JOURNAL OF A LISTENER TO GOD
Part 5

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He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. (Isaiah 50:4)

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INTRODUCTION

Let Your praises pour forth in this book, Lord, as you and I write it together. Let it be Your love letter to those who read the book. And let them encounter You as a Person as they read this book...a Person who loves them and wants to meet with them also, as You do with me. Let this book give them a spiritual pathway to follow on their own personal journey to know You, Jesus, to hear from You, and to encounter You in a close, living, and loving relationship.

I offer this book in humility, knowing that our relationship with God is a deeply personal thing.  Each one of us is unique and special, and so is our relationship with God. I offer only what I have experienced or heard, praying it will be a blessing and encouragement to each person who reads this book.  (Words in italics are words spoken to me by the Holy Spirit as I listened to Him.)

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1. When the money for your moving comes into place, then that's a sign it's time to move. You're not to move out at the soulish word/wisdom of someone else. That didn't come from Me - nor did the date of the end of the year - so I couldn't/wouldn't follow that word. But I did use it to help prepare you to move when it's My time and I provide (as a sign it's My time). You were under pressure from a false word - and it's only My Word that I'm watching to perform (Jer. 1:12). This is what I've been waiting for - the New Year - so I could show you I'll not work on a false time table, but only My time table - if you trust in and wait for Me.

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2. This morning I was really feeling depressed and frustrated. I felt the Lord impress me to praise and thank Him, so I went to the praise section of my Scripture notebook, and began to read and pray those Scriptures to Him. Eventually His Presence surrounded me as He talked to me and comforted me regarding the transition time I am in while waiting to move from my daughter's house to a retirement apartment. He said:

Fear the Lord and be obedient to His commands. You are to follow Him rather than others who wanted you to move by the end of last year. They do not understand My way for you. Yes, I can speak to you through Todd Bentley's mouth (I had the idea of Todd giving me a message from the Lord) or through whomever I wish to. I used others to help get you ready to move. You are to move, just not in their timetable. You are pleasing in My sight. You are in My courts (Psalm 100) right now, and I am speaking to you.

Then I spent a long time in His Presence and he assured me about the retirement apartment saying it would be like having parents to look out for my needs (food, home, aware of medical needs, etc.) just for giving them the monthly rent money - which the Lord will provide. He is working on that provision and it will come in His time. He wants me to see the people there as His family for me to be a part of. There are some brothers and sisters there who need to see His light and hear about Him through me.

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I had a dream in which a group of us were making a trip home together from someplace (maybe camp) where we were. I was working to help get stuff loaded in the vehicles and was to keep track of my hours. I learned I was to get double credit for my work hours.

Interpretation: the trip home is from life on earth to heaven. I must work to get all prepared for that trip and will be rewarded double for my time/work. I didn't have a vehicle to get me home, but I had to depend on someone else (the Holy Spirit or an angel) to transport me.

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I had a dream in which I was at a swimming pool where I swam some laps back and forth across from one side to the other. As I swam I could turn my head and breathe ok as I swam (something I hadn't been good at doing in real life). This seemed to be happening during the wintertime and it seemed to be a great luxury to be in a place where I could swim then.

Then I saw I was inside a building and saw a man who looked vaguely familiar and I said hello to him. He wanted to know if I ever typed things, and he suggested it would be good if I typed what was happening inside me. When I woke up I thought this was a message telling me to write about the swimming - as it had some significance.

Interpretation: Swimming refers to being "in the Spirit." I was able to do it easily. I felt the man who looked vaguely familiar represented the Holy Spirit who was telling me to write the dream. Since the swimming took place in the winter, that may represent a time of great coldness in the earth, not warmth. And it was a great luxury (and cost a lot) to be living/walking in the Spirit during that time.

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5. I asked the Lord: "What are You doing in the world right now, Lord?" He answered:

•	I'm preparing the earth for the tribulation to soon come. That's why I had you read all those books about it recently - to remind you.
•	I'm preparing My people to soon be raptured, and to take the Restrainer out of the way so the tribulation events can come about.
•	I'm sending My people all over the world to share My good news - mostly via TV and the internet, just before the Rapture.
•	I'm getting you and your daughters and son-in-law ready to "Come up here"(Revelation 4:1) and giving you the experiences you need while still on earth. Since the Rapture takes all of Mine in one moment, that means some will have their full years to grow (like you) and some will only have a little/few. But that's ok. I know all about it. It's part of My plan.

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6. (Quote from book by Mark Hitchcock called 55 Answers to Questions About Life After Death)

From chapter 29 "Are There Rewards in Heaven?" p. 148

The preparation for the judgment seat
The Bible tells us that the great test day for our lives as God's children is coming. But like a kind, gracious teacher, God has given us the "test questions" for the judgment seat of Christ beforehand. It's our job to study these test questions so we can be prepared, and make an "A" on the final exam. Here is a list of some of the main areas in our lives that will be tested when we stand before the Lord:

1.	How we treat other believers (Hebrews 6:10; Matthew 10:41-42)

Hebrews 6:10 
For God is not unjust. He will not forget how hard you have worked for him and how you have shown your love to him by caring for other believers, as you still do. 

Matthew 10:41-42 
If you receive a prophet as one who speaks for God, you will be given the same reward as a prophet. And if you receive righteous people because of their righteousness, you will be given a reward like theirs. And if you give even a cup of cold water to one of the least of my followers, you will surely be rewarded.”

2.	How we employ our God-given talents and abilities (Matthew 25:14-29; Luke 19:11-26; 1 Corinthians 12:4; 2 Timothy 1:6; 1 Peter 4:10)

Matthew 25:14-29 
“Again, the Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. He called together his servants and entrusted his money to them while he was gone. He gave five bags of silver to one, two bags of silver to another, and one bag of silver to the last—dividing it in proportion to their abilities. He then left on his trip. 
“The servant who received the five bags of silver began to invest the money and earned five more. The servant with two bags of silver also went to work and earned two more. But the servant who received the one bag of silver dug a hole in the ground and hid the master’s money. 
“After a long time their master returned from his trip and called them to give an account of how they had used his money. The servant to whom he had entrusted the five bags of silver came forward with five more and said, ‘Master, you gave me five bags of silver to invest, and I have earned five more.’ 
“The master was full of praise. ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’ 
“The servant who had received the two bags of silver came forward and said, ‘Master, you gave me two bags of silver to invest, and I have earned two more.’ 
“The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’ 
“Then the servant with the one bag of silver came and said, ‘Master, I knew you were a harsh man, harvesting crops you didn’t plant and gathering crops you didn’t cultivate. I was afraid I would lose your money, so I hid it in the earth. Look, here is your money back.’ 
“But the master replied, ‘You wicked and lazy servant! If you knew I harvested crops I didn’t plant and gathered crops I didn’t cultivate, why didn’t you deposit my money in the bank? At least I could have gotten some interest on it.’ 
“Then he ordered, ‘Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one with the ten bags of silver. To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. 

Luke 19:11-26 
The crowd was listening to everything Jesus said. And because he was nearing Jerusalem, he told them a story to correct the impression that the Kingdom of God would begin right away. He said, “A nobleman was called away to a distant empire to be crowned king and then return. Before he left, he called together ten of his servants and divided among them ten pounds of silver, saying, ‘Invest this for me while I am gone.’ But his people hated him and sent a delegation after him to say, ‘We do not want him to be our king.’ 
“After he was crowned king, he returned and called in the servants to whom he had given the money. He wanted to find out what their profits were. The first servant reported, ‘Master, I invested your money and made ten times the original amount!’ 
“‘Well done!’ the king exclaimed. ‘You are a good servant. You have been faithful with the little I entrusted to you, so you will be governor of ten cities as your reward.’ 
“The next servant reported, ‘Master, I invested your money and made five times the original amount.’ 
“‘Well done!’ the king said. ‘You will be governor over five cities.’ 
“But the third servant brought back only the original amount of money and said, ‘Master, I hid your money and kept it safe. I was afraid because you are a hard man to deal with, taking what isn’t yours and harvesting crops you didn’t plant.’ 
“‘You wicked servant!’ the king roared. ‘Your own words condemn you. If you knew that I’m a hard man who takes what isn’t mine and harvests crops I didn’t plant, why didn’t you deposit my money in the bank? At least I could have gotten some interest on it.’ 
“Then, turning to the others standing nearby, the king ordered, ‘Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one who has ten pounds.’ 
“‘But, master,’ they said, ‘he already has ten pounds!’ 
“‘Yes,’ the king replied, ‘and to those who use well what they are given, even more will be given. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. 

1 Corinthians 12:4 
There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all. 

2 Timothy 1:6 
This is why I remind you to fan into flames the spiritual gift God gave you when I laid my hands on you. 

1 Peter 4:10
God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another. 

3.	How we use our money (Matthew 6:1-4; 1 Timothy 6:17-19)

Matthew 6:1-4
“Watch out! Don’t do your good deeds publicly, to be admired by others, for you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven. When you give to someone in need, don’t do as the hypocrites do—blowing trumpets in the synagogues and streets to call attention to their acts of charity! I tell you the truth, they have received all the reward they will ever get. But when you give to someone in need, don’t let your left hand know what your right hand is doing. Give your gifts in private, and your Father, who sees everything, will reward you.

1 Timothy 6:17-19
Teach those who are rich in this world not to be proud and not to trust in their money, which is so unreliable. Their trust should be in God, who richly gives us all we need for our enjoyment. Tell them to use their money to do good. They should be rich in good works and generous to those in need, always being ready to share with others. By doing this they will be storing up their treasure as a good foundation for the future so that they may experience true life.

4.	How well we accept mistreatment and injustice (Matthew 5:11-12; Mark 10:29-30; Luke 6:27-28, 35; Romans 8:18; 2 Corinthians 4:17; 1 Peter 4:12-13)

Matthew 5:11-12
“God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.

Mark 10:29-30
“Yes,” Jesus replied, “and I assure you that everyone who has given up house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or property, for my sake and for the Good News, will receive now in return a hundred times as many houses, brothers, sisters, mothers, children, and property—along with persecution. And in the world to come that person will have eternal life. 

Luke 6:27-28, 35
“But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you. 

Romans 8:18
Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later. 

2 Corinthians 4:17
For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! 

1 Peter 4:12-13
Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world.

5.	How we endure suffering and trials (James 1:12; Revelation 2:10)

James 1:12
God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. 

Revelation 2:10
Don’t be afraid of what you are about to suffer. The devil will throw some of you into prison to test you. You will suffer for ten days. But if you remain faithful even when facing death, I will give you the crown of life.

6.	How we spend our time (Psalm 90:9-12; Ephesians 5:16; Colossians 4:5; 1 Peter 1:17)

Psalm 90:9-12
We live our lives beneath your wrath, ending our years with a groan. Seventy years are given to us! Some even live to eighty. But even the best years are filled with pain and trouble; soon they disappear, and we fly away. Who can comprehend the power of your anger? Your wrath is as awesome as the fear you deserve. Teach us to realize the brevity of life, so that we may grow in wisdom.

Ephesians 5:16
Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days.

Colossians 4:5
Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity.

1 Peter 1:17
And remember that the heavenly Father to whom you pray has no favorites. He will judge or reward you according to what you do. So you must live in reverent fear of him during your time as “foreigners in the land.” 

7.	How we run the particular race God has given us (1 Corinthians 9:24; Philippians 2:16; 3:13-14; Hebrews 12:1)

1 Corinthians 9:24
Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! 

Philippians 2:16
Hold firmly to the word of life; then, on the day of Christ’s return, I will be proud that I did not run the race in vain and that my work was not useless.

Philippians 3:13-14
No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

Hebrews 12:1
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 

8.	How effectively we control our fleshly appetites (1 Corinthians 9:25-27).

1 Corinthians 9:25-27
All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.

9.	How many souls we witness to and win for Christ (Proverbs 11:30; Daniel 12:3; 1 Thessalonians 2:19-20)

Proverbs 11:30
The seeds of good deeds become a tree of life; a wise person wins friends.

Daniel 12:3
Those who are wise will shine as bright as the sky, and those who lead many to righteousness will shine like the stars forever. 

1 Thessalonians 2:19-20
After all, what gives us hope and joy, and what will be our proud reward and crown as we stand before our Lord Jesus when he returns? It is you! Yes, you are our pride and joy.

10.	How much the doctrine of the Rapture means to us (2 Timothy 4:8)

2 Timothy 4:8
And now the prize awaits me—the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his appearing.

11.	How faithful we are to God's Word and God's people (Acts 20:26-28; 2 Timothy 4:1-2; Hebrews 13:17; James 3:1; 1 Peter 5:1-2; 2 John 1:7-8)

Acts 20:26-28
I declare today that I have been faithful. If anyone suffers eternal death, it’s not my fault, for I didn’t shrink from declaring all that God wants you to know.  “So guard yourselves and God’s people. Feed and shepherd God’s flock—his church, purchased with his own blood over which the Holy Spirit has appointed you as elders. 

2 Timothy 4:1-2
I solemnly urge you in the presence of God and Christ Jesus, who will someday judge the living and the dead when he appears to set up his Kingdom: Preach the word of God. Be prepared, whether the time is favorable or not. Patiently correct, rebuke, and encourage your people with good teaching.

Hebrews 13:17
Obey your spiritual leaders, and do what they say. Their work is to watch over your souls, and they are accountable to God. Give them reason to do this with joy and not with sorrow. That would certainly not be for your benefit.

James 3:1
Dear brothers and sisters, not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly. 

1 Peter 5:1-2
And now, a word to you who are elders in the churches. I, too, am an elder and a witness to the sufferings of Christ. And I, too, will share in his glory when he is revealed to the whole world. As a fellow elder, I appeal to you: Care for the flock that God has entrusted to you. Watch over it willingly, not grudgingly—not for what you will get out of it, but because you are eager to serve God. 

2 John 1:7-8
I say this because many deceivers have gone out into the world. They deny that Jesus Christ came in a real body. Such a person is a deceiver and an antichrist. Watch out that you do not lose what we have worked so hard to achieve. Be diligent so that you receive your full reward.

12.	How hospitable we are to strangers (Matthew 25:35-36; Luke 14:13-14)

Matthew 25:35-36
For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.’

Luke 14:12-14
Then he turned to his host. “When you put on a luncheon or a banquet,” he said, “don’t invite your friends, brothers, relatives, and rich neighbors. For they will invite you back, and that will be your only reward. Instead, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, and the blind. Then at the resurrection of the righteous, God will reward you for inviting those who could not repay you.”

13.	How faithful we are in our vocation (Colossians 3:22-24)

Colossians 3:22-24
Slaves, obey your earthly masters in everything you do. Try to please them all the time, not just when they are watching you. Serve them sincerely because of your reverent fear of the Lord. Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and that the Master you are serving is Christ. 

14.	How we use our tongue (Matthew 12:36; James 3:1-12)

Matthew 12:36
And I tell you this, you must give an account on judgment day for every idle word you speak. 

James 3:1-12
Dear brothers and sisters, not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly. Indeed, we all make many mistakes. For if we could control our tongues, we would be perfect and could also control ourselves in every other way. 
We can make a large horse go wherever we want by means of a small bit in its mouth. And a small rudder makes a huge ship turn wherever the pilot chooses to go, even though the winds are strong. In the same way, the tongue is a small thing that makes grand speeches. 
But a tiny spark can set a great forest on fire. And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting your entire body. It can set your whole life on fire, for it is set on fire by hell itself. 
People can tame all kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and fish, but no one can tame the tongue. It is restless and evil, full of deadly poison. Sometimes it praises our Lord and Father, and sometimes it curses those who have been made in the image of God. And so blessing and cursing come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters, this is not right! Does a spring of water bubble out with both fresh water and bitter water? Does a fig tree produce olives, or a grapevine produce figs? No, and you can’t draw fresh water from a salty spring. 

Carefully consider this list. Read the verses. Develop and grow in these areas of your life so that when you stand before the Lord someday, you can hear those words, "Well done, good and faithful servant" (Matthew 25:21 NIV).

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7. I want to put in my journal the "Proposed chronology of the end times" by Mark Hitchcock from his book Iran: The Coming Crisis, page 201ff -

1.	Events in heaven
A.	The Rapture of the Church (1 Cor. 15:51-58; 1 Thess. 4:13-18; Rev. 3:10)
B.	The Judgment seat of Christ (Rev. 14.10: 1 Cor. 3:9-15; 4:1-5; 9:24-27; 2 Cor. 5:10)
C.	The Marriage of the Lamb (2 Cor. 11:2; Rev. 19:6-8)
D.	The Singing of two special songs (Rev. 4-5)
E.	The Lamb receiving the seven-sealed scroll (Rev. 5)

2.	Events on earth
A.	Seven-year tribulation
1.	Beginning of the tribulation
a.	Seven-year tribulation begins when the Antichrist signs a covenant with Israel, bringing peace to Israel and Jerusalem (Dan. 9:27; Ezekiel 38:8,11)
b.	The Jewish temple in Jerusalem is rebuilt (Dan. 9:27; Rev. 11:1)
c.	The reunited Roman Empire emerges in a ten-leader configuration (Dan. 2:40-44; 7:7; Rev. 17:12)
2.	First Half (3 1/2 years) of the Tribulation
a.	The seven seal judgments are opened (Rev.6)
b.	The 144,000 Jewish believers begin their great evangelistic ministry (Rev.7)
c.	Gog and his allies invade Israel and are decimated by God (Dan. 11:40-45; Ezekiel 38-39)
3.	The midpoint of the tribulation
a.	Antichrist breaks his covenant with Israel and invades the land.(Dan. 9:27;11:40-41)
b.	Antichrist begins to consolidate his empire by plundering Egypt, Sudan, and Libya, whose armies have just been destroyed by God in Israel.(Dan. 11:42-43; Eze. 38-39)
c.	While in North Africa, Antichrist hears disturbing news of insurrection in Israel and immediately returns there to destroy and annihilate many. (Dan. 11:44)
d.	Antichrist sets up the abomination of desolation in the rebuilt temple of Jerusalem. (Dan. 9:27; 22:45a; Matt. 24:15; 2 Thess. 2:4; Rev. 13:5, 15-18)
e.	Sometime during these events, the Antichrist is violently killed, possibly as a result of a war or assassination. (Dan. 11:45; Rev. 13:3, 12, 14; 17:8)
f.	Satan is cast down from heaven and begins to make war with Israel. (Rev. 12:7-13) The chief means he uses to persecute Israel is the two beasts in Revelation 13.
g.	The faithful Jewish remnant flee to Petra in modern Jordan, where they are divinely protected for the remainder of the tribulation. (Matt. 24:16-20; Rev. 12:15-17)
h.	The Antichrist is miraculously raised from the dead to the awestruck amazement of the entire world. (Rev. 13:3)
i.	After his resurrection from the dead, the Antichrist gains political control over the ten kings of the reunited Roman Empire. Three of these kings will be killed by the Antichrist, and the other seven will submit. Dan. 7:24; Rev. 17:12-13)
j.	The Two Witnesses begin their three-and-a-half-year ministry. (Rev. 11:3-6)
k.	Antichrist and the ten kings destroy the religious system of Babylon and set up their religious capital in the city. (Rev. 17:16-17)
4.	Last half (3 1/2 years) of the Tribulation
a.	Antichrist blasphemes God and the false prophet performs great signs and wonders and promotes false worship of the Antichrist. (Rev. 13:5, 11-15)
b.	The mark of the beast (666) is introduced and enforced by the false prophet. (Rev. 13:16-18)
c.	Totally energized by Satan, the Antichrist dominates the world politically, religiously, and economically. (Rev. 13:4-5, 15-18)
d.	The trumpet judgments are unleashed throughout the final half of the Tribulation. (Rev. 8-9)
e.	Knowing he has only a short time left, Satan intensifies his relentless, merciless persecution of the Jewish people and Gentile believers on earth. (Dan. 7:25; Rev. 12:12; 13:15; 20:4)
5.	The end of the Tribulation
a.	The bowl judgments are poured out in rapid succession (Rev 16)
b.	The campaign of Armageddon begins (Rev. 16:16)
c.	Commercial Babylon is destroyed (Rev. 18)
d.	The two witnesses are killed by Antichrist and are resurrected by God three and a half days later (Rev. 11:7-12)
e.	Christ returns to the Mount of Olives and slays the armies gathered against Him throughout the land, from Megiddo to Petra (Rev. 19:11-16; Isaiah 34:1-6; 63:1-6)
f.	The birds gather to feed on the carnage. (Rev. 19:17-18)
B.	After the Tribulation
1.	Interval or Transition period of seventy-five days (Daniel 12:12)
a.	The Antichrist and false prophet are cast in the lake of fire (Rev. 19:20-21)
b.	The abomination of desolation is removed from the temple (Daniel 12:11)
c.	Israel is regathered (Matt. 24:31)
d.	Israel is judged (Ezekiel 20:30-39; Matt. 25:1-30)
e.	Gentiles are judged (Matt 25:31-46)
f.	Satan is bound in the abyss (Rev. 20:1-3)
g.	Old Testament and Tribulation saints are resurrected (Daniel 12:1-3; Isaiah 26:19; Revelation 20:4)
2.	One-thousand-year reign of Christ on Earth (Rev. 20:4-6)
3.	Satan's final revolt and defeat (Rev. 20:7-10)
4.	The Great White Throne Judgment of the lost (Rev. 20:11-15)
5.	The destruction of the present heavens and Earth (Matt. 24:35; 2 Peter 3:3-12) Rev. 21:1)
6.	The creation of the New Heavens and New Earth (Isaiah 65:17; 66:22; 2 Peter 3:13; Rev. 21:1)
7.	Eternity (Rev. 21:9-22:5)

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8. During church this morning I asked the Lord to show me a Scripture about my going to the retirement apartment. The Scripture that was impressed to me was Luke 18:1 which says:

One day Jesus told his disciples a story to show that they should always pray and never give up. (Luke 18:1 NLT)

This was an encouragement to me that Jesus wants me to always pray and never give up.

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9. I prayed for God to provide and arrange for me to move to the retirement apartment that He has been leading me to.

Your daughter will be part of your provision for you to live at the retirement apartment. And you will be part of your provision. And someone/something else will provide the rest. I want her to help you. She is your daughter. I bless her through her blessing you. So let her. I'm not expecting you to provide for yourself in your elder years. I make families to help each other, and I bless them for doing it. Then you will go, and then I will bless your daughter. It will all work out rightly - but in My time. 

A Scripture I read this morning from 1 Timothy 5:3-4 

Take care of any widow who has no one else to care for her. But if she has children or grandchildren, their first responsibility is to show godliness at home and repay their parents by taking care of them. This is something that pleases God.

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10. This song has been going through my head over and over this morning. I think it is a message to me -
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Freely, freely you have received,
Freely, freely give.
Go in My name and because you believe,
Others will know that I live.
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This is my song for wherever I live. I'm to go in His name and others will know that He lives - through me.

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11. Quote from Juanita Bynum's book The Threshing Floor p. 15ff, "You can boldly approach God's throne, but only through the pattern of the finished, perfect works of Jesus Christ. When Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life," He was marking the path to effective prayer. The gate is "the way"; the holy place (inner court) is "the truth"; and "the life" shines through God's perfected light in the most holy place."

You come to Me each morning when you come through the "gate" of My name, My works, and your relationship with Me. That gate stays open as you go through your day, and I fill you with truth and life from Me and through Me.

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12. Quote from Juanita Bynum's book The Threshing Floor p. 16: "Hebrews 7:11 tells us: 'Now if perfection (a perfect fellowship between God and the worshiper) had been attainable by the Levitical priesthood…'"

As I read that sentence I was struck with the comment that perfection was a perfect fellowship between God and the worshiper! The Holy Spirit showed me that I am working toward that kind of perfection every day as I come to Him, read the Word, listen to Him, obey His voice, etc. I tended to feel I wasn't "doing" anything since I spend so much time studying, praying, etc…but this showed me otherwise.

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13. Quote from Juanita Bynum's book The Threshing Floor, p. 17: "Jesus has one goal: to give us a living, breathing, vital relationship with the Father."

Wow! That's why He told me back in 2000 to stop doing the Discipleship Training ministry and start learning to develop a more intimate relationship with Him!

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14. The Lord shows me that I am consciously aware of Him and talk to Him all day (praying without ceasing) and that my consciousness/mind does this also during the night. This comes through to me in the form of dreams. He is also with me throughout the night. If He wants to communicate something to me then, He does, and it influences/teaches me too. Sometimes He has me remember those dreams and sometimes not. Last night I had a dream that I felt I should record today because it was significant for me to know/remember.

There was a series of three pictures that came as a dream within a dream. I knew I had seen the 3 pictures before and in the dream I pondered them and what they might mean. Each picture had the color blue showing in it somewhere, but no other colors. It was a peaceful dream and it seemed like I would never forget the 3 pictures while I was dreaming about dreaming them. One picture was a canoe. It seemed to be sitting in a holder that was blue. Another picture is on the fringe of my memory, but not clear. But it had a blue area in it also.

Three refers to Trinity and to conform to that. Blue refers to communion, revelation, or something  spiritual. Canoe can symbolize a well-paced and tranquil method of traveling one's spiritual path. It can also show something that floats gently on top of the river water and lets the water take it wherever it wants - like the leaf doing that through which God gave me a revelation at Shelter Garden. A boat can refer to a person, or personal ministry. The blue holder can refer to being held spiritually by God.

Where am I in the dream? I am the only participant. I am observing the three pictures and pondering the meaning of them. It's about me and my relationship with God. Dreaming that you are dreaming means a message, a message within a message, an aspiration, a vision. A double dream is very important, usually about destiny, life call, things God doesn't want you to miss.

For God may speak in one way, or in another, yet man does not perceive it. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls upon men, while slumbering on their beds, then He opens the ears of men, and seals their instruction. (Job 33:14-16)

This seems to be a revelation dream. God is revealing to me that He has a dream for me with 3 pictures in it. I am being shown as a person pondering the meaning of the dream within a dream. All 3 pictures reveal spiritual realities because of the blue involved. In the one dream I remember, He shows me as a person having a well-paced and tranquil method of traveling my spiritual path (which fits me perfectly!) and as a person who is being held by Him. The canoe also can show me as a person who can float tranquilly in the River of Life that He takes me on. 

The three pictures can refer to my being conformed to and obedient to Him, the Trinity. It's a very positive dream to inform me and comfort me that the way my life is going is good, and He is leading it and in control of it - it is what He wants from my life, my "boat"…which can mean my self and/or my personal ministry. According to the Scripture from Job, God was "opening my ears and sealing my instruction." Since this was a dream within a dream it is a message from God, something that I am to aspire to, a vision I am to see, behold, and contemplate. It's something about my destiny, my life call, that God doesn't want me to miss, and it's very important. In this dream I felt I had dreamt about these 3 pictures at other times too.

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15. I have been reading a book by Dr. David Jeremiah called Escape The Coming Night. Dr. Jeremiah is Senior Pastor of Shadow Mountain Community Church in El Cajon, CA where he serves as Chancellor of Christian Heritage College. He is the founder of Turning Point, a ministry committed to providing sound Bible teaching through national radio and television broadcasting. His practical teaching on topics such as family, stress, the New Age, biblical prophecy, and overcoming adversity, forms the foundation of Turning Point. The inspiring messages of Turning Point are currently broadcast weekly from more than 1,100 national and international radio outlets and televised in all 50 states. More information regarding Turning Point can be found at www.turningpointradio.org. 

This book (Escape The Coming Night) goes through the whole book of Revelation and explains it carefully. In the book he encourages people to be sure they are currently in right relationship with God through Jesus Christ - so they can be among the Christians who are taken out of the earth in an event called The Rapture. The Rapture takes place before the difficulties described in the book of Revelation take place on earth. Below are quotes from his book:

A person does not come to Christ by his intellect alone--or even with his heart alone. He comes to Christ because he decides to do so. It is a matter of the will--whosoever will, let him come. What is the requirement for salvation? It's so simple--just take the free gift that is offered. We don't have to work for it or give up anything for it, we just need to decide to take it. God's desire is for us to accept the gift of Jesus Christ, who died on the cross that we might be saved and have eternal life in the New Heaven and the New Earth…Here's how you can know Jesus as your Lord and Savior:

•	Because of your sin, you are separated from God. For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23)
•	The penalty for your sin is death. For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Jesus Christ our Lord. (Romans 6:23)
•	The penalty for your sin was paid by Jesus Christ. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8)
•	If you repent of your sin, then confess and trust Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you will be saved from your sins. Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." (Romans 10:13) "If you confess with your mouth, 'Jesus is Lord,' and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. (Romans 10:9)
•	Can you be sure that if you ask Christ to save you, He will? Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God…I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. (1 John 5:1a, 13)

If you made a decision to accept Jesus Christ as your Savior, call Turning Point toll-free at 1-800-947-1993 and request your complimentary copy of "Your Greatest Turning Point."

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16. In a dream I was riding down a road in the passenger seat in a car. Up ahead we could see clouds and places where the rain was coming down from the clouds to the road. It looked like dark funnels stretching down with spaces in between the funnels. The rain funnels were dark gray and looked almost like tornadoes except the rain was coming straight down and not turning. There were maybe 4-5 such funnels. We looked for a place to pull off the road to the right side and wait for the rain funnels to pass.

Interpretation: Riding in a car represents my ministry and someone else was driving it…possibly the Lord. I was just "along for the ride" and watching where we were going. I saw us pull off to the side of the road to wait until the storms passed. Then they seemed to dissipate somewhat and get lighter in color. This indicates the Lord is guiding me in the ministry He has me doing and He will show me when to step away and let a storm pass or dissipate as needed.

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17. He chose to give birth to us by giving us his true word. And we, out of all creation, became his prized possession. (James 1:18 NLT)

And I did chose you, along with others who believe in My Son, Jesus Christ, to be My prized possession. Just like I chose the Israelites you read about today back in the Old Testament (Deut. 26-30). They were My prized possession and I prepared them to receive My Son, Jesus, but many of them rejected Him. So I set Myself to call out and chose for Myself those who WILL believe in My Son, and make them holy unto Me. You are one of those called and chosen. Know that you get all those blessings listed as you keep yourself holy and set apart and obedient unto Me. I love you and want to share/spend My life with you.

Amazing, Lord!

Yes, it is amazing, but it's true. I am a God of love, and I set apart a people whom I love. My love encompasses everything regarding those whom I love - from healing, to forgiveness, to prosperity, to protection, to rewards in heaven and eternal life living with Me.

Hasn't God chosen the poor in this world to be rich in faith? Aren't they the ones who will inherit the Kingdom he promised to those who love him? (James 2:5 NLT)

You see, when you made the choice to be poor in this world by telling Me you didn't want a bunch of money to have to invest, handle, etc, but just enough to live on daily, you made a very important choice. You made the right choice. It pleased Me, and I have taken care of your daily needs for all the rest of your life. You are depending on Me and not on your money. 

But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. Its is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere. And those who are peacemakers will plant seeds of peace and reap a harvest of righteousness. (James 3:17-18 NLT)

Yet you don't have what you want because you don't ask God for it. And even when you ask, you don't get it because your motives are all wrong--you want only what will give you pleasure. (James 4:2-3 NLT)

I asked the Lord about my motives for asking Him to provide for my moving to the retirement home. He asked me a series of questions regarding it:

Are  you seeking it because I want you to?  (yes)
Are you pushing to get it in your own power or letting Me decide about it?  (letting You decide it)
Are you willing to let it go and move somewhere else if I say so?  (yes)
Are you trying to steal it from someone else?  (no)

Then don't worry about having wrong motives. You are not trying to get it on your own power and ways, but purely by My power and ways. You do not have wrong motives.

So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and God will come close to you….humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor. (James 4:7-8, 10 NLT)

Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it. (James 4:17 NLT)

Dear brothers and sisters, be patient as you wait for the Lord's return. Consider the farmers who patiently wait for the rains in the fall and in the spring. They eagerly look for the valuable harvest to ripen. You, too, must be patient. Take courage, for the coming of the Lord is near. (James 5:7-8 NLT)

Are any of you sick? You should call for the elders of the church to come and pray over you, anointing you with oil in the name of the Lord. Such a prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven. Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. (James 5:14-16 NLT)

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18. Today at church Kevin and Cathy Basconi met with me a little bit and Kevin spoke to me about a word he had for me. He basically said the word was in response to the letter I sent to them previously when I asked for prayer regarding the place where I was to move. He said I should not be in a hurry to move, but to wait until it was clearly from the Lord…that I should "embrace" the season of time while I am at my daughter's house. Cathy talked to me about it being very important that I wait for the Lord's timing on this. They are such precious friends and are such a blessing to us! Thank You, Lord, for this word confirming what You have already been showing me.

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19. You see, My purpose is not just to do things. I could do those on My own. My purpose is to build a relationship with My people, a co-laboring relationship, a fellowship of fellow workers. So My greater purpose - to build this relationship - would not be accomplished if I just did all "things" by Myself. I want to know you, and want you to know Me. I want to relate with you and communicate with you, and I want you to do that with Me also. So we work on things together to accomplish much more than accomplishing those things. I created you to have fellowship with you and I will accomplish My purpose.

So you see, your work here of communicating with Me every day is the greater work I have for you. As Kevin Basconi told you last Sunday: "Embrace the season of life you are in right now." That is because it is your greater work that I have been training you for. I made you like you are, quiet and introverted and able to hear Me, so you could do this greater work. Now I want you to recognize the importance of it and do it every day…not just for your usual prayer bundle, but for all things I guide you to pray for. Are you willing? Then we will continue the training and practice of prayer together - as a team…as co-laborers.

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20. (A dream at 5:05 a.m.) $83,000 - that was the yearly salary offered to me to work for this (unknown) person who handed me a slip of paper with that ($83,000) written on it.  I didn't know yet what I was to do for that salary and was waiting to find out what I was to do.

Interpretation: The unknown person may represent the Holy Spirit. The work He has for me to do is yet to be revealed. The $83,000 represents more money than I have ever made before - adequate, enough to meet all my needs. The time I awoke (5:05) represents double grace (5). This is a promise dream to help sustain me as I wait for the place God provides for me - His best for me. It may even refer to the promise of heaven, which will come for me soon, where I will be completely provided for and have wonderful work to do - along with my best Friend, Jesus/Father/Holy Spirit.

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21. Today is my birthday. During my Quiet Time I asked the question: Are You here, Lord?

Yes, I am here, and you are anointed to hear Me today…your birthday. It was a very important and very meaningful day - the day you were born - just as you read about last night in a book. I knit you together in your mother's womb and formed you and shaped you to be just like I wanted you to be. (Jeremiah 1:5; Psalm 139:13-16) You trusted Me to do that, and I did it. You and I were "best friends" before you came here to earth, and we have come back to that position of being "best friends" WHILE on earth - one of our goals.

Did we have other goals, Lord?

Yes, we did, and I am watching to see that My Word is fulfilled - in you. Your name is the name I gave you before you were even born. I like that name and I caused you to like that name too. I gave it to your parents for you - child of joy. You were a joy to your earthly parents, and you are a joy to Me. You have listened to Me speak to your inward self, and have followed My words well. At your years of age you have reached a close and meaningful place with Me - a place where you and I meet regularly and commune daily with each other. I love the "secret place" of our meeting and communing, and I know you do too. That is the greatest accomplishment you have attained on earth. It was My greatest goal for you. You and I talked about it before you came to earth. You had a "knowing" inside you that this is where you were headed - to the "secret place" with Me. 

As a child you identified it in that book called "The Quiet Place". The title intrigued you, and also the concept that there was such a place that existed. You longed for that yourself. You knew it was good and desirable. Therefore, when I called you to stop your discipleship work and spend time getting to know Me intimately, you wanted to do that. It was already planted in your heart as a seed to be grown and developed. You are Mine  and always have been Mine. I sent Mine to the earth, knowing you would come under the curse of sin, but with plans to redeem you, so you could be prepared to rule and reign with Me in the future New Heavens and New Earth. It is a place of honor and importance, so it was worth risking coming to earth for.

I love you, My child, and I have always loved you. I created you (as I created the angels) for Me to love and fellowship with you. That is My purpose; that is My joy. And you fill My joy for you. Thank you for living these years with Me. Truly I have been with you all of the years, and My guardian angel has been with you all of those years too. We have been watching over you and molding and shaping you to be exactly what I created you to be. I am pleased with My creation, you.

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22. While seeking what was in God's heart, He said:

Don't worry about your body, what it looks like - for it will be made new soon. I'll keep it functioning well enough while you are on this earth. You don't have to please anyone with it - not even the doctor, or a husband, or people…just yourself.  And you can learn to be content with it for a little bit more.

As I pondered the people living in a retirement home, He said:

 They are all soon going to die. They want to know what's coming so it won't be so "unknown." You are there to help them know this. You might even read (to a group that is interested) Mark Hitchcock's book and Randy Alcorn's book. And that will lead right in to whether they are ready. There are certain ones I want to get this message to. You will help Me.

Mark Hitchcock: 55 Answers to questions about Life After Death
Randy Alcorn: Heaven

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23. I was dreaming of watching a play rehearsal and waiting for my cue to go onstage. The director would try out different things until he got it to look like he wanted it to.

He has to dream it through. He has to imagine it through - just like a director of a play imagines through and tries out/practices the various scenes of a play on stage.

Is that a clue, Lord, of how to pray for something? To imagine it through until I can "see" it spiritually? (like "seeing" a healing finished or "seeing" a person as a Christian)

The answer is yes.

Is that the way You want me to pray?

Sometimes - when I remind you of this idea. You were imagining people coming late to a MasterLife class and what you would do if so. Now imagine what you and I want to happen in such a class - ask Me to help you envision what I want to happen - then pray for it and picture it in your mind as you pray. That's what I want you to do.

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24. A dream: I was in a building - like in a college. A man said he had 2 pockets full of money (coins) to give me (I could see the coins in his two hands). It was like he was returning money to me he might have borrowed earlier. I said I'd go look for a sack to put the money in.

I went up and down stairs in the building to various rooms and looked in drawers for a sack, but found none there. Then I saw a custodial worker with a huge bunch of sacks. These sacks were folded the long way, were about 12 inches long, and were clear like plastic with gold designs painted on them. They were very pretty. I asked him if I could have one. He gave me one after he checked someplace (so it was ok to give it to me), and I was free to take it with me. 

I went back to the man with the coins to give me. I was telling him how the custodial people were so helpful to me/us when we first visited the campus previously. They were so kind that they helped me feel welcome there.

Interpretation: The setting of the dream is in a building that was a place of learning. It represents time on earth in this place of learning and an event coming during this time. The (unknown) man with the money to give me may represent God or His angel. 

Coins (silver) can represent revelation or knowledge. The coins in this dream were not necessarily silver, but a pocket change mixture of coins. Money can refer to favor, power, provision, wealth, natural talents and skills, spiritual riches (i.e. faith, wisdom, spiritual gifts, etc.) and authority. The number two can refer to multiplication, division, divide, judge, separate, and discern.  In this dream two pockets and two hands full of money may refer to money coming from two different sources. Since it represented money he owed me, having borrowed it earlier, it may refer to money now being returned to me from some past person or source of money. It could also refer to money brought from a heavenly bank account where it was stored for me. 

I went looking for a sack to put that money in. That sack could represent looking for a place to put or carry that money being given to me. Going up and down stairs may represent steps taken in the process of finding a sack to put the money into. It may include a process of time in taking these steps. It could refer to a transition time and/or an ability to move to different spiritual levels, possibly a portal. The drawers could represent a storage area. This brings to my mind the long process of looking for money to move to the retirement home, some steps up and some steps down, looking for the right container so I could receive and store that money. There has been a process of time involved in that process.

The sack I eventually found was in the possession of a custodial person. He could represent a servant, a person in custody of supplies, a person to help others or one who cleans. He may represent an angel, the Holy Spirit, or people who represent God (Christians). I saw that he had a bunch of beautiful sacks and asked him for one. He was willing to give one to me, but he seemed to need to make arrangements with someone else or somewhere else to be sure it was ok. It was, so he gave me a sack to use. The sack being transparent represents being vulnerable or transparent, being visible. The gold designs on the sack could represent glory or wisdom, truth, something precious, righteousness, the glory of God, holy, purity, or great value.

At the last part of the dream I was telling the man with the money how helpful the custodial staff had been to me when I first came to the campus, on my very first visit there. So it seems like the custodial staff represents Christians who love and welcome newcomers to earth and earth's learning place. 

The money soon to be given to me (for a new place to move to?) will come from God, but will be brought about through Christians on earth who serve God. It may come from two sources or places. It is to bring glory to God and to be transparent to others. It is God's way of being loving and helpful to me while I am here on earth learning.

So what does it mean, Lord?

It means, My child, that I am soon coming to bring you a double source of money for you to store up and use for your living, giving, and expenses. I am returning money to you which has been stored up for you but kept from you until now. It is being released now. You know what I want you to use this money for -  to live and to give - as I lead you. It will bring Me glory and be transparent to others revealing My glory and wisdom. I will bring it through an unknown person and provide the place of storage through My servant. You just receive the money and go through the process I take you through one step at a time. Trust Me on this as it IS from Me, even though you don't yet know the people involved in this transaction. It is for you to use - to bring Me glory.

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25. In my Quiet Time this morning I read Luke 5:10 where Jesus says: 

Don't be afraid! From now on you'll be fishing for people!

As I read that the Spirit said to me that that verse was for me today. Therefore I'm recording that in this journal.

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26. As our pastor gave a sermon on the topic of making prophetic proclamations (as prophetic intercessors) the Holy Spirit spoke to me:

I'm going to show you some things and I want you to proclaim them for Me.

Today at lunch I shared with friends about the dream God has given me regarding moving to the retirement apartment and what He is telling me to do there. One friend said he had a "word" for me. It was basically this idea: When the time is right I will know. And I should relax and wait.

Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. (Psalm 37:7)

This is My main message to you today. Be still in My Presence, be calm, be at peace, knowing I have your future in My hands and will bring about what I want at the precise and right time!

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27. As I was reading Joshua 8 in my Quiet Time this morning I came upon verse 18 which says:

Then the Lord said to Joshua, "Point the spear in your hand toward Ai, for I will hand the town over to you.

I stopped there feeling this held some meaning or message for me. The Lord reminded me that I was to proclaim things as He showed me. He had me take my favorite writing pen and point it in the direction of the retirement home and proclaim out loud what He said to me. I don't know the exact words He gave me, but the idea of the proclamation was:

In the name of Jesus I proclaim that a place, an apartment, is being reserved at the retirement home for me to live in. It is called Bethel, the house of the Lord. I will go and live in that apartment and proclaim the word of the Lord from that apartment to the people who live there. This will come about at the perfect time set by the Lord, and in His way.

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28. I asked the Lord why He sends the doves to the deck of our house so often now. He said:

I send the doves so you know My Presence is with you. They represent My Presence, My Love, My Peace, yes, and My Provision. If you have Me, you have My Provision. The doves are to remind you of Me. I will keep sending them to you.

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29. A Quote from John Ortberg's book The Life You've Always Wanted (large print) p. 249-250 on the topic of "How God Speaks to Us"

To "speak" to someone is simply to direct their thoughts toward something. Because you are reading these words, you are thinking a series of thoughts that you would not be thinking otherwise. Your thoughts are being led by another person.
	Because I am a finite human being, I have to use indirect means to guide your thoughts. I must express ideas in words so you can hear them or read them. I need to give them some physical form in order to communicate with you.
	But God does not. God can directly guide my thoughts without the aid of intervening sounds or images.
	Here is the vital point: God may be speaking to you - "affecting your consciousness," - while you "remain ignorant" of the fact that this very thought is coming from God.
	So it is possible that God may speak to us and our thoughts may be guided by him without our knowing that it is God's guidance.

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30. This Scripture touched me today because it agrees with what I told the Lord many years ago regarding my financial situation:

Give me neither poverty nor riches! Give me just enough to satisfy my needs. (Proverbs 30:8)

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31. A dream: I got out of a pickup truck and got the keys out of the ignition. I rode a small bicycle toward my house where I planned to leave for work (teaching school). It was 20 minutes until 8:00 a.m. and I was to be at work at 8:00. I spoke with a mother and her 2-3 children to see if it was ok if I leave them so I could get to work.

Interpretation: Interesting dream! As I read it today I have some thoughts about what it might be referring to. Here are the ideas: Getting out of a pickup truck may refer to getting out of a ministry of that size, and riding a bicycle after that may refer to doing some ministry that is smaller. My thought is that the pickup truck may symbolize working in discipleship at a previous church, and the bicycle may refer to what I am doing right now and what I will be soon doing at the retirement home. Teaching school refers to teaching children who are non-Christians or non-mature Christians. The dream shows it is almost time to do this (20 minutes until school starts).  I will be leaving my current house to do this. So I think speaking with a mother and her 2-3 children may refer to speaking with myself and those represented as my children to see if it is ok to leave them for this new work that will take my time now.

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32. I read in a book that Jonathan Edwards, even as a boy, began to study with his pen in his hand; not for the purpose of copying off the thoughts of others, but for the purpose of writing down and preserving the thoughts suggested to his own mind. I identified with that idea since that's what I do also. Then the Holy Spirit said: 

That is what I want you to do now: study with pen in hand. Put down the quote and then what I revealed to you through it. You will be doing more writing again now.

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33. God impressed me this week not to do an Ishmael (who was the son of the slave-wife) - not to try to bring about a move to the retirement home (or any other place) by myself. Today He guided me to re-read Galatians 4:21-31. I quote from verses 22-23 (NLT) 

The Scriptures say that Abraham has two sons, one from his slave-wife and one from his freeborn wife. The son of the slave-wife was born in a human attempt to bring about the fulfillment of God's promise. But the son of the free-born wife was born as God's own fulfillment of his promise. These two women serve as an illustration of God's two covenants.

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34. Yesterday we saw the dove again come to the bird feeder. Later in that morning I noticed lots of large and small gray feathers in the bird feeder - and many feathers on the ground near it. It seems the neighbor's cat may have caught that dove. Today the Holy Spirit is reminding me this could represent how the enemy (cat) may be trying to stop the Holy Spirit (dove). But He will not be stopped! I am sad the dove is gone because I delighted to see her there almost every day. But I don't need that sign to know the Lord is with me still. Doubt, fear, and timidity - that's what the Lord says Satan is trying to use against me to stop me or slow me down. Jesus rebuked doubt, fear, and timidity from me in His name.

Satan may try to take you off into tangents to distract you from staying focused on the retirement home and the ministry I have for you there. Some of these may be physical distractions. Stay focused.

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35. A dream: In this dream I had pink jackets, like windbreakers, to sell to others. I knew a group was preparing to go on a trip, so I thought they might like one for their trip. So I made a sign which I put on a balloon to hold up so they could see it as they came to the place to begin their trip. I found that the balloon hardly had enough air (helium) to hold it up well.

Interpretation: I realized as I thought about this dream that a jacket would symbolize a covering or anointing…and pink would symbolize emotions and love. So I felt this dream was significant enough to write out and analyze. Right now I think these pink jackets represent the love anointing/love covering which I want to "sell" to those soon going "on a trip" - meaning those soon going to heaven. I want them to have this love covering (referring to a saving relationship with Jesus Christ) before they leave on this trip. The Scripture says to buy that which is gold and not spend our money on that which has no value. (Revelation 3:18 NLT) "So I advise you to buy gold from me--gold that has been purified by fire. Then you will be rich."

This makes me think of the message about a relationship with Jesus Christ that I am to take with me to the retirement home soon. I want people there who do not know Jesus in a saving relationship to have that. The balloon represents me perhaps - the person advertising the jackets - and I still need more "air" (representing the Holy Spirit) in me. Yesterday our Pastor prayed for more filling of the Spirit for us at church for it was Pentecost Sunday. This dream shows me I still need more than I currently have.

Lord, I ask for more filling of Your Spirit for the task before me of giving others the message of a love relationship with You.

When it is time to go and share the message, I will fill you with "enough" air, with enough of My Spirit to do what I am asking you to do. You will get it at the time you need it. Right now, in this dream, you are in the preparation stage for selling the jackets. You'll need more air later. I will give all you need to do the task I have set before you. Trust Me in this.

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36. The Spirit of the Lord came upon him, and he became... (Judges 3:10)

I am going to do this to you. My Spirit will come upon you in a special way after you have been at the retirement home about a month - when it is the right time. You will know. My Spirit is now in you, but this will be different - a special anointing to do all that I lead you to do there and other places as I lead you. I wanted you to know about this ahead of time so you could be expecting it. I will tell you at that time what that anointing is for and will do. This 40 day fast is key to what is coming for you, as well as your country: key to going to the retirement home, the provision for the rent, meeting the right people, and to the coming anointing.

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37. My tongue is the pen of a skillful writer. (Psalm 45:1 NIV)

Your tongue will be like the pen of a skillful poet or writer, when My special anointing comes upon you as I mentioned earlier. Expect that.

For everything there is a season…a time to be quiet and a time to speak. (Eccl 3:1, 7)

Yet, God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end. (Eccl 3:11 NLT)

I will climb up to my watchtower and stand at my guardpost. There I will wait to see what the Lord says…Then the Lord said to me, "Write my answer plainly on tablets, so that a runner can carry the correct message to others. This vision is for a future time. It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed. (Habakkuk 2:1-3 NLT)

This describes your vision regarding the retirement home. It will surely come and will not delay. That's what I want you to do each day of the 40-day fast - climb up to your watchtower, stand, and wait to see what I say, and write it, and pray it. Today we will start with the anointing. I want to pour out My anointing on My people in a great new way - but they must be prepared to receive it. That's what I want you to pray for today, in English and in tongues. You may do it now.

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38. And you know that God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and with power. (Acts 10:38)

And that's what I'll do for you too.

Exodus (in section where it explains how the Israelites left Egypt with gold, silver, etc.) 

This is what you get - one lump sum with interest. That's what the roll of money meant (regarding the money I saw in dreams). These were all prophetic words and you may contend for those.

A speaker at a conference talked about two kinds of power: exousia (meaning power in the sense of ability, privilege, freedom, legal authority, delegated influence, right, strength) and dunamis (power when you witness, miraculous power, ability to do a miracle or might or wonderful things).

Dunamis power: That's what I'm doing for you.

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39. I will be with you always - always.

Hebrews 4:16 So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.

Don't feel you're in competition with anyone else or need to "perform" at anyone else's level of performance. You are your very own self - unique, one-of-a-kind, and I love you just as you are. You and I have a wonderful, close relationship - one I love and enjoy and appreciate. Your whole day is to do things so you are free to slip apart with Me and listen/talk with Me. We will go everywhere together and do everything together. You know this, don't you? Whether you are at home or at a conference, we do it together. That's what counts - doing things together. That's what Jesus and I did. I want that same relationship with you. 

When Jesus said you (His disciples) would do the same things He did, it didn't mean just healings, miracles, and wonders, it also meant spending all your time with Me, every thought, every prayer. It didn't matter last night if you went to the conference or stayed here; what mattered was that you spent it with Me…and you did. You pleased Me, so don't worry about pleasing others.

Being with Me; that's what's important in this world. Then I will show you and tell you what to do for Me and with Me. Now, be at peace, My child.

Then the Lord gave me Scripture references to look up and had me write them down (or portions of them).

Judges 5:11 Listen…

Mark 2:11 "Stand up, pick up your mat, and go home." (Jesus said to paralyzed man.)

Revelation 5:11-12 Then I looked again and I heard…

Realize that a prophet (which you are) spends time listening and hearing and seeing. This could involve telling someone to stand up and walk, or it could involve telling of coming destruction due to sin, etc. This will be happening more and more in your life. But remember that it's often primarily for intercession. You only share it with others if I lead you/release you to do so.

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40. Today I want you to pray for My Spirit to be poured out these 40 days of fasting and on 7-7-7 as it was on the day of Pentecost - AND that all participating in both (40 day fast and 7-7-7) receive My Spirit in great measure - AND go forth empowered of My Spirit (like Samson) to share about Me, Jesus, to all around them - all over your country and all over the world. This is the Latter Rain. The first Pentecost was the Former Rain. This Latter Rain will be much greater than the Former Rain.

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41. I want you to listen to Me now. I AM with you…all the time. And I always will be with you all the time. I am with you even now when you don't feel enthused, and I am also with you when you feel enthused and joyful. I am not controlled by your emotions, as I am the Unchanging Person…and I am King and Lord of the Unshakable Kingdom. Come away with Me, now, My beloved, and let Me talk to you. I don't usually talk unless I am invited to…like you.

I invite You to talk to me, Lord.

Then listen, My love. I know you don't care much to read the Song of Songs that you read this morning, but I wanted you to read it. My love is so wide and deep for you, and yours is for Me, that we are like a Bride and Groom. You will experience this by faith now while on this earth, but, when you come up to heaven, you will experience it completely, not partially, and not just when you are in the mood. Trust Me in this. It's the truth. 

It's good to listen to Me and write what I say (take dictation) at the computer as you can type much faster than you can hand-write. Do this often from now on. Now, read The Unshakable Kingdom and the Unchanging Person for awhile, and I will speak to you, communicate with you, through it.

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42. In my meditation time I was thinking about someone, and what to share with her regarding what she believes. The Holy Spirit said:

It's not your place to teach her/convict her what is wrong with her beliefs. It's Mine. You can present her with the truth from My Word and then pray I will teach her and convict her. Just present the Truth in response to her ideas that bother you.

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43. When I was wondering about waiting to do ministry, the Holy Spirit reminded me that Jesus waited until it was God's perfect time. I am to wait until it is His perfect time - for me and for them.

You are to go over there and love them. You might have to suffer for it, but you are to love them anyway. That's My Kingdom work…follow Me.

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44. …God our Savior, who wants everyone to be saved and to understand the truth. For there is only one God and one Mediator who can reconcile God and humanity - the man Christ Jesus. He gave his life to purchase freedom for everyone. (1 Tim. 2:3b-5 NLT)

(Isaiah 8:11-13 NLT) The Lord has given me a strong warning not to think like everyone else does. He said, "Don't call everything a conspiracy, like they do, and don't live in dread of what frightens them. Make the Lord of Heaven's Armies holy in your life. He is the one you should fear. He is the one who should make you tremble. He will keep you safe.

This is My promise to you, My child. I will keep you safe. I will also keep your family/children safe. That is My promise Word (Rhema) to you today.

(Isa. 8:20) Look to God's instructions and teachings! People who contradict his word are completely in the dark.

(Isa. 5:20-21) What sorrow for those who say that evil is good and good is evil, that dark is light and light is dark, that bitter is sweet and sweet is bitter. What sorrow for those who are wise in their own eyes and think themselves so clever.

That fits all who follow New Age ideas. They think it is clever, enlightened, ahead of the "old ways" of thinking of the church. They think someday you may see how enlightened they are and they will be vindicated.

And never the twain shall meet.

You must allow them to choose their own beliefs, My child, but you can keep sharing, and praying, and trying. But if they choose the wrong way, not My way, that's their privilege. They get to choose and you get to choose. Choose Me!

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45. Today in my Quiet Time I felt led to read Matthew 5,6, and 7: The Sermon on the Mount. I especially was drawn to Matthew 7:12-27 to share with a loved one in regard to what is the Truth. So I will put that Scripture here and then send it in an email to her. The Spirit is teaching me that my relationship to her is to love her and to share the truth with her. Perhaps she will receive it from me because she might listen to me more than to someone else…like I listened to a loved one years ago regarding her testimony - which I felt I couldn't discount because I trusted her.

	Do to others whatever you would like them to do to you. This is the essence of all that is taught in the law and the prophets. 
	You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.
	Beware of false prophets who come disguised as harmless sheep but are really vicious wolves. You can identify them by their fruit, that is, by the way they act. Can you pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. A good tree can't produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can't produce good fruit. So every tree that does not produce good fruit is chopped down and thrown into the fire. Yes, just as you can identify a tree by its fruit, so you can identify people by their actions.
	Not everyone who calls out to me, 'Lord! Lord!' will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Only those who actually do the will of my Father in heaven will enter. On judgment day many will say to me, 'Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in your name and performed many miracles in your name.' But I will reply, 'I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God's laws.'
	Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won't collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and ignores it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash. (Matthew 7:12-27 NLT)

The Holy Spirit said it was not my job to judge her. It's my job to love her and share the truth with her.

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46. Today I am again considering the senior facilities that I looked at previously…trying to find out where and when I should move. I have been waiting for a year or so for the place I prefer to be provided for me, but haven't seen the provision yet. I believe that is the place the Lord is saying I am to move to, but I don't know how long I should wait to do that. This Scripture comes to my mind:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known unto God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will keep your heart and mind in Christ Jesus. (Phil. 4:6)

1.	Don't worry about this
2.	Pray about it
3.	Tell God what I need
4.	Thank him for all he has done
5.	Experience God's peace

We need to make this decision together, you know. I needed to get you out of Columbia and out of that job and out of your church. You have cut all those ties now. Right now, just commit to waiting 2 more months, and then see what your situation is like. We'll talk more about this then if you don't already know what to do. Be open to ideas I bring you between now and then. Will you wait 2 more months? I think things will be much clearer by then.

They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall rise up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. (Isa 40:31)

It'll become clear to you and you will know (when and where to move). Don't apologize for having little strength. You have all the strength I've given you. Just follow Me and I'll give you what you need. I'm displaying Myself in you. You will accomplish your purpose here on earth because I will see to it. Do not fear. Have faith.

I have placed you here and this is the home I've provided for you for right now. So this is your home on earth now. Eventually I'll move you to a new home I've already chosen. Until then this is your home, and I've provided it. So accept that as from Me, and live in peace. I made you a bright flower in My Universe, to be you. I love you as you are and as you're becoming.

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47. Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him and he will help you… Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. (Psalm 37:3-5, 7)

That's what He wants me to do: be still in His Presence and wait patiently for Him to act.

This is your home right now, My child. It's what I've provided for you right now. It's where I've placed you, and kept you, and I want you to enjoy it and appreciate it. I have kept you here for a reason. I DO have a place, a home, for you here on this earth - a place to live out your remaining days. I will take you to it soon, but you must be willing to wait for Me to work out all the details. Just rest in Me.

Oh, rest in the Lord. Wait patiently for Him.

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48. Today in Quiet Time these ideas came regarding three things to be life projects after being born again:

1.	Maturing: becoming more Christ-like - doing what Jesus did.
2.	Overcoming: things in life on earth.
3.	Drawing near: developing a close, intimate relationship with Jesus, and with God.

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49. A dream: I found the stairway that led between two parts of the college campus. I walked up the stairway and saw the various campus buildings and knew I had been there before but hadn't known how to get around on that level of the campus and didn't know how to get back to the lower familiar part of it. In this dream I actually took the stairway up, saw the buildings and landscape of the upper campus, then turned around and went back down the same stairs, knowing they led me to the lower, more familiar part of campus. I was excited and leaping down the stairs, but not tripping or falling, sure of my feet and not fearing tripping. The two parts of the campus were from many previous dreams when I was on the upper part of the campus (the unfamiliar part) but didn't know and couldn't find how to get back to the familiar part, the lower campus. I don't remember these parts of the campus being designated by me as lower and upper in previous dreams, but at least familiar and unfamiliar, known and unknown. I noted the look and shape of the building where the stairs existed to go from one part to the other part. I saw that the stairs was built on the exterior of the building, but was covered. I was thinking about calling my Mom and telling her where and when to come and pick me up.

Interpretation: Stairway can refer to steps as in a process-sometimes including the concept of time, a promotion, a transition, higher levels/lower levels, ability to move to different spiritual levels, or possibly a portal. A college campus refers to a place of learning and testing and advancing in knowledge. The lower level can possibly refer to learning here on earth. The upper level can  possibly refer to learning in the spiritual/heavenly realm. Mom refers to a source, the church, or a spiritual or natural mother.

Interpretation: This dream was so exciting to review because it showed I had finally found the way to transition from one level (the earthly, familiar, lower level) to the other level (higher, spiritual, heavenly, not very familiar). I had been learning in previous dreams in the upper level of campus, but then couldn't find the way back to the lower, more familiar level of campus. This dream can refer to a portal for transition back and forth. The part about calling Mom and having her come and pick me up may refer to having my Source, God, come and get me to bring me to heaven at some point in time and place. 

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50. As I read Revelation 2:2-4, 9 the Holy Spirit guided me to write a message to myself from these Scriptures:

2:2 I know all the things you do. I have seen your hard work and your patient endurance. I know you don't tolerate evil people.

2:3 You have patiently suffered for me without quitting.

2:4 But I have this complaint against you: 

You don't believe Me when I tell you to "fear not." You have (allow) unbelief when I tell you "I will take care of you." You doubt when I say "believe." Confess these as sins to Me and repent - turn and do the opposite - faith instead of fear, belief instead of unbelief, confidence instead of doubt. In quietness and confidence is your strength: faith, belief, confidence.

I'm filling you with it right now. That is My lesson/class of learning for today.

2:9 I know about your suffering and your poverty - but you are rich!

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51. A dream: I was riding a bicycle in a city area like maybe a campus. I knew I had a library book that I needed to return to the library before I left town to return home that day. So I was trying to find my way to the library to see where to return the book. It seemed like I started out in a car, but later it seemed to be a bicycle I was on. I came to a 5-way intersection and took the street that I thought was the right one to the library. After a bit I saw the building that I thought I was correct, and I stopped along the street near it. I asked someone and was told that I could try that building and someone inside might be able to direct me to the right place.

So I turned around and started back home and needed to again drive through the 5-way intersection. I took the road that I thought was the correct way back to the campus where I had been staying awhile. Shortly though the road turned to a field of stubble, like a wheat field after the wheat was cut down. The road disappeared and there was just stubble. I slowed down and turned around to go back to the city to try to find the correct way back home. There were two people behind me in their vehicle…I don't know whether it was a bicycle also or a car. As I turned, my pedals came loose and fell off, only the pedals seemed to be one large pedal about 18" long. I could see the parts and picked them up. I called out to the two people behind me to stop and help me. I thought I needed a screwdriver to replace screws that had come out, but they said they didn't have any screwdriver. I didn't either. I was standing there with the pieces of this large pedal in my hands when the dream ended (the pedal was the size and shape of a computer keyboard).

Interpretation:
The bicycle represents personal ministry that goes along slowly and is using knowledge. Now there is a change coming, a different road to travel, which goes into the wheat harvest. You are standing in that field with a computer keyboard in your hands which needs to be put back together again. To get to that new road/pathway you must go through a change of direction through a grace and service intersection. It's not a dead-end road but a new and unknown way to go and you need help to travel there. I am your Help. I know the way to go and you don't. It is at the end of your "camp" or retreat time at the house where you read lots of library books. That time is changing, although it will be a slow change and take some effort of your part. It is continuing in your personal ministry, but going an unknown, different way than before.

I'm not saying you're doing something wrong or going the wrong way. I'm saying, in this dream, that a change in direction is coming, It's by My grace, and it involves your personal service and ministry. It will be "into" the harvested field. It will involve a changing of your computer usage - to work in the future happenings instead of the past events of your life.

No, you can't make your vehicle move in this next event in the harvest. You are entirely dependent on Me to move you in this harvest field. You will keep working in it until the harvest is done (as in your dream picture of stubble). Only stubble will be left after the harvest and it will be burned up with the fire of My wrath. I'm not saying you personally will be present on earth during the whole harvest, but your influence will be (through your writings).

Today is the day of change, the day to start down the new and unknown road into the harvest of the wheat. I will fix the computer keyboard (pedal) so you can maneuver where I want you to go and the writing I want you to do during this new road trip. It is a good one. Do not fear it. I will always be present with you on this trip even though you don't know the way right now. Just follow Me. I am your guide and I am your pathway, your road. Follow Me and I will get you "there." 

The five refers to grace and redemption for many in this next ministry of yours. When this next road is done, then you will come back "home" to Me.

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52. I began my Quiet Time reading in 1 Corinthians 3. I was especially drawn to 3:10-15

Because of God's grace to me, I have laid the foundation like an expert builder. Now others are building on it. But whoever is building on this foundation must be very careful. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one we already have--Jesus Christ.

Anyone who builds on that foundation may use a variety of materials--gold, silver, jewels, wood, hay, or straw. But on the judgment day, fire will reveal what kind of work each builder has done. The fire will show if a person's work has any value. If the work survives that builder will receive a reward. But if the work is burned up, the builder will suffer great loss. The builder will be saved, but like someone barely escaping through a wall of flames.

The ideas that came as I meditated on these verses were:
1.	When we make a profession of faith in Jesus Christ, the foundation is laid; we are born again.
2.	We get to choose how we build on that foundation.
3.	Building with gold, silver, and jewels, (those things that endure), is building on Jesus, the Bible, and the Holy Spirit guidance.
4.	Building on wood, hay, or straw, (those things which will be burned up on the judgment day), are any building materials not based on Jesus, the Bible, and Holy Spirit guidance.

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53. Today I feel the Holy Spirit is leading me to read through the red letter parts of the book of John and write out every place where Jesus tells about death (hell) and life (heaven). I want to be equipped to share how and where He teaches about hell as well as heaven. I will underline the words used to indicate death, destruction, hell, and the words to indicate life, eternal life, heaven.

John 3:16 Everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

John 4:14 But those who drink the water I give will never be thirsty again. It becomes a fresh, bubbling spring within them, giving them eternal life.

John 4:36 The fruit they harvest is people brought to eternal life.

John 5:22 The Father gives life to those he raises from the dead.

John 5:24 Those who listen to my message and believe in God who sent me have eternal life. They will never be condemned for their sins, but they have already passed from death into life.

John 5:28 The time is coming when all the dead in their graves will hear the voice of God's Son and they will rise again. Those who have done good will rise to experience eternal life, and those who have continued in evil will rise to experience judgment. 

John 6:27 But don't be so concerned about perishable things like food. Spend your energy seeking the eternal life that the Son of Man can give you.

John 6:29 This is the only work God wants from you: Believe in the one he has sent.

John 6:33 The true bread of God is the one who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.

John 6:39 And this is the will of God, that I should not lose even one of all those he has given me, but that I should raise them up at the last day.

John 6:43 For no one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them to me, and at the last day I will raise them up.

John 6:47 I tell you the truth, anyone who believes has eternal life.

John 6:50 Anyone who eats the bread from heaven, however, will never die.

John 6:51 I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live forever; and this bread, which I will offer so the world may live, is my flesh.

John 6:53-54 I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you cannot have eternal life within you. But anyone who eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise that person at the last day.

John 6:57-58 Anyone who feeds on me will live because of me. I am the true bread that came down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will not die as your ancestors did…but will live forever.

John 6:63 The Spirit alone gives eternal life.

John 8:12 I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won't have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.

John 8:21 I am going away. You will search for me but will die in your sin. You cannot come where I am going.

John 8:23 You are from below; I am from above. You belong to this world; I do not. That is why I said that you will die in your sins, for unless you believe that I AM who I claim to be, you will die in your sins.

John 8:51 I tell you the truth, anyone who obeys my teaching will never die.

John 10:9 I am the gate. Those who come in through me will be saved.

John 10:27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish.

I only got through 10 chapters of the book of John, yet I still found that many of the things Jesus said pertained to life and death.

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54. I learn so many things from other writers. Here are wonderful quotes from Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper: 

(47)	But whatever you do, find the God-centered, Christ-exalting, Bible-saturated passion of your life, and find your way to say it and live for it and die for it. And you will make a difference that lasts. You will not waste your life.

(51)	Christ bought every good thing and every bad thing that turned for good. Why is this the case? Because for redeemed sinners, every good thing - indeed every bad thing that God turns for good - was obtained for us by the cross of Christ. Apart from the death of Christ, sinners get nothing but judgment. Apart from the cross of Christ, there is only condemnation. Therefore everything that you enjoy in Christ - as a Christian, as a person who trusts Christ - is owing to the death of Christ. And all your rejoicing in all things should therefore be a rejoicing in the cross where all your blessings were purchased for you at the cost of the death of the Son of God, Jesus Christ.

(52)	We are sinners and by nature children of wrath, apart from Christ. So how did we come to have such a gift for our good? Answer: Christ died for our sins on the cross and took away the wrath of God from us and secured for us, even though we don't deserve it, God's omnipotent grace that works everything together for our good. 

(59)	By it [the cross] he [Christ] bought for us every blessing - temporal and eternal. And we don't deserve any. He bought them all. Because of Christ's cross, God's elect are destined to be sons of God. Because of his cross, the wrath of God is taken away. Because of his cross all guilt is removed, and sins are forgiven, and perfect righteousness is imputed to us, and the love of God is poured out in our hearts by the Spirit, and we are being conformed to the image of Christ.

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55. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23:1-6)

The Lord says to me that I have a "quiet and peaceful" ministry - and some people need that kind of ministry. I am to share that with others as He leads me. I am to put the "The Lord is my Shepherd" latch hook (that my Mother made for me many years ago) on the outside of the door to my apartment at the retirement home to declare that to others. 

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56. Here are some wonderful quotes from John Bevere's book: The Devil's Door 

(p. 9)  	There is a door to our souls, a passage where our enemy can gain access. The presence of this portal goes undetected by many, but it is known widely in the realm of the spirit. This door stands ajar between light and darkness, with a history as ancient as the sons of Adam.
	Under the divine law of God, our enemy is restricted to the realm of darkness. As believers, we are delivered from these powers of darkness. But if this door is opened, Satan and his cohorts are granted legal entrance. Their objective: to control areas of our lives.
	Jesus called these doors "gates." His exact words were "the gates of hell" (Matt. 16:18). He also said He had won the keys which locked them tight (Rev. 1:18)

(p. 19) 	It must be settled in your heart that there is nothing good outside the realm of God's will. James shows that (James 1:16-17) you can be deceived if you believe there is good outside of God's provision. No matter how good it looks, tastes or feels, no matter how rich, abundant, wise or successful it will make you, if it is not from God, it will eventually lead to intense sorrow and end in death. Each and every perfect and good gift is from God. There is no other source. Embrace this truth and settle it in your heart. Don't let looks deceive you! If Eve had followed this admonition she never would have been swayed. But instead, she looked beyond the realm of God's provision to fulfill her desires.

(p. 31) 	Do you think you know more than God? Of course not! But when we are disobedient, that is exactly the message we communicate to God and those around us….Yet we exalt our wisdom above His when we ignore His counsel!

(p. 44) 	To view God as subject to our will is backward thinking. We do not lead while God follows. No, God leads, and we follow - if we are wise (John 12:26). As we follow, He instructs us.
	We have mistakenly thought that if we laid hands on the sick, independent of the Spirit's leading, God was obligated to heal and confirm our lead by following with His signs. If this were true, we should go empty the hospitals. We get discouraged when God does not follow our lead with His healing and miracles. God will heal and perform miracles, but it is as He leads and we follow.

(p. 65) 	When a person walks in obedience to God, witchcraft has no power over him. Satan is confined to darkness (Jude 6), so he has no access to us when we are joined with God, in whom is no darkness at all (1 John 1:5).

(p. 70) 	Now let me make this point clear: we come under bewitchment when we disobey what God has made clear to us - not when we disobey what has not been revealed to us.

(p. 80) 	The rebellious see God's Word as a restraining law rather than as protection and life.

(p. 85) 	This is a principle that every believer should grasp and understand. When we pester the Lord after He has already clearly shown His will, He may step back and allow us to have our way even though it does not correspond with His original plan. When our hearts are set on a course of action, God will grant us permission, though He knows we will later answer for the course we choose.

(p. 111) In the Scriptures we find believe means not only to acknowledge the existence of Jesus but also to obey His will and His Word. Hebrews 5:9 says Jesus became "the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him." To believe is to obey.

(p. 196-200) 	The final thought I'd like to leave with you is in regard to this door. We can choose one of four responses when sin comes knocking.

1.	Blatant disobedience
2.	Reasoning yourself into disobedience
3.	Obedience with a bad attitude
4.	Obedience with a willing heart

If they obey and serve Him [God], they shall spend their days in prosperity, and their years in pleasures (Job 36:11).

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57. It’s time now for a great spiritual break through.

Now? In my life?

Yes

(3:45 a.m.) The Lord began speaking to me when I awoke during the night, so I began writing:

You look at your purpose, your goal,
And how to get there –
And you call forth those goals from Me.
You send out My spiritual forces to carry out those goals.

It’s a shift,
It’s a shift,
It’s a shift,
From demonic forces being in charge,
To My forces being in charge.
That’s the shift that’s taken place.
Now My forces are ready to be commanded
And I am their Commander, the Commander of the Lord’s Armies.
I command them, but you and I co-labor together to send them out.

From now on let’s do this together.
First you find out My heart/purpose.
Then you speak forth verbally the words of command I give you – the words of command we decide together.
My generals do this who are under My command.

Song that came to my mind: “Up, up and away in my beautiful balloon.”

My time is Your time, Lord.

If I say I want to do something, some project, then we (you and I) will set out to do that together.

It’s like I sense a small circular bundle or project for us to accomplish – to practice how to do this together and then watch it happen.

My peace is with you. When My peace is with you, then you/we can advance with the project – together. “Let peace be your governor/ruler.” Don’t set out or advance without My peace. It gives you My perfect timing. You’ve been practicing waiting for My peace regarding where you live for over a year now. This was to teach/train you how to wait for/follow My peace.
Now we are ready to use that training for more than your place of residence. That was just to practice on – like a drill to teach you to do something.

Song that came to my mind: “Up, up and away in My beautiful balloon.”

From that perspective (up there) we can look down and see what’s happening – then decide/set our plans on what to do about it. Then you will speak the words we choose and decide on to carry out our goal(s).

We will consult and write – often during the night. This is just for you and Me. Don’t worry about Satan/the enemy seeing the words you write. I can keep them hidden.

Ok, I’ll trust You to keep them hidden, Lord.

Don’t worry about your health. I’m in charge of your health.

Song that came to my mind: “Up, up and away in my beautiful balloon.”

This will be (this time and episode) like our balloon ride – whenever we do this. I’ll talk more about this at other times, but the mid-night time is so good for your undivided attention! So we will often use it.

Mid-night – “midnight” in the parable of the 10 virgins, is the time I come for the 5 virgins with oil. So one-half My virgins have oil and one-half don’t have “enough.” You are one of the one-half who has enough oil to hear Me and see Me come at “mid-night.”

Song that came to my mind: “Up, up and away in My beautiful balloon.”

That song appearing in your mind will be My signal, like a bell ringing, to alert you to come apart with Me for instructions. Like the book title “Come Away, My Beloved” from Song of Solomon. Look that up and write the Scripture reference here: Song of Songs 8:14.

You may go back to sleep now. It’s been a good time together.

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58. I will lead you. I will talk to you more about it (the move)…when you have time. I want you on the computer when I do so you can write quickly.

We have depended on God’s grace, not on our own human wisdom. (2 Cor. 1:12)

As I read this Scripture during my Quiet Time, the Spirit said:

That’s what I want you to do, My child. Don’t use your human wisdom regarding moving. Your human wisdom would say move to the place you can afford on your own. I say – wait on Me and I will make the way clear.

Things have changed since we last talked about your move. Someone isn’t listening to Me and doing what I am instructing them to do. So there is another postponement of your move. Be patient. It will come, still, and will be at the right time for everyone involved. 

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59. A dream: I was driving a car that was small and slow in speed. When driving up a hill I crossed over into the opposite lane so others (faster) could pass me. Then I tried to back my car up and bumped into a parked car – and then woke up. I reminded myself this was only a dream, so I didn’t need to worry about hitting that parked car.

Later in a dream: I was trying to drive the same car. It was snowy. When going uphill I was pushing the car and holding onto the back steadying myself. Then I got onto solid ice and was trying to push the car and slide along on my feet behind it.

Interpretation: Maybe I am pushing for something (ministry) which won’t go yet on its own. It seems slow to me. Others are going faster with their ministries and they pass me up. Mine is hard like it takes extra effort to go uphill.

After re-reading the above writing (written during the night), the Spirit said that my humanly perceived ministry (soul perception) seemed to be like the car in my dream – going uphill, slow, being pushed in snow and on ice. But the Spiritual reality is that I’m up in the air like in a balloon, moved by the Spirit wherever He takes me, seeing from His perspective up above, and praying/decreeing what He and I decide together as we co-labor.

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60. From Dream Language (by James and Michal Ann Goll, pg. 75), quote from Mark Rutland:

“To receive a dream is the human obligation that begins to move the divine purpose from the mind of God to become reality in human history. God originates the greatest dreams of mankind and grants them as a special grace to the fearless and the faithful. To be open to dreaming His dreams is to be open to the very mind of God.

“God is a dreamer who envisioned every microscopic detail of the universe before He spoke the first word of Creation. Now He summons us into that creative work, to dream and speak and bring forth that which we dream.”

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61. This is the way I want you to have your Quiet Times after you move to the retirement home - with your computer Journal open and ready to write whatever I tell you, even as I speak it into your heart. You may do this from now on here in this house also whenever it works out ok.

I like the way you spent time with Me this morning and talked to Me even before you got up from your bed. I like to have us (you and Me) connected up just as soon as you awaken. Now read My Word…

(1 Kings 3:1) Solomon made an alliance with Pharaoh, the king of Egypt, and married one of his daughters. He brought her to live in the City of David until he could finish building his palace and the Temple of the Lord and the wall around the city.

You see the three things he did? 
1.	He was building his palace (a place for him to live)
2.	And the Temple of the Lord (a place to worship Me) 
3.	And the wall around the city (protection around it all). 

This is what I have been building in your life - a place for you to live daily with Me, a place within you to worship Me continuously, and protection around these places - My blood.

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62. (1 Kings 3:5, 7) That night the Lord appeared to Solomon in a dream and God said, "What do you want? Ask, and I will give it to you." 

"Now, O Lord my God, you have made me king instead of my father, David, but I am like a little child who doesn't know his way around…Give me an understanding heart so that I can govern your people well and know the difference between right and wrong. For who by himself is able to govern this great people of yours?"

Lord, I also am like a little child who doesn't know her way around. I don't have full understanding of what You are doing on earth, and what my part is in that, and how to relate to You and others in the way You desire me to. Please give me wisdom and an understanding heart so I may know this and please You. As Moses said to you: "Teach me Your way so that I may know You and continue to find favor with you." Is it ok for me to ask You for this?

Yes, My child, for that is what I have put in your heart to ask Me. Therefore it is what I want you to know - about Me, about the world, about My purpose and plan, and about how you fit into that. It is a good question and request. I want to give that answer to you. And I will. Seek Me and you will find Me. 

And I will give you extra wisdom in your old age. And people will come to you for advice. And you will give Me the credit and glory for the wisdom that I speak through you. You will honor Me all the days of your life in this way…Because you have humbled yourself before Me and others and asked for My wisdom, not your own. And I will be pleased to honor you in this way.

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63. Say to those with fearful hearts, "Be strong, and do not fear, for your God is coming to destroy your enemies. He is coming to save you."

And when he comes he will open the eyes of the blind and unplug the ears of the deaf. The lame will leap like a deer, and those who cannot speak will sing for joy! Springs will gush forth in the wilderness, and streams will water the wasteland.

The parched ground will become a pool, and springs of water will satisfy the thirsty land. Marsh grass and reeds and rushes will flourish where desert jackals once lived.

And a great road will go through that once deserted land. It will be named the Highway of Holiness. Evil-minded people will never travel on it. It will be only for those who walk in God's ways; fools will never walk there. Lions will not lurk along its course, nor any other ferocious beasts. There will be no other dangers. Only the redeemed will walk on it. (Isaiah 35:4-9)

That's My purpose, to separate out My redeemed - and bring them into the place I have reserved for them. Then we can all fellowship together and love each other.

He has enabled us to be ministers of his new covenant. This is a covenant not of written laws, but of the Spirit. The old written covenant ends in death; but under the new covenant, the Spirit gives life. (2 Cor. 3:6)

That's what I'm doing, My child, bringing My new covenant into the world to give life to all who will receive it, through My Spirit. You are part of that new covenant, and so are many others. I am gathering all of you together now - even while those who don't belong to Me are separating themselves farther and farther from Me. It is becoming more and more clear who belong to Me and who don't. The justice of My decisions will be clear and able to be seen by all.

And this is also what I am doing:

But the people's minds were hardened, and to this day whenever the old covenant is being read, the same veil covers their minds so they cannot understand the truth. And this veil can be removed only by believing in Christ. (italics mine)

But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord--who is the Spirit--makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image. (italics mine) (2 Cor. 3:14, 16-18)

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64. This is how Jesus the Messiah was born. His mother, Mary, was engaged to be married to Joseph. But before the marriage took place, while she was still a virgin, she became pregnant through the power of the Holy Spirit. (Matt. 1:18 NLT)

You are like Mary, a virgin clean and pure before Me. I have caused you, by My Spirit, to become spiritually pregnant with a vision of ministry at the retirement home. At the right time, in the fullness of time, this ministry vision will be birthed there through you. Wait patiently for that fullness of time. It will come.

Therefore, since God in his mercy has given us this new way (or ministry) we never give up. (2 Cor. 4:1 NLT)

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65. A dream: I was getting ready to teach a small child how to eat with a baby spoon. I could see the spoon and the substance I would feed her. It looked like yogurt and seemed very tasty and good to eat. She had not yet learned to eat that way, so I was planning to first feed her with the spoon, and then let her try to use the spoon herself.

Interpretation: I was making plans to do this, so it's about my doing this in the future. I think this is a dream to encourage me about what is soon to come - feeding baby Christians their first food with a spoon and helping them learn how to feed themselves - soft tasty food like made from milk.

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66. Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

After I read this, He brought to my memory the dream in 2004 regarding seeing a right hand and arm coming out toward me. I said: "So You showed me Your victorious right hand, Lord, in my dream?"

Yes, it was a prophetic dream to encourage you that your whole life would be victorious, that you would truly be an "overcomer" (Revelation 1-3) as you desired(d) to be. Count on it!

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67. A dream: I met with Mrs. Masterson whose husband had died and she was looking for help taking care of herself without him. It seemed she and he were from my high school class so I used to know them. I also saw a group of women who were from my high school class. I came near them and started getting reacquainted. I was trying to keep a clean and clear covering above myself and telling others to do this also. I could see this covering above myself in the dream and often reached up and touched it as I referred to it. It seemed to be blue - shades of blues.

High school: H. S. (Holy Spirit)
Masterson: Master-son = Jesus who died for His Bride
Covering: mantle of God, purity, visibly spiritual, clean
Coming to the women: coming to a place where they were
Know from high school: know them from the Holy Spirit

I was the principal person in the dream and I was reaching out and relating to others - all women - and they seemed to all be women I knew from high school. I seemed to have known them before.

This dream represents 2 things I will be doing:
1.	Keeping my own covering pure and clean
2.	Sharing with others whom I know through the Holy Spirit about doing that also

The covering represents my relationship with the Trinity: Jesus, Father, Holy Spirit

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68. I attended a conference with Kevin leading it. Later in the day I went for prophetic ministry to a team with Pat, Joyce, and Ashley. They were of great encouragement to me as they said I was (1) a teacher and mentor, (2) used prophetically in "prophetic conversations" which gave out wisdom to others in an unassuming and almost hidden way, but was very powerful, (3) an encourager and intercessor, and (4) gifted for decorating houses/rooms. I will transcribe from the tape and put that in this journal soon. The Spirit said to me:

I want you to listen to the prophetic messages and know that every word there is true. Transcribe and read it often as a true word from Me.

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69. To do what I want you to do, My child, just be the person you already are - what I've created you to be all the years of your life. You already thoroughly know what I did - the message of the Gospel - and what I did on the cross. And you already know how to tell that story, My story, in your own words. You already function in "prophetic conversation" and "wisdom" and function in how to be an encourager. So, when you go to the retirement home, or any other place, just be you. That's why I want to send you there, because you are the right person for there. Trust Me. You don't have to change yourself into something different - a miracle worker - to do ministry for Me. I love you as you are and I anoint you as you are!

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70. As I saw the picture of the beautiful red cardinal on my computer screen wallpaper this morning I thanked the Lord for the beautiful flowers surrounding it, and for the bird. The thought that came was that there were some birds that were bright-colored, and many that are small and fairly plain-colored. I identify myself as being like the plain little finches and chickadees that most often come and eat from our bird feeder on the deck. And that is ok. God created them, too, for His purpose. He cares about them too. 

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71. (7:36 is the time on the clock) The "36" I have been seeing often lately. It seems as if the Lord is using it to remind me of the year I was born (1936) and remind me it was an important date to Him too. Seeing 36 reminds me of the Lord and draws my attention to Him. He says it was a very important date for Him, too, because He loves me and I belong to Him. He likes to remind me of that. Thank You, Lord!
	In the Old Testament God used festivals, new moons, the Sabbath day, the ram's horn blowing, etc. to remind people of Him and draw their attention to Him. In my life He uses numbers that are significant, and doves appearing, to draw my attention to Him as well…on a daily basis.

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72. As I was breaking eggs into a bowl to scramble them for breakfast, the picture came into my memory (from a previous dream) of seeing several egg yokes which were from a bird and seemed to be broken open. In the dream I saw several eggs lying there broken open like they slid off from where the bird intended them to be on an upper level, slid down a wall, and onto a lower level...almost like the bird released the eggs too soon. I could see them as yellow and elongated. One was especially long like twice the normal size.

Interpretation: The idea (which came to me as this picture returned to my mind) was that God deposits things in us when we dream, and those things are still in our memory bank. He can pull them out for our use whenever He wants to do that. Eggs may represent a promise, a promising new thought, or potential. The bird could represent a leader, a messenger, or the Holy Spirit. Perhaps the message in the dream is that it is not quite time for the promise to come, and He doesn't want to deliver it too soon and have it slip away.

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73. A dream: I was selecting food at a food store for my family. I got $20 from my dad's purse and $20 from my mom's purse to buy it. I bought 2 pieces of bread to try it out to see if we liked it. We seemed to be staying at a place with lots of people there. I said I couldn't buy enough food for all the people, so I'd need to buy for my family only. After waking up I drifted back to sleep again and the words came that the bread was called "Son of solution" bread dough.

Interpretation: Father symbolizes God/Lord. Mother symbolizes source, church, spiritual or natural mother. Money symbolizes provision, wealth, spiritual riches, power, authority, and favor. $20 can refer to holy, tried and approved. Bread refers to life or Word of God. Two pieces of bread can refer to multiplication, division, judge, separate, or discern. 	Staying at a place with lots of people could refer to the retirement home. I would only buy food for my family - those who belonged to the Lord or were selected by Him to hear the Word. 	Son of solution seems like it refers to Jesus being the person who has the solution and he is the Bread of Life, so it will come about through Him.

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74. You are beginning to understand how to call in the prophetic vision I have given you. This is good. Keep seeking Me about how to do that and what to call in. Sometimes I do that and sometimes I have you do that. I want you to learn about this.

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75. Today the Lord led me to read back over the prophetic words given to me. I read what Jim said: "So what happened was when the Word started coming out, and you started speaking the Word into situations and problems and things like that, and especially to the enemy, that it [the attacks of the enemy] stopped"

As I read that I realized I needed to speak the Word into my daughter's and my finances, since we have been short this month, because we spent so much on events and Christian resources. So I got out my Scripture notebook and started decreeing and speaking the words of prosperity and blessing over us - speaking them out loud to the Lord. Then He began to speak to me:

And I will pour out blessings into your barns, your treasure houses, treasures of blessings, of favor, of financial provision, or love and caring from others, of satisfaction with the work you do, and of a close and meaningful relationship with Me - every day of your lives. I do this because you honor Me and make Me first in your life, and because you display My beauty to others every day. I love you both, therefore I will protect you from the evil one and from his minions, his wiles, and his destruction. I will make you a storehouse out of which I can share treasures with others whom I want to get them to. You are both My ambassadors to represent Me on this earth, all during your earthly time period. I know you both used up your earthly resources this month to live for Me. Therefore now I will replenish and restore all that treasure, and add more to it. Never again will you be without "enough." Never again will you be without plenty to use and plenty to share with others. You have My heart, and I will keep sharing My heart with you both.

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76. I want you to keep your computer on all day after you move to the retirement home. Turn it on in the morning and leave it on all day. Each time I bring something into your mind, then go over to your computer and write it down. Have your computer open to your journal during this time. When you talk to someone, write down what they said, and what I said back to them through you. Then you will come to see and know/understand more how I am working through you. Right now you don't see that much - but I am. When I give you a thought, record it. Don't let it slip away. Then I will show you how to put all these thoughts together in a form that you can share with others. And I will prepare you for, and show you, what form that is to take. I want to help and teach others through you.

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77. A dream: I dreamed I was visiting and looking around at my old elementary school. I saw a room (where they used to prepare lunches) which had been changed so it now had office type desks along the back (windowed) wall. Some people were sitting at some of the desks. They seemed to be practicing or reciting very slowly the words to a play/drama. I did not say anything to anyone, nor did anyone speak to me. I just seemed to be viewing this. It was like I was the only person really involved in the dream, and I was really an observer. I didn't see windows, but the desks were along the outside wall, so that's why I mentioned windows.

Then in my semi-awake morning time while waking up, I had a dream or vision. The idea came that I would be shown the leaves/branches of a tree. They would have words on them for me to pray onto a friend. I didn't actually see any words this time, just tree branches/leaves like on my artificial bamboo tree. What I did see was dust on the leaves. It was revealed to me that I was to clean the dust off the leaves first, and then see what words appeared on the leaves. Then I was to pray them onto her, like I was putting them on her. It was like I was being taught by revelation, because I saw no person - only the leaves/branches.

Interpretation: The school symbolizes a place of education, teaching or learning, teaching ministry, or training. Since it was my elementary school, it symbolizes elementary learning. However since the room was located past the 7-8 grade room, it might mean this training is at the last part of, or past the end of, elementary education. The scene was in the former food preparation and serving room, so it could symbolize food coming from that room. A desk is a place to work, so the desks could symbolize writing or other work being done there. People practicing and reciting the words of a play could symbolize talking about people's stories. The very slow reciting may symbolize that this writing/talking was slowly coming out or slowly being heard by others. Since the windowed wall was supposedly behind these people, perhaps that refers to revelation which was unseen by them.

I don't know if there is any connection between these two "dreams" but they may well be connected. In this second dream/vision the leaves on the tree may symbolize words or life. Since the leaves had dust on them, that may symbolize something that's been there a long time and hasn't been kept clean. It can symbolize inactivity or neglect. I was being "taught" somehow that I was to clean off the leaves and see what words were revealed after that. Then I was to pray those words/leaves onto my friend. She may represent a person who needs prayers right now since she is in Africa seeing about some ministry she is involved in there regarding orphanages. She is also mentoring another person there, so perhaps the words that need to be prayed are for that person also. Or maybe my friend just symbolizes the type of people out there doing ministry who need prayers placed on their lives. This would come by revelation as I dusted off the leaves/words/life and looked at them. This seems to be a call to pray for people as they are revealed to me and as the words are revealed to me…and that I have had inactivity/neglect in that area compared to what is desired from me.

As you go through the book you just started reading (No Easy Road by Dick Eastman) I will teach you how to "dust off the leaves" so you can see the words I want you to pray over various ministry people…the ministry people you have listed in your "prayer bundle" that you pray for daily. These words of life will be absolutely and completely effective to work My will in those lives. These words of life will be from My Word, the Bible, and I will show you which words to pray over which people.

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78. Look up the Scripture regarding the rain and snow coming down from heaven and watering the earth to grow things. i.e. As the rain and snow come down to the earth and water it so that grain grows, so is My Word that goes forth from My mouth. It will accomplish that for which I sent it.

The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth. They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry. It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it. (Isaiah 55:10-11 NLT)

Now I want you to listen and write what I tell you. I will now increase My Spirit upon your daughter and you. You have both been faithful in a little, so I am giving you more. This is a gift from Me and not from you. Your words will have greater effectiveness from now on, so be careful what you say. Do not speak careless words, for you are now more accountable for them than before. You will see your words affecting people more from now on. 

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79. I am gathering/ordering more books of knowledge and wisdom for you to digest and use in the small ministry I have for you. I am also alerting you to more books to come for you to write with Me. My "treasurer" will help you with this - will provide what is necessary (favor/provision) to pay for this.

I am the treasurer and the parent who orders certain special books to be brought to that small library of wisdom and knowledge inside of you. More are on order. I will draw them to your attention and I want you to purchase them: Rick Joyner, Paul Keith Davis, Bill Johnson, John Bevere and others as I lead you. Listen to Me on what to buy. I have an order (a plan) for this.

Timidity is the life issue I'm working on to extract from you. It is a process that is now taking place - and I'm doing it, not you. You can't. I am taking away your timidity little by little, piece by piece and hunk by hunk. This doesn't mean you won't be humble, but that you won't fear man more than Me. I'm taking away your fear of man! It was taught to you as a child and has remained until now, but now I am taking it away. I will do it partly by increasing your power and love and a sound mind (self-discipline). (2 Tim. 1:7)

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80. A dream: In the first part of the dream I was inside a building along with my child. There was a young lion walking around outside and I was afraid to go outside or to allow my child to go outside for fear of the lion. I wasn't sure if the lion was dangerous to us or not.

In the next part of the dream there seemed to be circles of dark and light around which we were trying to maneuver - trying to avoid the dark circles. At the outcome of the dream we seemed to have ended up with a "mixture" of both, instead of pure light and no dark influences.

Interpretation: A lion symbolizes (if positive) the Lion of Judah, dominion, Christ, king, regal, bold, and power. Negatively it symbolizes Satan, religious tradition, destroying spirit, or intimidation tactics. In the dream I was unsure whether this young lion was positive or negative, so I was afraid to encounter it. Therefore it produced fear and intimidation within me.

In the second part, the issue seemed to be trying to incorporate the light into me/my life and staying away from the dark. The conclusion seemed to be a mixture of the two. Light symbolizes the power of God, manifest, revealed, exposed. Dark (without light) symbolizes without understanding or manifestation. Dark can also refer to outside, transition, or difficulty…night: darkness, ignorance, hidden, unknown course of action, sin, or power of evil

So what does this mean, Lord?

It means that you desire the positive, the clean, pure, and light in your life (and the life of your child) but you are not sure of yourself on that regarding the young lion. Young could refer to this lion coming into your life while you were young…when you didn't know how to deal with it, or didn't discern whether it was good or bad influence. The light and dark circles represent similar ideas, but here you could see the difference and try to incorporate the light rather than the dark. So, in childhood you were afraid without knowledge. Later you weren't afraid, but just worked at incorporating the light and avoiding the dark. Even so, life gave you a mixture. That's why you need Me - to cleanse you from the dark influences. And I have done that, and I will continue to do that.

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81. A dream: In this dream I was seeing and talking to some man (a person I didn't identify in the dream) as I lay on my right side propped up on one arm while looking in a mirror to see him. I turned over so I could see him face to face. We were talking about spiritual things. He said the first line of a Scripture verse, and I finished saying the whole verse in KJV. I tried later but didn't remember what Scripture verse it was.

First you saw Me (Holy Spirit) in a mirror and we communicated. Turning over and facing Me indicates your desire to see Me better - to come closer to Me. Then I could start a Scripture and you would remember the whole Scripture and quote it. We'll be doing that more and more. The dream depicts your desire to actually come closer to Me…and our communicating easily. It's not remembering the exact Scripture that's important. It's the whole idea of My bringing Scripture to your remembrance and your thinking of the whole thing - a pattern we now do and will do more and more. It depicts our current relationship. It's like how John Bevere preaches - following My prompting. You won't be preaching, but having conversations, but I will be prompting you as you go and as you do. It's important for our (you and Me) interacting from now on. The whole dream was about having a closer relationship with Me. "Now we see as in a glass (mirror) darkly, but then face to face."

It's all going to be around the Word of God, My child, our new level of relationship. As you draw closer to Me, you draw closer to My Word. I'm going to open up to you now a world of communication you have not experienced before. You are ready for it. Previously I've kept you hidden but now I'm opening up you to the world and the world to you for communicating.

I want you to write out the prayer of Jabez (It's My Word and that's why it's powerful - I've set things up that way) and Paul's prayer in Ephesians 1, and pray both of those. Pray My Word, pray My promises, and pray what I impart to you as a Rhema Word.

Prayer of Jabez: "Oh that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be upon me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain." (1 Chronicles 4:9-10 NKJV)

Paul's prayer: I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe." (Ephesians 1:17-19 NIV)

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82. As I was reading the Bible today in 1 Kings, the Holy Spirit drew my attention to 1 Kings 17:14 and said it was a promise for me today from Him:

For this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: There will always be flour and olive oil [food to me] left in your containers [freezer, refrigerator, pantry to me] until the time when the Lord sends rain and the crops grow again [until a time of scarcity is finished for me].

Thank You, Lord, for this mighty and gracious promise!

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83. DEEP CALLS UNTO DEEP

The Holy Spirit brought to my mind the phrase "deep calls unto deep." He said this refers to the mysteries (deep things) of God that call unto the deep things inside of me (mankind) to be figured out…as in how it is "the glory of God to conceal a matter, and the glory of kings to reveal/discover it." Perhaps that could refer to the mysteries of dreams to be discovered through the Holy Spirit's revelations.

The deep things of God call out to the deep things of the Holy Spirit who is inside of you. If you are listening to and sensitive to the Holy Spirit, then you will learn God's mysteries. He (God) wants to reveal Himself (through mysteries), but only to those who "wait upon Him," who care enough to spend that time with Him and listen for His "voice." His revelations are not to be lightly taken, but to be highly esteemed (enough to be willing to give up your sleep to receive them and to write them down).

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84. A dream: The setting was in my dorm room at college in my senior year. I was finishing my final project before graduating. The project seemed to be a planter I had put together with various plants in it. I had fixed it as the final project for Mr. G's class. I was searching for an instruction page to see if I needed to finish up any more details before taking it to his office to turn it in. I was having trouble finding the instruction page, and even seemed to ask someone if they knew where it was. I also didn't know for sure where Mr. G's office was to take the final project.

Doug came by my room and stayed awhile. He seemed to lie down on the floor awhile. Then he got some books from my bookshelf. At one point Doug said to me: "Is it always this dark in here?" I looked outside and noticed some dark high upper level clouds in the sky and told him it wasn't usually, but there were some dark clouds outside.

I never did find the instruction page to see what to do to finish the final project. I saw a picture of a tree and down below that some bush/grass area, like I was supposed to draw or transpose the tree to the bush section of the picture.

Interpretation of the dream: The setting indicates a place of learning and resting and working - my dorm room. The time of my training was almost completed before I would leave that place, graduate to what comes after it. The project I was working on (planter) may symbolize something green, growing, having life. It may represent the people whose lives I have planted life into. The final scene with an evergreen tree to be moved to an area of bushes/grass may represent bringing eternal life to the earth. 

Mr. G. was my high school music teacher (band and choir) and a favorite person in my life then. Since making music represents worship of God, prophesying, and ministering in the gifts of the Spirit, he may represent the Holy Spirit (God - Mr. G) who teaches us and leads us in doing this. My final project of planting life into others (planter) is ready to be submitted to Him. But I'm still not sure it is all finished because I couldn't find the "instruction sheet" to check it out…and I didn't know how to get to his place.

Doug was once Minister of Education under whom I organized discipleship classes. He seemed to be resting in my room. Maybe that represents those classes being at rest with God and finished in my life (represented by my dorm room). Doug (getting some books from my bookcase) makes me wonder if he represents those who will choose books from the DoveMinistry.net web site (my web bookcase) for their use. This was during a time when it was getting darker in the world.

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85. Now I will tell you new things, secrets you have not yet heard. They are brand new, not things from the past. So you cannot say, "We knew that all the time." (Isaiah 48:6b-7 NLT)

This is what the Spirit was teaching me today: that "judgment" = a revelation of wickedness and good. "Judgment of the church" = revealing what is truly in the heart of the people who call themselves Christian.

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86. A dream: I was going through material for spiritual growth, taking extensive notes, and putting them in a notebook. It seems I had heard this material before and took a few notes previously during a MasterLife class. I kept those previous notes and now added new and extensive notes to them. When finished I went into a room where my director/overseer was sitting. I began to show him all the work I had done as if he needed to see and approve it. Then I realized that there were people waiting in some room beside this one, and they were likely waiting to see him. I had come in from the "inside" part of the house, not through the waiting room. I asked if it was ok to take his time right now and he said it was ok. It felt like I was privileged to come in to see him this way…that he was "available" to me.

Interpretation: The Holy Spirit said to me:

I'm now taking the place of your dad. Now you can come to Me from the inside path of a family member and share with Me what delights you. We have this special close relationship where you always get My attention when you talk to Me, AND you get to be as a child with Me…(what Jack Frost talked about last night in Understanding the Anointing cassette #4), which you missed and wanted with your earthly dad. That's the way I want you to come to Me from now on. I was showing you this "privileged" position in your dream.

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87. A dream: I was wrapping Christmas presents for some visiting children. The toys were my daughter's that she was ready to give up - doll clothes, doll bed, kitten. I was waiting to see if my sons were ready to give up any of their toys. If so, then I planned to wrap those to give away also. I was trying to do this secretly so the visiting children wouldn't know.

Interpretation: What does this dream mean, Lord? Are those children representing me? Are You wanting me to give up some things? If so, what? And who are the visiting children who will receive these as gifts? Does this somehow refer to my books?

Yes, you are thinking rightly. The "toys" are things that used to mean a lot to you, but you are past needing them and using them now. Others (young children, young in the Lord) can now use them for play/worshipping Me. These things are gifts to others from you. Yes, they refer to your books (which came out of your past) that we are now ready to give away to others. I will take care of bringing the visiting children to your books to receive the gifts I've stored there secretly for them.

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88. A LESSON ABOUT WHAT'S IMPORTANT

As I lay in bed awake before getting up, the Holy Spirit was teaching me about where my "treasure" was (in regard to the garage sales I planned to visit this morning). He reminded me that where my heart was, there my treasure was - and where my treasure was, there my heart was. He wants me to have my heart set on people as my (and His) treasure, rather than things. He reminded me of how I sometimes go to the store (i.e. grocery store), or to garage sales, and look primarily at the things there rather than make eye contact with the people. From now on He wants me to treasure people and love people by noticing them, making eye contact with them, and smiling at them, perhaps even saying "hi" to them. He said that freely I have received, and now He wants me to freely give to others. He said that is a way of loving them, by acknowledging them in this way. He said this creates a bond with them, a good bond, and He will keep any negative bond from coming from that.

As you do this, then your garage sale times and grocery times can be times of blessing, both for you and for the other people, even if you don't buy a single thing there. And this will further My kingdom - the contact with others. You don't know what blessing I can and will give to others through this "ministry" of acknowledging people. Think of how I went about the countryside looking at people, looking into their eyes, acknowledging them as human beings, loving them with My attention. Now I want you to do that too and to make that your ministry right now…for Me. Will you do that for Me? Ok, then we will do this together. It will be interesting and fun. You can watch to see what I'm doing and join Me in it.

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89. As the rain and snow come down from heaven and stay upon the ground to water the earth... so also is my word. I send it out and it always produces fruit.  (Isaiah 55:10-11 TLB)

As I read this Scripture verse I am reminded that when rain and snow come down from heaven and stay upon the ground to water the earth, then there is a long process that water goes through before fruit comes from it. So when I send out the Word, it might similarly take a long time for the fruit from it to grow and ripen. Perhaps I am getting fruit today from the Word I prayed several months ago.

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90. Last night I awoke and wrote down a piece of a dream. In it I was given a special ball of light which we needed to learn to use. This ball seemed to be the last gift in a row of things. Perhaps that means it is coming at the very last of my life. It may refer to the Holy Spirit. I wonder how I learn how to use it. 

Listen to Me and I will show you. I’ll take you where I want you to go with My ball of light and show you how to use it. You place it where I show you, and when I show you, and how I show you.

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91. A dream: I had parked my car so it stuck out into the roadway just a little bit. I watched as two cars were passing each other from opposite directions exactly beside my car. The car closest to my car scraped the bumper of my car all along the side of theirs. I was standing outside watching this, so I looked for their license plate so I could contact and identify them. Their car was yellow and the license plate was square with markings on it that looked to me like it was Hebrew or Arabic language. I went to their house with them to get the license number and saw lots of numbers going around the edge of a plate or document - so many that I wasn't sure what the actual license number was. So I was planning to also get their address.

When I had backed my car into the space beside the road to park it, I put the car back as far as it could go without hitting some barrier. I could see this process from outside the car, like I was watching it being parked. I stood outside my parked car and watched the yellow car's side being scraped as it drove by. I specifically looked for its license plate after it scraped by and then stopped. So I was observing all these things, but not actually doing them…like I was an observer mostly, but still participating in trying to get information about them.

Interpretation: My car refers to my personal ministry or vocation. A car wreck refers to strife, contention, conflict, confrontation, calamity, or offense. The roadway refers to the way, the Christian faith, truth, or way of life. The license plate identifies the owner of the car. Since it was square, that refers to being legalistic, religious or religion (speaking the truth without love), no mercy, hard or harsh. Yellow car (the negative meanings) can refer to a deceitful gift, timidity, fear, intellectual pride or cowardliness. An address refers to the place where someone lives. Being an observer refers to something I will see but not participate in

What could this dream mean, Lord?

This dream refers to things you are going to see happening on the roadway of life. Different lives will affect each other and you. Some might even cause strife or contention for you. The license plate identifies who this person/group is - it has to do with the Middle East, Israel, or Islamic people. They will bring conflict and confrontation in the pathway of life of other people in the world - even if those other people try to get out of their way.

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92. In a later dream I was in a room with lots of seats like theater seats or sanctuary seats. I was talking to several people there. It seemed like they were preparing for some test coming. Then it seemed like I slept awhile and when I awoke it was test time for them. I went over to 3 young men/boys who were ready to take the test and were tense about it. I asked if they would like a hug before the test and they wanted to wait until after the test was over. One boy said, "But it would be nice if you would sit close to us so we could see you." He indicated a seat directly in front of them where I was seated at that moment. 

Interpretation: The seats in a room represent a church sanctuary. The scene represents the church preparing for the testing that's coming. These boys/men might be symbolizing children (gift from God, literal children, something new birthing) or perhaps mankind or me. The three represents their conforming and obeying God, the Godhead, being children of God or sons of God. The words indicate advice that we sit close together and keep watching each other as we go through this.

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93. A dream: In this dream I was reading and reviewing the brochure about a discipleship course that seemed interesting to me. I was appalled because it didn't even give the title of the course on the brochure. I kept looking and looking to learn the name of the course, and it wasn't there. I also found various places where the wording of sentences describing it were poorly worded. I felt I needed to rewrite the brochure or help someone rewrite it. The course brochure seemed to have some cartoon-like pictures on it besides words. The brochure was projected on the wall or a screen every so often, cycling along with other information. I was talking to my daughter about it. I also talked to a pastor about the course and mentioned it in a church service to the congregation briefly.

Interpretation: A brochure is similar to a book. It gives information and records it. It gives knowledge about and preparation needed for an event that would take place. It is to draw one's attention to an important event coming up soon. A cartoon can advise that one should use humor in life, or it may warn of a tendency toward avoiding reality. Projected on a wall/screen may refer to this course being "projected" in the future, something yet to come. I wanted to inform others about this course that was coming - my daughter, my pastor, and my fellow Christians. What do You want me to gather/understand from this dream, Lord?

I want you to see that things are coming soon. I want you to keep your light-heartedness about these things (cartoon) but realize the reality of it also. It doesn't have a "title" so you don't know for sure what to call it, but you do have some description about it. I want you to tell others the understanding you have gained and help them to know what is coming also. I also want your writing as a record for future records of what you went through. Keep recording in your journal and your books whatever I lead you to write there. I will get the information to those I want to read and know it.

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94. I read Philippians 1:6 and prayed the ideas back to the Lord.

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. (Philippians 1:6 NLT)

Then He said:

You want to know My mind and My heart? Then read My Word. That gives you My mind (thoughts) and My heart. Then pray My Word back to Me and I will hear - as it is My will. (1 John 5:14-15)

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us - whatever we ask - we know that we have what we asked of him. (1 John 5:14-15 NIV)

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95. I'm torn between two desires. I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far greater for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live. Knowing this, I am convinced that I will remain alive so I can continue to help all of you grow and experience the joy of your faith. (Philippians 1:23-25 NLT)

That's why I'm keeping you here yet, My beloved. I want and need you to continue to live on earth to work for Me with your prayers and petitions and requests, as well as your praise and thanksgiving to Me each day - and all this for others too, as I lead you. I want you here on earth to work with Me and partner with Me. Will you agree to do this, for Me? 

Yes, Lord.

Then we will continue a little longer. It won't be long until you will "come up here" and be with Me forever.

Thank You, Lord, I look forward to that!

I know, and I am pleased with you and what you have become in Me. I don't want you to leave (earth) yet. I want to keep working with you. Morning by morning I will awaken you to come apart with Me, and I will show you what I want you to pray for Me. Will you do this?

Yes, Lord.

I know you will. That's why I am asking you to. I know you have a willing heart to do that which I have put within you - intercession for Me. I am the one who placed it in your heart to ask Che Ahn and Lou for intercession. And when they prayed for you, I gave you a greater measure of the grace to intercede for Me. And I want you to keep asking as I put that in your mind and heart. Now you know, through John Bevere's teaching, that grace and peace can be multiplied by Me to you. Now you can ask for that, knowing it is My will because it is in My Word. 

Praying My Word is My heart's desire for you. That's why I have taught you that idea over and over until you finally learned it and know it. Now you will do that for the rest of your days on this earth. I will give you the Scriptures to pray each day. Expect that.

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96. Intercession - this is going to be the focus of your life for the rest of your life. You are now qualified and equipped to do so - to "stand in the gap" (Ezek. 22:30) for those I tell you to intercede for. (That is the yellow brick wall with words on it you saw a picture of - sturdy, solid, and a gift from Me.) This is the way you will earn your heavenly rewards - by intercession, not by giving money. I will give you the names of those I choose for you to specifically intercede for. You just follow My lead on whom to pray for, how often, and how many days.

Paul Keith Davis, in the Shepherd's Rod 2008, mentions over and over that God is completing the preparation of His people to go into the harvest, and He is beginning the commissioning of them to go out and harvest the "harvesters" who will then go out into the world for the final harvest of souls for the Kingdom. That is what He did for me today - told me I was now equipped for His calling on my life for intercession, and He commissioned me to do that.

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97. (Quotes from C. Peter Wagner's book Prayer Shield, p. 161-162)

"I recall one particular morning when I was struggling with this matter before God in prayer. I said, 'Father, please give me intimacy with you like I am seeing in these intercessors. I want to be like them.'
	"Then came one of those moments that are few and far between for me, but daily bread for true intercessors, when I clearly heard God speaking to me in response to my petition. He first told me to take my pencil and draw three steps, which I promptly did.
	"God then showed me that the intercessors are on the top step, and I am on the middle step. Multitudes are on the bottom step. He said that the intercessors are too high to reach down and help many who are on the bottom step. He told me that He wanted me to be one of His middle-step people who are in close touch with the intercessors, but who also will help many people move up the stairway. He said that many whom I do help from the lower step to the middle step will then move on and pass me.
	"I sensed that I heard God say my task was not to minister in His throne room, but to be outside the throne room helping others to come nearer. Those who are already in the throne room will be a major link in bringing me closer to God.
	"God assured me that I do have clear access to Him. He affirmed the priesthood of all believers. Access to Him is not the question, but the degree of intimacy is. He showed me that His family is large and that He loves all His children. His perfect desire and calling for each child is to be in the place where they will be the greatest blessing to all. Not all of His children are as yet in the place He wants them, but He seemed to assure me that I was in exactly the place where I was supposed to be, and that I was to rejoice in it rather than to fret over it."

That's where you were when you taught Discipleship Training - outside the throne room (with only occasional times in the throne room). Then, in 2000 I told you to stop Discipleship Training so you could spend your time coming closer to Me. Now you have been doing that for over 7 years, and you are much nearer to Me now than you were then. Now is the time for you to be an intercessor before Me, in My throne room, bringing before Me those I assign you to. That's what this 7 years has been primarily about - preparing you to come into My throne room, into My Presence, and to bring your requests before Me. That is the closest you will get while on this earth. It is My best for you. Walk thankfully and steadily in your new role as intercessor before Me.

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98. I saw the impression of a puzzle piece snuggly fit into exactly the right place. What does it mean, Lord?

You are the puzzle piece and you are now snuggly fit into the right place for you in the puzzle of life - and that is intercession - as a personal intercessor - and only as I lead you. And this is the right place for your intercession - here in your daughter's house - at least for now. 

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99. The Holy Spirit said: 
Now on to greater things and better things.

As I pondered that message, the ideas came: 
Greater listening, better hearing Me, greater hearing what I want you to pray, more effective prayers, praying My Word more.

I want you to imagine Me giving you words of knowledge to give to others.

I want you to imagine Me giving you words of healing to pray and/or to speak over others.

And it's good! 

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100. I asked the Lord again about "the elect" or the chosen mentioned in the Bible. I want to understand what that means. He said:

I chose those who I knew would choose Me. I knew this "from the foundation of the world." I knew, and so I drew - drew them to Me, even from childhood as I did with you.

What about all the others, Lord?

I knew ahead of time (because I know all things) that they wouldn't choose Me even though I gave the opportunity to all people (and this gospel of salvation shall be preached to all the world - (Matt. 24:14 and Mark 13:10). They each had/have the opportunity to choose Me. I am not partial, and I don't show favoritism. However, since I already knew who would choose Me, I drew them to Me - as I knew ahead of time they would respond. I gave all free will, and I work within that free will - but knowing ahead of time who would freely choose Me and who wouldn't. All have the opportunity…even those who haven't heard the Gospel. They can know that I exist and honor Me - as many Indians did. So you see, it's fair, and not unfair. All have the opportunity to know Me. I put that opportunity in their hearts.

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101. I've not called you to be a crisis intercessor, but a personal intercessor. However, sometimes I may use you as a crisis intercessor if you are willing. But primarily I want you to be a personal intercessor, and only for the ones I give you. Yes, your prayer bundle is ok, and so are the other bundles I've given you - your family bundle, your sibling bundle, and your staff bundle.

You see, I am doing a lot of work in the Spirit through your prayers - and you are to believe this by faith. It might take several months to be fully accomplished on earth. You are to wait (how often I said wait on the Lord!) in great expectation. You are a "stand in the gap" person (Ezek. 22:30). You gave yourself to Me, and this is what I've chosen for you. 

On page 27 of Cindy Jacob's book Possessing the Gates of the Enemy, she said God said to her: "Cindy, I want you to lay your ministry down and learn to intercede."

Isn't that what I had you do…lay your ministry down and learn to intercede? The first step was to come closer to Me and form a greater intimacy with Me. The next step was to form prayer bundles I wanted you to bring before Me daily or weekly as I led.

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102. (A quote from page 27 of Cindy Jacob's book Possessing the Gates of the Enemy) "A principle that I learned during this time is that intercession is not so much taught as caught, meaning that I grew not so much by systematic teaching as by experiencing the power of the Holy Spirit at work and longing to be a part of it."

Have I received a legacy from pray-ers in my life, Lord?

No, My child. That is why I must start you out on the beginning levels and teach/show you the way to grow as an intercessor. But I, the Holy Spirit, am your teacher, and I am a good teacher. I will show you what I want you to know and when I want you to know it. Your part is to listen to Me and obey Me/follow Me. Cindy's call was to be a national and international intercessor, so I gave her personal teachers who prayed together with her and taught her how. My purpose for you is different, so I am teaching you Myself, a little at a time - just enough so you can pray what I want prayed by you, and when I want it prayed.

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103. Praise the Lord! Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good! His faithful love endures forever. Who can list the glorious miracles of the Lord? Who can ever praise him enough? (Psalm 106:1-2)

I seek Your counsel for every day of my life, Lord, that I might do what is pleasing in your sight.

You are doing what is pleasing in My sight  - seeking Me, praising Me, and coming near Me. Do this every day and I will see to it that you continue to please Me.

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104. I set you apart before you were born, to be exactly what you are right now - an intercessor for Me to use to speak words for Me. Now I want you to do that, in My Name, for everyone I guide you to speak for.

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105. The message the Holy Spirit gave me today was to "hold on" for I am still in transition. This is what Don Piper (Heaven Is Real) recommended to those going through transitions - to hold on and let God bring you through and teach and train you as you go. Then, at the right time, He will use you for the ministry He has for you using what you learned during the transition.

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106. A DREAM ABOUT A BLACK WIDOW PREPARING DESTRUCTION PLANS AGAINST AMERICA AND ISRAEL

In this dream I was standing inside a building in front of a glass wall. Outside that building on the other side of that glass wall stood a woman (with her back toward me) wearing a black brocaded dress which was a very loose shift style. She seemed quite uncomfortable, in that she often put her right hand behind her and pulled at her dress. She would do this while using her left hand to shake the hands of others in front of her. I watched her discomfort and looked at the beautiful brocaded fabric of her dress. I felt she might be an Arab woman.

Interpretation: What was I observing, Lord? Why did I have this dream? What am I supposed to learn from it?

She represents an Arab woman as you thought. She is wearing a loose uncomfortable dress because she is hiding something under it…her intentions. She is showing evidence of worry or discomfort by her hand and body movement. Black represents death in this dream. A dress represents her covering, anointing, authority, mantle, what she is going to be doing, her spirit or attitude. The dress looks dowdy, not shapely, but still it is made of a beautiful cloth, brocade, so it is made to try to look beautiful, but the fit and style are not beautiful. 

What she is hiding is her evil intentions. She knows what is going to happen; she is part of a plan of destruction, evil, from the enemy/evil one against you, and you represent Christians (opposite of black). You can see this through a glass wall. A wall represents a barrier, obstacle, defense, limitation, fortification, division, or refuge. There is such a barrier between what you represent and what she represents. But since this wall or window is glass, you can see through it, and so it represents something revealed, truth, prophecy, revelation, understanding, a vision, and letting light in.

Hands symbolize her works or deeds - good or evil. In this case the intent of the hands is evil. That's why they do one thing (left hand shaking hands with others) which indicates a friendly relationship, while the right hand does another thing indicating getting ready to kill. The right hand symbolizes the power or strength of man. The left hand symbolizes the weakness of man.

I am showing you this picture in a dream to reveal to you this: those opposed to Christianity or Jews (who believe in the one true God) are planning death and evil intentions toward you. But I am revealing it so you can pray against it. She is hiding something, being deceptive, having evil intentions of death which are hidden, but acting as if she is friendly. You see her from behind her back where she is displaying evidence of her real intent.

How do I pray about this, Lord?

You pray as I will lead you during your prayer time later this morning. Later: She is a "black widow." Her husband is dead (her god) and she is like a black widow spider - her sting kills those who are stung. She is preparing to sting Christians and Jews - from jealousy and hatred. She can't stand it that others are happy while her life is so sad and troubled. She wants to kill others whom she sees as causing her difficulties. She is taught that. She wants the good times, but can't have them. She thinks she is pleasing God, but it is a lie; she is deceived.

I want you to pray against her. Bind those evil spirits that are filling her and leading her to plan the destruction of America and Israel. It is not My timing for this, so pray until I release you from it.

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106. A dream: In this dream I was wearing a pure white dress. I was looking at different colored scarves to possibly drape around my shoulders. I picked several to try on before a mirror. I especially liked the light blue ones. There were many kinds and colors and designs in a stack. I also tried pushing a lawn mower-like thing over white canvas material on the ground, but the mower didn't seem to have blades to cut grass on the bottom of it.

Interpretation: When I thought about draping something on my shoulders, I thought about what Jim Goll said last night (on the PTL show on TBN) about "the government shall be upon his shoulders." So it was almost like I was trying out different government possibilities to see what I'd like…or what kind of government I might be pleased to wear. The blue represents spiritual, spiritual gift, or symbol of heaven. The dream seems to be depicting my choosing what spiritual kind of government or responsibility I am choosing to put on over my cleansed anointing (pure white dress).

Since the lawn mower didn't have blades, it may represent there not being any cutting needed on my flesh (grass can represent flesh) and the flesh (grass) was covered with white cloth like the covering over my sins by Jesus' blood. So this is a great assurance of my being pure in God's eyes.

That's what's happening right now, My child. You are, by your daily decisions, choosing what spiritual authority/responsibility you are willing to take on yourself. This is a good place to be. Choose well. I am leading you to do this. This dream shows how I see you - as pure, white, not needing cutting or trimming, and ready for some authority or responsibility for Me.

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107. A dream: In this dream I was at a school where I was studying under a woman teacher. I gradually learned that she was a Christian, and there were several others around who also were Christians. They knew each other and were identifying me as a Christian, and letting me know they were Christians too. One man drove me to school, rather like a taxi driver. Another was named Joe. As Joe and I talked, I became aware he was also a member of this Christian group. I was to eat with several of them and had ordered my dinner that was delivered to the group. But I was late due to being kept late by my teacher talking about my class assignment. Then I went down to the room where we were planning to eat together, and I found my dinner there waiting for me, sitting with the other people's eaten dinners. So I sat down and ate my dinner. At one time one of these men asked me if I believed the cancer that used to be inside me was now healed and I said, "Yes, I did."  It was such an affirming and uplifting dream emotionally.

Interpretation: The teacher was likely the Holy Spirit. The rest of the people (all unknown) were also likely the Holy Spirit, Christian earthly people, Christian heavenly people, or angels. The dream seemed to show me that I was connected with God's people. They were identifying me as one of them, and I was getting to know them. I was being fed spiritual food and was being taught. The others had eaten before me, so that may mean they represent Christians who have gone before me. I also was given the opportunity to declare my belief in my own healing experience in the past.

The name Joe is a nickname for Joseph which means "wise and understanding." Since this was a learning institution, I am to learn from this dream that God's people identify each other, and include each other, and learn from each other.

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108. This morning the Holy Spirit was teaching me a lesson using the mirrored silver Christmas ornament ball as a teaching tool. At that time the sunlight shone on the mirrored ball causing tiny circles of light to be reflected on the floor, walls, and ceiling (like a disco ball with light). It was very pretty and I stopped to look at it awhile. This only happens for a short time in the mornings during some of the shortest days of the year when the sun is farthest south so its light can reach the ball. As I watched it, the Holy Spirit began speaking into my mind that it was important to be aware of "the time" and to seize the moment to enjoy it, since "the time" only came at certain moments. He compared the mirrored ball to me, just waiting for the right time when He would shine His light on me. Until those specific times, I was like that ball, waiting and ready to reflect His light. Then, at His precise moment, He would shine His light on me, and tiny circles of light would reflect out from me to those around me like they did from that Christmas ornament ball.

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109. "Hallowed be Thy Name"
Our prayer time should include several moments at the beginning to praise God and bring glory to Him with our words. Our end in life is to become the most perfect worshiper of God we can be. How can I be a better worshiper, God?

Use My Word to praise Me - everything in My Word that tells you what I am like, especially the Psalms. Just like you've been doing.

Adoration brings man into immediate and direct contact with God…and that's what I want to do at the beginning of my days and my prayer times. First draw attention to God before self. It changes my focus. Praise brings God's Presence and glory - and that sends Satan running. Praise brings immunity to the enemy's attacks. I am to gather all the facts I know about God and put these into words. Facts about:
	His Name (Jesus Christ)
	His righteousness (faithfulness, justice, mercy)
	His creation (His acts)
	His Word

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110. JOURNAL 12-31-07, Monday, the last day of 2007

I cleanse you, My child, for all the sins you have committed from the beginning of your life on earth up until this very moment, and beyond as long as you live on earth in this earthly body.

Now be at peace, My child, for My love is great and My grace is sufficient for you.

And now, I want to speak to you about this old year passing, and about the New Year to come tomorrow. It is good. It all is good. It all has carried out My perfect plan for you and your loved ones. I put you to praying for your prayer bundle this year, and extended that prayer bundle, and extended it, and extended it, to cover many of My precious loved ones and servants that you know personally. I want you as My intercessor, and I want you to keep interceding for them as I lead you.

You are right in thinking that 2007 was a year of preparation for the new things to come in 2008, and My big goal was to teach you patient endurance and trust in Me throughout 2007 as you constantly thought I would make a change in your living situation. That was a teaching situation in your life.

I love you and I need you to be My listener and pray-er for others. That is your biggest task in 2008 - to listen to Me daily, and to pray as I lead you, and as I show you My heart.

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111. Oh dear readers of this writer’s material: I love you and am thinking of you even now as she writes this for Me. I want you to know that you are in My heart and My thoughts even if you are not yet born into this world. This is a message for whoever reads this material. I know you and I care about you very much! Receive My love. Accept My love. Receive Me into your life. I want you to be Mine, just as this writer is Mine. Will you do that today? Then call to Me and tell Me you want Me to be in your life. Tell Me you believe in Me and want Me to be your Savior and Lord, just as I am this writer’s Savior and Lord. Tell Me. I want to hear it from you. Then you will be Mine, and I will come to you and live inside you as I do in her.

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112. Remember the open door which I showed you in 1986 when you needed a job after the divorce was finished?

Yes. In that picture I saw a door open in front of me. Beyond the door was just brilliant light shining. I was to step over the threshold of that door in September 1986 into the new job the Lord had for me. In that month I was offered a job at the Ark Christian Bookstore as their music buyer and I began working there. It was the answer to my prayers for God to provide me another job at that time. September 1986 was when my maintenance payments stopped, if I remember right, therefore I needed another job besides teaching piano students. Today the Lord is bringing that picture into my memory again during my soaking Quiet Time.

I want you to know that picture has another meaning also for now. It is the picture of your walking over the threshold from earth life into the brilliant light of heaven's life. Yes, your work on earth is now completed. You have completed what I put in your heart to do on earth, and now you can come "home" to your true home - with Me. There you will receive the total healing I have been telling you is coming…and a lot more than total healing - total love, total meaning and purpose, total friendships forever, total health, total beauty all around you, and total new adventures to explore in safety. I love you, My child, and I want you to come and be with Me!

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113. WORDS OF FAREWELL TO MY READERS

Today is the day to say farewell to my readers. I have prayed for you often and continue to pray for your own personal relationship with Jesus as your Lord. Remember the Bible says He is the same yesterday, today and forever. (Hebrews 13:8) I want to close with this wonderful benediction from Ephesians 3:20:

Now unto him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

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