-6)

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him. (Psalm 37:7)

Those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land…the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace. (Psalm 37:9b, 11)

The days of the blameless are known to the Lord, and their inheritance will endure forever. In times of disaster they will not wither, in days of famine they will enjoy plenty. (Psalm 37:18-19)

If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand. (Psalm 37:23-24)

I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread. They are always generous and lend freely; their children will be blessed. (Psalm 37:25-26)

The Lord loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. They will be protected forever. (Psalm 37:28)

(Quotes from Wade Taylor, "The Purpose of Submissive Dependence")

"Throughout Biblical history, the Lord often used the wilderness to test His servants in order to perfect His purposes within them…In the wilderness, needs can only be met through an external source…This made them dependent, as they were required to obey the word that the Lord had spoken to them."

(According to that, then I have been in the wilderness from ~ 1989-1994, and since July, 2004 until now. My needs are only met as the Lord brings me provision. But He does bring me provision!)

"The only restraint to their eating the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil was the "word" that the Lord had spoken to them, telling them that they were not to partake." 

"Therefore, when Satan approached Eve, he came against the Word that the Lord had spoken by raising doubt…through this act of disobedience, Adam and Eve forfeited their position of 'willing dependence' upon the Lord. They failed to 'overcome' their fleshly desire in the test that had been placed in their pattern of life and became spiritually separated from God."

"An overcomer is one who submits to the Lord and then abides in a leaning position upon his Beloved. This is an indication of their complete trust in and dependence upon the Lord. It is the result of having become obedient and submissive to the will of the Lord. Being an overcomer means rising above all that is less than the Lord's revealed or known best. It involves our facing the test of the wilderness and remaining dependent upon the Lord for provision."

(I believe my "wilderness" areas are especially in finances and health. The Lord is continually having me depend on Him in these two areas and to seek Him for provision in them.)

Yes, and you are growing in both areas and "overcoming" more and more in them. Remember the promises given to "those who overcome" in the book of Revelation. Do you want those promises? (Yes, Lord, I do.) Then keep overcoming by leaning on Me. I want those promises for you too. You will be very glad someday that you did it.

"There was nothing inherently wrong with turning these stones into bread [after fasting in the wilderness 40 days], except that God had not said to do so. Jesus refused to act on a word from Satan and waited for supply from His Father. Had Jesus exercised His Deity in order to provide for His own need, He would have become independent. He qualified by remaining in a place of total dependence upon His Father for provision... He refused to act apart from a Word from the Lord, and He came forth from the wilderness in the 'power of the Spirit.'"

JOURNAL 12-23-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT BEING A TEACHER RINGING A BELL FOR ATTENTION TO THE CHANGING TIMES
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I was teacher #1 (I think of little children) assigned to cabin #1. For our party I was to arrange for other cabins to use also, so I talked to cabin #2 teacher about using hers, and planned to talk to #3 teacher too.

When we took attendance the sheet had places to mark around a circle for each child, i.e….

		   OOO
		OOOOO

I had a bell I rang when I wanted quiet and attention. I rang it the first day when the parents were there also with their children. they didn't know what it meant, so I began telling them.

I was teacher #1 (I think of little children) assigned to cabin #1. This could refer to my having specific knowledge about something and the ability to transfer that knowledge to others. Since I was called #1 that could refer to teaching beginners, and/or that I was beginning and new at this, and/or that I had high rank or order. For our party I was to arrange for other cabins to use also, so I talked to cabin #2 teacher about using hers, and planned to talk to #3 teacher too. Our party or celebration for some event was coming up so I made arrangements with other teachers to use their facilities also - those who represented multiplication, discernment, judging, and those who represented being conformed to God, being obedient, like Jesus.

The attendance for each child was represented and marked with a circle, which refers to having spiritual attributes, grace, mercy, compassion and forgiveness. That was the kind of child who attended this class.

Ringing the bell to get their attention refers to a sign indicating change (as in the times are changing) and/or God's Presence (as in the manifestation of the Spirit, the gift of tongues). A bell may also be a call for increased awareness. It may indicate a call to duty or responsibility. It then seems that I was calling these children and their parents to awareness, perhaps of the times that are changing and God's Presence being manifested, and to their responsibility due to that. 

That idea would fit with the Lord having me write a book right now called In His Time which deals with God's appointed timing and the special timing we are living in right now. Since I represented a teacher in this dream, I was the person having knowledge of this and was transferring that knowledge to others using the bell as a sign to get their attention.

JOURNAL 12-25-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT WORSHIPPING IN A GARAGE
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In this dream I was in a garage wearing my light blue bathrobe, and I was bowing down and worshipping.

In another part of the dream I saw a woman whom I thought might be praying to Buddha, and was thinking about telling her not to do that. I didn't think she knew that was wrong to do.

In the first part of the dream I was in a place of rest or stored energy which is a place which can hold a car, representing my ministry. I was wearing a bathrobe which represents how relaxed or comfortable I am with my personal spiritual beliefs. The bathrobe was light blue, with blue representing spirituality and spiritual aspects of life. In this place of rest and spiritual covering I was bowing down and worshipping. This is a place in the spirit that I come to regularly for prayer and worship. This is a prophetic picture about me, what I do, and what I will continue doing.

In the second part of the dream I saw a woman whom I thought might be praying to Buddha. That might refer to a person who thinks they have great enlightenment but it's from a false source. My desire was to help this person learn there was a wrong source of information (Buddha and other false sources), and a right source of Truth, Jesus, whom I was worshipping in the first scene.

JOURNAL 12-26-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT SAYING I AM LATE AND PREPARING TO LEAVE
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The setting for the dream was in my room where I had my furniture. I was trying to arrange one of the mirrors. I had several mirrors and the one I was trying to place was tall and narrow. It was about 4 feet tall and about 6-8 inches wide and was movable since it was placed on a piece of wood. I would look at the other mirrors on the wall and look for a place to stand the tall thin mirror so it could be useful in a place where there was no mirror on the wall.

R and some woman were also then in the room and we were looking at and talking about various art-like objects I had on top of my dressers etc. R looked in a drawer and found some small artificial flower object which it seemed like G had given me. R wanted me to display it better and put it on top of the dresser in a dish or something. The small flower object seemed to be artificial, partly gray, and partly made to look like purple flowers. 

I was trying to be polite and listen to and help R but I was running late to get to work on time, and I said that I was late. It didn't inspire him to leave.

Then other people seemed to be in my room looking around at things also, looking in my drawers, etc. I kept saying that I'm late, but they didn't take the hint and leave. Finally I got my (cream colored) purse and small briefcase out of a drawer and prepared to leave anyway.

The song "I'm late, I'm late, for a very important date. No time to say good-bye, hello, I'm late, I'm late, I'm late" kept going through my mind after I awoke.

As I was talking to the Holy Spirit about this dream, He asked me questions to help me analyze it…

What does Randy stand for? He stands for those who say they are Christians but don't really know Him or else they would be obedient to Him.

What do your drawers in your room stand for?  They stand for me and the places inside of me where I store what is mine. In this dream they may stand for my books where information about me is stored.

What does the color gray stand for?  It stands for something hazy, hidden, unable to be seen clearly.

What would "artificial" flowers mean? They would mean something imitating the real thing.

What would flowers stand for? They would stand for glory being displayed. But since they were artificial, they would refer to artificial glory, not the real thing. And purple would refer to regal or kingly, but in this case this would be artificial, not the real thing.

And what is the very important date you are late for? The very important date I am late for (which I think is happening soon and I don't want to miss it) is my time to go to heaven in the Rapture.

Taking my purse would represent taking my heavenly treasures that are mine - my eternal rewards. Taking my small brief case might represent the works that I have done for the Lord and others. My works have been small compared to some of the spiritual giants on the earth now, but they are still important to the Lord and they are what He has called me to do in obedience. The purse and small brief case were both cream colored. That color represents gentle joy, an inner peacefulness and acceptance of life.

So, putting this all together, what does your dream mean? It seems to me to mean that I am about ready to leave (this world) and I am in a hurry to do that (go to work in heaven). It shows that others will look into the drawers and places in my room (representing my life) possibly through the books I'm leaving behind. As I try to warn others that the time is "late" they don't take notice of that, and don't do anything because of it, so I prepare to leave anyway and let them remain in my room. 

The mirrors refer to looking into my heart or God's Word, looking at myself, looking back, or giving a reflection of me and what's going on inside me. I have lots of mirrors in my room (inside of me) to show who I am. The mirrors can even be different shaped and be movable to look into my life and see who I am in Christ…as my books are different sizes and from different perspectives. They give reflections of what's going on inside of me and who I am and about God's Word in my life.

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What the Lord has shown me in this dream is that the time is late, just before I leave this earth, and I will leave behind things which others can search through and find a reflection of who I am.

SPECIAL SCRIPTURE I READ TODAY

So when they met together, they asked him, "Lord, are you at this time going to restore the kingdom to Israel?" He said to them: "It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."

After he said this, he was taken up before their very eyes, and a cloud hid him from their sight. They were looking intently up into the sky as he was going, when suddenly two men dressed in white stood beside them. "Men of Galilee," they said, why do you stand here looking into the sky? This same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come back in the same way you have seen him go into heaven." (Luke 1:6-11)

This Scripture fits somewhat with the dream I had. The Rapture is an event in which Christians will be taken up "in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air." (1 Thessalonians 4:16-17)  and be with Jesus until He returns. When He returns to earth to rule and reign, all will see Him coming.  It speaks of that in Matthew 24:30…

At that time the sign of the Son of Man will appear in the sky, and all the nations of the earth will mourn. They will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of the sky, with power and great glory. And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.

JOURNAL 12-27-05 Tuesday

SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY THAT I ESPECIALLY LIKED

By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures. (Proverbs 24:3-4)

I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry….He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God….Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust. (Psalm 40:1, 3, 4)

Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare. (Psalm 40:5)

(Quote from Light Belongs In The Darkness by Patricia King, p 132)

Jesus has commissioned us to preach good news to the lost. The preached word releases a revelation of Christ that, in turn, births faith. When sharing the gospel, do so with the confidence that the Word will not return void but will accomplish everything it is sent to do (see Isa. 55:11).

Today I am reading back through Part 2 of In His Time to prepare it to be put on the web at the end of this week, the end of December, and the end of 2005. As I read, I came upon this statement:

•	As I prayed for the ability to see prophetic pictures over people as Bill does, and for the knowledge of prophetic language to interpret what I see, the date came of Dec. 27, 2005

Since that is today's date, I believe today that for which I prayed is being released in me. I am praying for that to be true, and for me to see the evidence of it manifested. Thank You, Lord, for this "appointed time" in my life!

You will, My child. You will see this manifested and you will be so very pleased with this gift you have asked Me for. It surely is a gift that can be used to help others. I will help you and train you and guide you in how to use this gift for My glory. It does reveal My glory, and that is what I am doing right now on the earth. Use it wisely. I will show you how.

JOURNAL 12-28-05 Wednesday

SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY I ESPECIALLY LIKED

It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings. (Proverbs 25:2)

A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver. (Proverbs 25:11)

If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the Lord will reward you. (Proverbs 25:21-22)

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.  (Psalm 42:1-2)

By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me--a prayer to the God of my life. (Psalm 42:8)

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. (Psalm 42:11)

I was trying to get my medical insurance all arranged to work correctly this morning working online and by telephone to see that it's ready to start correctly on January 1st. Doing this type of thing is frustrating to me. I couldn't access what I needed online, and had to leave a recorded message by telephone, so I still didn't get finished what I was trying to do. The Holy Spirit began to teach me about my frustration:

The things of this world (like making calls regarding my HMO coverage, etc) are really hard for you. That's partly because you are so set apart unto Me and have little experience right now with how to deal with "things of this world" easily and confidently. That's just one of the difficulties or things you need to live with that comes from your being so set apart unto Me. Do not worry. I will see to it that every detail of your insurance coverage is taken care of. I will help you with every step of the way. You are traveling this road with Me. I am your Companion, and I know all about how to handle the world and how to do things in this world. Keep walking with Me and asking Me. I will help you. 

I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. (Psalm 32:8)

In the evening I told the Lord He had things in high gear for Beth right now as she is making all the preparations to go to the Jack Frost conference in North Carolina on January 28, and as she is making reservations and plans to go to Chicago January 14-16 to help her dad move her grandmother to Sacramento and deal with all her things. Then He said:

Things are going to be in high gear in 2006. The whole year will be like that, so expect it. Your Quiet Times with Me will be very important and will calm you and anchor you--anchor your faith for the whole year.

JOURNAL 12-29-05

A DREAM ABOUT WAVES COMING, HAVING AN OFFICE IN THE CHURCH AND LOOKING FOR WHITE TYPING PAPER
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1. This dream seemed to be about waves of something coming over me. When they came, they changed things and things were better. It was a good change. The waves came over land, which seemed to represent my life. It seemed I could call for the experience.

2. I was at a church. They had an office there for me with my name on the mailbox. I was looking in my office for some white clean paper (like typing paper) to give some young man (I forgot his name--even in the dream) so he could write out an article or something. I didn't find any plain white paper (but colored paper) among my office stuff, so I was looking and asking at the main secretaries' office for some. We never did find full-sized clean white paper to give him.

3. My office had lots of space and maybe 2-3 rooms and storage areas (cabinets, cubby holes, etc.)…almost like it was living quarters. I hadn't yet explored it all.

4. The clock said it was about 4:00 and the young man who wanted the paper was to leave by then and go teach music lessons. He had invited me to watch the lessons, but I wasn't sure I wanted to do that.

5. I was thinking I might arrange to teach some piano lessons at this new place of living, and that it might be more convenient for my students to get to. They could just come there on the same bus as Beth.

6. In one scene I was trying to go through a small room and had to walk around the back of some man who was leaning over. 

1.	This first dream seems to represent the wave of the Spirit coming over me and the land. It represents something good coming and something I can call for in prayer. I think this may refer to revival coming and the Spirit being poured out like a wave.

2.	The setting was in a church so it may refer to the Church. My name being on a mailbox in an office area may refer to my being an established part of the Church. The unknown man may represent an angel who wants to communicate something by writing it on white paper. White paper may refer to something pure and clean. Perhaps this dream indicates God is looking for pure, clean people to write His message on their hearts.

3.	My place of dwelling at work had lots of room and storage places. Since my work is listening to the Lord and writing what He speaks to me, perhaps this refers to there being space for much yet to come.

4.	The number 4 means to reign, rule (over the world), kingdom, creation, or world. So perhaps a  4:00 leaving time refers to it being really close to the time for leaving the world and going to heaven or "music lessons" which could refer to worshipping and prophecy.

5.	Teaching piano lessons could refer to teaching others to prophesy, minister in the gifts of the Spirit, or worshiping.

6.	Walking around the back of someone leaning over: may refer to going past some person who influenced me in the past who is now "leaning over" or not standing tall and straight (maybe not right with the Lord).  There are various people in my past that I must "go around" or get past to continue on in my journey.

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As I sat still and listened to the Lord today He said:

Today is a special day--the 29th of December. I love you, Joan, and I want you to "see" what's coming. You are My prophet and I show My prophets things ahead of time.

I thought about the "word" the Spirit had given me in January 2005 about my seeing a dove come into the sanctuary at CTC, fly around, then alight. At the time this happened, I was to take the message, which I had written down, to Pastor Alan, as this signified the Holy Spirit coming in great  power, and anointing many people with special giftings, and knowings, and callings. As I was pondering this He said:

That's going to come this year (2006).

He indicated that the "altar," where the dove would alight, would be the place where we have anointing oil standing on top of it, or it would be the flame of fire at the front of the stage area. Then He said:

Solid and steady--that's what you are, Joan, not wishy washy.

Then He asked me:

What do you want, Joan?

I want Your kingdom to come and Your will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. I want it to come soon, Lord!

Well, it will be coming soon. Soon in My time means shortly, but not yet. There are still some things I need and want to do on earth before all is ready for My kingdom to come fully. But it will be soon, My child. Don't fret; just be patient and keep praying for it to come.

I love you and I love all those who belong to Me. I love them with an everlasting love that will not fail and will not stop. You are all My Bride. I am preparing a place for you and it is almost totally ready. It WILL be soon. Be ready. Be prepared to meet Me in the air at any moment. It could happen in 2006. I'm not saying it will, but it could.

This is what I want you to do each day--sit in My Presence and listen to Me. That will be the best and greatest anchor for your life during this next year. You want to hear about next year (2006)? That is one of the things I want you to do--sit in My presence each day and listen to Me. I will have plenty to tell you daily. If you don't hear anything, then sit there until you do. I might test your patience by having you wait for Me at times.

I want each person whom the Father has given You to come to You as soon as possible. I pray for each of them who will come, to do so now, Lord, soon. I pray for them to be awakened by You to who You are, and to be given a revelation of You, so they will give their lives to You.

That is what I want too, Joan. Keep praying for that to happen.

He told me He would tell me things to expect in 2006 over today, Friday, Saturday, and maybe even Sunday (January 1st). I am to write them down in a document for 2006 expectations. (This will be at the end of this part 2 document and at the beginning of the part 3 document starting in January.)

JOURNAL 12-30-05 Friday
I receive the K-House eNews regularly and appreciate the overview of current events in light of Scripture that is offered in this newsletter by Chuck Missler. Today I read his end of 2005 overview of the news (which gives information in light of 10 different areas he monitors to see what is happening). I wanted to add this to my journal and my current book so those who didn't have access to it could read it also. There is information on how you can receive his free eNews if you are interested.

K-House eNews
For The Week Of December 27, 2005 

STRATEGIC TRENDS: YEAR IN REVIEW

Our ministry goal is to create, develop, and distribute materials to stimulate, encourage, and facilitate serious study of the Bible as the inerrant Word of God. Each week the eNews staff examines current events from a Biblical point-of-view. We sincerely hope our efforts have helped you gain a better understanding of the times in which we live. We also hope we have been able to demonstrate how the Bible is as relevant and accurate today as it was two thousand years ago when Jesus Christ walked on the shores of Galilee. 

Our staff regularly monitors ten specific global, social, political, and economic trends that we feel are significant to the Body of Christ. We follow these Strategic Trends throughout the year on our website and in our various publications. Today we would like to review each of these trends and take a look back over some of this year's major milestones. 

Weapons Proliferation 

The acquisition of nuclear, biological, and chemical weapons by both terrorists and rogue nations is perhaps one of the greatest threats to our national security. US intelligence officials have focused their attention on Iran, Iraq, Libya, Syria, Sudan, Pakistan, and North Korea in their attempts to stifle weapons proliferation. They have also kept a close watch on Russia and China, key suppliers of technology, components, and weaponry. 

During the last twelve months Iran's nuclear program has become the focus of international attention. The EU has attempted to reopen dialogue in recent weeks, but there is little hope of reaching an agreement. Iran has vigorously pursued weapons of mass destruction - nuclear, chemical, and biological - and their delivery systems as well as advanced conventional weapons. To this end, Iran has sought foreign materials, training, equipment, and know-how from nations such as Russia, China, and Pakistan. 

Missile tests conducted earlier this year by Iran may be part of the development of an electromagnetic pulse (EMP) warhead. Iran has practiced detonating its Shahab-3 missiles while in mid-air, which has lead some intelligence officials to suspect that Iran is practicing the execution of an EMP attack. An electromagnetic pulse, triggered by a high-altitude detonation of a nuclear weapon, poses a considerable threat to our national security and is one of a small number of weapons that could be used to bring the whole of America to its knees. An EMP attack would strike what has become our Achilles heel – our relatively unprotected, yet vital, technological infrastructure. 

The Struggle for Jerusalem 

Yasser Arafat’s death has plunged the Palestinian leadership into a massive power struggle, with various groups and factions battling for control. Despite Mahmoud Abbas' clear victory in January's elections, organizations like Hamas still pose a serious threat to his leadership. Abbas has refused to confront armed groups for fear of civil war. Instead, he has attempted to woo militia members with the promise of jobs and political participation. His strategy, however, has not been effective. The Palestinian Authority is spiraling into chaos. Palestinian Security forces in the West Bank and Gaza are weak, ill-equipped, and divided. Their ability to maintain law and order suffers from shortages of equipment and ammunition, widespread corruption, financial mismanagement, and various other stumbling blocks to the its effectiveness. Meanwhile, terrorist organizations such as Hamas, Islamic Jihad and the al-Aqsa Martyrs' are better trained and better equipped. 

The Israeli withdrawal from Gaza represents a major milestone in the Israeli-Palestinian peace process. In August Israel evacuated all 21 Gaza settlements along with four of 120 settlements in the West Bank - a total of about 9000 settlers were forced to abandon their homes. Some believe that the Gaza withdrawal was necessary for Israel's security - although Israel will continue to control the borders, coastline and airspace of Gaza, it will no longer need to commit substantial military personnel and resources to the protection of settlers within Gaza. Yet in many respects, the Israeli evacuation of Gaza represents a victory for terrorism. In the minds of the Palestinian people, the Israeli withdrawal is proof that terrorism works. 

Israeli Prime Minister Ariel Sharon's controversial plan to pull out of Gaza has caused division within the nation of Israel - even prompting talk of civil war. Sharon made headlines recently when he resigned his position in the Likud - the right-wing political party he founded in 1973. Sharon and his supporters left the Likud to establish a new political party that will be committed to reaching a peace agreement with the Palestinians consistent with the US-backed Road Map Peace Plan. Sharon has named the new party Kadima, a Hebrew word which means "forward" in English. 

America's Challenge 

The blood shed on September 11, 2001 became the catalyst in the war on terrorism. That tragic event briefly united Americans in a common cause, however that unity has splintered. National tragedy may have amalgamated the masses, but growing differences in values and philosophy have driven a wedge down the middle of American society. Americans are fighting a battle both in foreign lands and here at home. In the war against terrorism our enemy is easily defined, however the domestic battle lines are more muddled. It would seem that, as a nation, we have begun to abandon the faith and values of our founding fathers. 

Controversial topics like same-sex marriage, abortion, embryonic stem cell research, and intelligent design have continued to divide the populace. Unlike the war on terror, however, this confrontation has primarily taken place in courtrooms rather than on battlefields. In many cases, such as the court battle over removing the words "under God" from the pledge, victory seems to hinge on the interpretation of our constitution and the definition of the Establishment Clause, from which the concept of separation of church and state is derived. 

Perhaps one of the events history will remember most about 2005, is the dramatic changes that have taken place in the Supreme Court. In July, Justice Sandra Day O'Connor stirred up Washington by announcing her resignation from the Supreme Court. Her resignation was followed a few months later by the death of Chief Justice William Rehnquist. Rehnquist has since been replaced by John Roberts. Samuel Alito has been nominated to take the place of the Sandra Day O'Connor. 

Rise of the European Superstate 

Over the last few years we have watched closely as the European Union has emerged as a growing world power. Bulgaria and Romania are set to join the EU in January of 2007 and both Croatia and Turkey have begun negotiations for membership. 

The consideration of Turkey as a possible member of the EU has put the spotlight on Europe's growing Islamic population. Islam is quickly becoming a significant part of the cultural and political landscape of Europe. There are between 9 and 15 million Muslims living throughout Europe today, and Islam has become the largest religious minority. Considering current population trends and the need for immigrant labor, it is likely that the number of Muslims in Europe will continue to grow exponentially. 

The Muslim population in Europe has expanded so rapidly that it now appears Europe is experiencing growing pains. However the problem is not overcrowding, it is increased cultural tensions. The situation came to a head in November, when widespread rioting broke out in France - in which over 7,000 vehicles were torched and various public buildings and businesses were destroyed. France's failure to integrate its North African and Muslim minorities is seen as the key reason behind the rioting. 

Global Government 

Often seen as the future embodiment of global government, the UN has been the subject of increased scrutiny. While the investigation into the Oil-for-Food scandal is at its height, the UN has been bombarded by accusations of corruption and mismanagement. The Oil-for-Food Scandal is just the tip of the proverbial iceberg. As evidence is uncovered, the more apparent it becomes that UN lacks accountability. 

It should come as no surprise that amidst the scandal the UN has announced plans for a massive overhaul. The huge reforms will be unlike any changes made since the organization was founded in 1945. Historically, government never downsizes voluntarily; it always increases its power and minimizes accountability to its citizens. Government reinvention is frequently an effort to avoid the consequences of failed policies in the past, or to justify a government's continued expansion by posing solutions to the problems it has created. Over the last decade, the United Nations has unabashedly pushed for what it calls "global governance." The UN is positioning itself for global power, no doubt it will use the scandal and the ensuing "reforms" to advance closer to that goal. 

The Rise of Islam 

The Muslim faith is becoming an increasingly volatile catalyst in today's international scene. With the continuing threat of terrorist attacks in the United States, it has become of paramount importance to understand the origin, nature, and agenda of Islam. 

Many Americans believe that Islam is a religion of peace and that Christians and Muslims worship the same God. In public schools we teach our children a doctrine of tolerance, and in some schools students are even required to memorize passages of the Koran. While in comparison Islamic children are taught that America is the Infidel. We are the enemy. When the towers came crashing down on September 11, 2001 and thousands of innocent people were killed, Muslims all over the world danced in the streets and praised the hijackers. A survey taken in Saudi Arabia shortly after the September 11 attacks reported that 95 percent of educated Saudi men between the ages of 25 and 41 backed bin Laden’s cause. Islamic terrorists are referred to in the West as radicals and extremists, while in the mid-east they are heralded by fundamentalists as martyrs and heroes, and the families of suicide bombers are rewarded monetary pensions. The disparity between the two perspectives is staggering. 

To say that Islam is a peaceful religion requires turning a blind eye to the growing humanitarian crisis in Darfur, the bloodshed in Chechnya, the London terrorist bombings, and the ethnic conflicts in China, Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, Pakistan and India – not to mention the ongoing violence throughout the Middle East. 

The Magog Invasion 

Many experts believe that a large-scale confrontation between Israel and its neighbors could be on the near horizon. Which has made Syria’s growing relationship with nations such as Iran and Russia more concerning. Over the past year or so, partly as a consequence of the war in Iraq, Russia has been carefully cultivating ties with Turkey, Iran and Syria. After losing the Mid-East foothold provided by Saddam Hussein's Iraq, the Russians have been building a new axis of power based on those three key countries. 

Russia is now Turkey's second-largest trading partner, with a volume of $10 billion in trade per year. Russia has also strengthened ties with Iran by supplying it with nuclear-related technologies. Earlier this year Russia and Syria made plans to increase diplomatic and military cooperation. Russia wrote-off approximately 10 billion dollars of Syria’s Soviet-era debt and has supplied Syria with Russian made SA-18 surface-to-air missiles, in spite of Israel’s objections. Russian military experts have also been sent to the Gaza Strip to train Palestinian security forces. In addition to training, Russia is prepared to provide the Palestinians with armored vehicles, ammunition, and helicopters. 

These developments could be a sign that the famed battle prophesied in Ezekiel 38 and 39 is on our near horizon. It is during this battle, that God will directly intercede to protect Israel from Magog and its allies. 

The Rise of the Far East 

China has quickly become a global power. In recent years, China has bought, borrowed, or stolen technology, which has catapulted its military capabilities into the modern high-tech arena. In the last year China has announced plans to launch 100 surveillance satellites, and has unveiled its new class of ballistic missile submarines. These submarines will be China’s first truly intercontinental strategic nuclear delivery system. The Chinese military is preparing for a war with the United States, a war which its commanders believe is inevitable. 

In March the Chinese government passed an anti-secession law authorizing the use of military force should Taiwan formally declare its independence. The law also increased Chinese military spending. China wants to avoid entering into an armed conflict over Taiwan, but that does not mean it is unprepared or unwilling to go to war. China’s Foreign Minister made clear China’s intentions when he stated publicly "We will never allow separatist forces to secede from the great motherland...we will never allow it." 

Over the last few years China has strengthened its ties with the Middle East. It is already one of the biggest suppliers of weapons and military technology to Arab nations and has become a major consumer of Middle Eastern oil. 

Biotech and Global Pestilence 

According to the National Institute of Health infectious diseases remain the leading cause of death worldwide, and the third leading cause of death in the United States. Diseases thought to be obsolete have once again become a global threat, and in recent years new pathogens have emerged, some of which carry antibiotic-resistant genes or mutations enabling them to move across different species. 

The Centers for Disease Control and the World Health Organization have been preparing for a possible outbreak of the Avian virus (also known as the Bird Flu), which officials believe could become a global epidemic if a new virulent strain of the virus emerges that can jump readily from human to human. If there is an outbreak health workers estimate that it would spread rapidly and could kill anywhere from 2 million to 50 million people. 

In February of this year embryologist Ian Wilmut, the scientist that brought us Dolly the sheep, was given permission by the British government to clone human embryos for medical research. The announcement has renewed debate over the scientific and ethical implications of cloning and embryonic stem cell research. 

Global Religion 

It may seem difficult to imagine the world united under one ruler and one religion, especially with the bloody ethnic battles taking place in the world today. However, the violence caused by religious and cultural conflicts could in fact be the catalyst that brings about drastic change. The desire for world peace, the deterioration of moral values in the Western world, the restriction of religious freedom in America, and the continued persecution of Christians in other parts of the world could all pave the way for the emergence of a global religion. 

The Roman Catholic Church is one of the wealthiest, most powerful institutions on the Planet Earth today. It has almost one billion followers, approximately 20 percent of the world’s population. This year history witnessed the death of Pope John Paul II and selection of his successor, Pope Benedict XVI. The Roman Catholic Church - the Vatican - is poised to become the vehicle for the final ecumenical union of all religions. Many commentators believe that the religion of the Antichrist will not be atheism, Hinduism, Islam, Buddhism, or New Age. It will a pagan form of Christianity. 

Looking Ahead 

As Christians, it is important for us to be able to recognize the "signs of the times" (Matthew 16:3), or as we like to call them, the "times of the signs". We are living in a very exciting age, about which the Bible has a lot to say if you really take the time to study it diligently. God made no mistake by placing us in this time and place, and as such we are admonished to be brave and to contend for the faith. We are soldiers in a mighty spiritual army. Each has a unique mission incapable of being filled by another. It is time to pray for direction and purpose, and then boldly do what He commands us to do. If we truly believe that we are in the "times of the signs", and that the coming of our Messiah is near, then we need to be about our Master's business. Our goal is to hear the words, "Well done, my good and faithful servant." 

**IMPORTANT NEWS HEADLINES**

Israel Warns of Iran's Nuclear Ambitions - December 28, 2005
According to Israeli intelligence officials, Iran is seeking more than one nuclear bomb and it will attain technological independence within a number of months. People's Daily 
Israel to Expand Settlements - December 28, 2005
Israel has approved construction of hundreds of new homes in West Bank settlements. AP 
Fraud or Scientific Breakthrough? - December 28, 2005
South Korean scientist Woo-Suk Hwang made world headlines when he claimed to have cloned human embryos using a technique called somatic cell nuclear transfer. Last Friday, however, an investigatory panel from Hwang's university declared that at least 9 of the 11 stem cell lines were faked. The Weekly Standard 
Israel Enforces Gaza "No-Go Zone" - December 28, 2005
Israel shelled the northern Gaza Strip on Wednesday to enforce a "no-go zone" it says is aimed to stop cross-border rocket fire by militants. Israel also fired missiles at a Palestinian training base near Beirut in response to rocket fire into Israel from Lebanese territory. Reuters 
Treasury Sued Over 'In God We Trust' - December 28, 2005
Atheist Michael Newdow, who has challenged the Pledge of Allegiance for its "under God" phrase, filed a lawsuit against the US Treasury department seeking to have "In God We Trust" removed from American currency. Christian Examiner 

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"Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." John 8:32 

DREAMS ABOUT A CHILD COMING TO ME, ABOUT THINKING THEY ARE KILLING JESUS, ABOUT SCULPTING BLUE ICE, AND ABOUT A LADY WASHING SHEETS
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1. A little child wanted to go with me, so he did. I think it was an African-American child.

2. Words spoken in a dream: "They think they are killing me."

3. I was standing on top of a great mound of bluish ice talking with Bob H. about choosing a part of the ice mound and sculpting it to look like a person. He had papers with dimensions for doing this. But the ice seemed to be decreasing in size like it was melting, so I didn't actually begin the project.

4. I was in my room and a lady came in to take sheets off my bed to be washed. I had just pulled down the shade on a window so I could get dressed without people seeing me through the window.

1.	This child could represent me or someone who is young spiritually or young in age. His being African-American could represent people of another racial group(s) coming to be with me. Children can represent a gift from God--which might refer to child-like people who will be coming into my life. Children can also represent something new birthing--so this dream could refer to that.

2.	The words spoken in this dream piece: "They think they are killing me" could refer to Jesus and those who are still trying to "kill" Him by trying to eliminate him from our country's public life (i.e. Michael Newdow suing to have "in God we trust" taken off coins and "under God" taken out of pledge). Just like they tried to kill the Lord when he lived on earth, perhaps this refers to those who are trying to "kill" Him now. But He won't be killed. He is alive and well, and will be manifesting His Presence and power more and more.

3.	Ice can refer to a hard saying, slippery, dangerous. The bluish color may mean it represents something spiritual. Bob represents a pastor and his name represents "abiding in God." And he has put his own Holy Spirit into our hearts as a proof to us that we are living with him and he with us. (1 John 4:13 TLB) I'm not sure what this scene represents or symbolizes. Perhaps I will have more insight later.

4.	A bed represents rest, intimacy, peace, covenant. The lady may represent an angel since she was an unknown person. The sheets being taken off my bed to wash them could refer to some cleansing needed or coming to my place of rest. Being in my home may refer to my heart, my identity, or my dwelling place. The window can represent receiving revelation, so perhaps closing the blind could represent my closing some avenue of receiving revelation. But it could also refer to my keeping revelation inside and to myself and not disclosing it to others or letting them "see" me through the window.

SCRIPTURES I READ TODAY I ESPECIALLY LIKED

As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. (Proverbs 27:17)

The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold, but man is tested by the praise he receives. (Proverbs 27:21)

My tongue is the pen of a skillful writer. (Psalm 45:1b)

I want you to know that I am sharpening you. I am using the writings and teachings of others and I am using My Word, and I am using My voice speaking to you. You are being sharpened daily as you spend time with Me. And I also want you to know your writings are the pen of a skillful writer. Your writings are a bit different than those of many who write books, but they share part of what I am doing in your life daily. They are what I am leading you to put into writing for others to read later.

In 2006 there will be great turmoil throughout the world, even greater than 2005 which held much much turmoil. You will see it on TV and hear of it and be amazed. I am shaking the whole earth, Joan, as I spoke of. All that is not of Me will be shaken. Then people will see what holds and is solid and firm, and what is not solid and firm and can be broken off with the shaking. You will not be shaken personally because you have allowed Me to be Lord of your life and to have total control of your will. You have become voluntarily willing to let Me lead you and guide you in all things.

I will come with great power and anointing upon My people during 2006. You will see this demonstrated in great and powerful ways and I want you to write down what you see as a record for Me and for others to read. It will be your testimony news sheet. Remember when I gave you the idea to start a newsletter titled "The Testimony"? That will now be done through your journal writings and be put into your books for others to read. I will see that those who need to read this news will find it and read it. Let Me be in charge of doing that.

I love you, My child, and I am excited about this coming year. I have been patiently waiting for this year to arrive for a long long time…since the day I was born on the earth, and even before that. It is now TIME. It is My "appointed time."  Be excited with Me!

I will walk with you through 2006 day by day. Do not worry and do not fret because of all the "unknowns" before you. I know them all and I will go with you through them all. I know the Way, and I AM the Way. Trust Me in this.

JOURNAL 12-31-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT DOING VOLUNTEER WORK AT A FAIR
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I was a volunteer working at a fair-like event. There were lots of people there. I seemed to be helping the children do fun things there.

I saw W. at the fair. He said he almost called me to substitute teach in some special subject he named. I didn't know about that subject and don't remember what he called it. It was an unusual name and not a usual school subject.

Some ladies brought along to the fair their evening dresses (black) to go out that evening after the fair.

I was paying people in coupons then giving them cash for the coupons they got.

This whole dream series seems to revolve around this place we all were which I called a fair. It seemed to be a place where there were lots of people and lots of different things to do and it was a fun event. I seemed to be there as a volunteer helping children do things at this fair. Maybe this "fair" represents life as we live it on this earth. There are lots of different people here and my volunteer job is to help children. That is mainly what I have done in this life--teach children (in public schools, in piano lessons, and teaching my own children). And I have worked as a volunteer in the Lord's work group for many years on earth. My working with children may also represent my working with new and growing Christians teaching them.

W. represents a school principal who hires teachers to work at his school. In this dream he said he almost called me to substitute teach in a subject I didn't know about. Since I am a teacher in this dream, he may represent someone might have hired me. It seems I didn't get called to teach in his school and didn't know the subject he wanted a teacher for. For me he represents someone who participates in church but may not have a close personal relationship with Jesus, or may not have developed a relationship of obedience to Him. 

Some unknown "ladies" may refer to angels, God's messengers. They came to the fair with plans to go someplace after the fair (in the evening) after the activity and work was finished on earth. They may represent making plans for the time after being on this earth. Since their "evening" dresses were black, that may refer to this time being unknown or unseen right now. Black dresses on this earth often represent the ultimate in dressy clothes for evening wear, and that seemed to be what their dresses were - very dressy for their evening event. In a way, we don't exactly know how we will be "dressed" in our life after this time on earth - it is "hidden" from us.

Coupons may represent credit for what people did, a recognition for their work. Then these coupons were valuable for money. Money can represent power, favor, provision, wealth, natural talents and skills, spiritual riches, or authority. So this scene seems to show people getting credit for their work on earth and that credit winning for them riches.

This whole dream series seems to show pictures of scenes of life on earth, what I have been doing here (teaching children), what I have not participated in (teaching subjects I didn't know), getting ready for what comes after this life (going out in the evening), and getting credit for the work done here (coupons, money).

I love you, My child, and I want this dream to be a positive look at what is now and what is coming. Your reward is coming, Joan, your reward in heaven. It will come soon. It will involve reward for what you HAVE  done, and what you HAVEN'T done. It is unknown to you right now (hidden) but you are getting credit for it, and soon will have your "cash" reward in heaven. You will be so pleased with that reward, Joan, as you have read about these rewards many times in the Bible. What the Bible says is true, and there are many different rewards in heaven. You will have your share for all you have been doing here on earth. It won't be long now. Keep on doing what you are doing, and keep on coming to Me daily to connect up with Me. I will keep you on the right pathway--the Highway of Holiness we talked about earlier this year. I AM the Highway of Holiness. I AM the Way. Abide in Me. I will make you (plural) fishers of men. I do the fishing, but I use My people to do it with Me and for Me. Keep fishing for all those "children" I want you to help and teach. There are many who need you.

THINGS THE SPIRIT TOLD ME TO EXPECT IN 2006

•	The place He is preparing for us is almost totally ready. We are to be prepared to meet the Lord in the air at any moment in 2006. He is not saying it definitely will happen during that year, but it could. We are to be ready.

•	The greatest anchor for my life during 2006 is to sit in His Presence each day and listen to Him.

•	Things are going to be in high gear in 2006. The whole year will be like that, so we are to expect it. Our Quiet Times with Him will be very important and will calm us and anchor us, anchor our faith for the whole year.

•	The Lord will be sharpening us. He will be using the writings and teachings of others, His Word in the Bible, and His voice speaking to us. We will be sharpened daily as we spend time with Him. 

•	In 2006 there will be great turmoil throughout the world, even greater than 2005 which held much turmoil. We will see it on TV and hear of it and be amazed. He is shaking the whole earth. All that is not of Him will be shaken. Then people will see what holds and is solid and firm, and what is not solid and firm and can be broken off with the shaking. 

•	The Lord will come with great power and anointing upon His people during 2006. We will see this demonstrated in great and powerful ways.

•	The Lord wants to walk with us through 2006 day by day. He wants us to not worry and fret because of all the "unknowns" before us. He knows them all and He will go with us through them all. He knows the Way, and He is the Way. He wants us to trust Him in this.

•	The Lord wants me to keep on doing what I am doing, and keep on coming to Him daily to connect up with Him. He will show me what I am to do that day.

•	The Lord will keep me on the right pathway--the Highway of Holiness. He is the Highway of Holiness. He is the Way. 

•	The Lord wants me to abide in Him. He will make us fishers of men. He will do the fishing, but He will use His people to do it with Him and for Him. I am to keep fishing for all those "children" He wants me to help and teach. He says there are many who need me.

•	The Lord is excited about this coming year. He has been patiently waiting for this year to arrive for a long long time…since the day He was born on the earth, and even before that. It is now TIME. It is His "appointed time."  He wants us to be excited with Him!

(Watch for In His Time, part 3 coming soon)