JOURNAL OF A LISTENER TO GOD
Part 1

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He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. (Isaiah 50:4)

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INTRODUCTION

Let Your praises pour forth in this book, Lord, as you and I write it together. Let it be Your love letter to those who read the book. And let them encounter You as a Person as they read this book...a Person who loves them and wants to meet with them also, as You do with me. Let this book give them a spiritual pathway to follow on their own personal journey to know You, Jesus, to hear from You, and to encounter You in a close, living, and loving relationship.

I offer this book in humility, knowing that our relationship with God is a deeply personal thing.  Each one of us is unique and special, and so is our relationship with God. I offer only what I have experienced or heard, praying it will be a blessing and encouragement to each person who reads this book.  (Words in italics are words that came to me from the Holy Spirit as I listened to Him.)

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1. You’re beginning to think the ministry at your church is your calling. No. Your ministry to Me is your first calling. Your ministry to your church is secondary to this. I want you to spend time with Me daily. What I’m interested in is the personal intimate relationship with Me...more than what you do.

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2. I read in a book that I don’t have to have passion toward the poor and needy, but I do have to have passion toward the Lord. Then He’ll give me the passion for what He wants me to do. The revelation coming to me as I read this idea is that my action is not going to come out of feeling love for the poor and needy. My action concerning them is to come out of knowing the Lord, knowing His desire toward the needy via the Scriptures, and serving Him in this way if and when He leads me to.

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3. In John 2:1-12 I read the story of the wedding at Cana, where Jesus turned water into wine. Then the Holy Spirit said:

Yes, I am saving the best until last as in this story. The water represents thirst and the wine represents joy. There will come, and already is coming, a great thirst and as the thirsty ones drink of the water I give, it will bring great joy. This is the time of the last days. I have saved the best until last. Of all the wonderful stories and events you have heard, this will top them all...a double portion, the former and the latter rain.

You will be a part of this. My Bride, My Church, will be where this happens - the wedding. The wedding is the time of publicly making a commitment to one another. This is what will be happening. Then, when My Bride is all gathered up, I will bring her to be with Me for the marriage supper of the Lamb. (John 14:1-3; Rev 19:7-9)

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4. “The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught.” (Isaiah 50:4)

Yes, I have given you an instructed tongue, an instructed mind, and I will waken you morning by morning to listen to Me and write what I teach you. You will be used by Me as a writer-prophet, as Isaiah. All the other was preparation for now.

“I will stand at my watch and station myself on the ramparts; I will look to see what he will say to me, and what answer I am to give...” Then the Lord replied: “Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.” (Habakkuk 2:1-3)

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5. Today the Lord is teaching me about speaking His words out loud. I am to “speak into life” the words the Lord gives me. These Scriptures tell me about this:

Jesus said, “I do nothing on my own but speak just what the Father has taught me.” (John 8:28)

Jesus said...”What I have heard from him I tell the world.” (John 8:26)

“For the word of God is living and active.” (Hebrews 4:12a)

I am to do this on myself first and see that it works - as God gives me the words to speak - and then, later, on others. 

“...So is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”   (Isaiah 55:11)

“...Do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.” (Matthew 10:19-20)

“What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.” (Matthew 10:27)

“I tell you the truth, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.” (Matthew 18:18)

“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” (Matthew 21:22)

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6. This is my life theme as He prompts me today:  “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” (Lamentations 3:24)

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7. This Scripture is for me today: “Make known among the nations what he has done, and proclaim that his name is exalted. Sing to the Lord, for he has done glorious things; let this be known to all the world.” (Isaiah 12:4-5)

This is what Discipleship class is doing. Most people at my church would not seek to know Him deeper and more without discipling in Sunday School and Discipleship classes. Discipling is very important. I am to encourage each person to disciple another younger in the Lord, to continue learning, and to find a mutual Christian friend/prayer partner.

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8. “With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.” (Isaiah 12:3)

I am to draw water from You each day. This is to be my joy and my delight, spending this time with You. I am to begin writing as God leads. Evenings will be my best times, and Saturday and Sunday.

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9. God has brought about in my life all the circumstances to bring me to this present moment:
•	Single - free to serve Him only, no children at home
•	Provided for
•	With a God-given vision/dream

The writing I've done in the past has all been for me. I am to save the best essential parts and to write more in this “new phase” of my life.

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10. “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do wonders among you.” (Joshua 3:5)

It is time to go into the promised land. You have been wandering around in the wilderness for a long time and now I say it’s time to go in. Consecrate yourself to this and to Me. I will lead you to “cross the Jordan” into the promised land of what I have for you. Consecrate yourself.

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11. I feel impressed to read biographies of great people of Christian faith. I also feel impressed to begin memorizing more Scripture as the Lord guides me to the passages He wants me to memorize. I also feel impressed to journal more again. It’s a time of spiritual renewal for me.

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12. I was taught by a book I read that God requires consecration from His people. He wants them to cut themselves loose from the past and anything else that would hinder their devotion. Being cut loose from the past is important to open us up to what God can do.

What are the things I need to cut myself off from in the past?
•	Expecting to do it myself. 
•	Expecting to be limited by how much or what He will do for me.
•	Expecting things to happen through certain people.
•	Being suspicious of things I don’t understand.
•	Expecting things to get worse as I age instead of better.

I cut myself off from these things!

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13. Regarding the discontent, restlessness, depletion, and emptiness I have been feeling for weeks:
•	It’s a time of change
•	My soul is malnourished, and needs nurturing
1.	Music is missing - I need to give and receive it
2.	Art (beauty) is missing; I’m not doing anything artistic or feeding my need to see beautiful things
3.	Love and affirmation are missing; I need to feel what I spend my time doing produces growth and good in people’s lives. Also I need to give and receive love. 
4.	Fragrance - I need beautiful fragrance around me, it nourishes me
5.	Learning - I need something new to be learning
•	God has a deeper revelation for my knowing Him, and who He is in me, and how He wants to function in me (His perfect, beautiful plan for me)
•	I am in a winter time of my soul but spring is beginning to peep through
•	I yearn for the fulfillment of all the above - in part here on earth as through a glass darkly, and completely in heaven.

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14. The Scripture I’m impressed with as pertaining to now: (2 Cor 9:6) “Whoever sows generously will also reap generously.”

As I generously gave my earthly treasures to Him and His plan for me, He is now giving generously to me.

(2 Cor 9:10-11) “He will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion...(and this) will result in thanksgiving to God.”

He is making “grace abound to me.” (2 Cor 9:8)

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15. These are things Jesus wants for me/us:
•	Have the full measure of His joy within me (John 17:13)
•	Have His Word (John 17:14)
•	Protected from the evil one (John 17:15)
•	Not be of this world (John 17:16)
•	Sanctified by the truth - God’s Word (John 17:17)
•	Sent into the world (John 17:18)
•	Others believe in Him through our message (John 17:20)
•	We may all be one in Christ and Father (John 17:21)
•	Given the glory that the Father gave Jesus (John 17:23)
•	Brought to complete unity (John 17:23)
•	To be with Jesus where He is and see His glory (John 17:24)
•	Continue to make the Father known to us (John 17:26)
•	Jesus be in us (John 17:26)
•	The love Father has for Jesus may be in us (John 17:26)
•	Protected by the power of Father’s name (John 17:11)
•	We may be one as He and Father are one (John 17:11)
•	Prays for me, for I am Father’s (John 17:9)
•	Not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16)
•	Live by truth and come into the light (John 3:21)
•	Serve Him, follow Him, be with Him (John 12:26)

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16. In 1985 I was given a vision of a great ball of fire moving around in my church sanctuary. It touched some people, then it went faster and touched others. This increased in speed until it exploded with a great burst of light that filled the sanctuary. Today the Lord spoke to me about it:

Regarding the vision picture of the church sanctuary and many being “touched” by the Spirit, and this happening faster and increasing until a big “explosion” (the rapture) takes place:

Because you attended a certain church you saw it in their sanctuary because it represented worship. The final fulfillment of that doesn’t have to be in that particular church but in worship - wherever you are, wherever I take you.

The fire ball encompasses the whole church. It leaves a “trail” of silver dust that you can see. In a similar way, you will be able to see the effects of My Spirit’s work where I want you to see it - where I give you spiritual vision to see it. I will enable you to “see” the ball of fire and silver dust at the right time as a confirmation to you...a confirmation of where you’re to go.

You gave your best to that church. Now I’m going to switch you to the place of the final scene of your vision. You always thought it was that church. I always knew it was not. But there were many changes to take place to get you and other things ready for the final scene. That scene was for you to experience and not necessarily anyone else from there.

Wherever I have you go - and stay - that is the place where that vision rapture scene will take place. It could have been your previous church, but they rejected Me. Just because they reject Me doesn’t reflect on My relationship with you. You gave Me, and them, your best. You will now be rewarded with deep true worship.

“He who pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity and honor.” (Proverbs 21:21)

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17. Jesus wants me to love Him fervently. I am to carefully guard and nurture my relationship with Him. He says:

I want you to handle the blessing I’m bringing. Don’t leave Me because you don’t need Me anymore. I’m warning you before the blessing arrives. Don’t let it take you away from Me -- and don’t let your ministry take My place in your life. (I want you with Me all morning, remember?) Work on that! I want you to know you’re going to have to fight a battle for this - for our relationship and our time. Fight it! It’s worth it!

Satan is trying every way he can to win you from Me and this is one way he’s going to try. I will pray for you -- that Satan not win. He won’t; but you will have to recognize the battle and fight it.

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18. I am to learn to know where I am with Jesus. He wants to bring me out of hiding, out of darkness and into the light. What we do on earth to come closer to Him brings us closer to Him when in heaven. He wants me to spend the rest of my time on earth drawing closer to Him, taking off the “veils” of hiding from others who I really am, getting cleansed and pure before Him--and in this way getting to “know Him.” That has been a desire of my heart for years that He put in me. If I take on some more service, I would spend lots of time dwelling on it. That was ok before, but now I am to do the above--find out where I am in relation to God. Yes, Lord, this is what I want to do!

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19. Who am I right now in relationship to the Lord? How am I to live these days? Part of the answer comes from Proverbs 2:1-6 that tells me to:
•	Accept His words
•	Store up His commands
•	Turn my ear to wisdom
•	Apply my heart to understanding
•	Call out for insight
•	Cry aloud for understanding
•	Look for it as for silver, search as for hidden treasure
•	Then I will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.

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20. I had a dream during the night. I was in the basement of my childhood home--bringing out contracts/agreements/arrangements made before. They were shaped like a circle/ball and held like a CD. They were to be brought out, looked at, to see if completed as planned or if they still need to be dealt with/fulfilled. Some were ok, done, finished. One was more difficult to finish, and was not yet done. I need revelation from God as to what these “things” are - finished and unfinished.

Revelation: These “things” are prayers already answered - many, most, already done. Some prayers are not yet completed. The ones not yet completed I listed in my journal. I am to add Scriptures that fit each request.

It is time to pray again for all these to be completed/accomplished. Pray!

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21. I dreamed about 2 box shapes like:      _____   ______________
                         [_____] [______________]

I foreknew they were going to catch fire. I was making plans about what to do when it happened. It was almost like the 2 shapes were vehicles that could move - like buses. The feeling was one of knowing not fearing.

Understanding: The small box shape represents my church and the large box shape represents the universal church. The Holy Spirit is going to set them both on fire. I don’t yet know what I am to do about it beforehand or during it. I think I am to pray and ask what I am to do.

Answer: This is not in the great distant future; it is soon. What you are to do is wait before Me, day by day, and listen to get my instructions for that day...and be obedient to them.

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22. The Lord says He has healed me from intestinal troubles and whenever I feel spots of pain there to thank Him for the healing.

I’m not giving you anything more to deal with through the doctors unless I specifically tell you to go there. Thank Me for healing you if you feel pain or anything worrisome about your body - it is in My care. If I want you to ‘ask’ someone to care for it (doctor, etc) I will guide you to do that.

What about my appointment next week with my doctor?

It is the ‘closing down’ time for seeing him. It’s time for Me to handle your physical body care now, so keep seeking Me for that daily as you do for safety, protection and provision.

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23. In a dream I saw that there was an invitation (like a generic one) not addressed to anyone special. I was filling out the invitation, even though it seemed I was told by others not to do that since it wasn’t specifically sent to me. The Holy Spirit says about this:

All are invited to come to Me. I want everyone, but I know that Satan and self-interests will keep many from answering My invitation to come to Me - and to the Father through Me - and to the wedding supper of the Lamb. Do you want to come? It will be soon, very soon.

There will be the Bride and there will be the invited guests. The Church is My Bride - the Bride I died for, died to save. The Church is very special in My sight - pure, clean, and holy - set apart unto Me. I will always keep her by My side and share My life, abundant life, with her. You will always be by My side, walking with Me, talking with Me, on earth and in heaven.

The invited guests - a few have come, but many have not. So I sent My servants out to bring in many off the streets - the poor, the lame, the beggars - in other words, the needy. The needy know they don’t control their own lives and they need and welcome a Savior and Lord.

You have been needy many times, and the needier you are, the closer you come to Me, cling to Me. And I meet your every need.

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24. A dream: I was going through a house that used to be mine, seeing the changes, thinking how I used to use or arrange it. It was huge - like 3 houses of rooms in one. I specifically noticed where the children used to have a play area. I also noticed some large flowery wallpaper. I said it was hard to imagine I picked it out.

The house is you, your life. It used to be yours, but now it belongs to Me - you are Mine. You used to arrange it - make decisions for it - but now I do.

The 3 houses of rooms are the 3 major divisions in your life like I showed you before:
1. Under your father 
2. Under your husband
3. Under Me as your authority

There were times of being a child or childlike. There were times of making decisions that it’s hard to imagine now that you made then. It’s just another reminder that you (your house, your life) now belongs to Me, is now under My authority, and the other, former, is past and gone.

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25. Another dream: I would lie on my back and wait...and then my hands and arms would start shaking. This was a sign there was healing coming through them - and we would tell people to touch them (my hands and arms) before the shaking stopped, and see if they got healed. This happened several times. I don’t know if any were healed.

Lying on your back makes you very vulnerable, so this discloses being in a vulnerable position/situation. Next, waiting on Me. Shaking represents the appearance of the Holy Spirit upon you. People could tell the Holy Spirit was there, and came for blessing such as healing. You saw all this happen but don’t know the results, weren’t shown.

This fits/describes your wondering if your life work in serving Me has had any value, help, to those who came to you and touched you during those times of being led/anointed by the Holy Spirit - and you don’t know.

That represents your years of placing yourself in a vulnerable position, waiting on and depending on the Holy Spirit to do any blessing/healing/helping/ministering through you...as you discipled others. You will not know until you get to heaven how much was done because it was the Holy Spirit (invisible) doing the work, not you. You just got yourself in the right position and waited. Just trust Me by faith for that. 

Is your life worthwhile/valuable? Yes, to Me it is priceless!

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26. I can go as far as I can see in my “vision.” I can see in my vision spending more and more time listening to the Lord, sitting at His feet (as Mary did in the Bible) and learning from Him. As I hear the secret desires of His heart, I can share in those dreams and pray for them. This is what I am to spend my time doing, rather than “things” (like giving out tracts, soup kitchen, etc) My call is to build a deep and abiding relationship with the Lord.

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27. Today I am writing new insights in interpreting the 1985 vision pictures. The pictures were shown to me at my home church involving people there. They have a broader interpretation as they refer to "the church,” the kingdom people, the Bride of Christ. This is the vision picture:

In the vision I see pray-ers kneeling at the front of the sanctuary in front of the platform. I only see their silhouettes and they are aqua blue. They are surrounded by a rose colored light. The four people who met in the air came together into a ball of fire. This ball started moving around inside the sanctuary in an arc to come down and touch someone, then went up in another arc to some other part of the sanctuary to come down and touch someone else. It kept doing this over and over, faster and faster, touching more and more people. Each time it went in the arc through the air it left a trail of silver dust, like a jet trail in the sky, so these trails increased and increased within the sanctuary. It kept going faster and faster until it exploded so the light and silver dust filled everywhere.

Early interpretation: I expect to see this taking place in my church sanctuary.

It has been revealed to me just this week that the places this Holy Spirit "Ball of Fire" touched down represents places in the world where He is touching mightily, and has been for many of the last several years. It represents ‘people groups’ He is visiting with revival around the world. It is being fulfilled worldwide, but not yet in my local church. The silvery dust, left wherever the Holy Spirit went, represents the ‘glory’ that shows as He works in us and upon us, His Church.

The ‘explosion’ represents the Rapture when the church is translated in the air to meet with Jesus. As the work of the Holy Spirit in revival goes faster and faster touching more and more people, it will climax with a giant ‘explosion’ of great power, might, and glory as Christ takes His Bride to be with Himself. 

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28. TWO RECURING DREAMS: In dream #1 I am to do some sort of performance, like be in a drama, or play a musical solo on stage. I don’t know my part, lines, or how to play the solo. The time for the performance comes closer and closer and I don’t prepare and I get more frustrated and fearful about having to give the performance when I am not prepared. I have had this type of dream quite a number of times and in various forms over several years.

I dream #2 I am in a city or place that is unfamiliar to me. I don’t recognize the streets although I keep looking for something familiar so I can find my way. I am not sure where I am going or how to get there. I walk and walk looking for the way. Sometimes I am afraid of the people along the way - afraid they will harm me. This dream also comes in different places/circumstances but is basically the same form or idea...and is frustrating to dream.

In Jack Deere’s book The Beginner’s Guide To The Gift Of Prophecy he says: "Humble people pray. Praying is one of the most practical things we can do, both to get revelation and to understand it. God told Jeremiah, 'Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know'  (Jer. 33:3). How much revelation do we forfeit simply because we do not ask God to tell us “unsearchable things”? How much revelation do we fail to understand because we do not ask God to reveal its meaning?  (p. 92)"

(I asked God to tell me great and unsearchable things I do not know.)

Then Jack talks about the purpose of symbolic language on p 94-95.  He says: "To sum up this section, symbolic language conceals truth from the proud, reveals the most profound truth to the humble, and jars us awake when we are tempted to use God rather than love him. It impacts our emotions. This is especially true of dreams and visions, which are often symbolic rather than literal...the symbols of dreams and visions may frighten us out of our lethargy (see Job 33:15-18). Because they do, God uses pictures and symbols to intensify our feelings."

The phrase above (which kept bringing me to tears) is: “reveals the most profound truth to the humble”.  I felt God impressing me to write these two dreams (above) so He could reveal the profound truth to me as I humbled myself, sought Him, and listened to Him.

If I had to interpret those two dreams in the natural, I would say they show: I feel something is coming for which I am not ready or prepared, and I am not getting ready. And the other dream means I am lost, don’t know where I am going, don’t know how to get there, am walking in unfamiliar territory, and am afraid of the people and unknown along the way. This natural interpretation is most distressing to me. But the Lord says: 

These are My words to you, My child, about those two dreams. You are entirely dependent on Me in your life for what’s coming, for getting ready, for the performance of what I want you to do, for how to get there, for where you are going, also for keeping you through the fearful situations that might come. You are entirely dependent on Me - and that is exactly what and where I want you to be. This is part of My preparation of you - to get you totally dependent on Me and totally humble so that you know nothing, and can’t do anything to bring about what I am doing in your life or with you. My purpose for you is totally unknown and you are totally unprepared...at least in your physical eyes...and in your emotions.

This is part of the “preparation” I am taking you through just now, while you wait for Me to reveal and lead you to what is coming for you. It is exactly what I want for you right now. In your spirit you know this and it comes to you in your dreams. This is because I want to use you, and I can only use you with this preparation getting you ready for what I want/plan to do.

Keep walking in this direction you are now going in relationship with Me and I will get you to the performance/place where I want to get you. Leave it in My hands. Trust Me. Continue on as you are going, trusting Me completely to bring about My plan for you, in My time, to totally empower you and prepare you, and to use you for My mighty purpose for you. 

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29. I dreamed I was in my childhood home. As I looked out the west window of the dining room I saw smoke in the field area behind our property. I went out into the back yard to look. I looked back at the house and saw my sister in an upper story window. I saw a slender stream of fire coming towards me on the lawn. I think I tried to stop the fire, maybe with a bucket of water and/or by stamping on it. As I walked away, other people then seemed to be there. I wanted them to help me put out the fire. Somehow we had 2 buckets for water. It seems I tried to tell them about the fire danger, but I saw no one concerned enough or moved to help. I walked around the house to the sidewalk area on the south side, and sensed I was told to look up at the house. When I did I saw the main beam of the roof area with a flame on it. 

Understanding of the dream: 
1.	The beam/house wasn’t seen as burned/charred
2.	While in the back yard the slender stream of fire came right up to me where I was standing but I didn’t see it go to others
3.	This wasn’t a fearful dream, just concern about fire burning my house and thinking I should stop it, but not getting it stopped.

I didn’t write this dream until later since it stuck vividly in my mind. These features seem important:
	1. Smoke seen near
	2. Slender stream of fire coming to me
	3. My sister in window of upstairs
	4. People not moving, not concerned
	5. Beam of house with single flame (tongue of fire) on it

An impression in my mind about the meaning of this dream: There are two streams going side by side. One is the church I currently attend. The other I will call the stream of revival. I’m stepping into the revival stream and maybe will help join the two streams together. The house represents me and the flame of revival is already burning in the upper part, the spiritual part of me. My sister is also in the same position. Many other people don't see the revival stream and aren't concerned about it.

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30. A dream: In it there was a flying/floating large log suspended in air. First I saw it in one part of town. Then I was in my home and watched the log coming near to the upper windows. These windows were like skylights on the upper side of the house just beneath the roof. The log came close, touched the house, then moved back and came forward again and lodged against the house. It just missed the window (which I thought it might break) by about an inch. I wondered how to get it off. It wasn’t fearful; I was just concerned that the window not be broken. I was standing on the floor inside the house watching this up above me. 

After I woke up this song kept coming:

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With healing in His wings
With healing in His wings
The Sun of Righteousness shall come
With healing in His wings.
(from Malachi 4:2)
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31. “Blessed is the man who listens to me, watching daily at my doors, waiting at my doorway. For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the Lord.” (Proverbs 8:34-35)

This is what He wants me to do for the rest of my days.

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32. The Lord says if His choice for me is to live the rest of my days in peace and happiness, not in spiritual battle and struggle, that I should accept that in faith from Him, and be thankful for it. It does not mean I am wasting my time here on earth. He is still using me in the ways He chooses, and I am to be content with that. And that IS what He is saying to me right now. Right now what He wants for me is to develop greater intimacy with Him and that comes through prayer/talking/communing with Him. This is what I really will want to have developed when I get to heaven. I say “Yes” to you, Lord! I choose Your revealed choice that I live the rest of my days on this earth before the rapture in obedience to You - and that means quietly and peacefully. I thank You for this revelation and accept it in Jesus’ Name.

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33. Be a “Keeper of the Springs” for those around you each day. Keep cleaning out the springs of life with truth. Share the truth whenever you hear/see “pollution” such as wrong attitudes, gossip, lies, misunderstanding, incorrect information. Keep the clean water of life flowing in your own life and the life of others. I am the Wellspring of Life. I give clean pure crystal-clear water to you each day. Be daily cleansed yourself and share the cleansing with others.

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34. A dream one night: I was in a house that belonged to me. I had just purchased it or gotten it somehow. The person who had it before left it with some furniture and things still in it. I was looking over the rooms, and kept finding more and more rooms - with surprise. I didn’t realize it had so many rooms and so much furniture. I saw a knick knack corner shelf which didn’t fit into the shape of the corner very well. I saw the backs of bookcases in one room. I thought that I could pick one of those rooms just for me - to use for my stuff. I noticed there was a ramp leading upward and I wanted to go up and explore what might be up there also.

The next night I had almost the same dream as last night. I again was in my house and looking around at the many many rooms and the furniture in it already. This time I came upon a room with beautiful furniture in aqua blues. Then I saw a stairway curving up. From up that stairway I saw a fan flying down toward me, and I was hit by it, like in the center of my body. I think I exclaimed, “A flying fan!”  

INTERPRETATION: The thoughts which come as possible interpretations of these two dreams: 
1	The house is me and the rooms are various parts of me I am discovering/viewing.
2	The person who had the house previously and left furniture was myself previous to now. My “now” person is looking to see what is already there from before and looking to see how to rearrange it to fit my needs/desires currently. The many rooms and much furniture delight me since I can enjoy them now.
3	The ramp up and the stairway up represent wanting to explore the spiritual aspects of my life more now. These scenes were at the end of each dream, I think representing the end of my life (now) when I am enticed by the Lord to seek Him more and more. And that is exactly what is happening right now in my life - I am spending more and more of my time/energy/thoughts in communing with the Lord.
4	The flying fan: the fan represents wind, air, blowing wind, which makes me think it represents the Holy Spirit...and it is coming to “whop” me, hit me, touch me, in a major way. It also reminds me of the fan vision given me before with instruction on it to “follow Me.”
5	Seeing the backs of bookcases may mean I am turning away from, or not looking at, books as I used to.
6	I have a choice of picking what part of me I will “live” in - spend time in.
7	Blue represents revelation. So that room with aqua furniture may represent revelation which I receive.
8	I have the stairway up to spiritual life within me.
9	Knick knack not fitting in corner - I’m getting past having to “fit in” with what’s around me (or fit in with the other part of me that’s square.) It’s ok.

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35. Whoever has My Spirit will be unified. Whoever does not have My Spirit will fight against the unity I am bringing about. And you will be part of the unity that comes from Me. The unity of My Spirit will travel all over the world and bring peace among My people with one another. And they will rise up as a mighty giant to show the world who I am and My power and glory in mighty feats of boldness. And I will come and take My people away after this has happened, and everyone has a chance to see and choose.

I am with you and will be with you to the very ends of the earth. I love My people and want them with Me and out of this wicked world. Then the anti-christ will reign for a time but it will be short and awful.

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36. I want some people to be intimate with Me and you are one I’ve picked. I’ve trained you in how to be since you were a little child. I’ve brought you close with dreams, visions, Scripture, journaling, prayer, communicating with Me moment by moment, asking, seeking, knocking, and putting that desire in your heart - all this through the Holy Spirit. And this is your purpose in life! You wanted to know your purpose. It’s to be close and intimate with Me, sharing each moment, each happening together.

That’s why I gave you so many instructions on listening, visioning, journaling, experiencing, and following. This is something you are to be rather than something to do. Doing is loving Me, communicating with Me, worshiping Me, etc. This is your purpose; you are fulfilling it daily. I am pleased. It’s what I’ve trained you to do. It’s the dream/desire I’ve put in your heart. There are some I’ve called just to be with Me - and you are one. Be content with that.

Read this whenever you have doubts about fulfilling your purpose in life.

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37. A dream: I was sitting in a single file row of people who were practicing to play the accompaniment to some performance. We weren’t given time to warm up our instruments but just began rehearsing. I was in front of the row and couldn’t see those behind me as in this picture:

		me	facing front   
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conductor	__
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I also couldn’t see the conductor except when I turned my head to the left and back for a quick glimpse. I had a French horn but I wasn’t playing it. What I had, instead of music, was a paper with #’s of the sections/pieces we were to play. There were numbers on the paper from 1 to 9. Out in front of me in a large open space a singer started singing with us.

Interpretation:
10	Horn - prophecy, last trumpet i.e. rapture
11	Performance - His kingdom coming, His will being done, on earth as it is in heaven. It’s the harvest of Jesus’ kingdom work in His people
12	The page with numbers -  a picture to tell me “what time it is” prophetically (# 9 for harvest)
13	My sitting position - I am “out in front” - i.e. living now. Not knowing my role - uncertainty of times
14	Others behind me - i.e. lived previously and are watching from heaven
15	Singer (we are to accompany) is the Holy Spirit and He has begun His song
16	His song represents the “final days” before the rapture
17	Open field ahead means I see nothing and know nothing about what’s next - only to accompany the singer; the fields are white unto harvest. Pray to the Lord to send workers into those fields.
18	Holy Spirit’s song - He sings; all of us in orchestra go with Him, accompany Him. He leads! He has begun His “final” song for the Church - the last-days Church
19	Conductor - goes through whole song with orchestra and leads them to the very end. I only get quick glimpses of Jesus, but He is still conducting it all

As I pondered the dream the Lord showed my that I am participating in these ways:

1. As a part of His orchestra, just being in it, letting Him conduct, letting Him sing.
2. Being aware of His work and timing
3. Getting brief glimpses of His conducting
4. Hearing His song
5. Seeing the open field
6. Wanting to do what He has me here to do
7. Praying for the harvest

The Scripture He gives me regarding this:
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deuteronomy 31:8)

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38. “You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.” (Isaiah 26:3)

I am here. Now pray for My angels to protect you and have charge over you. Spend this evening with Me. I have lots to say to you.

•	Do as much as you can to help support needy ministries as your heart leads you.
•	Keep coming to Me daily/hourly for instructions.
•	Know that I am with you always, so do not fear. My angels have great power.
•	I have some things for you to do: be with your daughters and sisters, be ready to share my glory with all whom I lead you to touch, lay hands on, pray for, speak to, declare about
•	We will spend lots of time in evenings talking like this.
•	I will give you many dreams and some visions in the days to come (as in Joel). It is now “afterward.”
•	I will come to you daily to instruct you. All your years of preparation have been for this time. Fear is what the enemy uses to enter you, so cancel it! And do that over and over.

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39. “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” (Luke 9:23)

•	Deny yourself: Put aside self concerns, lay aside all self interest, and self thoughts and self desires.
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•	Take up your cross daily - your cross is your purpose in life. My purpose is to continue to grow in a close intimate relationship with the Lord and to worship and praise Him.
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•	Follow Me - Listen attentively to God. As He speaks in this time together, I am to follow Him.

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40. A dream: In this dream I saw a “wind” display. In the first part I saw three objects floating through the air off to my right. The middle object was a large ship with many sails (like pictures of great sailboats many years ago). I don’t remember what the other two items were. These were almost suspended in the air but slowly moving from right to left in this display - which was off to my right up in the air. It was very awesome and I stared at it in awe. It seemed as if it was a visual part of a newspaper announcement, or some sort of announcement or advertisement, which I heard about, and knew existed, but didn’t actually hear in the dream.

Then I began to see a stream of objects floating from where that ship display had been across my field of vision over me and to the left of me...as the wind carried them. There were many objects - seems like many were animals. I was watching them and pointing out various objects/animals to someone else whom I didn’t see, but who was there. I remember a dragon, I think maybe green. The other objects/animals were colorful, and this also was an awesome display but not as awe-striking as the first scene. It was a delight to watch. Then I remember seeing something like a stone wall with little bits of these colored shapes stuck to it - like the air had been taken out of the shape and it was deflated and became quite tiny pieces of the shape.

Interpretation: A large sailboat means the Church. A sailboat could mean Spirit-powered. This might refer to a large Spirit- empowered ministry. A green dragon may mean the flesh, mortal, or life, green could mean renewal, but dragon, I would think, would refer to Satan, that dragon, mentioned in Revelation. This could therefore refer to fleshly life empowered by the dragon. 

The Holy Spirit is going to give a display of what is really in the church - various good and bad (animals and colors) coming from the ship. The tiny “deflated” pieces may represent these things He will show the way it really is without the Spirit. They still had color, but no air - belonged to God but not empowered by the Spirit. This could represent things in the church.

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41. I remember another dream picture in which I was in the passenger seat of a car. I got up and turned toward the back seat, like I wanted to get something there, and as I did the person sitting behind the driver gently pulled my head over so it rested on his shoulder. It felt good to me and comforted me.

Interpretation: When I think about this dream event, I am impacted with the desire to cry as if the Holy Spirit is really touching me through it. It seems to be telling me that:

•	The Spirit is driving the car representing my life or ministry.
•	I don’t see or know where that car is going
•	As I look into the back seat, there is a person there who brings comfort and assurance to me, and a feeling of being liked and cared for. This unknown person may be Jesus.
•	This dream gives me assurance I am loved and cared for and being led by Him.

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42. As you talked last Wednesday night to the single moms group about the process of having Me show you things in your past that need forgiveness, so now I want you to go through a process of letting Me show you things in yourself and how I see them.

Let’s start with your love. The love you give is conditional love because that is the kind of love you were given all through your life by the main people in your life. I want to change that and give you unconditional love like I have for you and for others. You can’t do this, but I can. All things are possible with Me. Do you want this? Ask for it.

Next let’s talk about your peace. You have conditional peace...based on the situation and conditions around  you. I want to change that to unconditional peace. Do you want this? Ask for it.

Now, about your giving...I see you as giving a tithe and more, and this is good. Now give your time to others, give your spiritual gifts to others, give your attention to others, and give your caring to others. Do you want this? Ask Me to give it to you.

And now about arguing and complaining...you learned lots of this through examples in your home and from others around you. It is in you and I want to take it out of you, but first you must be willing to release it and give it up, and let Me change that part of you that wants to do this. Do you want this? Ask Me for it.

About the beautiful, pure, and spiritual life you see in others...do you want this in you too? Ask Me to change you to make you that way.

This is not something I will do completely today, but it is a process I will take you through over a period of time. Expect it, watch for it, and respond to it.

What is hidden that I want to bring out of hiding? Prophesy, visions, dreams, and prayers of intercession...also worship and praise ministry - showing before others that you love Me. Speaking of your love for Me, speaking the things I show and tell you .It has happened some, a little, but I want that to increase, to become greater, more compelling. Do you want this? Ask Me for it.

The cleansing I will do a little bit at a time as I have always done with you. Keep asking for it.

Assurance and comfort and showing My love for you will come as you set aside time, lots of time, and wait for Me in THE SECRET PLACE as you have been reading about. That is My highest and greatest purpose for you, for your life. It is intimacy with Me. Choose it. Ask for it.

The Secret Place is the place for refueling yourself and your ministry. The Secret Place is the place where all the above things will take place. Increase your time and intimacy with Me and these things will all come as part of that, automatically, while in My Presence. 

What kind of time are You thinking about, Lord? 

At least an hour a day spent quietly in My Presence.

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43. “I will send my messenger ahead of you, who will prepare your way before you.” (Matt 11:10)

I’m not sure what this verse means, but He gave it to me today, so I’m writing it down and waiting to see how it is fulfilled. I believe this messenger (for me) is the Holy Spirit.

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44. I am with you. This would be a good place to come each night for a quiet time with Me. Then you could type if I tell you something you want to keep/remember. I gave you that book (The Secret Place) because I knew you would relate to many things he said in it. He had a similar experience to yours. See, you are not the only one I call apart to be with Me in an intimate friendship...like Enoch. I know that’s what you want, but it’s because I put that desire in you, as I also put it in him.

You are changing; have you noticed it? You are walking much more in quietness and confidence. It wasn’t by coincidence that Mel spoke confidence to you. She had that revealed to her by Me so she could say it to you. And, yes, you are coming “unhidden” more and more. Do not be afraid of this because I will give you everything you need to come forth. You have set yourself apart unto Me, and I have set Myself apart unto you too. We are one as Jesus and I are one.

Don’t be afraid to write what I put in your mind. If you don’t understand it, I will explain it eventually. Like telling you about black Sunday. You will understand that eventually. Remember the light is getting lighter and the dark is getting darker. Arise, shine, My child. The light shows even better in the darkness.

And now, go and read your book some more, but leave this computer turned on and ready to write if I want you to.

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45. A “seed of destiny” has been placed in you which I am now awakening. It is for ministering healing and wisdom.

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46. “My Beloved spoke, and said to me: ‘Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.’” (Song of Solomon 2:10)

...And that’s what I’m saying to you. That’s what I’ve called you to - to “come away.”

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47. My desire to become like Jesus will come as a result of following the ministry dream God has given me - as I seek Him for the love, the resources and plan for that ministry. One dream is to help the poor. The other dream He has given me is to get the gospel to people.

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48. A vision picture: I am up front in the sanctuary speaking to the congregation at my church. I am speaking to them about repenting, getting reconciled, etc. People come forward, as I speak, to ‘counselors’ down in front. As this vision started, I tried to say that I couldn’t see this scene because it was pride, but the Spirit said to let it progress, look at it, see it, so I did. The vision shows me sharing with people and encouraging them to come to the Lord with all their different needs: salvation, prayer, counseling, encouraging. 

This is a picture of that being part of God’s plan for my life. I see myself right now desiring to do that in my job. That was part of the motivation for organizing discipleship groups at my church...to help them get the spiritual help they needed, and to see their need, and to get help for that.

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49. A vision picture: I am standing up front in the sanctuary and looking out over the congregation. I see faces, and some of the faces are replaced with a circle smiley face. These are the ones that draw my attention.

Those you are supposed to contact respond to you - represented by smiles. You are to “look out over” My kingdom people and connect with them. You are to look for those who are seeking Me and put your attention on them. Then you can help lead them to what will fill/answer their needs.

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50. A vision picture: a man I know is standing on the platform in the front of the sanctuary with Jesus beside him.

You told this man you thought that meant he was to make his choice about whether he wanted to follow Jesus or not, and to tell this to Jesus. Remember this if something should come up with this man in the future. He said he did want to receive Jesus into himself and follow Him. You were My messenger to him to speak of his need for a commitment to Me. You shared that with him. His choice is his own.

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51. A vision picture: I see a man who is a worship leader standing on the platform in the front of the sanctuary. He looks over at the choir where I am sitting. He motions to another choir member and me to come up with him. We do that and the other choir member stands on his right-hand side and I stand on his left-hand side. We take the man’s two hands and hold them up  - so the three of us are standing there with our hands linked, holding them up as high as we can.

This means you two linked with him in ministering for Me...and in praising Me. This means for you that you are an integral part of My praise ministry, and that praise and worship has a major role to play in your life - both now and in heaven. This ministry to Me in praise and worship will continue and increase in your life.

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52. A vision picture: I saw the pulpit on the platform in the front of the sanctuary. It was pulled up out of the floor and over to one side by something unseen…as if by an invisible hand. When the bottom of the pulpit became visible, I saw long white/gray roots with much dirt around them coming down from the pulpit, roots that had extended down holding it in place before.  Another person and I were standing beside the pulpit that was torn up. As this happened we are tossed up and down in great upheaval. There was nothing for us to stand on; the floor wasn’t there, just air. We moved up and down for quite awhile but the turbulence grew less and less, and we were tossed less and less, until the turbulence stopped and we could again stand.

This refers to the time of upheaval with your pastor leaving and your turbulence with that. However it also has meaning extended beyond that situation. Your life has been intertwined with pastors (the pulpit) a lot and there is upheaval and turbulence from those situations/relationships. This is and will continue to be a part of your life and future. When the turbulence comes, there is nothing to stand on in the world, only your faith and trust in Me. Eventually each situation will stop the turbulence and you can stand again awhile in peace.

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53. A vision picture: I am positioned up in the air over the congregation. A person ‘comes up’ from the platform and is positioned across from me in the air. Then another person comes up to join us to my left, and another person comes up in the air to my right. The four of us are together in the air. 		

This had a literal fulfillment when you four people prayed together for the pageant. But it has a more extended meaning too. You will work in “team ministry” together with others. This will come together one person at a time. In the air means it is based on faith and not on the world.

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54. A vision picture: I see pray-ers kneeling at the front of the sanctuary in front of the platform. I only see their silhouettes which are aqua blue. They are surrounded by a rose-colored light. The four who met in the air came together into a ball of fire. This ball started moving around inside the sanctuary in an arc to come down and touch someone, then went up in another arc to some other part of the sanctuary to come down and touch someone else. It kept doing this over and over, faster and faster, touching more and more people. Each time it went in the arc through the air it left a trail of silver dust, like a jet trail in the sky, so these trails increased and increased within the inside of the sanctuary. It kept going faster and faster until it exploded so the light and silver dust filled everywhere.

This scene represents revival of people by the touch of the Holy Spirit. This touching by the Spirit starts, then increases in number and speed. It involves “the Church” anywhere. It comes through prayer which turns into fire as the Spirit takes those prayers and increases and answers them. The fire is the judgment and cleansing of God. The silver dust is the beauty that is seen in the atmosphere around these Spirit touchings. The explosion of light and silver dust everywhere is a visual picture of the Rapture of God’s saints - in the twinkling of an eye like an explosion, and greatly beautiful like light and silver dust.

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55. I saw a picture of an opened fan looking like a turkey tail. At the top of each fan section an instruction was written. The understanding came to me that different people in the Body of Christ were to respond to these different instructions according to their giftedness and God’s leading. As they did this all the instructions could be completed - as each one did his part. The piece of fan given to me had this instruction on it: Follow Me.

This brings to my remembrance that the main instruction for my life is to follow Jesus! Others have their instructions too, and together these make up what He is doing. My piece is what He has given me to do...follow Him. 

They follow the Lamb wherever his goes.  (Revelation 14:4)

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56. I saw in my mind the picture of a maze, as if I was looking down on it from above. I saw myself in this maze, letting the Lord lead me each way it went. The thought came to me: How could He really teach me and test me on following Him if He did not lead me in some ways that were different than I expected, or not logical to me. If He only led me in ways I expected, ways He had led me before, that would not really test and grow my ability to follow Him. I was impressed that even if He said: Do nothing, I was to follow that. That just might be the best for me at that time.

I am leading you, like in a maze. You do not see each turn or see to the side. Just keep following Me moment by moment. It is a lonely path, but I am always with you. I will always show you the way to go.

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57. One day my attention was drawn to some birds eating in the grass outside my kitchen window. I noticed the birds picked up one seed at a time to eat. The Lord gave me a mental picture of a whole pile of seeds. Then He revealed that He did not provide a pile of seeds for them, but just one seed at a time - and He would provide for me the same way!

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58. I had a dream. In the dream I saw a house sitting in the dark. On the outside of this house there was an elaborate design formed with small lights, like Christmas tree lights. I was barely able to distinguish their presence, but I gradually became aware of them formed into this design. The lights were not only on the side and front of the house, but even in the yard on the grass. I knew the design was beautiful, but I could not see it. I began to see faint flickering occasionally from the lights...a tiny flicker here, and a tiny flicker there. There was one bulb that seemed to stay on and not flicker. It was shaped differently than the others. This light shone, but I did not see any light coming from it to illuminate the surrounding area. It seemed like it was frosted which kept it from coming forth brightly.

When I awoke the dream was so vivid I remembered it clearly. I asked the Lord what it represented. It was revealed that this house represented the church, the body of Christ. The “lights” were on the house and they were formed into a beautiful pattern. It would look glorious if it could be seen. However, the electricity, the power, was at such low voltage the lights did not shine out. We needed more electricity, more power through the Holy Spirit to empower those light bulbs. I knew I was to pray for the power to come so they could be seen for what they really were - a beautiful design by the Lord to glorify Him.

Then the Lord revealed that, as He lights up those bulbs, I will find some that are not lightable. They are dark, black. They either have no ability to shine (not having the Holy Spirit in them) or they are darkened, dead, refusing to let the Holy Spirit empower them and shine through them. The design is by the Lord, but it will be sad to see some of the black places in the design when the rest of the lights are lit. When the power comes and causes the bulbs to shine that will shine, we will see those bulbs have many shapes, sizes, and colors. Each one will be different.

The one bulb that already shines steadily has light in it, but it is clouded, is self-contained, and does not illuminate others around it. The reason the lights are on the outside of the house (not on the inside) is because this represents what the outside world sees of the church - a little flicker of light occasionally, not a strong, clear, steady light. But the Lord says that will change as the power is introduced - soon! 

You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth. 
(Acts 1:8)

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59. A vision picture: as this vision picture began I saw myself standing in front of an old fashioned well - the kind where you had to dip a bucket down into it to get water. Beyond the well was the ocean, yet I drew water from this well. In my hand was a small dipper. With this dipper I would reach into the well, get a small dipper of water, then reach up and pour that water into the top of my head. It would run down inside me to my feet and begin to fill me. Slowly I dipped, on and on, filling myself with this water. I sensed the water level rising within me. The task seemed tedious and tiring as it went on for a long long time.

When the water level inside me reached about two-thirds full, I suddenly found in my hand a much bigger dipper. As I dipped with it I filled up much faster! I could sense the water level coming up higher and higher within my body until I was full.

As I meditated on this vision picture and asked the Lord to give me revelation about it, I saw that it had two perspectives. One referred to my own spiritual growth which paralleled the picture. It came slowly over many years, and then the growth increased and speeded up at a particular point in my adult life. The second perspective on the vision picture pertained to the church in the world. It, too, followed the pattern of slow tedious growth, but it also will come to a time (and perhaps has already come) of the ‘big dipper’ when the water of the Spirit fills the church quickly. Instead of being filled with the salt water of the world (the ocean in back of the well), we are to be filled with the fresh clear clean water from the well of salvation, Jesus. 

With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.  (Isaiah 12:3)	

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60. As an adult I have often been guided by the Lord to look back into my past and remember an event which needs to be worked through. Sometimes I need to forgive someone, sometimes I need to ask the Lord to forgive me, sometimes I need to be freed from a wrong attitude, and sometimes I need healing. This story involves both forgiveness and healing for something which happened to me as a young child.

I do not remember why, but my father was angry with me. In the process of dealing with me in his anger, he sent me outside our home to stand by myself in the dark on our front porch. I was very afraid of the dark, so that was a dreadful punishment for me. But there was also a feeling of rejection and fear during that event...enough that it continued as a very painful memory for many years, even into my adulthood.

As an adult I brought that memory to the surface under the Lord’s guidance one day. I had to forgive my father for treating me that way. It was easy enough to say “I forgive him” to the Lord because I now had children of my own, and I could understand how irritating they can be at times. Perhaps I had been that way.

But somehow the Lord was not finished with that memory. I did not have a sense of peace about it and it kept returning into my mind. So I asked Him how to be free from the pain of that memory. I began to see that the feelings of being unwanted and rejected were still there and needed to be healed. How could I be healed I asked Him? Then He performed one of His marvelous deeds in my life to bring healing to me.

He had me bring back into my mind the picture of myself standing on that porch as a little child. Then He reminded me that He was always with me, and that I could imagine Him there on that porch with me, because He really was. So, in my imagination, I pictured Him standing there with me. At this point a vision began, and somehow, it was not dark anymore when He was there, and I was not afraid. He took my hand and we walked together down the steps off the porch and into a grassy area beside the house. His presence blessed me and freed me to be the child I was. We took hands and danced around in circles as children do. Then He stooped down and waited and watched as I danced and ran around in the grass - full of joy and delight being with Him.

This was so healing to me that now it is a pleasure to go back to that memory. When I do I remember, not pain, but Jesus being with me and accepting me for being a child and acting like a child...and just loving me as a child. My earthly father could not accept me acting like a child, but my heavenly Father loved me that way!

He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.  (Mark 10:14-16) 

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61. I am sitting in my chair looking at the picture which my mother stitched on canvas for me.  It is a lovely picture of a clump of birch trees blowing in the wind.  I liked that picture the moment I saw it in the store. I bought the kit to make it myself, but did not get around to doing it.  Then one day my mother saw the kit and volunteered to stitch it for me.  At that time in her life she was retired and had time to sew.  So, although I had the initial desire to create the picture on canvas, and bought all the materials to do so, it was not completed and framed until another person, my mother, volunteered to do the actual stitching.  Out of that combination came this beautiful picture hanging on my wall.
  
As I sit here pondering this, the thoughts begin to form in my mind from the Lord about how our lives are similar in relation to Him.  He is the One who had the original idea, the initial desire, for our lives.  He provided life for us and all the materials needed to stitch a beautiful picture from it.  One thing is left for us to do to get the picture completed. We have to work with Him, using what He has given us, to create that beautiful picture.  It must be stitched day by day, one stitch at a time.  He will provide the directions for us - as were provided with the picture mother stitched.  She just had to follow those to get the picture right.  Our directions can be found in His Word, the Bible.  If we follow those directions, when we come to the end of the picture, He will put the frame on it, and we can all rejoice in it.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you. (Psalm 32:8)

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62. A vision: It was during praise and worship singing time. As I sang, I closed my eyes and “saw” Jesus at the front of the auditorium with His hands outstretched over the people, blessing them as they had their heads bowed in prayer. They didn’t see Him. I was standing in the back left side of the auditorium watching this and He looked at me. Next I saw on the wall, on the right side of the auditorium, three angels standing there with long trumpets in their hands pointed down.

When the song ended, I opened my eyes, amazed at what I had just seen. We started another song, and I closed my eyes again. I saw the same picture of Jesus and the angels, only this time the angels held their trumpets half way up.

During the next song, the same thing happened with the same picture, but the angels held their trumpets up high like they were blowing them.

Interpretations: It was significant that it was during worship time as praise and worship is a central thing God is drawing me to in my life. My seeing Jesus while others didn’t see Him seems to mean to me that He will let me see Him as many people don’t. It seems to signify that He and I have/will have a special cognizance of each other, a special intimate relationship. The angels, showing three different trumpet positions, refer to three different divisions or time periods of my life. The third time period will be close to and during the blowing of the trumpets for the rapture of the church. It is during prayer (times of communicating with Him) that I will “see” Him most clearly.

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63. I was standing in the kitchen and may have seen an ant on the floor. God spoke into my mind that Satan was like that ant in size in comparison to His power over Satan. I could just step on Satan the way I would step on an ant.

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64. Today I am remembering a vision picture the Lord gave me many years ago. In this vision I was to go out into the ocean water and seek a treasure Jesus had for me and bring it back up to shore. When I walked from the ocean back up to the shore Jesus was waiting there for me and He handed me a treasure. I’m wondering if I am to pray for this vision to be fulfilled now.

Interpretation: I come “out of the ocean” of people and separate myself to find the Lord on the shore. He comes to me and brings His treasure. His treasure is Himself and His provision; all He has belongs to me. I only need to seek Him for it, for it comes through Him--no matter how it appears to come in the natural.

I gave up my job and set myself apart unto the Lord and came to the city where I now live under His direct guidance. I wrote, with the Holy Spirit, the book He guided me to write. I now wait and pray for the next step in this journey of faith...the publication of the book and the provision for my living expenses, as well as guidance for what to do next in the process. I pray for answers for all of this now.

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65. I was attending a revival meeting at my church. We were singing, praising, and worshiping, and I was being deeply touched by the Spirit. I saw a vision picture in my spirit of the Pastor standing on the platform in the front. I saw myself kneeling down before him and saw him putting his hands on my head in blessing.

Now, many years later, the Lord is revealing the meaning of that vision picture to me. It was a prophetic picture telling of a promise He was giving me: that I would be kept under the blessing of the authority of my pastors. I look back over the years of my life since then and see that I have surely been under the blessing of the authority of my pastors in the churches I’ve attended ever since then. Thank you, Lord, for the blessing of being under the authority of these men and women of God for all these years! 

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66. I had the vision picture of my being on a path and Jesus was in front of me walking backwards so we could keep holding hands. He was leading me so I would not get off the path and fall over the edge of it.

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67. In this vision picture I was watching Jesus walking through a lovely valley and I was a sheep walking along at His right side. I saw us from the back and watched us walk together.

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68. Lord, what do You want us to do...Your people, born of Your Spirit?

Listen to My Spirit.
Seek Me daily, for life is a daily walk with Me.
I have a way, and I have a plan.

You cannot find My way unless you seek Me.
I want you to learn how to do that.
Listen to Me, find My way, and walk in it.

I’ll not give you the wisdom of man.
I’ll give you God’s wisdom.
Which do you want?

If you do not seek Me, then I will know which you want,
And I will let you go man’s way and into his folly.

Seek Me until you find Me.
Do not give up.
I want to be found!

If you ask the world for advice, you will get the world’s counsel.
If you ask Me, you will get My counsel.

Which do you want, My friends?
Choose you this day whom you will serve!

Choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve. (Joshua 24:15)

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69. 	One of the Lord’s marvelous deeds is giving us the opportunity to become clean before Him through Jesus’ work on the cross.  There was a day in my life when He took me through a giant step in the process of becoming clean from past grudges, hurts, and unforgiven circumstances.  It all began at the very last meeting of the conference...
	The conference I was attending in North Carolina was on “Prayer for Spiritual Awakening.”  One thing I learned is that if you want spiritual awakening you need to pray, but I also learned that effective prayer must come from a cleansed vessel.  God began a process of cleansing in me that day.  He started to clean me from past experiences.
	I sat listening intently as the speaker shared a fresh experience of God’s work in his personal life - an experience only two weeks old.  I thank God for this man who was willing to be vulnerable enough to share how God revealed his own needs for cleansing and how God taught him to be free from the bondage of past events in his life.  He shared how he took each revealed memory of past hurts, grudges, and unforgiven events to the cross, confessed his part in those events, asked forgiveness, and then nailed those sins to the cross in his imagination as he accepted in his heart Christ’s finished work of paying the penalty for them.
	I knew deep down inside that God was calling me to do the same.  I felt like the conference was just beginning for me because there was so much inner work I wanted to do before returning home. But the conference was over.  Even so, my heart was filled with the intense desire to be alone with God and let Him do that cleansing work in me also.  Oh, how I wanted to stay!
	We packed the van with our luggage and began the 1 1/2-day trip back to Missouri.  The drawing by God to come apart with Him and begin that cleansing work was so real I could not escape it, nor did I want to.  However God knew what to do with all those travel hours!
	As the miles flew by and people became quieter, I began looking out the window and drawing apart in my mind to communicate with the Lord.  “Lord, please show me those areas in my life that need cleansing!   Take me back, Lord, in my memory to times and events which I need to confess before You.”
	And He did!  The first event He brought to my mind seemed so insignificant to me, I would not have considered it if He had not shown it to me from His viewpoint.  He reminded me of a time when I was six years old and my mother was in bed recovering from the delivery at our home of my baby brother.  My aunt was taking care of our family until my mother was able again.  I had injured myself and wanted a bandage on the wound, but she would not give me one.  I went to my mother and asked for one, and she let me have it.
	The Lord began to show me I had never forgiven my aunt for not understanding the need of a small child, not just for a bandage, but for the love and concern that mother gave with that bandage.  I had held a grudge against her ever since that day and did not even know it!
	First the Lord had me confess my sin of holding a grudge, then forgive my aunt for not helping me.  As the speaker taught us, I pictured myself taking my sin to the cross and nailing it there.  Christ had already paid the price for it and I accepted that payment and thanked Him for it.
	What a wonderful cleansing followed!  All the way home, for hour after hour in the van, the Lord took me back in my memory and worked cleansing from past events.  The prayer Jesus taught became very real to me:  “Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors!”  As I forgave others, He worked cleansing in me of my debts.  Those debts got nailed to Jesus’ cross all the way across the country from North Carolina to Missouri as God worked one of His marvelous deeds in my life!

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. (Matthew 6:14-15)

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70. In quietness and in confidence is your strength, My child.

Face each day and each moment with quietness and confidence,
knowing I am with you always,
and have an answer for every question, every decision.

I am your quietness.
I am your confidence.
I am your God.
I am your Lord.

I am your all in all.

I am your provider.
I am your source.
I am your sufficiency.
I am your power.
I am your strength.

I am all you ever need.

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71. THE REFLECTION

The quieter the water the more perfect the reflection.

The more you know who you are in Me, 
The quieter your soul is before Me,
The more perfectly you reflect Me!

And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory. (2 Cor. 3:18)

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72. The Lord had me go to the upper room and unplug the phone and shut the door for a “deeper quiet” time this morning. I saw in a vision picture a bluebird fly over my head from left to right. It was carrying something, I guess a seed, in its mouth. Bird represents the Holy Spirit; blue represents Spiritual: Spiritual gift, divine revelation, heavenly visitation. The seed represents the Word of God.

So the bluebird represents that I am sending My Holy Spirit to fly over your head with a gift, revelation and/or visitation that will implant My Word into you better for it to grow. After it is implanted and fully grown, I will tell you when to give it out to others.

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73. (Lots of lightning and thunder during the night and this morning) 

The prince of the power of the air is showing his displeasure in the natural for the stirrings in the spiritual realm taking place at your church this last few days. Lots of new levels of discerning and imparting and power were decreed and declared and went out into people -- and it stirred the heavenlies. There will be more Sunday. This all goes toward making the “shaking” happen that I told you about when the forces of good and evil clash as each gets stronger on the earth.

About your finances...keep praying for them to come in. Contend in the heavenlies for those finances - as Satan wants to stop you by stopping those finances from coming in. He is the one who tries to convince you that you don’t deserve to get financial help and need to go get a job. He doesn’t want you giving yourself full-time to My work/destiny for you. Know this, and respond accordingly. Pray for the finances on the basis of My Word.

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74. An impression I saw just after I woke up: I saw myself in front of a white desk. The middle of three drawers on the right side was open and showed many spiral notebooks (like my journal notebooks) in it.

Since a desk is a place of writing, perhaps this represents me as the desk. If so, it seems to refer to my being pure and containing books within the center of me. They are now open and able to be seen...old books and possibly new books...revealing a record of the Word of God, my heart, my witness and remembrance, conscience, education, and knowledge. It is revealed by God through me and is accepted. That’s why it is seen in a white (pure) desk or container or storage place. Middle drawer may represent those books come from a middle level of revelation (not lowest and not the highest). In this impression, I am in a position to make use of this desk and drawer of books because they are “in front of” me - perhaps in front of me in time, meaning things to come. This may come about by obedience, conformity to the Spirit’s leading.

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75. In a vision picture I saw a woman holding a baby in her right arm and trying to open a door (with a push bar on the door) with her left hand. The baby squirmed and twisted awhile, then quieted and quit twisting.

You are the woman, and you have something with you that you are carrying. It is squirming like it wants to get down and walk or move itself. You are holding it until it is quiet and willing to be carried through the door that you are opening. That door is your writing in a book what you are carrying. That door is ready for you to open and go through now. This is the culmination book of all the writing you have done so far. It will be used to minister to others too, even more than the previous books will be. They will all be important and will all be recorded in heaven in your written account of your life and work for Me. You have given up all to write for Me, so it has eternal value for you and for others too. All to My glory, because My glory is in you and I am leading you and writing through you. Know this each day.

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76. I saw the impression of a nose first and then a mouth. The mouth seemed to be a man’s mouth since it had some beard on the chin area. 

I asked what it meant and the Spirit indicated that I would be smelling wonderful heavenly fragrances, and I would be speaking. The bearded chin seems to represent Christ, so means I will be speaking His words or speaking for Him.

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77. In this dream I was inside a house looking out a large window (I think in the front of the house). First I saw a bird outside which looked like a hummingbird, but was larger. It's coloring was in greens like a hummingbird. It was about 6-7 ft up above the ground suspended in the air. Then it became much larger and I saw this huge bird there. It's front looked similar to a stork with a long bill and neck, then it became a huge oval-shaped body, maybe 6 ft long and 2-3 ft wide with a large fluffy multi-feathered plumed tail. Along the top of the body there were many nests, maybe 8-10 nests, and on each nest sat a mature bird. In the tail there were many smaller birds mixed in with the plumy feathers. I kept exclaiming about this unusual bird and trying to name what kind of bird it was, but I could not think what to call it. I knew it was not an eagle. Later, as I looked at the names of some birds in the dream book, the closest I could come to what it's head and beak looked like might be a stork. I don't remember any colors associated with this huge bird.

Interpretation: A hummingbird is a beautiful bird which can suspend itself in the air and which is enjoyable to watch. A stork is a bird representing being expectant, new birth, new baby, new experience…that which is forthcoming. They carry out God's purposes. A bird can represent the Holy Spirit or a message. They can also refer to leaders or messengers. To me this big bird refers to lots of things being birthed from it - lots of mature birds, nests with eggs to be hatched, and growing birds too. This can refer to my books that are being used by the Lord to hatch and grow what He wants in the lives of many. This also could refer to my church where He is doing that also. It also could refer to the church universal doing the same thing. This bird will be beautiful like a hummingbird (and green representing life), will bring new things/experiences, and will be suspended in the air for all to see.

Even the stork in the sky knows her appointed seasons. (Jeremiah 8:7 NIV)

A bird of the air may carry your words; and a bird on the wing may report what you say. (Ecclesiastes 10:20 NIV)

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78. I awoke about 3:00 a.m. with these words in my mind that I felt I needed to write down: “And a dish thing in front of me.” In the dream just before I awoke I was observing myself walking or standing. It seemed like there were words traveling in front of me. I noticed that some of the words formed in a special way that set them apart, almost like they were surrounded by a parenthesis and perhaps in a different font. They were separate from the other words in this way and caught my attention. It seemed that if I “saw” this “something” group I could do it. It seemed almost like it was a vision or dream set before me but it was made up of words, not pictures. No one else was in this dream but me. It seemed to be showing me something about myself.

Interpretation: “Dish thing” could represent a satellite dish symbolizing broadcasting what I “see” (in words) to many others. This may be a vision or dream the Lord wants me to hold in front of my eyes during my spiritual walk/journey. This could refer to where my books (made up of words) are “going out” to many others—perhaps a dream I am to pray for and declare for. Being in front of me may refer to now and the future.

It’s like Dr. Cho holding a picture of a bicycle (that he had asked the Lord for) in front of his eyes and praying for it and envisioning it (in the 4th dimension). Or it’s like Todd Bentley “seeing” in his divine imagination himself speaking to 5,000 people with healings, etc. This was the way he “pulled it down” from Heaven (where it already was) to earth.

When I finished writing this much the clock said 3:33 and it drew my attention like it was meaningful. This could confirm to me the dream was from the Trinity and was set, established, and going to take place. It also could refer to coming into conformity to Him and being obedient to Him.

It’s like I am to envision my writing/books “out there” on a satellite ready to be “tuned in to” by all whom the Lord gives a “dish” so they can tune in to them and their message. It’s like I am to see the words ahead of me in my pathway and see them as special words going out to others through my books, and I am to envision that, and declare that, and pray for that.

This is not being arrogant or prideful. It is co-operating with the Lord in bringing this dream into being “on earth as it is in Heaven.” He gives the dream. I work with Him to bring it to earth.

It’s like in Bruce Wilkinson’s book The Dream Giver. God has shown this technique/idea to these 3 men who explained the same or a similar idea in their own ways. I want to read again all three (Dr. Cho, Todd Bentley, Bruce Wilkinson) and compare similarities and ideas.

Seeing the dream before me (in my imagination) is my way of contending rather than striving. It reminds me of something I saw on TV recently that stuck in my mind. The idea was: “If you see it, you can build it.”

What the Lord has shown me here is that I am traveling a pathway in life and words are in front of me along that way. Some are extra special words like a vision, and I am to see them as being sent out and received by others almost like by satellite dish. I believe this refers to the books still in front of me to be written, published, and distributed to others.

They are to be free, and they WILL go forth to others around the world, wherever I take them, and broadcast to others the message I want to take to them. I will publish these books at the proper time, maybe even after you leave in the Rapture, and I will see to the distribution, and I will tune people in to them so they can receive My words through them. I will do it all. You just pray it down to earth, one word at a time, and write those words down in books for Me to use – “In His Time” as you heard in that song this morning. Every word that I have you write, I will use.

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79. A friend gave me a prophetic message. He said he saw me as a person wholly committed to Christ. He also mentioned that he thought I might have a desire (maybe even from childhood) to be associated with a sisterhood of people, like nuns, and expected I would eventually come into that association and sisterhood. He said he saw me as one “consecrated” to God. He also mentioned I would be taking risks.

(You showed him that, Lord?) 

Yes, I wanted you to know that others could see you that way because that is the way I see you. Others could know it through My revealing it to them. It is a blessing to Me and a blessing to you.

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80. On this day two women brought prophetic words to me. I had never met either of them before. Basically this is what they said:

When I first looked at you I just saw the crown upon your head and I felt the Lord saying that you would be a beautiful crown for the Lord to wear. 

I felt like the Lord gave me Isaiah 60 -  “Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you.” And I do just see His glory all around you.  I see a spirit of humility, one who has awaited, one who has been faithful. I just see faithfulness. 

I see that you’re an intercessor, I think you’ve probably been interceding for a long time.
 
And, I’m sure you may know this, but your name means “pearl,” Margaret means “pearl,” I feel that the Lord is saying that you are a pearl. I feel like He’s had you hidden, sort of hidden away, just like that pearl is hidden in the oyster shell. He’s going to bring you out, display the beauty of the Lord which is upon you. The beauty of the Risen Lord is upon you. 

I’m just looking at your cross. And your cross, this is a very special cross to you, it’s very important. I’m drawn to your cross. It seems to be bound like with bamboo, it’s like a bamboo cross to me. I don’t know if you know that bamboo, when a little plant, it suddenly shoots forward, and it grows really quickly. That’s what’s going to happen now. Where you’ve been hidden, you’re going to grow.

Also, I’m just getting a thing about your age, and the Lord says, No, don’t, this is an ageless society, and John Wimber never got going until he was 55, and look what happened then. He’s just reminding you - don’t be put off because you might think you’re too old. You haven’t even started yet.  

Lord, thank You for Margaret. Bless her, bless her, Lord. Raise her up, Lord. We just pray for an increased anointing of intercession upon her, Lord Jesus. Lord, that she would hear Your voice even more clearly. We pray a hedge of protection around her. We just pray the blessing of the Lord upon you. Lord, grant her your peace, in Jesus’ Name. 

And we pray, Lord, for her ears, for the anointing on her ears - that her ears, they do hear you, Lord, and where she’s doubted herself, that she will not doubt herself anymore, that these ears hear You, and I just anoint these ears.

Lord, I pray for confidence and holy boldness for Margaret. Her new name will be confidence, confidence in the Lord. In Jesus’ Name.

And I, I’m just getting something about your new name “Beulah”. Beulah means happily married, and I don’t know whether you’re married or not, but you’re married to the Lord, and your new name, “Beulah” (it’s Isaiah 62:3). “You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord’s hand, a royal diadem in the hand of your God. No longer will they call you deserted or name your land desolate. You will be called “Hepsibah” and your land “Beulah” for the Lord will take delight in you and your land will be married.”

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81. One day at a church I was visiting, a man, who is a prophet, gave me a prophetic message. My daughter and I tried to recall later the things he said. These are the ideas:

The Lord is preparing me for the next stage in my life. In the past I’ve been “all jammed up” and wasn’t free to be who God wanted me to be. He (God) is going to prepare some things, break things loose, and put things into place during the next six months.

Then He’s going to use me in ministry, teaching, sharing, and to stir things up in people. He’s going to stir up my gifts. He’ll take me places and make changes in me that will seem uncomfortable and awkward to me - difficult.

This will happen If I say “yes” to the Lord's leading. It is my choice to follow this new way. I am to trust in Him, and rely on Him, and say yes to Him...to go this way. I’m also to minister overseas. I am to come to this church (I was visiting) and Lee’s Summit.

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82. On this day at church two men were seeking the Lord for prophetic words from the Lord for me, and they said:

Oh, the Lord delights in you - I just feel there’s a woman of hospitality. See, I just feel there’s a woman that pleases the Lord, who knows how to host the Holy Spirit, by hosting others, and so, Lord, I just pray Your blessing upon Your daughter. Thank You, Lord, for the gifts. We even activate - you know the Bible says “stir up the gifts that you received to the laying on of hands.”  It’s talking about Timothy and his ordination, but I believe that by the laying on of hands other gifts can be imparted. So Father, I want to ask that You impart Spiritual gifts to my sister in the name of Jesus. And, what do you want? The Lord’s saying, “What do you want?” Earnestly desire Spiritual gifts. What’s that Spiritual gift that you desire? I said, “Intercession.” Then he said, Lou, you pray. Give her the gift of intercession.

Lou said: I felt like the word has just been given me, “They will look upon Him and be radiant, and they will be known as the offspring of the Lord.” We thank You, God, that all the secrets of heaven come from gazing, that divine radiance rests upon her, that there is grace on her life. We say “Friendship with God.” That God, You will open up her ears to hear, and she will be known as a “Friend of God.” That is the key; that is the key. We release it, and it’s already there, a Friend of God, a Friend of God. And so we loose the friendship secrets of heaven, in Jesus’ name...that she will know the heartbeat of God, by divine revelation, on the whisper of God to her life will move history, in Jesus’ name. 

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83. I am opening into you and unto you the heavenly books of wisdom.  It is seen/experienced through faith and supernatural vision. The fruit of the Spirit - that’s what we get to take to heaven with us and keep; it has eternal value.

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84. “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee because he trusts in Thee.” (Isaiah 26:3)

Today the Lord says this is my Scripture verse for today and for this new year.

Another verse I am to write down: “...your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear and a voice behind you saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.’” (Isa. 30:20-21)

This is another promise Scripture for this year. “...He, your Teacher will no longer hide Himself, but your eyes will behold your Teacher.” (Isa 30:20)

The Lord showed me I have already experienced the “revelatory realm of heaven” in the many “vision pictures” I have had. This will increase and get greater. Sometimes the revelation comes in dreams. Sometimes it will be in the form of a word or idea put in my mind which I am to speak to someone. Sometimes it will be a vision picture.

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85. In this dream there was a test coming. I was talking with the teacher who told me the pages in the textbook where there were three things (ideas) we would be tested over. I wrote the page numbers on the tabs in my notebook with the idea there. My plan was that I would go to those pages and look up those ideas, and write them down, so I would know them for the test. The three ideas had to do with an apple - like maybe how to cut and use the apple (maybe 1. the core, 2. the flesh, and 3. the skin). The skin was not yet fully ripe, still green.

Interpretation: Apples refer to fruit: words, or the fruit of the Spirit. A book refers to a record, the  Word of God, heart of man, education, or knowledge. Three refers to conform, obey, copy, imitate, or likeness. This is about me and about my fruit. The inside parts of my fruit are ready - but the exterior part is not fully ready. The teacher is the Holy Spirit (Jesus) and the textbook is His Word. Three refers to fully conforming to His Word. I will be tested over how I conform to His Word...how ripe and ready my fruit is in showing His likeness. This dream seems to show the “outside” of me is not yet ready (the part others see?) - not yet conformed to Jesus. The testing will be over how I conform (3 pages, 3 parts of apple) to Jesus the teacher and the textbook about Him.

I will get you ready. You cannot prepare yourself. Just stay close to Me, and listen to Me, and obey Me. I will take you to and through this “unknown territory.” I want you to know it is almost here (the skin is almost ripe). This is the year for “it.” My Holy Spirit will sing your way through (referring to a previous dream where the Holy Spirit was singing).

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86. “...the righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever.” (Psalm 37:29)

What is the “land” we inherit, Lord?

The “land” is where I am, where I dwell, in heaven and on earth -- wherever I dwell...even in the hearts of others in whom I dwell. The land is “in Jesus.” The land is “in the Holy Spirit.” The land is full of the treasures and mysteries of heaven - including angels. The land is all that I am -- My characteristics, My power, My grace, My love. All that I am is part of the land you inherit in Me. That’s where the righteous live, inherit, dwell.

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87. (Hebrews 12:1-2) “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

Then let Me decide all I want you to be and equip you to be. Do all I say and I will take you to where I want you to be --here on earth and later in heaven.

I just don’t want to miss out on something I could have been by not passing Your tests.

You can only do it by listening to Me and being obedient to Me.

”In returning and rest is your salvation, In quietness and trust is your strength.” (Isaiah 30:15a)

“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!” (Isaiah 30:18)

“...your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.’” (Isaiah 30:20-21)

I’m just to listen to You and rest in You! You are the Potter. I am the clay.

Keep working on quietness and trust.

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88. “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.” (Luke 9:23)

One of the ideas in a recent dream indicated there would be three areas we would be tested over. Today I am thinking about that and feel those three areas might include to deny myself from Luke 9:23...with the three areas being:

1.	Deny myself
2.	Take up my cross daily
3.	Follow Him

My real life comes when I give up my life (deny myself), take up my cross daily (take up what He gives me to do just as He took up what His Father gave Him to do), and follow Him (go where He leads me, do what He guides me to do). My cross involves being vulnerable and open to all that goes with what He guides me to do as I follow Him.

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89. “He (the centurion) ordered those who could swim to jump overboard first and get to land. The rest were to get there on planks or on pieces of the ship. In this way everyone reached land in safety.” (Acts 27:43-44)

Today I read Acts 27 which tells the story about the apostle Paul’s shipwreck and how they were saved. The Holy Spirit began to teach me after this and I wrote it down:

You will never go through such a difficult time as Paul did. I will keep you safe from that kind of storm. 

But you will watch many things happen in your country and the world which are grievous. And you will watch the greatest revival ever seen on earth.

You will pray as I lead you, and go as I lead you, and do as I lead you, as you are very much a part of My work this season. And you will be raptured -- so you won’t die on this earth.

You will have peace and you will have joy as you keep your eyes on Me. Keep your eyes off bad TV, movies, and news you don’t need to see.

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90. I am looking on you with great favor. As I took care of them (Jacob and his family in the Bible) in their time of famine, so I also took care of you these years of your famine (and growth). It is now time to bring you great increase and move you to something new (as I moved Jacob and his family -- and sent Joseph ahead to prepare the way). Your daughter has gone ahead to prepare the way for you. And I have provided for her with “the grain” for you both to live. You’ll bring your part and she’ll bring her part.

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91. Put this in the book Journal of a Listener to God:

Let this be recorded for future generations, so that a people not yet born will praise the Lord. (Psalm 102:18 NLT)

Record this as a promise to you for your children.

The children of your people will live in security. (Psalm 102:28a NLT)

But the love of the Lord remains forever with those who fear him. His salvation extends to the children's children of those who are faithful to his covenant, of those who obey his commandments! (Psalm 103:17-18 NLT)

I put this next Scripture in here because I want to again remind myself of it. It is one of my favorite ones: 

Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle's! (Psalm 103:2-5 NLT)

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92. A dream about viewing the brochure for a course coming up: In this dream I was reading and reviewing the brochure about a course that seemed interesting to me. I was appalled because it didn't even give the title of the course on the brochure. I kept looking and looking to learn the name of the course, and it wasn't there. I also found various places where the wording of sentences describing it were poorly worded. I felt I needed to rewrite the brochure or help someone rewrite it. The course brochure seemed to have some cartoon-like pictures on it, besides words. The brochure was projected on the wall or a screen every so often, cycling along with other information. I was talking to my daughter about it. I also talked to my pastor about the course and mentioned it in a church service to the congregation briefly.

Interpretation: A brochure is similar to a book. It gives information and records it. It gives knowledge and preparation for an event that will take place. It is to draw one's attention to an important event coming up soon. A cartoon can symbolize that one should use humor in life. It may warn of a tendency toward avoiding reality. Projected on a wall/screen may refer to this course being "projected" in the future, something yet to come. I wanted to inform others about this course that was coming - my daughter, my pastor, and my fellow Christians.

What do You want me to gather/understand from this dream, Lord?

I want you to see that things are coming soon. I want you to keep your light-heartedness about these things (cartoon) but realize the reality of it also. It doesn't have a "title" so you don't know for sure what to call it, but you do have some description about it. I want you to tell others the understanding you have gained and help them to know what is coming also. I also want your writing as a record for future records of what you went through. Keep recording in your journal and your books whatever I lead you to write there. I will get the information to those I want to read and know it.

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93. I love you, and I want you to write My words...and only what I say. This is for you to read later.

Yes, you are to teach your daughter how to listen to Me and hear Me -- and write what I say. I will guide you. She is ready and will pick it up quickly.

1. You start by drawing near to Me -- worship is the best way to begin.

2. You cover yourself with My blood for protection. You don’t want some foreign voice.

3. You listen, then write, what I put in your mind. It is by faith.

	John 10:3 “My sheep hear My voice
	1 Cor 2:16 “We have the mind of Christ
	Psalm 91 We are covered with His shadow, His feathers
	Matt 11:15 He who has ears let him hear...
	Isa 30:21 Your ears will hear a voice behind you...
	Heb 3:7-11 Today, if you hear His voice...
	John 16:13 He will guide you into all truth
	Matt 10:20 For it will not be you speaking but...

4. Keep what you write from Me and read back over it every so often.

5. Ask for confirmation as you feel you need to.

6. Obey My voice. It could be a test and it could be a real event.

Questions to ask the Lord when you start:
	1. Do You want me to listen to You?
	2. Do You want to speak to Me?
	3. Why do you want to speak to me?

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94. I want My church to represent Me by being exactly as I was on earth - no sin, no sickness, and completely responsive to and filled with the Holy Spirit.

Q: How do we receive healing?

It’s appropriated by faith
It’s given by Me
It’s based on My Word
It comes through prayer - calling, looking to Me (as people did when I was on earth)

And the very God of peace sanctify you wholly; and I pray God your whole spirit and soul and body be preserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Thess 5:23)

It’s a process...as My Disciples went through for 3 years. When I come, as I did at Pentecost, in fullness and with great power, you two will be healed and will both take healing power to others (as Peter did). Keep learning, keep seeking, keep believing until your Pentecost comes. It’s a point of time in the future as it was for My disciples and it will come. Believe Me and trust Me. Pentecost is coming to My people who are looking for Me -- seeking Me.

Your daughter does have My Spirit in her (as you did) whether she has tongues or not - they came at Pentecost. As the “ministry house” is an idea from Me but will come to pass later, so is this great infilling with My Holy Spirit a time in the future which I’m revealing to you now, but you will experience the “earthly” manifestation later in time, even though I have it now for you “in heaven.”

(John 14:10) The words that I speak to you I do not speak on My own authority; but the Father who dwells in me does the works.

We speak the word, and the Father does the works. (1 Cor 4:20) For the kingdom of God is not in word (logos) but in power (dunamis). 

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95. You and your daughter both received “the heart of the Father” on Sunday as you sought it. My heart, is that you establish a --

1. House of prayer and intercession (this is the dream I’ve given you)
2. House of fellowship and sharing (this is the dream I’ve given your daughter)

You are both walking in My way for you.

I intended this to be “God-sized” so you would depend on Me and I would get the credit, the glory. I took her (and you eventually) past the comfort stage you could do yourself on purpose. This way you both will be a demonstration of My power Do you want to be that? If you don’t go beyond what you can do easily without Me, how can I get glory from this?

Do you trust Me?  Then go ahead in the direction I’ve guided you. I am with you, and I will be with you, so do not be afraid. I will provide all you both need. 

I will never leave you or forsake you. I will keep your daughter in her job and with good pay. I will keep you both in good health. I will provide for you (plural) and your needs financially and otherwise. I will walk the way and take you (plural) with Me. I am the Way. You are walking into this way with Me. “You have not walked this way before.” Remember?

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96. A gift the Holy Spirit wants to give me is a knowledge of Scripture with references like He gave Roland Buck described in the book Angels On Assignment. So I’ve asked Him for that and thanked Him for it. It will be associated with healing of my memory.

It’s part of preparing you for warfare. I lead you through the warfare step by step as you listen to Me and follow Me. Each warfare circumstance is different and only I know what to do and what not to do. That is why it’s so important to develop and maintain a close intimate relationship with Me. Your highest goal is to do that. Then you will be prepared for whatever comes. We’ll be partners together.

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97. The Lord has given me these ~6 years to live by myself in quietness (like the quietness of a convent) to develop the close personal intimate relationship with Him like I have. It’s now time to re-enter the world of being with people more and taking this relationship with me to share with other people.

This Quiet Time which you have established here will be with you and part of you the rest of your life on earth. You are ready now to go forward into greater revelations and visitations, and this will begin after you move and are settled. I want you to be home there seeking Me in communion and intercession 5 days a week while your daughter is at work. That is the reason I gave you that “upper room.” This is the time I have been preparing you for all these years.

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98. Listen! A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants, so that they did not bear grain. Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up, grew and produced a crop, multiplying thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times. (Mark 4:3-9)

There are still many who are “good soil.” I want you to help Me plant the crop, water it, and harvest it. Do you want to?

Well, I’m getting you ready to join a group of sowers who will help you, train you, and work together with you. There are many who need to be harvested yet and you get to participate. But first we must get you out of Columbia and moved to Lee’s Summit. Keep in mind - there will be warfare to try to keep you from leaving Columbia. But I am greater! Ask Me, seek Me, and I will show you how to fight each warfare attack as needed.

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99. The 8 in today’s date reminds me 8 can refer to “new beginnings.”

It seems like a big change (moving to Lees Summit), a big step, for you, but it’s just the natural progression to what I have been preparing you for these 7 years as I weaned you away from your past church and grew you toward the next step, the next place/ministry for you. As a bamboo seed/sprout I grew your roots wide and deep to be ready for your 8th year of sudden growth and display of My glory. 8 = new beginnings. You are now in a new beginning. New beginnings mean stepping out in faith. Faith means risk. I will provide for every risk you take.

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100. You have to have the freedom to have backbone and gumption without being rejected for it. I’ve been training you for what I want you to do here at Lee’s Summit...training you by teaching you to listen to Me and write what I say. Haven’t I been doing that for years?

What if I brought you here (Lees Summit) for writing? What would you think of that? Well, I did. You are a dreamer and a planner. I can give you dreams and plans that I want to use here and you can take them to the people I send you to. OK?  You’re a thinker and not a speaker. But you can write instead of speak the thoughts and dreams I give you. It takes time and quiet. If I provide the finances for you to stay home will you do it and be a thinker and planner and writer for Me?  

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101. (Exodus 17:8-16) Story of the Amalekites attacking the Israelites. Joshua led the battle against the Amalekites while Moses held up the staff of God in his hands. Aaron and Hur stood on either side of him and held his hands up when he got tired. As long as Moses held up his hands the Israelites won.  Moses built an altar and called it “The Lord is My Banner” (Jehovah Nissi).

As long as you keep your hands held up to Me in prayer, I will be your banner and enable you to overcome all the enemies who come against you - no matter what form they take...criticism, fatigue, lack of ideas, little understanding on how to put the book together, etc. Just lift your hands and heart to Me, and I will give you all you need to do this book. Do not fear man. Just keep looking to Me and separating yourself unto Me daily. This book will be exactly what I want it to be if you will do that. I will be your “banner” and cause you to win. Remember that My banner over you is love. This is done by us together in love toward one another.

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102. I'm torn between two desires. I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far greater for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live. Knowing this, I am convinced that I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith. (Philippians 1:23-25 NLT)

That's why I'm keeping you here yet. I want and need you to continue to live on earth to work for Me with your prayers and petitions and requests, as well as your praise and thanksgiving to Me each day - and all this for others, too, as I lead you. I want you here on earth to work with Me and partner with Me. Will you agree to do this, for Me? 

Then we will continue a little longer. It won't be long until you will "come up here" and be with Me forever.

I am pleased with you and what you have become in Me. I don't want you to leave (earth) yet. I want to keep working with you. Morning by morning I will awaken you to come apart with Me, and I will show you what I want you to pray for Me. Will you do this?

I know you will. That's why I am asking you to do this. I know you have a willing heart to do that which I have put within you - intercession for Me. I am the One who placed it in your heart to ask Che Ahn and Lou for intercession. And when they prayed for you, I gave you a greater measure of the grace to intercede for Me. And I want you to keep asking, as I put that in your mind and heart. Now you know, through John Bevere's teaching, that grace and peace can be multiplied by Me to you. Now you can ask for that, knowing it is My will because it is in My Word. 

Praying My Word is My heart's desire for you. That's why I have taught you that idea over and over until you finally learned it and know it. Now you will do that for the rest of your days on this earth. I will give you the Scriptures to pray each day. Expect that.

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103. Lord, I want to know your Word and to pray it.

Yes, I know, and I am teaching you to do that, and I am putting that in your heart. I will give you Scriptures to learn and to pray as you seek Me for this.

Philippians 2:8-11
And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death--even death on a cross! Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

I want you to pray this Scripture today. 

And that’s what I am doing today, right now. We are at the climax of that process. You are living in the latter days of this process. It has been coming about slowly over many centuries and now we are very near the end. You know that. I have put that knowing, and the desire for that ending of the process, in your heart - to pray for it to come. And I want you to pray for that now. That is My desire. That is what I want you to participate in now.

Remember the dream where you saw yourself sitting at the forefront in a line of people “playing together in an orchestra led by Jesus.” That is where you are now--the one who is living now, in the climax time of this long process. I want you to pray for it and know that when you pray “thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven” that you are praying for THIS: “that every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”

YOU ARE MY INTERCESSOR - and I will give you the Scriptures to pray back to Me if you want to do this.

Yes, I do, Lord. I want to pray and intercede for You daily, as You lead me.

Then I will. Now we both know this and agree to this. You are not My intercessor to pray before others or in a small prayer group even, but to stand before Me daily and pray My Scriptures as I lead you. OK, then that’s our agreement, our covenant. And, in that process, I will protect you and keep you (and your children) from all evil and harm.

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104. Last night in my dream I was looking for a place to “wash my hands.”  As I look that up in the dream book, I find wash refers to prayer/repentance/petition and water to the Spirit/Word, and hands refers to works/deeds/service/labor. So perhaps my dream is indicating I want/feel I need to get cleansed by the Lord for my works. Maybe that refers to this next stage/season of my life and how to approach it.

That means I want to do it all. I want to be totally in charge of your life and what you do. Your role is to listen to Me and do all I tell you to do. Then the “work” will have eternal value and be washed clean and be pure. That is the most important part about this next “season” - that it be totally of Me and none of you.

I thought we were to be working together as partners.

We are; but I will be making all the decisions about where to go and what to do and how to do it. Your part is to listen to Me and to obey Me. I KNOW what the Father wants to accomplish in this next season and how to accomplish that. You don’t. I will guide you and show you as we go - together.

I AM blessing you. I am blessing you with "The Book," and I am blessing you by using The Book to minister to others, which shall bring you great rewards in heaven. Work on The Book as often as I lead you - even during these days before you move. I will be with you and guide you each time I prompt you to write - like now.

I WILL keep you from deception as long as you keep yourself pure before Me. Continue to ask Me to show you where you need to be purified daily. Remember that the one who has a pure heart can see God. And you are “seeing” (perceiving) Me now as you write this. Not seeing with your physical eyes, but “seeing” with your heart and spirit. That’s where I am--in your heart and spirit.

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105. I pray in the Name of Jesus for this book project He is leading me to do. I pray for my physical health, stamina, desire, and inspiration needed to accomplish it. I pray for all the financial provision needed for me to live, for the book to be published, and for the distribution of the book to the people He desires to read it. I ask for the peace and quiet and time to listen to Him and receive from Him all He wants to be written in this book. I also pray for protection for me, for my children, for our homes and possessions and workplaces, for our lives, each day we live on this earth. I ask, believing this is God’s will as He has led me step by step to do this project with Him. Amen.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us--whatever we ask--we know that we have what we asked of him.  (1 John 5:14-15 NIV)

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106. Now why didn’t I give you word of your provision plan yet, even though I have set two dates for you to wait to. I am testing you to see if you will continue to depend on and trust Me for your provision, as I have instructed you to do, or if you will take things into your own hands and make provision yourself. I do not want you to do that, but it is your choice. Same for your eyes. You can make provision man’s way, or wait for Me to heal you My way where I get the glory and praise. Which do you want?

I want Your way, Lord. If Your way is for me to search for a job or to have a doctor work to improve my eyesight, then that is what I choose and want. If Your way is to wait and have You bring my provision some way and to heal my eyes supernaturally when I get to Lee’s Summit, then that is what I choose - Your way.

Just keep going day after day listening to Me and obeying Me and trusting Me to provide everything needed to accomplish My purpose for you (and that includes writing this book, but much more also). I will be with you and I will do it all - if you let Me by waiting for Me and trusting in Me...faith. Your faith will please Me and I will act in response to it. Keep having faith.

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107. You have everything that I have, everything. You do not need to fear not having enough money to live on. I will give/bring you all you need. Your position is to trust Me. I gave you that Scripture this morning: “In repentance and rest is your salvation; in quietness and trust is your strength.” (Isaiah 30:15 NIV) Walk in quietness and trust all the rest of your life. Herein lies your strength - resting in Me. Repent whenever you don’t rest in Me. I want you to rest in Me all the time. Rest in Me this day and you will receive My very best for you. Now you can go and do your work for the day - work that is bringing about the changeover I am taking you through. It is My changeover to a new place and a new way of doing things - a new season in your life - the best season of your whole life. Look forward to that!

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108. You have given generously throughout your life. Generously and happily have been your gifts to Me. I took each gift personally - as a gift to Me - which it is. Remember that lady you gave the money to at camp? I will now multiply that gift, and many other gifts you have given, back to you in an abundant outpouring of gifts to you so you can then work full time on the book we are doing together.

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109. A puzzling Scripture I read this morning. I wonder what it means. I wonder how it pertains to me. It is Psalm 68:13...

Even while you sleep among the campfires, the wings of my dove are sheathed with silver, its feathers with shining gold.”  (Psalm 68:11-13 NIV)

And what does My dove represent?

It represents You, Holy Spirit.

Now read it again. “The wings of my dove (Me) are sheathed with silver, its feathers with gold.”  I am covered with silver and gold. I bring silver and gold with Me when I come to you - even while you sleep. When you sleep, then you are not aware of what I am doing, but it is being done while you are unaware. That is My message to you today. That is why that Scripture passage intrigued you so. I wanted you to stop and ponder it so I could use it to bring you this message: I am bringing silver and gold to you even while you are unaware of it.

Yes, that is My Word to you today. “I have everything covered, not only now, but for all time. Relax.” Know this. I am sending you to Lee’s Summit. I am sending you to your new church. I am sending you to write the book together with Me. It’s all ME. And you are just being obedient - as you have told your friends. You are following where I lead.

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Where He leads me, I will follow.
Where He leads me, I will follow.
Where He leads me, I will follow.
I’ll go with Him, with Him, all the way. 

I’ll go with Him to the garden.
I’ll go with Him to the garden.
I’ll go with Him to the garden.
I’ll go with Him, with Him, all the way.
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In this case, the garden we are going to is the place in Lee’s Summit where you will function, and write the book, and minister My Word to others as I lead you. That’s My call to you. Remember the book THE CALL? This is My Call to you. Now go forth in My Name!

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110. My life is in you. Therefore My blood is in you too. The life is in the blood. That life overcomes death. It is stronger than death. Death brings with it the death of all parts of your body (sin, sickness, decay, loss of life) but I now replace your life with Mine in you. Therefore, when you die physically on this earth, My life resurrects you into heaven. Only the living get to come to heaven. It is a place of the living. No death is there or allowed there. Those with death in them go to the place of death, called hell. Satan had his heavenly life taken from him when he rebelled and he tries to take My creation, mankind, to the same place he has to go - hell, the lake of fire, death (the second death).

You have LIFE in you. And you sit at My right hand in the heavenly sphere IN CHRIST JESUS. Picture yourself sitting at My right hand using My authority, which I have now given you. Remember you have My life IN YOU. In this “knowing” and “positioning” you have power. I will keep revealing this to you until you grasp and understand and walk and live in it.

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111. But now, this is what the Lord says... “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior....Do not be afraid, for I am with you.  (Isaiah 43:1-5 NIV)

This means to you that I am with you (and your children) at all times, and I save you in all situations. When you drive (cars) places, I am with you. When you take airplane trips, I am with you. When you walk places (like in corporate parking lots) I am with you. “Don’t be afraid, because I am with you.”

And if I use that situation to allow your life to be snuffed out, then it is because it is time for you to come and be with Me in heaven. I know that special time (and it is truly special) for each person. But I have promised you that you and your children will be kept safe on the earth right up to the Rapture, and I WILL do that. Trust Me for this.

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112. You and I will have a wonderful relationship, both here on earth and afterward in heaven. You are not one I have picked to be a great one (like Rick Joyner or Francis Frangipane or King David) but I have picked you especially to be a delightful child of Mine in whom I find joy and to whom I give joy and peace in the midst of the terrorist world. I give you prayers to pray and songs to sing and dances to dance. I gave you a picture of freestyle dancing with Me and for Me for a reason. That is part of what I created you to be. You ARE becoming what I created you to be - a beautiful child of Mine in whom I delight. Be My joy and delight each day. Just be who you are naturally in Me.

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113. “I tell you the truth,” Jesus said to them, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life.”

Notice it’s people and home I mention there. That is what I will give you “many times as much.” In Lee’s Summit you will receive many times the family relationships you had here in Columbia, and much more home space than you have here...more close friends, more children in Me, more brothers and sisters, more what you truly want in a church. More, more, I am the God of more for you.

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114. Brothers, I could not address you as spiritual but as worldly--mere infants in Christ. I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it.  (1 Cor. 3:1-2 NIV)

Am I eating solid food now, Lord?

Yes, you are eating solid food...and soon it will be time for dessert.  And that’s some of what you will be giving out in your book  - milk to spiritual babes, and some meat to more mature Christians...both. But I have need for such writings for certain people in need of them

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115. See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared....Pay attention to him and listen to what he says.... Worship the Lord your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you.  (Exodus 23:20-25 NIV)

I give you this promise this day as My Word to you and to your daughter also. I sent an angel ahead of her to her new home and prepared all the way for her transition, and I am doing the same for you too. EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.  KNOW THIS!

Thank You, Lord!

You’re welcome, My child. I am with you and will never forsake you. I will continue guiding you along this pathway of moving to Lee’s Summit. If something seems to not be working out, then it means I am guiding you through that into a different way of going. I may choose to give you some “moving” money in this way, so accept it from Me with gratitude.

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116.  “I’m never completely alone anymore.” As I read that statement in a story, it resonated as being true of me also. I always have my Friend, Jesus, with me. He lives in my heart (my spirit). Because He lives in my spirit, it is now alive (born again). Previously it was dead, but He made it alive.

Jesus wants me to listen to Him through my born again spirit (heart). He who has an ear, let him hear what the spirit says to the churches. (Rev. 3:13 NIV)

Jesus wants me to speak through my born again spirit (heart). The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart....For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.  (Luke 6:45 NIV)

Jesus wants me to let Him (His Spirit) flow through me...Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him. (John 7:38 NIV)

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117. Everything you say and do is a seed planted.  You may ask for, and receive, forgiveness for seed planted that is not of the “fruit of the spirit,” but that seed still keeps growing in other people’s mouths and minds. Remember that when Satan deceived Eve it was through distorted untruthful words (or only partial truth mixed with lies) that took root and grew in her. If she had countered that untruth immediately with the truth of My Word, it wouldn’t have taken root and grown in her as it did. That’s why speaking the truth of the Word is so powerful as a weapon. It stops the untruth from taking root and growing in you. It gets your mind focused on what is true.

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118. The Holy Spirit says today that He has already arranged for my financial provision, so I am to believe in it even though I haven’t actually seen it yet. My faith is to be in His present word to me about this. Total provision, Lord?

Total provision. I do not want you taking a job outside your home. I have things for you to do for Me and for the Kingdom work, so I want you free to do that. So I have made complete provision financially for you to do that.

Thank You; that’s what I want.

And I have put that “want” into you. Some people might want to have “control” over their money and it’s source and therefore want a job. You have to give up that control if you want Me to provide your financial resource. Will you?

Yes, Lord. I give the provision of my finances into Your hands.

I know this is hard for you because you feel you failed before to believe adequately for your financial provision. I let you fail to humble you. I wanted you moldable in My hands.

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119. My last day of working at my job!  I’ve looked toward and past this day for many months now. It’s finally here! Much as I have appreciated that job and much as it has been a blessing to me, I look forward, Lord, to the “something new” which You have for me and You’ve given me a taste of - writing our book together. Hopefully, I will be ready to begin more extended work time on it on Wednesday of the week after I move. Please keep me focused on it, Lord, and keep it primary in my life and thoughts.

I will, My child, and more. I will be a blessing to you all during this moving time, and I will be your peace, as you have asked Me, and I will bring you to our day to begin longer times together working on our book. You will be distributing this book to many of your friends - with joy in our accomplishment together. It must be together to have My anointing on it and have the power to transform lives which you and I both want it to do. It will. I will see to that.

Good, because I can’t give it Your anointing and give it power to transform lives. Only You can do that. But I commit myself to work with you, Holy Spirit, to do this book together. That is one of the major purposes of my move.

Yes, and there will be other purposes which I have in mind which I will accomplish in your life also -  purposes which I already have set in place for you, and you will gradually see take place. Yes, they are good!

Do this each morning - sit before Me and with Me and tell Me of your love for Me. We will bond together for all that you need for that day. You may want to keep that taping of Joyce Meyer’s description of what she does in her “connection time” with Me and listen to it occasionally. I may be reminding you to do that to pull you back onto that road together with Me, holding hands, and letting Me guide you on that pathway.

It will be fun. You will enjoy it---this next season of your life (our lives together) and it will bring  you much joy and peace. And you will receive much satisfaction and contentment in knowing you have finished the work I’ve given you to do, and created you for, and trained you for all these years. And I will not let your work (this book) fall to the ground (as I said about Samuel’s words) but will empower it and use it in a mighty way you don’t begin to conceive of and don’t need to conceive of. That is My plan and you don’t need to plan it at all - I will do it. It is good!

I like that phrase “connection time” with the Lord. I want to use that idea in the book. Once you give your life to the Lord and receive Him into your life, then you need to learn how to establish a “connection time” daily with the Lord. Some people may not even know this is a possibility. Maybe that is one of the purposes of our book --- to make people aware of that. That is what I feel I used to try to do by reading scripture and praying - to establish a “connection” to the Lord. That is what I think Catherine Marshall talked about in one of her books - about having an “encounter” with the Lord in her quiet time.

And this “connection time” then can grow to encompass more and more of my life and your life as we start with it each day and gradually continue to talk with and commune with the Lord throughout the day. This also reminds me of what Brother Lawrence called “practicing the presence of the Lord.”

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120. Let Your praises pour forth in this book, Lord, as you and I write it together. Let it be Your love letter to those who read the book. And let them encounter You as a Person as they read this book...a Person who loves them and wants to meet with them also, as You do with me. Let this book give them a spiritual pathway to follow on their own personal journey to know You, Jesus, to hear from You, and to encounter You in a close, living, and loving relationship.

The word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it.    (Deuteronomy 30:14 NIV)

And this is the way you will write your book...by My word in your mouth and heart and mind--putting that down on paper and printing it. We will do this together--the same thing as we have been doing by bits and pieces in your journals. And I will show you how to start, and what to put in the middle, and what to put at the end, how to finish it. I will proofread it with you and tell you when it is finished as I want it.

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121. Come, let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, to the house of the God of Jacob. He will teach us his ways, so that we may walk in his paths...  (Micah 4:2)

I have things I want to tell you. Come up to that place within you that is the mountain of the Lord within you. That’s where I live. Come to Me there. I want to be found by you. I want to give you some instructions to guide you next. You have lots of things buzzing around in your mind that you might do. I want to give you clear instructions for “from now on.” 

That’s good. Just listen. This is the place where I am, where I dwell. Right here with you, instructing you, teaching you My way for you. In the midst of the noise you can hear Me for I don’t compete with the noise. I am within you. Even though you see things happening around you, you can still hear Me - for I am distinct from all those earthly things going on. This is to be an assurance to you - that you will always be able to hear Me from “within,” no matter what is going on “without.”

This is a good day! It’s a good day for you. You are right where, exactly where, I want you to be, when I want you to be there. You know why? Because you listened to Me and were obedient to My guidance. Otherwise you might not be here on this day at this time. 

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122. I have a time and place when I will heal your eyes. I want to use it for My glory at a specific time. That is why I keep letting it stay when you get prayer for healing it. Do not be discouraged and think I can’t or won’t heal you. I will, at the precise time I want to - to bring Me the glory I want in front of certain people, and to affirm healing signs. It’s not that you don’t believe, because you do. You have the faith for it or you wouldn’t be asking. Keep asking when I lead you to. Next time ask for prayer for your ears to be healed.

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123. Remember the vision I gave you at camp where you watched Me as I blessed the people? I gave you the ability to “gaze upon Me” then, and forever after then. That was a message to you that you would be given the ability to “gaze upon Me” even as your pastor had visions of what I had ahead for him in his life. You, My child, can know that is what I have ahead for you - more and more - to see Me, to watch what I am doing, to know My Presence is near, to know I am watching you and am aware of you. And, you can know from this vision that My angels are always standing guard over and beside you through all the stages of your life - to the very end of your earth life. Know this.

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee, because he trusts in Thee.”  (Isaiah 26:3)

I have been with you all through the writing of this book. It is My book now. I will take care of it. I will prosper it. I will take the next steps that need to be done. You just listen to Me and follow My directions. You don’t need to ask anyone about printing unless I guide you to.

I want you to think again about that bubble I put you in (in a vision). That is also a prophetic picture of where I will keep you throughout your days. You will see around you what is happening, but you will be encapsulated, protected, unharmed by it. Do you receive that?  

You are now in the main stream of where I want you to be to finish out your time on earth. You will stay here in Lees Summit for the rest of your days. This is our best time - right now. You can be on earth typing, and still be with Me, walking with Me, listening to Me, in the heavenly spiritual realm. Then you can record what I say as we go. That is ok. That is what I want.

I am so much greater than what you can think or imagine. And what I do is so much greater than what you think or imagine. I want you to now spend lots of time with Me, before this computer, recording what I teach you, tell you, and show you. Do you understand? 

We’re going up. You’ve had dreams about going up ramps and stairs. Those were prophetic dreams showing what I was going to do with you - take you “up” with me. Remember the dream about Charis and you going up? Charis means gifting. This is a gifting I am giving you - to go up to a “new number” and new place with Me...and it is a beautiful place, a place of rest, a place of light and color. So that dream shows what I am now doing and will continue to do all the rest of your days on earth. 

And it is ok to be working at the computer as we go. I want you to. I want you to record what I tell you and show you. That is my plan for you, and I have been teaching you this way for many years of your life. It is a good way. It is My way for you right now. Do not seek to find someone else’s way, but just to find My way for you.

I have a unique way with each person. You do not need to find Todd Bentley’s way, or Paul Keith Davis’s way, but your own way with Me. You will like it and it is uniquely designed to fulfill you...the way I made you.

Think of Me as being Charis beside you, going up together to our special room of light and color and rest. You see, it is not someone else’s number you stop at, but just your own - a special number just for you. You and I can move along in the spiritual realm. I will show you what I want you to “see” and “hear”, but mostly I just want you to spend the time with Me. Then you are “available.” 

I love you, My child. I love spending time with you. I gave My life for you, so you know how much I care about you. And don’t think you have to “get somewhere” to have a successful time with Me. Let Me decide each day where we will go and what we will do, ok?

There are lots of things you are “saved from” and lots of things you are “saved to”. Let’s get more into what you are “saved to.” You are” saved to” be with Me and walk with Me daily “in the garden.” Come to My garden, My child, and walk with Me. This is the way we will walk each day after you set yourself apart unto Me. Give Me your mornings each day M-F for our “walks” together. Then you can read and listen to study materials in the afternoons.

Do you think I would refuse to give you the money to be free from a job so we could walk together each day? No, I won’t refuse you that money. Ask Me for it.

And I say “yes” to you. This is My idea. It is an easy way to live ONLY if I bring it about. You do not need to go out and “get” the money. I will bring it to you. Just trust in Me to provide. This is another experiment (test) in trusting Me.

In a Psalm by David he tells of his desire to seek God when he says:  One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. (Psalm 27:4)

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124. Now rest and listen to Me. I am here. I want to talk to you today. I have lots to say to you. Just listen and write what I say. Now rest in Me. 

Quiet, quiet, quiet, rest, rest, rest…

Wait before Me for Me to speak. Don’t write anything unless I speak it into your thoughts.

I will give you much vision about heaven over the next weeks in your journaling time, and I want you to write it down. OK?

Waiting, waiting, waiting, quietly, quietly, quietly…

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125. There are special reasons why I did not want you to go to your family reunion. You did not know those reasons when you made your decision - it was based on things you did know. Those were ok reasons to make your decision. But there are other things - things in the heavenlies, the spiritual realm - which make it good that you stayed here this weekend. You will see some of these things, and others you will never know while on this earth.

I heard your plea yesterday in our writing together to KNOW things, and I gave you that desire. It is a good desire, a God given desire. And you WILL know things after you come up here. I will teach you many things you will enjoy immensely learning. And you are right, you will learn quickly because you will have the brain power originally given in the garden when I created man - much different than the brain power you have on the earth right now under the curse. You can only imagine what life might be like without the curse, and even then, you can’t imagine how great it really is.

That’s all I wanted to tell you today. But I did want you to know that you made the right decision in not going to the reunion this time. You WILL get to go another time. The Rapture will not be this coming year but IT MIGHT be the next one. There are still a few things yet I need to accomplish before I am ready to take out My Bride. I have waited all these 2000 years, and I can wait 1 more, if I need to, to finish the work I began when I came to earth. I need to yet reap the full results of the sowing of the seed of My life at that time. There is yet a little more to reap, but that little more is very important to Me - and to you since you are Mine.

Forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14)

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126. I’m teaching you to live one moment at a time, without knowing what is coming next. That’s what the open space in your dream meant - you will not know or see what you are to do or say next, just to listen to My voice (My song) and follow Me.

Then I started reading The Torch And The Sword by Rick Joyner. It tells of Jesus bringing Rick a torch (in a vision) and how that torch is the Presence of Jesus. We can hold that torch only so long as we stay close to Him. If we get too far away it becomes too heavy and we lay it down. And the Lord began to speak lots to me as I read. So that is a sign I was doing the right thing (in this case reading the right book) and His torch was near, and I could hear Him speaking as I read.

So I came to the computer to record these matters so I can read them again later when I might need reminding of them.
1.	When He is speaking to me, it is a sign I am in the right place doing the right thing that He wants me to do then.
2.	As I carry the torch of His Presence it will be light to carry as long as I stay close to Him, and will become heavy when I get far from Him. This is a clue as to when I am on the right path or getting off the side of it.

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127. As I rested after Quiet Time today I saw before my eyes an impression of an opened book with printing on its pages. But the printing looked like it was partially obscured, like a white piece of paper had been put on top of the printing in the book, so you could barely see the printing through that white paper. Then a gray-like cloud began to rise up and cover the writing in the book.

I asked the Lord what it meant. He indicated that the Word would be obscured and made difficult to read and see at some point in time - after the Rapture takes place.  This impression is a symbolic representation of that. I am to write this and put it in my latest book: JOURNAL OF A LISTENER TO GOD.

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128. This is a season of preparation and I want you to go through it and get prepared for what’s coming. I will quicken Scriptures to you as you pray and decree through them. 

Job 22:28 You will also declare a thing and it will be established for you.

Do not feel you are nothing for you are something to Me. I love you and I have plans for you - for ministry in My kingdom work, both now and in heaven.

I want you to focus on just being with Me - not what I will say, or what you might see. Just be with Me. Just be obedient to what I show you to do each day and watch how I guide you. When you are dependent on Me, not on yourself, it causes Me to be active in your life, with you. You need Me. I am paying your salary, remember? I want your time for Me, for My work. 

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129. Deuteronomy 28:1-2  Now it shall be, if you diligently obey the Lord your God...all these blessings will come upon you and overtake you.

Notice - overtake you. That is what these blessings are now doing - overtaking you. They have been “piling up” in My storehouse waiting for this time for them to come upon you and overtake you. That time is now. Declare it.

Yes, I am with you My child. I love you and love to be with you. I have come to bring you these blessings, My joy, and My peace - all of it in the midst of a troubled world. You will receive MUCH blessing in the midst of all this - all that is happening in the world. I saved the blessings up for You so I could display My glory in you and through you at this season of time. You will be blessed more than you can even ask or imagine. Don’t try to figure it out; just receive it from Me with joy.

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130. In a dream I was part of a group preparing/practicing to sing together before an audience. We were standing around a piano. I was pointed to by the leader and I sang a verse as a solo. The words of the solo were telling how Jesus was wonderful and Jesus was good. The notes came out clearly and I was not timid. The words were not scripted, but I just sang the thoughts that I wanted to, about Jesus being wonderful and good, to the same tune over and over.

Music refers to worship. Playing an instrument refers to prophesying and ministering in the gifts of the Spirit. The place is here in Lee’s Summit, especially at your church and all of its ministries. The leader is your pastor. You are part of the “singers”...those are the gifted ones he calls upon as he sees a need and senses you can help meet that need.

Everything you do out of this giftedness will show and declare how good and wonderful Jesus is.  It will all be clear and you will not be timid in doing it, or afraid, or choked up. Some of it could be prophecy coming from you - a singer, a singer of the Holy Spirit. Remember that His song has begun. It will be heard through My singers and come by the Holy Spirit.

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131. In a dream I saw planting/cultivating being done in a field. There were already tall plants in that field, yet someone was still cultivating and planting in it.

 The field is your church where there are many “tall plants” - mature people, but still lots of planting and cultivating going on for "new plants” to grow too. The one doing the cultivating is the Holy Spirit.

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132. This is what “soaking” is. It is sitting in My presence. It is focusing your attention on Me fully. It is gazing at My beauty. It is stillness before God. It is quietness and confidence. It is rest in the Lord. It is all these things and more...much more. During soaking I am freer to come to you, as there are no interruptions, and you are freer to “come up here,” as there is time to come without interruptions. The atmosphere is right, your attitude is right, and there are not interruptions. That is one reason I often come to people at night - it is closer to those conditions.

And you are such a private person. A private person means you don’t want to be vulnerable to others and allow them to see you as you are. I know why you are as you are, and I will be changing that a little bit at a time. You will “come out of your shell” (as a pearl, mentioned in the prophetic words over you) here at your church but it will come about slowly and gently. It also involves trust that you need to develop toward people at your church, and they need to develop toward you.

As you soak in My presence more deeply I will then be able to reveal more to you. And you will have to trust Me to enable you to remember what you have seen and record it later.  These times are coming to you. Expect them and greet them with joy. Having you “come up here” is more important than your recording it all in accurate and complete detail. I enabled John to remember what he saw and write Revelation. I have enabled Rick Joyner to remember and record what he has seen. And I will you too.

Lots to tell you, lots to write, My child. You are My listener and writer, remember? This is the way I have gifted you, and trained you, and want to continue to use you, ok?  

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133. I’ve given him (Rick) what he needed for his ministry, and I will, and am, giving you what you need for the ministry I have for you - listening and writing.

And I will be releasing a gift to you soon - prophecy. I will have one of My servants release that in you. It is already in you, but it still needs to be released. Do not fear it. Just release it from inside you when I guide you to do that. 

Last night a person came over and spoke words to me about my future. She said that I would go to people and speak something to them or do something for them which would bless them.

You are My child and precious in My sight.
You are perfect before Me.
You delight Me with being just the way you are, the way I made you.
I love you, and want you to spend all your time with Me.

Being close to Me causes you to have Life in you rather than death which is trying to kill your body (with aging, eyes diminishing, hearing diminishing, etc.) It is the devil’s purpose to kill you, to destroy you, through your health and finances. But I am your Life, and I give Life to your mortal body, and to your provisions (finances). Claim that Life.

The fire is kindled in you, My child, and it is burning brighter and brighter - and in your daughter too. And you see it around you each Sunday at church and in groups…and in the books you read, and in your relationship with Me. The fire is NOW kindled! You have it! You give it to others as you touch them daily. You give it out in our book. It’s the fire of My Kingdom on earth. It’s the fire of Me.

Those who don’t want the fire will stay far from you, as they did from Me. Those who desire the fire of My presence, will come closer to you. Watch for this coming closer or going farther away from you. It is not you, but the fire of My Presence they are reacting to. One person you know couldn’t stand to be around you and wasn’t drawn to you, but desired to be far from you. He couldn’t stand being close to you as My presence grew and grew in you. That’s why more and more of your friends are those close to Me, and those not close to Me you seldom deal with anymore, except on occasions when you go “out into the world.”

You see, My little one, how you are creative as you come closer to Me, and you must express that creativity. The book expresses your creativity, and through it you and I have fellowship together. As you sit and listen to Me each day you are expressing the creativity I give you. Your way to express it is in writing. Some express it in singing, some in preaching, some in teaching, and you in writing. The more you write (for Me) the more you express what I created you to be and do - your own creativity. This is where you come closest to Me-when you are writing and listening for what to write. I made you this way. I have a reason for that. You will understand this more as you follow Me along the path of writing what I lead you to write. This is just now being harvested - what I trained you for all these years. 

Your dreams (many) about being in a place of learning shows you a picture of this - sitting and learning from Me, and writing it down - as a student in My classroom of life.

That’s why you’ve given me skills in editing, proofreading, punctuating, grammar, formatting, organizing, etc. isn’t it? And You've given me interest in creative writing since I was a small child. I have a freedom to be me when I am writing down my thoughts. That’s why I want often to express myself to someone else by writing rather than speaking. The words come much more easily and without conflict or fear when I am writing. And to think that I married a husband who taught English and was very critical of others’ writing, and of me. Was that part of Satan’s plan to stifle and thwart Your plans for my writing for You?  

Oh, yes! Just like Satan’s plans to cause you difficulties in vision, health, and provision are part of his plans to keep you from fulfilling what I created you to be and do. But I AM GREATER THAN HE IS! “Greater is He that is in me than He that is in the world.” I will overcome for you what he tries to do to block/stop you. You stay close to Me and we will do this together! 

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134. 	Getting a breakthrough in our finances takes spiritual warfare. That is because the spirit behind money and the world’s finance system is the spirit of mammon. And we are to live according to God’s system of finances, not mammon’s. The speaker at church today said mammon was a god people worshipped (I think in Syria) and it was the spirit behind the world’s finances. But Jesus taught us to not live by that system in Matthew 6:19-21; 24-33 which says:

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

And see, that’s where your heart is now. It is with Me and I am your treasure. No thief can break in and steal this treasure. I will not allow it.

No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money (mammon).

And you won’t serve both God and mammon. I am calling you to be completely under My system now. You tried before, but you didn’t understand how to contend for it and believe for it. Now you do. It is by those two pieces of armor in your hands--the shield of faith and the sword of the Spirit...the Word of God. These words you have written down are quite sufficient...just send them by faith, by your speaking them, to fight the battle. Remember My Word is alive and active and sharper than any two-edged sword. 

I am speaking to you of what will prevail over the world’s system of provision - that is, My system of provision. It is a higher system and VERY REAL. As I am greater than Satan, My provision system is greater than the world’s (his). He tries to rule people through mammon’s provision system (which came under the curse). He tries to rule through the curse and through his ruling power in the world. But there is a spiritual system of financial (and other) provision which is greater. That is where I have called you to live now.

And this spiritual system, which is greater than the world’s or Satan’s, includes finances, health, provision, love, caring, fellowship, instruction, homes, jobs, friends, food - everything you need in life. Remember, it includes health too. Remember those people on that island where all got right with Me? - and their produce changed to the best too?

It is also that way in the spiritual realm. You and your daughter have a house of righteousness here. I will maintain it from the spiritual realm, from My kingdom realm, and I will maintain you both as you live together here. That is one reason I brought you both under one house for now.

I think I am to declare the Word over myself and my work and finances each day. So what shall I declare? Declare:

And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.  (2 Cor 9:6-8)

1	God is making all grace abound to me, so that in all things at all times, having all that I need, I will abound in every good work. (2 Cor. 9:8)

Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God. (2 Cor. 9:10-11)

2	God is supplying seed for me to sow and bread for me to eat. He is making me rich in every way so I can be generous on every occasion. (2 Cor. 9:10-11)

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.  (Philippians 4:19)

3	My God will meet all my needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.  (Philippians 4:19)

But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. (Matthew 6:29-31)

4	I am storing up for myself treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. This is where my heart is - with my treasure in heaven (Matthew 6:29-31)

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  (Matthew 6:24-33)

5	I am seeking first God’s kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things I need shall be given to me as well. (Matthew 6:33)

No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money (mammon).

6	I am serving God and not mammon in my finances. (Matthew 6:24) Therefore I am following God’s rules for finances, not the world’s.

Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. (Eccl. 5:10)

7	I have enough money and am satisfied with what God brings me. (Eccl. 5:10)

Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.(Isaiah 55:2)

8	I am listening to God, and eating His Word.  This satisfies me, and I am delighting in the richest of fare. (Isaiah 55:2)

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. (James 1:5)

9	I have the wisdom of God about my finances because I ask for it. (James 1:5)

But we I have the mind of Christ (1 Cor. 2:16)

10	I have the mind of Christ. (1 Cor 2:16)

See that you also excel in this grace of giving. (2 Cor. 8:7)

11	I am excelling in the grace of giving (2 Cor 8:7)

Be careful not to do your acts of righteousness before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. (Matthew 6:1-4)

12	I am doing my acts of righteousness in secret, not before men (like giving to the needy) and my reward will be from my Heavenly Father. (Matt. 6:2-4)

Our Father in heaven, hallowed by your name, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. (Matthew 6:9-11)

13	God is giving me this day my daily bread. (Matt. 6:11)

If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the Lord your God:
	You will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country.
	The fruit of your womb will be blessed.
	The crops of your land and the young of your livestock…
	Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed.
	You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out.
	...the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you...
	The Lord will send a blessing on your barns and on everything you put your hand to.
	The Lord will bless you in the land he is giving you.
	The Lord will establish you as his holy people...
	The Lord will grant you abundant prosperity...
	The Lord will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands.
	You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none.
	The Lord will make you the head, not the tail.
	...You will always be at the top, never at the bottom. (Deut. 28:1-14)

14	I am blessed when I come in and blessed when I go out (Deut. 28:6)

15	The enemies who rise up against me will be defeated before me. (Deut 28:7)

16	The Lord is blessing my barns and everything I put my hand to. He is blessing the land he is giving me. (Deut 28:8)

17	The Lord is granting me abundant prosperity in this land He has given me. (Deut 28:11)

18	The Lord is opening the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on my land in season and to bless all the work of my hands. (Deut 28:12)

19	I will lend to many but borrow from none. (Deut 28:12)

20	The Lord is making me the head, not the tail; I am at the top, not the bottom. (Deut. 28:13)

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135. It’s all working just right, coming together in My perfect timing, My perfect plans for you. I haven’t revealed them to you yet because it is not yet My time to do that, but I am giving you something to ponder. What you will do this day, and this month, is wait and see what I do - then join Me in it. Remember? I WILL show you the way to walk on the path I have for you. Keep your hands in Mine. That is where you are safe and secure. Keep dwelling in the secret place of the Most High and you shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

Psalm 91:1 KJV He that dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

You ARE abiding there right now, and that is where I want you every day and every hour of every day. Be there right now. I will show you the way. Do not worry or fret - just watch and see what I am doing and join Me, ok?

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136. Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed by Thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. (Matthew 6:9-11)

And it is coming. Very soon. We are in the transition stage now into My kingdom coming fully. During this transition there is great struggle and turmoil. You see it in the weather (a hurricane  hitting the Florida coast tomorrow), in the wild fires, in the weather switching from hot to cold, in the tornadoes, the flooding, the typhoons in the south seas, etc. There is much turmoil in the weather. There is much turmoil in people, especially if they aren’t focused on Me. There are feelings of uncertainty, of insecurity, of the unknown events that might happen (like terrorists), etc. This is the time I mentioned in Isaiah 60:2 See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples. BUT, My kingdom is coming and My will is being done more and more each day as we proceed toward its fullness being manifest in the millenium.

Give us this day our daily bread,

Lord, I ask you for my daily bread, the provision I need to live during all these transition days. You are my provider. I look to You.

Yes. I say yes to you. I promise I will provide for you all the days of your life on this earth. I will show you how to connect with that provision I have for you. I will bring it about. You do not need to do anything except wait on Me, trust Me, call to Me, and I WILL answer you.

And forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.

Lord, I ask You to forgive me for all my sins through Your blood shed for them. Show me if I need to forgive anyone who sinned against me, and I will forgive them.

I forgive you, My child. You are clean before Me. I know your heart and it is clean and pure. I will show you if you need to forgive anyone else.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Keep us safe from temptation and deliver us from all evil, Lord. Protect us wherever we go this day, and protect our homes, our cars, our lives, and our work from evil, Lord. I plead the blood of Jesus over all this.

And I say yes to you for these requests.

You feel under stress/pressure today. That is because of all the turbulence in the spiritual realm today. A great battle is on and the presidential race is a product of some of that battle. It is in high gear now. Yes, I will be with your President as you ask. I will guide what he says and does not say. I know that is important to some people. I know how the media pick on little things that aren’t important and mock and tear down him in false ways. These things will happen because the enemy uses lies and distortion constantly to blur things. Keep coming to Me for clarity on the news.

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137. I AM restoring true life to you. I AM filling you with My presence daily as you come to Me. I give you strength and desire for Me, and joy as you go. Yesterday, when you felt depleted and sensed the enemy wanted you to succumb to depression and futility of life, you needed to call out to Me. I will save you from futility and from depression. As you breath the atmosphere of heaven where I am, you will find new life coming into you. Do you sense it now? 

Whenever you feel this new life slipping away, call to Me. I will come and renew you. You live in a world which is out of balance and in great turmoil during this transition time of the pouring out of My Spirit and the pouring out of the enemy’s terror all at the same time. The two cannot co-exist very long without tearing the person or earth apart. As I pour out My Spirit more and more the turmoil will get worse. You will see it in the weather patterns, the unrest of people as well as unrest and turmoil in earthly things/pursuits. This will cause lots of shaking. You will see the shaking and be amazed at it. You see it in the election process now. That is shaking! But this will continue until I take My Bride away and My Spirit away from the earth for a time. Then the wrath of God will be poured out on all that’s left on the earth - in retribution against those who have rejected Me and My sacrifice.

That is one reason I brought you to your church...to join the multiplied authority and power of others with mantles also, and to come into unity together with them here. You felt this unity the very first time you visited there and it caused you to weep. That wasn’t a coincidence. The yearning to hurry and come was no coincidence. That is because you felt and knew a unity with your pastor and others there and it fulfilled a great need you had to “connect” with such people. That is why you needed to wait until you came here and joined this unity of mantles to write the book - and why it came together so quickly. Yes, I do have more writing for you to do, and this is part of it, what you are writing right now...this understanding of coming together with others who also bear the torch and mantles from past generations who laid them down for you all to pick up. Many at your church have mantles which they have picked up from past generations.

That explains the dream I gave you where you were alive, but many behind you had gone before you and were looking to you, the person alive now, to continue the work out in “that field” under the singing of the Holy Spirit. The singing of the Holy Spirit represents the anointing. He comes often through music...heavenly music. Satan knows this and he uses music to come to his own, as I use music to come to My own.

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138. I am with you. Now write down the three baptisms of fire Todd Bentley wrote about:

1. Purity
2. Love
3. Power

I have been working the baptism of purity in you for many years. Now you and I are working on the baptism of love. These need to be in place, right, BEFORE I baptize you with power.

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139. You are one of My torchbearers. That is why I had you write the book - to spread the fire that you have to others who will also pick it up. You must publish the book. And I will bring that about in the right way at the right time. You see, it is like fire igniting fire in others who are being prepared for it. It is like the vision you saw of that ball of fire touching others here and there. I am that ball of fire, but so are you, as you are a part of Me. You have awakened, and I am now sending you out to others. Wisdom and humility are keys in being prepared to share this fire which is in you. Remember the vision I gave you of fire in people’s chests? The chest represents the heart, and the fire is in the heart. You will “see” this again in some people I will show you later.

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(Look for part 2 coming soon)