THINGS 
THE LORD 
HAS 
SHOWN ME
Book 3

A Book of Remembrance
of 
God’s guidance and promises

From revelations, dreams,
visions, impressions,
and experiences

Joan Whitacre Royer

DEDICATION

I dedicate this book to the Lord Jesus Christ,
my best Friend.
May it bring Him glory
in the lives of others as they read it.

SPECIAL THANKS

A special thank you to my daughter, Beth,
for inviting me to stay in her lovely quiet home
during the months of writing this book,
for letting me use her computer and printer,
for putting this book on the internet,
and for being such encouraging company.
Thanks, Beth!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

The author, Joan (“Jo Ann”) Royer, was involved in discipling others through the Discipleship Training program at a Southern Baptist Church in Columbia, Missouri, for 18 years. Then the Lord guided her to take a break from that and spend much time developing an even stronger and more intimate relationship with Him in her quiet times. During that time she worked full time as secretary at a United Methodist Church in Columbia. 

After four years of developing this closer relationship, He lead her to begin writing her first book, Thoughts and Stories: On a Life God Leads, Guides, and Protects. He even gave her the title for the book and gradually, as she listened and wrote, He led her in writing the whole book. Previous to this writing she had collected stories about ways God had impacted the lives of people. This was in response to His guidance from Psalm 96:3 that says: “Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.” She knew He wanted her to declare His Marvelous Deeds and share those deeds with others by writing them. All this came together in that first book and continued in Thoughts and Stories, Books 2,3,4, and 5.

In 2005 the Lord led her to begin a new series of books under the title: Things The Lord Has Shown Me. That series focused on what the Lord had shown her through revelations, dreams, visions, impressions and experiences. Book 1 of the series contained things shown her through the end of March 2005. Books 2 and 3 of that series contain things shown her from April 2005 on. 

She retired from her secretarial position in 2004 and now lives in Lee’s Summit, Missouri where the Lord has led her to set apart her days to listen to Him and write what He shows her. She has a background in writing from childhood on, has a Bachelor’s Degree in Music and English, and a Master’s Degree in Education. Writing is her passion and the way God is leading her to share with others what God has been doing in her life. Her desire is to encourage and mentor others--as many in the Body of Christ have taught and mentored her through their writings.

(Writings in italics show what the Holy Spirit spoke to me about that revelation.)

THINGS THE LORD HAS SHOWN ME
BOOK 3

JOURNAL 6-10-05 Friday

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.  (Psalm 27:4-5)

I am coming today to start a new season in you…a season of direct listening and writing beyond dreams, visions, and impressions. I want to directly reveal things to you now and have you write them down. Will you do this? Remember when I told My disciples I would talk to them that way? 

“Though I have been speaking figuratively, a time is coming when I will no longer use this kind of language but will tell you plainly about my Father” …. Then Jesus’ disciples said, “Now you are speaking clearly and without figures of speech. Now we can see that you know all things, and that you do not even need to have anyone ask you questions. This makes us believe that you came from God.” (John 16:25-30)

Well, that is what I will be doing more and more with you, so spend time with Me daily listening and writing as I lead you. I want to take us further in communicating to others through these books. I know you have difficulty believing I can do this through you, but I can. Just as I wrote through many people throughout the centuries since I came to earth, so I will also write through you. Believe Me. Trust Me. It’s your job to prepare the way for Me to do this by preparing to write what I show you and tell you...show you by dreams and visions, and tell you directly into your mind and heart.

A DREAM ABOUT A HOUSE DIVIDED TO MAKE ANOTHER APARTMENT
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In this dream I was in a house that seemed to be where my parents lived, but it wasn’t my childhood home. It was like a strange house to me. I noticed some people coming into the back part of the house so I went there to see what they were doing. There were three people there who were cleaning and preparing that part of the house to make it into an apartment ready to rent to others. I asked them about why they were doing this and they couldn’t seem to tell me clearly why they had the authority to do this. 

I saw a small section in this apartment, not large enough for a room but with a bench you could sit on, and decided that small area could be used to put a coat rack to hang coats there. I also saw the place where it was sealed off from the front section of the house where it seems my parents lived. I wondered what was done with the furniture that we had had in that section of the house previous to this time. I looked around in the apartment at the rooms downstairs, then I climbed a rather narrow steep stairway and saw a very large upstairs room and saw that there was also a smaller room off of that. There were two cats that seemed like pets in the large room. Then I came back downstairs to get out of the workers’ way. The thought entered my head that I might want to rent this apartment to live in.

I was a participant in this dream along with three cleaning people who may represent the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. If this house represented my parent’s home then it might refer to my past inheritance from them. This dreams shows those old ways being divided or separated out and cleaned up and made into a new space where I might consider living. It was cleaned and obstacles were removed.

This lower level shows several rooms and a place to have rest and quietness and a place for my covering, protection, and anointing. Being sealed off from the front section of the house may represent being shut off from the religious traditions, and obstacles of my ancestors that went before me. Then I ascended or gained entrance or took steps upward into a very large open upper room that could represent a spiritual place, a place of thought, prayer, and spiritual service. It was light and open and bright and even had another room off of it. The two pets may represent something precious about this room.

This dream may show me my situation now in my spiritual life or one I am coming into by steps. It is a precious, open, spiritual, place of service now. It has been cleaned and freed of past hindrances and made clean and like new.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of what I am coming into now spiritually—a place of large openness, lots of space to meditate, pray, and consider spiritual things. This is the “house” I am currently living in.

JOURNAL 6-11-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT PREPARING TO TEACH CHILDREN
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In this dream I was preparing to teach children along with a lady who was to co-teach with me. I made plans to teach the children about numbers and apply these somehow to pictures of the body. I saw pictures the children had drawn already on the blackboard. They looked like:    0		The numbers seemed like 1 to 20.
	     /| |\  

I was planning to put such a picture of me on a separate blackboard area and use it to illustrate what I was teaching.  I was busy trying to make a list of what I would teach and in what sequence. My little brother kept distracting me as he asked me questions or needed help with something and I would stop to help him.

The children were outside waiting to come into the room. I gave the numbers to one child to take outside and show the others what I would be teaching on. The co-leader lady said we had 4 hours to teach it, so it seemed that should be enough time.

I felt like I didn’t know what to teach the children. I told the other teacher and a lady that also was in the room that I needed a curriculum list for what they wanted taught and how they wanted it taught—not just try to pull something out of the air for each day. The co-leader said something like, “But you went to all the workshops.” I said, “No, I didn’t. I know how to teach and have had lots of experience doing that, but I don’t know what curriculum to teach.”

I was the main focus of this dream, and what I would teach the children, and how I would teach it. If this dream relates to the books that I am writing, then perhaps it shows my inner struggle about what would be good to put into the books that would be helpful to others. The children seem to need to learn everything from the beginning to the completion of their Christian walk. This will be demonstrated on representations/drawings of people. The dream took place in a place of learning. My spiritual brother sometimes was distracting from the preparation I was trying to do. Even though I have attended lots of conferences that still didn’t mean that I knew what these children needed to learn. This seems to be a dream showing me my own condition in relation to what I spend my time doing—trying to write books to teach others while not knowing what curriculum they need to learn and how to teach that. My “co-leader” was there but was leaving the preparation and teaching to me in this dream. I was frustrated by not knowing what to do.

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What the Lord has shown me here is I am uncertain as to what to put in my books and how that will help others. I seem to be expressing the need for more guidance about what others will need to learn.

A DREAM ABOUT BEING GIVEN A TICKET TO A DRAWING FOR GASOLINE
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I was given a ticket to participate in a drawing for a tankful of gasoline for my car. Another person was also given a ticket. It seemed like John P was the person who gave us the tickets. It seemed like I hoped to get the gasoline to take a trip.

Gasoline—Fuel: prayer
Car—Life: person, ministry
Ticket—possible opportunity
John--means "God is gracious"

The ticket is the opportunity for being given free fuel/prayer for your life/ministry. It is a free gift given to you unexpectedly. In this dream you don’t yet know if you “win” the fuel. You need this gasoline to go on a trip…or for your ministry to go somewhere. The key is to get the fuel/prayer so your ministry can go somewhere. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I need to be praying for my ministry to go where He wants it to go, and that He provides the fuel necessary to get it there.

JOURNAL 6-12-05 Sunday

This morning on TV I heard Dr. David Jeremiah preaching about reasons for unanswered prayer and I listed them. He suggested reading through them each day and see where we stand.

1.	Not praying
2.	Unconfessed sin
3.	Unbelief
4.	Wrong motives
5.	Unresolved conflicts
6.	Uncompassionate hearts
7.	Husbands being unresponsive to their wives

JOURNAL 6-13-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT WORDS WRITTEN IN PINK AND BLACK
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4:00 a.m. In this dream I saw words written on paper (which I think of as reports). There was a boxed section written in pink in the upper left section of the page. The rest of the page was in black ink. I didn’t read any of the words, just knew they were there.

_____    words words words
|         |    words words words
|____ |    words words words
words words words words x
words words words words x

6:00 a.m. I saw reports or pages written in black ink. There was a part written in pink in each report and that was specific to that particular person. The black section seemed to be general directions for everyone. These reports seemed to be directions to be followed by people.

I did not see myself or any specific person in either dream. However, I was observing these reports. I didn’t realize I had dreamed the same basic dream until after writing out the second dream and noticing how similar it was to the first dream.

As I meditate on these dreams and ask for revelation from Holy Spirit, I believe these two dreams show me a picture of THE WORD, the Bible, and the pink sections refer to the rhema word brought to specific individuals particular to them. The pink refers to the heart of flesh as opposed to the heart of stone. The heart of flesh receives God’s Word and takes it into itself. This dream seems to be a prophetic picture of the Word coming to people now and the rhema Word coming to individuals. Since this dream came twice it speaks of this prophecy being set/determined.

I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. They will be my people, and I will be their God. (Ezekiel 11:19-20)

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. (Ezekiel 36:26-27)

This is also a prophetic picture of my books which will be black printing on white paper, but there will be certain places or pages which will touch the heart of flesh in the people who read them, and those sections will minister to specific needs for those people.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture of His Word giving directions to people. Within that Word there are specific directions/rhema words for individuals. He has also shown me this will be true about the books He is having me write—that certain pages or places in my books will touch the heart of flesh of people who read them and meet specific needs and give direction to them.

DEEPER REVELATION IN THE SECRET PLACE
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This is the place where healers get instructions about the healing God will be doing in their healing sessions. This is the place where preachers get ideas and revelations for their sermons. This is the place of mystery in God…the place of revelations…the deeper place. Some call it the Secret Place. It is talked about in Psalm 91:1 where it talks about "He that dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty." What does it mean to abide under the shadow of the Almighty? It means coming so close to Him that “who He is” covers you, and protects you, and overshadows you, and passes on to you His mind, His thoughts, His revelations. This is a mystery, but it is real and it is true. Coming to the Secret Place of the Most High is the key to finding the “pink writing” that is made specific for each person who belongs to the Lord. It is the place of silence before the Lord.

DREAMS OF BOY SMILING AND WHITE DOVES FLYING
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I saw a little boy looking up at me and smiling at me. We seemed to be in a group of people. I didn’t recognize his face.

I looked up and saw a flock of white doves flying low above Beth’s house. They were totally white underneath so I felt they were doves, and they looked the right size to be doves. They were flying from south to north basically.

In both dreams I was the primary person. It was showing something I was observing or seeing. The little boy dream may refer to a gift that brings smiling. The dove dream may refer to God’s sending the Holy Spirit in a whole flock of blessings, spiritual gifts, spiritual appearances, from the natural realm into the supernatural realm in the future.

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What the Lord has shown me here is showing pictures of gifts and blessings coming over me.

JOURNAL 6-14-05 Tuesday

DREAMS ABOUT PERSON AT WHITEMAN AIR FORCE BASE, A DANGEROUS PERSON, AND A CULT GROUP’S PLANS
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1:00 a.m. I couldn’t remember most of this dream when I awoke, but I did remember that there was a man who said he was from Whiteman Air Force Base.

3:00 a.m. I’m dreaming about a situation where there is a familial line of negative events allowing access to a person affected by it. This person is dangerous and I know it. It’s almost like I watch events while knowing this negative/dark possibility that could present its influence anytime. It has to do with this negative person being terribly slighted and offended sometime in the past leaving a wounded person.

6:15 a.m. There were lots of people walking around in this church building, men and women, most I didn’t know. The building was unfamiliar also. I wandered around to various rooms looking for the singles Sunday School class. This included going up a ramp/stairway and going into a medical nursing area. I found the Sunday School class. They were discussing some people attending the cult group meeting (cult group referring to those who follow false teachings) that day to see what the cult group was doing and were to report back to this Sunday School class afterwards. Some of the women were standing outside the women’s rest room while one of the women was inside it. They were discussing getting together to pray about the cult group and what it was planning to do (whose plans seemed to be to bring about some very negative, destructive actions). These women wanted me to get the key to the rest room so we could pray there. I said I wasn’t getting involved until I had time to pray and see what the Lord wanted me to do.

If the first dream establishes the setting of the whole series, then this dream series deals with warfare and military preparation for it. 

The “dangerous people” mentioned in the second dream may refer to the descendants of Ishmael who have a familial line of negative events and feeling slighted and offended in the past which has left them wounded and dangerous. In this dream I am observing and watching them while knowing they are dangerous. This may take place on TV viewing.

The third dream may refer to danger from false teachings and those who follow those false teachings. I used the word cult to describe them, but that word was not in the dream. They represented people who disliked the church and were planning to harm the church. I saw some of the church people paying attention to what the dangers were and wanting to pray about that situation. The rest room may refer to the church getting cleansed and ready to pray. I didn’t commit to join that effort until I found out what the Lord would guide me to do.

This seems to be a warning dream about Spiritual warfare in the present and future.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am to be aware that Spiritual warfare is going on and that I am to seek Him about my role in it.

DEEPER REVELATION IN THE SECRET PLACE
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I want you to know that this warfare is happening and you will watch it increase from now on. Air Force refers to air warfare…and this warfare is taking place in the air between the powers of the air. Some of the reasons for warfare come from a long line of family hurts and offenses handed down from generation to generation. Some come through false teachings and we know who is the author of those lies – Satan. It all focuses its warfare against those who belong to Me—Israel and My Church. It is the battle between good and evil, God and Satan. This is not only a warning picture, but it is also a prophetic picture of where Israel and My Church are right now – seeing what’s coming and taking action, getting militarily prepared. Yes, you are to be a part of this action, but I will show you how on a daily basis. Cleansing is certainly a part of getting ready. Being aware of what’s happening is certainly part of getting ready…knowing the danger. And seeking Me for how you are to be involved is certainly part of getting ready.

JOURNAL 6-15-05 Wednesday

DREAMS ABOUT 
SEEING JESUS MARKED WITH A RAINBOW SILVERY X, 
A CAT CLEANING ITS PAWS, 
BEING INVITED TO A WIENIE ROAST, 
AND ACTIVITIES AS A CHURCH SECRETARY
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3:15 a.m. I saw that this man was chosen for something special. I could see a large shimmery X in front of him. The large X shone with the colors of the rainbow and like it was silver metalic. The X was so thin  I could barely see it. The man didn’t seem to know why he was chosen. We didn’t know what he was chosen for. We seemed to be discussing this together (he and I). I saw this, I was observing it, and we were communicating. I “saw” him almost like a white polystyrene box with rounded corners like carry out/take out food boxes from restaurants.
     
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  / \	
               /    \

The song in my mind as I wrote out the dream: “Oh, praise Him, Oh, praise Him, He is holy, He is holy.”

I think this food box represents Jesus. Being able to “see” His “marking” seems to be significant. This may refer to recognizing Him for who He is. He has been chosen and marked for something very special. He is the “Chosen One.” The silvery rainbow colored X reminds me of light shining so the colors are seen. Yet it is so thin it may be missed. Somehow I can “see” it fleetingly and can communicate with Him. There was more to this dream but I only remember this. I was so awed by seeing the silvery X and what it might mean. It was revealed to me as I wrote down the dream that remembering just this part of the dream is similar to the selective revelation I see and hear during my Quiet Time while awake—it is the only part of the dream He wanted recorded. The white container refers to purity and something to carry food—the Word of God. It is significant that this shows the food is “take out” or “carry out” which means we can take with us Him and His food when we leave the place of being fed—our Secret Place visits during our Quiet Times.

3:58 a.m. I saw a cat sitting up and licking its paws. It seemed to be cream/tan and white and was faced towards me.

This dream may give a picture representing people who have independent thinking who are born again and pure who are cleansing their heart/walk/way/thoughts

5:23 a.m. CH. invited me over to a wienie roast with her girl scouts after we got back from a trip in a school bus.

This gives a picture glimpse of people whom I want to see develop a closer relationship with the Lord going through training time and taking in spiritual food and looking for new things to achieve.

5:49 a.m. I was walking through a room where people were standing and some were sitting at tables. It seemed like we were back stage. I had been in my office and gotten a phone call. I carried my phone with me as I walked through this area and tried to talk on the phone as I went. 

Again the song in my mind: “Oh, praise Him, He is holy.”

I was in my church office as secretary. Various people came in and talked with me. Seems like JF was one and that we shared together awhile. A salesman came in. I hoped he didn’t take long as he got out some suitcase which I thought held the things he wanted to sell. When the salesman came in I saw the pastor come out of his office and the salesman seemed to know him. I was eating an apple. One man showed me his jacket and it was made of material that let a lot of air in. Outside some people were playing baseball and signaling with the fingers on their hands whether someone was up or down.

This gives a picture of me talking with the Lord as I deal with people in various stages of their lives. I seem to be worshiping as I go. I seem to be the personal assistant/secretary for people to talk with, share with, let them tell about things in their lives, etc. JF is a person very committed to telling people about the Lord. The salesman may be the Holy Spirit who wants to display the anointing (suitcase) so people might want to “buy” it. Eating an apple refers to operating in the fruit of the Spirit. People playing baseball refers to worship and some people seemed to be accepted and some not accepted (fingers up or down).

The whole dream series seems to show:
1.	People recognizing Jesus and taking out His food
2.	People born again, pure, and cleansing themselves
3.	People developing a closer relationship with the Lord
4.	My working with people in listening to them, telling people about the Lord, operating in the fruit of the Spirit, helping them know about the anointing, and watching them worship

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What the Lord has shown me here is a series of pictures showing people seeing Jesus and taking His food, being born again and cleansing themselves, developing a closer relationship with Him, and my working with people as they do these things. This book may be part of my way of doing this.

DEEPER REVELATION IN THE SECRET PLACE
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I have come so that they might have life and have it abundantly. This dream series shows people in different stages or aspects of having the abundant life…but it starts with “seeing” Me for who I am and “taking” Me as their Lord and Savior. Then other stages develop after that.

JOURNAL 6-17-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT THE WORSHIP AND GLORY OF A CHURCH BEING LEGALISTIC EVEN THOUGH IT LOOKED BEAUTIFUL AND SPECIAL
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1. I belonged to a choir. Only 3 people, including me, were at a rehearsal besides the director. We started singing a little but didn’t finish the songs. The director would go away awhile and come back. We had specific places to stand for our vocal part. These specific places seemed to be marked by squares drawn on the floor and we were to stand in our square. The three of us choir members waited in the assigned rehearsal area for the director to return.

2. I saw S at a flower show. She was about to buy a flower arrangement (artificial) that she thought was really beautiful and special. It looked like some flower rather like lilacs. She said if I wanted to I could get some with “no cash needed.” Another lady mentioned the interest rate was 4%.

1. Three people refers to those conformed to the likeness of Christ (Christians). Singing in the choir refers to worshipping. We start singing here on earth, but will finish when the director, Jesus, returns. We were assigned specific places to minister and be until He returns. The squares refer to this place of our standing. The square shape could refer to being legalistic religiously (as opposed to a round shape which means spiritual, having grace and mercy).

2. Flowers represent glory so it seems that artificial flowers would refer to fake glory or artificial glory. The flowers S was about to buy (and urged me to buy) were artificial, not the real thing, but really looked good. It seemed that I could purchase this fake glory without any cash needed (no cost to me?) but there was still an interest rate of 4% - which could represent what it would cost later. The number 4 refers to creation, the world, ruling and reigning over the world. S was a friend from a previous church I attended, so perhaps this refers to that church atmosphere or worship. That church may be represented by the squares we needed to stand in to sing in the choir – referring to being religiously legalistic.

You’re right in your interpretation. This dream refers to your former church and the legalistic form of worship and glory you experienced there. 

What the Lord has shown me here is about the worship and glory of a former church I attended being legalistic even though it looked beautiful and special.

JOURNAL 6-20-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT TWO CHURCHES WITH AN AGENDA IN THE NATURAL REALM AND A SPIRITUAL LIFE IN COMIC STRIP FORM
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I seemed to be working in an office. A group of us began gathering for a meeting. It seems I was to have written the agenda from my notes after the last meeting, but I didn’t know that or remember it. Previously someone else did that but he/she was no longer with us, so the chairperson expected that of me and I hadn’t done it. I found my notes from the last meeting and offered to photocopy them.

It seems I also was to be at another group’s meeting at the same time. I had started meeting with first group, but then I saw the chairperson of the second group (above) and was needed there so I left the first group meeting to go to the second one. I saw my second group meeting notes on a page with the notes on the right side (about 1/3 of the page) and comic strip pictures on the left 2/3 of the page.

It seems like I am the person this dream is about since I am the only participant along with a “group meeting.”  I didn’t see any people in this dream but seemed to observe and know what was happening. So this may be an observation dream about two groups I have participated in. I will guess these groups refer to church groups in my past that I am taking a look at. This may refer to two churches I used to attend. I worked there and there were expectations of me. One expectation involved notes I took about a meeting. This may refer to my writings about my church (meeting) experiences. The significant focus of the dream is the notes I took which showed a list of things discussed (the agenda) on the right side of the page. Being on the right side may refer to things in the natural realm. The comic strip pictures on the left side (left refers to things of the Spirit) may show those groups as comical, or not real, or being fake in the area of spiritual things.

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What the Lord has shown me here is regarding two previous churches where I attended meetings. My written report on the agenda there shows the agenda to be things in the natural realm, and shows the spiritual side of the churches as not real but a drawing to look like real.

JOURNAL 6-21-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT A CHURCH WITH DEAFNESS AND TRAVELING THE PATHWAY OF THE TRADITIONS OF MEN WHILE LOOKING GOOD ON THE OUTSIDE
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1. The setting of this dream seemed to be at a church building and the area surrounding it. In the first scene I was at a choir rehearsal. The choir members were going through 3 songs that had hand motions that I didn’t know. I watched them go through the hand motions/signals - like deaf signals. I thought it would look strange to sing with the group and not know the hand motions like they did.

2. A lady came to me at choir rehearsal and started to tell me information about a trip she and S were going on. None of what she told me sounded familiar to me or made sense to me. So I suggested we meet outside the rehearsal area to talk so I could hear her better. When I tried to meet them at the outdoor place where I thought we were to meet I had difficulty getting to the place. There were no sidewalks to walk on to the meeting place.

3. I tried to go one pathway, but it was wet and muddy so I went back to the church building and tried to go another pathway. Eventually I came to a wet muddy area on this second path. There was a hole in the ground I went around and then I almost stepped into another hole in the ground. These were difficult to see until you were almost over them. I tried to find a cut-through walkway to the first route but saw places that looked difficult to go through.

4. In another scene I saw S inside the church building and we seemed to be in an area for women. She had on a grayed aqua top with lapels. I really like the color of that top. In another part of the dream I saw a place where I had to step over/around someone’s flowered dress that was lying on the floor. A large spot on the dress was damp from having been washed, and the dress had been laid out to dry.

1.	The setting seems to be at church. The dream seems to be about me as I was a major participant in it. The first scene seems to involve worship (choir rehearsal) but implies there is a deafness in the church since deaf like hand signals were used for worship. Since I didn’t know the hand signals, perhaps that means I didn’t realize the deafness in the church.

2.	The people in this church were talking to me trying to explain the pathway or trip they were going on, but I didn’t grasp what they were saying and couldn’t hear them well.

3.	Trying to walk on a pathway can refer to a way, life, a private walk with God, the gospel, or salvation. If the pathway is muddy it refers to flesh, man’s way, impassable, difficulty caused by the weakness of the flesh. A rut (the holes?) refers to habits or addictions of the flesh, or traditions of man. A ditch can refer to a habit or snare, a religious tradition, an addiction, a sin. Since these ladies were going on a trip (highway, pathway) and were trying to explain it to me, perhaps this refers to a church where I attended and people tried to get me to go their way. This way turned out to be muddy, a way which represents man’s way or the way of the traditions of men. There were snares on that pathway.

4.	The woman may represent this church. Her covering looks pretty to me, but the dress I saw had a large spot on it which someone tried to wash away so it wouldn’t show. This may represent the church trying to make the outside covering look good, but that doesn’t mean the inside is pretty and clean.

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What the Lord has shown me here is information about a church. This church had deafness, traveled the way of the flesh, man’s way, or in the traditions of man. There were great difficulties in trying to travel their pathway even though the church tried to look good in their covering and on the outside view.

JOURNAL 6-22-05 Wednesday

A PROPHETIC DREAM ABOUT THE END TIMES
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In this scene a bull was expected to come soon and people were preparing to get out of its way when it arrived. I was seeking a place to be when it arrived so it couldn’t get to me. 

In this scene I was teaching children to sing a song for some performance. There were several possibilities of how and what to sing. It was suggested to me to teach them to sing a simple solo line and either have them sing it all together or have it sung by individuals separately. I played the notes of the solo line on the piano and had them sing along with it. I rehearsed it one line at a time with them. It was a rather melancholy musical line which jumped around and wasn’t easy to follow. 

In the first scene the setting shows people expecting persecution and Spiritual warfare to come. We were seeking protection for ourselves by looking for a place to be so the persecution wouldn’t hit us. I was trying to find where it was best to be when that happened.

In the second scene I was working with a group of children to teach them a song that they could sing solo or together. This may represent my working with something new birthing through me to others, perhaps to new/young Christians. The activity involved worshipping God and ministering in the gifts of the Spirit. This could be done by oneself or together with others. My playing the notes one at a time for a phrase, then having them repeat it, could refer to my writing one phrase at a time. Since these musical phrases involved notes jumping around, perhaps they could refer to my writing going from one section to another. The melancholy sound could mean people would be reading the writings during a melancholy time period—perhaps during the tribulation. If it does refer to the tribulation, that would tie this second scene back to the first scene showing the expectation of difficulty and persecution, and my trying to help prepare for its arrival by writing my books for others to read during that time. 

I think you’ve done just fine in interpreting this. This talks about the end times and things that can be expected to happen then. There will be difficulties, but also worship and operation of the gifts of the Spirit, all at the same time. This will be generally a melancholy time. It will not be fun. It will be a time to keep strong through it and stand (“having done all, stand”). It will be a time to avoid as much of the persecution as possible. I will help people do that at that time, as they seek Me. This is a prophetic warning dream of things to come. You are sounding the warning in this writing. You are the prophet declaring what I’ve shown you.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture about things to come including persecution, worship, and operation of the gifts of the Spirit. It is a dream encouraging us to stand firm when this happens.

JOURNAL 6-23-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT COMING INTO THE STREAM OF THE SPIRIT
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3:50  I slipped down by a color page into a stream of movement. The color page was a single thickness and less easy to move on. Somehow words were part of the slipping down into the stream. Seems like 1 color page was black and another was red. After I got into the stream of movement it was easy to move around.

4:40  Double click on statement page.

I seem to be the only person in the dream so it is about me. I was going into the stream of the movement of God, the life of the Spirit. I got there by moving on pages which may represent books, the Bible, or my writing--as all three of these are used to bring me into the stream of the Spirit, and through entering that stream of ministry, the Spirit brings words to me. One page was black means that those books/writings brought a lack of entry into the stream of the Spirit. This may refer to books and reading that do not lead me into God’s Presence. One page was red which means those books/writings which bring passion, enthusiasm, and zeal for the stream of the Spirit. These may be referring to the Bible, certain Spiritual books, and rereading my writings. Once I get into the stream it is easy to travel around…to move in the Spirit to wherever God takes me. It reminds me of the leaf floating on the stream of water (which I saw in Shelter Garden some years ago when the Spirit said I was to be like that leaf). 

This second scene seems to be telling me to open the page/file that gives a statement. What is the statement? I think it is my purpose statement which is: to be close and intimate with Him, sharing each moment, each happening, together. He has called me just to be with Him. I am to be content with that. (See book 1 of Things The Lord Has Shown Me)

That is so right, My child. These dreams are telling you to read things which lead you into the stream of My Presence so I can speak to you. It is reminding you that some things you read do not take you into My Presence so words I speak cannot come to you through them. We have places to go and things to talk about so I want you to find your way into My Presence daily. And the second dream was to remind you of My purpose for your life and tell you to again read that.

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What the Lord has shown me here is to watch what things I read and focus on those things which lead me into His Presence so I can hear Him speak to me. And He also reminded me of the purpose for my life which He told me about long ago.

IDEAS FROM JOHN PAUL JACKSON TAPES ABOUT SPIRITUAL CREATIVE WRITING
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Spiritual: only a Christian can write spiritually. There is a level of writing that is transforming. It is transformational. It makes eternal change in the reader’s life. The only way eternal change can take place is spirit to spirit. The Spirit says: “listen and I’ll take you there.” 

This writing requires that you listen to what the Holy Spirit is saying. Believe that what you write is what the Spirit wants. We listen and write what He says. The still small voice is telling us where to go. 

Learn how to listen to the Spirit with a blank page. We capture what God has for us to write. Our job is to capture the essence of what the Spirit is saying…and writing it down…the life-giving properties. He is also preparing the readers.

We have to write from the vantage point of what will be…write from the point of what will be tomorrow. The Holy Spirit wants to give us concepts.

Takes creative writing one step further, helps reader to change, transforms prior resistance. Spirit infuses life to all who read it…it’s life giving, life changing.

1 Cor 2:9-16 “Eye has not seen nor ear heard what God has prepared for those who love Him...that we might know the things given us by God…in words the Holy Spirit teaches.” God’s Spirit talking to our spirit. This has to do with anything that is a work of the Spirit…music, art, writing.

It portrays how God views things. The Holy Spirit is waiting for us to listen to what He wants to say. It gives us understanding beyond our own capability. It achieves what you are incapable of achieving. The reader’s life is better for reading it. 

Inherent in writing in the Spirit includes having love. 

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Is this the kind of writing you have been doing? (Yes!) I wanted you to know this and be encouraged that I also showed this type of writing to someone you admire and look up to. It is not the world’s type of writing, therefore it is not for the world to read. It is for My people to read, the ones whose lives I want to transform through reading it. Believe in this now. Know this is what I want and what I will be accomplishing. It is all My work and I will do it. I will use it to change the lives of My people who read it. I will have to keep your manuscripts safe for just the right time to release them—and that is not now. You may put THOUGHTS AND STORIES BOOK 1 on the internet for right now, but wait for any others until and if I show you to do that. Be willing to wait. I will use your writing at just the right time and circumstances—and only I know that. Trust Me.

JOURNAL 6-24-05 Friday

A DREAM SHOWING A PICTURE OF GOD’S CHILDREN AFTER THE RAPTURE AND DURING THE TRIBULATION TIME
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(5:55 a.m.) In this dream I was participating along with a band (musical group) made of children. The group was standing in lines like a band formation for marching. I was standing in the midst of the group. Someone said that ___ has a birthday today and everybody laughed. This was said 4 times that ___ has a birthday today and the group laughed each time. It seems I gave a violin to ___ for her birthday.

This dream seems to be showing me something about me in relation to the children involved. I am participating in it and in the midst of the action. The children represent new Christians, perhaps the new Christians who come to Christ for salvation after the Rapture. I say this because I saw no adults in the scene except myself, and I was not a part of the band, just there in the midst of it. No adults means no mature Christians, only young ones. So I wonder if this means I am with them through my writings. The birthday of one person refers to being “born again” and having a spiritual birth. Saying it four times means this person now is part of the kingdom of God, those who rule and reign over the world, God’s creative works. The laughter speaks of revival and the move of God in this group. The group was standing in lines in formation as a marching band would stand, so it can mean these “children” gathered together and were ready for instruction from their Director. The violin gift can refer to this child receiving a gift of prophesying/worshiping, and ministering in that gift.

Lord, is this an affirmation or confirmation that I will be in the midst of the “young Christians” who will be born again after the Rapture when there will be no older Christians since they will be gone? Is this a picture of their births and revival and joy even while bonding/banding together and being ready for their instructions? Will I be there through my writings? Is this what this dream is about?

Yes, My child, that is what this dream means. You have interpreted it rightly. Be encouraged and know I will use your writings to help new Christians during that time, just like you have the desire to do. There will come a time when your writings will minister to many as I share them with people during that special time coming soon. It IS soon. The Rapture is soon; and I am working with you to prepare materials for these new Christians after the Rapture. You know that in your heart, and this dream is about that. It is a prophetic dream showing something to come.

What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of His children after the Rapture and during the tribulation rejoicing and laughing together and celebrating the new birth of others. He also shows me I am in the midst of them through my writings.

 BIBLE STUDY REGARDING THE RAPTURE
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When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. (John 10:4)

Today as I read this verse, I see it could refer to the Rapture because that is a time when Jesus “brings out” all His own and goes on ahead of them and they follow Him. I don’t remember ever thinking of that possibility of meaning for that particular Scripture before. It’s true that we follow Him because we know His voice.

“If you are the Christ, tell us plainly.” Jesus answered. “I did tell you, but you do not believe. The miracles I do in my Father’s name speak for me, but you do not believe because you are not my sheep. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand, I and the Father are one.” (italics mine) (John 10:24b-30)

I pray this verse today for all who are Your sheep, Jesus, that they all listen to Your voice and follow You, and no one can snatch them out of Your hand. I pray this gathering of your sheep is completed soon, and You return soon for all of them.

Amen. Come, Lord Jesus. (Revelation 22:20)

JOURNAL 6-25-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT CELEBRATING JUNE, JULY, AND AUGUST AND PULLING IN DELIGHTS DURING SEPTEMBER AND OCTOBER—CROSSING INTO NEW TERRITORY
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1.	(~1:00) I was cleaning something with a mop—perhaps the top of a car. I tried to be careful so the mop handle didn’t hit other people who were there watching.

2.	We were in a vehicle moving near a group of small airplanes looking for J’s airplane.

3.	(~3:00) There was a spot light shining directly at me—in my face. It seemed like it was J’s. It seemed I may have tried to move so it didn’t shine on me but I couldn’t avoid it. So I faced it and maybe tried to turn the light back on him.

4.	(5:30) I put the 2 pieces on either side of me that were needed to complete me. Those 2 pieces had been apart a ways, but I drew them next to me. It was hard to get them and move them into place but eventually I did.

                 (Sept)                                                                                                (Oct)  
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                               (Sept)             (June) (July) (August)            (Oct)    

5.	(6:25) Words that came as a clue to the meaning of #4 scene: Except ye celebrate June, July, and August, ye shall not pull in the delights that come in the fall—September and October. By being willing to write down the strange picture (in #4), you then could receive the clue to understanding. (6:40) We’ve crossed into new territory.

Scene #1 shows me cleaning some car while others watch. A car represents ministry, perhaps my ministry, so it could show me cleaning my ministry being careful not to hit other people as I did so.

Scene #2 a small airplane represents a person or personal ministry. J represents my husband, Jesus, so this would be Jesus’ airplane that He and I were looking for. An airplane goes in the air. This would refer to being moved by the Spirit. I think this refers to the writing I am currently doing and what He is going to do with that writing in these 5 months mentioned in scene #4.

Scene #3 a spotlight could refer to being manifest, revealed, or exposed. A spotlight is a big and strong light and it shone directly at me—in my face. My face represents my heart showing who I am. This spotlight was Jesus’ spotlight and I couldn’t avoid it or keep it away from shining on me. So I faced it and tried to turn the light back on Jesus—reveal Him, give Him the thanks, praise, and glory.

Scene #4 shows that I am to celebrate (worship, praise, thanksgiving) during June, July, and August. Then I will be able to “pull in” the delights that come in the fall—September and October. In my heart I believe these delights include many wonderful revival events and manifestations and healings of the Lord. 

"We’ve crossed into new territory."  What does this mean, Lord? What new territory?

New territory: new land, new place of being, new place of dwelling, different than where I’ve been before, new in the Spiritual realm

This whole dream sequence speaks of ministry and spiritual happenings: cleansing, being moved by the Spirit, manifesting what Jesus is doing in me, celebrating during these next months, crossing into new territory.

This is all true that you have written here. In this dream sequence I am describing some things coming in these months of June, July, August, September and October. This is a prophetic dream giving you clues to what is coming so you can look for it and celebrate it and thank Me for it and pray for it.

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What the Lord has shown me here is my ministry being cleansed, moved by the Spirit, manifesting what Jesus is doing in me, celebrating what He is doing during June, July and August, and crossing into new territory.

JOURNAL 6-26-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT PICKING UP COINS IN THE GRASS
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In this dream I noticed a coin (dime) on the ground in the grass. I picked it up. As I looked around in that area I also noticed a bunch of coins (various ones including a half dollar) on the ground and picked them up. I saw another dime and picked it up. I put these coins in my pocket. Then I saw 2 pennies but I was planning to pick them up later when no one was around since there were people around when I saw them.

If  grass stands for flesh/self, then this may refer to provision coming to me in the natural realm. If grass stands for the Word of God/the revelation of Christ, then this dream may refer to my finding and picking up spiritual riches and gifts. Either way it is a wonderful dream full of promise. Whichever it is, or if it’s something I haven’t thought of yet, it is something that comes from the Lord and is “found” by me unexpectedly.

Ok, this is what this dream means: it talks of spiritual riches to come and you will be “picking them up” as you walk and look for them. You started picking them up when you went to the worship time with Paul Keith Davis and Shawn Bolz. That was definitely a spiritual gift that you “picked up” by taking time to go to the gathering. There will be more of these and you will search for them, and see them, and pick them up and put them into your pocket—keep them in your possession and use them. Thursday night worship encounter may be another treasure you pick up. You have already picked up many treasures by being here in Lee’s Summit which you wouldn’t have found in Columbia. I brought you here to bless you, and I am doing that—with many Spiritual blessings, week by week. We will continue this searching and picking up the treasures. Today’s treasure will include the John Paul Jackson CD you plan to listen to later. I am your treasure, and I have many ways to bring My treasure to you…daily.

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What the Lord has shown me here is about spiritual riches He is bringing me through other people.

JOURNAL 6-27-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT MY TEACHING DIFFERENT TYPES OF STUDENTS THROUGH THE BOOKS I AM WRITING
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In this dream I was a teacher in a classroom with students. 
1.	One student was laid down for a nap. 
2.	I was warm so I took off my red sweater. 
3.	I had a white blouse beneath it. 
4.	Another teacher wanted me to set our monthly luncheon for the students so it would not be on a day when he came to my classroom to work with students. I said our monthly luncheon was not on a set day the same each month, so we couldn’t adjust it to fit his schedule. 
5.	There was a no smoking rule in the classroom. 
6.	I had to tell 3 students to stop smoking inside it. These students were older. One used a pipe. 
7.	I saw a red page or book with ^’s marked on it along several edges in black ink. 
8.	I hung on a peg a purple sweater of one student. 
9.	I had to turn in a report, kind of like a bank account report.

The setting of the dream is a classroom where I am the teacher and there are students in the room with me. The students and I are participants together. This dream gives ideas about different types of students and their needs: i.e. unconscious/unaware, pride/intellectual pride, with royal covering, etc. My clothes gave a picture of passion and zeal along with truth covering me. There seemed to be a regular time of partaking of food together – the Word of God. The book used had wisdom and redemption with passion and was marked in a special way. I was to give an accounting about my work there. My thoughts about this dream scene is that it relates to the books I am writing, the different types of people it might influence/contact, and the account of this given in heaven.

Yes, what you have written as the interpretation is a skeleton of what is in the dream. I will keep adding to the picture I am giving you of those your books will contact and influence (teach) and some of their reactions to them. Your record is continually being kept in heaven of what you are doing with Me and for Me. You are covered with passion, zeal, and purity and truth as you do this book writing project with Me.

I am come that they might have life and have it abundantly. I will transmit life through your writings to those who will receive it – especially those with a purple/royal covering over them. Be at peace that you are doing all you can to reach and help others through your books. I will do all else that is necessary to speak to them. Thank you for your help. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of my “teachings” through writing books and how these teachings will impact the “students” who will get the possibility of learning from them at some future time.

IN THE SECRET PLACE
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Come away with Me now and listen to Me. I have things to tell you. Listen to the CD of “A Set Time” by Todd Bentley and then we will talk.

I listened to the CD, then I asked:  What are you saying to me through this CD message, Lord? That this is the set time for answering the work, the prayers, the sacrifice of this past year and all the years before regarding the writing You have led me to do?

I have heard your prayers; I have seen your work; I have watched you set yourself apart to listen to Me day after day for these many years (1976-2005) and I have seen you writing what I have given you to write for all these years. Now is the set time to release all those writings out into the ministry I have for them. Now is the time to use these writings to help people I bring them to—people I pick and appoint to receive them. You have done your part. Now is the time for My part. You have entertained Me in intimacy morning by morning. Now I will give you the fruit of that sacrifice of time and energy and work. Now is the set time. Now. You will gradually see this “now” take shape and progress…but it is starting now.

JOURNAL 6-28-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT BLOCKING ENEMY ACCESS THROUGH THE BLOOD OF JESUS
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2:30 I was with White Dove ministry people. They had a way to block bad things from getting to them and allowing good things to come in. I was trying to learn how so I could do it too. They used a computer and words in the process. I saw the words “Block Name” come on a computer screen in a box (as if I went into someone’s site but wasn’t allowed to see their name and access number):      	                        ____________
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Since I was with White Dove ministry people during the evening before this dream, that might be one reason they were in my dream. To me this dream seems to give me a clue about how to keep bad things from getting to me. That clue is like the Block Name box one might find on a computer if you weren’t allowed access to a person’s site. I feel this clue is saying that I can “block my name” and access code so the enemy can’t get through to my site (my soul, spirit, and body). Lord, I want to follow that clue and block my name and access code from the enemy, from bad things. Tell me how I do that please, Lord?

Oh, I have wanted to teach you this for a long time! You can block your name and access to the enemy by placing My blood over you each and every day, first thing each morning. You may also do that for your loved ones you pray for. 

Does that include protection from sickness too?

Look at Psalm 91 and list here the protection that is included for those who will: “dwell in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.”  

•	God will be our refuge and fortress.
•	God will save us from the fowler’s snare and deadly pestilence. 
•	God will be our shield and rampart. 
•	We will not fear terror of night nor arrow by day, nor pestilence that stalks in darkness, nor plague that destroys at midday.
•	Thousands may fall at our sides, but it will not come near us. 
•	No harm will befall us; no disaster will come near our tents. 
•	God will command his angels concerning us to guard us in all our ways.
•	We will tread upon the lion and cobra, the great lion and serpent.
•	God will protect us.
•	God will answer us when we call upon Him.
•	God will be with us in trouble and He will deliver us and honor us.
•	God will give us long life and show us His salvation.  

These kinds of protection are for those who dwell in the shelter of the Most High. Place the blood of Jesus over your loved ones each morning and I will help them “dwell” there. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is how to block access of the enemy through the blood of Jesus.

JOURNAL 6-29-05 Wednesday

A DREAM WITH SCENES OF THE PEOPLE DURING TRIBULATION TIMES BEING MINISTERED TO
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1. (5:00) I took my brother, J, a small child, outside the house to run and play awhile while I went inside to get dressed. I showed him a door he could knock on if he wanted to come in before I returned.

2. I saw 2 shirts that were flat and stiff like cardboard, but it seemed they were shirts. They were both darker gray with designs on the front. One shirt had the design in light gray and the other had the design in a light green. The design looked like this:
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3. I was walking through a building where there were lots and lots of baked goods. I took two cookies to eat but I was looking to see if I wanted to trade one cookie for something else.

4. I was outside looking for a place to sit and eat my 2 cookies. I found a folding chair empty and planned to sit there, but some girl came and sat there, so I was walking back inside.

5. I saw 2 people sitting along a hallway—a man and a boy. I think they were eating.

6. (5:50) I was looking out a small back window of a house.

7. The thought came “murder of the soul.”

8. (6:30) I was in a girls’ dorm and went looking for the bathroom. I found it and entered it through 2 different light green doors and saw 2 stalls. I was barefooted and the stall floors were wet so I hesitated to go in, but I did go inside one large stall. I pulled something on the wall and accidentally turned on a shower and got wet. A shower curtain started to come down. I went back in the hallway and was trying to find my way back to my room. I was on the first floor. I saw white wallpaper with small gray leaf design near the front lobby as I walked.

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This can represent those Spiritual children you want to help find Me. You feel as close to them as you do to your natural brother, however these children are young in the faith or don’t even yet belong to Me. These children are “outside the house” or outside the church or dwelling place of My people. These could be children that come after the Rapture when there may not be churches allowed to meet as yours does now. They are outside the Church and they “run and play” which represents worshiping Me, and this is while you are inside getting dressed which means you are inside heaven getting dressed in your robes of heaven, your covering in heaven. While you are in heaven and he is on earth worshiping, you have given him instruction about a door (I am the Door) he can knock on (get the attention of someone inside) if he wants to come in with Me. This refers to your writings which will act as “a door” to those who are seeking Me.

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As this relates to the first dream scene, this would refer to people who had coverings that were hazy, not defined, unclear, and even possibly deceived. The design on their covering was also unclear. The shirts being stiff may refer to the inflexibility and unwillingness to adapt or be shaped.

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In this scene I was being led by the Spirit and making progress through the building of my life in the Church. The two cookies refer to being judged or separated out by the food I had which had been through the heat of life. I wanted to make an exchange for something even better which could refer to life in heaven and the wonderful food there—the wedding supper of the Lamb.

4.
Again this refers to helping the young and immature find a place of rest in Christ. 

5.
This scene seems to refer to the mature and the immature sitting together in an area of transition, and partaking of the food of the Word.

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This seems to be a picture of me looking for revelation and understanding through the past through a small opening. I wonder if this is describing my looking back sometime in the future to see what is happening regarding my books and the people reached and helped by them. The smallness of the window may mean I am not able to see much about it.

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This scene may be some of what I see when I look out that small window. I not only see children worshiping and getting food and rest, but I can also “see” souls being murdered/killed. It reminds me of what Jesus said:

Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. (Matthew 10:28

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? (Matthew 16:26)

Many souls will be “murdered” during the tribulation. This is something I would see out that small window of revelation when I look back from heaven.

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The Holy Spirit showed me that in this dream scene I represented the people who would read my books later. Therefore these people are in a place of rest and learning. They go through two green doors which represents opportunities for life and renewal. They get toxins washed off them and have a covering come upon them. They go through transitions seeing pictures of purity with words of life on them. They are looking for their way home (to God).

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What the Lord has shown me here is my spiritual children being helped through my books influencing them and scenes of life during the tribulation.

IN THE SECRET PLACE REGARDING HIS KINGDOM BEING POURED OUT NOW ON THE EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN
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I’m going to talk to you about Me, what I’m like. I think like this; I think universally. I think on a much bigger, grander scale than you can even conceive of. I know the “whole picture” as you would say. I have you and all My people in the midst of the whole picture, carrying out My intricate plans regarding the whole world in which you live. I created that world and I created all who live in it, and I have plans to carry out regarding it. 

As you listen to Me and obediently follow Me, I set you apart as being an important piece of that plan. I use My people to display My kingdom—the kingdom that you have prayed to come since you were a little child—before you had any idea what that meant. Now, My kingdom is coming more and more on the earth. The prayers for it to come all these many many years since I taught that to My disciples have added and multiplied, and it is now time for My angels to send that “prayer incense” back to the earth and answer those prayers. Yes, it’s true! My kingdom is now to be poured out in much greater degree and amount than you can even ask or imagine. 

You are already starting to see it in Todd Bentley’s ministry—and I see it in many others’ ministries too. The world does not yet see it, but it will. It will be so evident you will even begin to see and hear reports on the TV news and in the newspapers. You will hear testimonies and see miracles, signs, wonders, and unusual events. Along with these many signs in the spiritual world will be signs in the natural world which the world WILL see—earthquakes, storms, wild fires, shakings of many kinds. 

The natural and spiritual atmospheres are all stirred up,  all stirred up! There is no peace in them. They will continue to be stirred until My kingdom is completely displayed on the earth after the tribulation is done. Then there will be peace in the natural and spiritual worlds. Don’t be dismayed. Just keep praying for My kingdom to come and My will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. That is not a lost or wasted prayer. I hear them all and I catch them all and store them until they are fulfilled.

In Quiet Time later the Holy Spirit said this:

Lots of common ordinary people can relate to what you write because you have dreams and so do they. I have given you the ministry I want you to have—listening and writing. If I wanted you to have open heavens, I would have given you that. Be content with who you are and what you have been given—and chosen for.

JOURNAL 6-30-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT USING MY MINISTRY GIFTS IN HIS TIMING AND SCHEDULE
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1. I was building a place with bricks to hold a Christmas tree inside a box so it could be stored standing up. The inside bottom of the box looked like a circle of bricks with space in the middle for the tree:
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2. (A later dream) Bands came into one school from all over the area to each play a song in concert. There were two main groups on the schedule. I saw them on the program as two box shapes, one above the other. The upper one had a name in the box but I don’t remember it. The lower one had the name purpose written in the box.            

Purpose	

3. Early in this band dream I was asking where they were playing (what town) and hoping to follow someone there in my car since I didn’t know how to get there. One person said it was easy; just follow the road to (name of town) but I didn’t know that road. I was trying to write down the name of the host school and it was a strange name like in a foreign language. (like cr---  ------ two words). I saw the name in words and it was dark blue.

4.  Next scene I was there at the band concert. I didn’t see how I got there. The band students went on buses. I went there and was meeting with some of the band directors. B led one group/band. One director was showing me the schedule on a chalkboard. When a director said something to me I couldn’t hear him clearly and asked him to repeat it. This happened again with another director. B joked that he was going to call on me to conduct a piece. I wasn’t aware of what pieces they were playing and knew I wasn’t prepared for that—they weren’t my bands. I heard one song being played and remarked that it was nice.

5. Later I awoke and the words came to me: Get ready for this.

1.
I was the focus of the dream. I was the only person participating. The main subject was a Christmas tree and fixing a place and way to store it. The tree could represent spiritual gifts and the box represent a place of storage for those gifts. The place of storage included strong building materials placed in covenant shape. Perhaps that box symbolizes me and the gifts are stored in me in covenant with strong building materials. Perhaps this is the setting (I as a place of storage for spiritual gifts) for the rest of the dream scenes that came later the same night.

2.
This is a dream where I am viewing or seeing events happen. I wasn’t necessarily participating in this part of the dream. The focus of the dream seems to be playing the songs in concert which can represent worship and prophesying as well as ministering in the gifts of the Spirit. The box name seems to state that this is the purpose of the gathering. Therefore I will say the purpose of the groups gathering is to worship, prophesy and minister in the gifts of the Spirit.

3.
I was a participant in this dream along with others. The focus seems to be: where is this worship event taking place and how do I get there. I was going in my car (my ministry) and I was to go along a road (way, the Christian faith, truth, way of life, Christ). The host school (place of teaching and learning) was in a town with a name in a foreign language (meaning needing to be revealed by the Holy Spirit). Dark blue letters refer to being spiritual, God’s Spirit or Word. Two words could refer to those divided out, separated out. So this dream is saying to find my destination (where I am going) I am to travel along the way of Christ in my ministry gifting and the place will be revealed to me by the Holy Spirit—that it is a separated out and spiritual place.

4.
I am the main participant along with others (B, directors, band students). The focus of the dream is the schedule for playing the songs and the playing of these. The schedule was easily changed as it was written in chalk. The fact that I didn’t hear clearly two times seems to indicate I am not hearing well what the leaders are saying. I need to hear what they say more than once to get it correct. I wasn’t prepared to be a director. I liked the worship and prophesying.

5.
"Get ready for this" is a directive from the Holy Spirit. It means to me that I am to understand what is coming and prepare for it. My question is: how do You want me to prepare for this? This seems to be answered in the first dream scenes.

1.	I am a place of storage for spiritual gifts
2.	Groups are gathering to worship, prophesy, and minister in the gifts of the Spirit
3.	I am to travel along the way of Christ in my ministry gifting and the place will be revealed to me by the Holy Spirit—a separated out and spiritual place.
4.	The focus is the schedule or timing of events for prophesying and worshiping and ministering in the Spiritual gifts
5.	I need to listen well and get prepared for this. I get prepared by listening well daily.

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What the Lord has shown me here is I have spiritual gifts and I am to continue ministering in those gifts. The place of ministry will be revealed to me. The timing and schedule for ministry events will be made clear as I listen well and continue to prepare to use those gifts.

IN THE SECRET PLACE
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Keep following Me. Keep following the road I lead you on. Keep learning (preparation) when I guide you to learn and what I guide you to learn. Listen to Me daily, all day. I will show you the way and the place where I want to use the gifting I have put in you. I have a purpose and plan for your life. And this dream is to remind you of that and encourage you to keep seeking Me for it. I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No man comes to the Father except by Me.

JOURNAL 7-1-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT GOING THROUGH A GRADUATION PROCESS
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1.	(4:00 a.m.) It was graduation day for me and my class. We got on our maroon caps and gowns. As I dressed I saw myself in the mirror and I looked rather pale. My face was round/oval and didn’t look like me.
2.	One guy had the collar piece of his graduation gown missing and I was trying to help him get that piece replaced from the gown people there.
3.	We were about to go into the auditorium where we would be seated when I raced back to the dressing area to get my lipstick from my purse to take with me. I had to pass by several older men in suits (standing in a muddy area with their backs to where I ran from) to get to the dressing area. One man talked to me as if he thought I was someone else looking for me and said I wasn’t there—and he then recognized me and let me go in the dressing area.
4.	Sometime in this dream scene I also got a hot dog so I could eat it during the ceremony. 
5.	(4:22 a.m.) I saw a page with words written on it. Some of the words were underlined and written in green. I dreamed I was writing that down in my dream record, and then woke up and realized I needed to do that.
6.	(6:22 a.m.) Since I let this couple do an experiment on my garden the previous year, they had put on the garden this year something new (maybe fertilizer).

1-2
This scene shows a time of completion of training, of finishing it, and going through the ceremony to celebrate and display that completion. This was a time of emotions and love being displayed and our covering and salvation being on display in us. I looked pure and spiritual in the mirror as I saw myself there, with grace, mercy and compassion showing in my face or identity/heart. I tried to help another person with something regarding his will and authority. I participated in this dream along with others who were there also. The others were also people graduating. The focus of the dream seems to be the graduation process.

3-4
The graduation process/ceremony was being held in a place of magnification, making something bigger. We were to rest there. I went back to the place of my treasure/identity/heart and got the covering for my words and speech. To get back there I had to pass through/by several older men in suits, perhaps referring to the men at a former church that had been on my way, my private walk with God. It was difficult to go that way. The food I got to eat during the ceremony was like meat, but maybe fake meat, meaning fake work of God or work of God that wasn’t pure meat/food/work. This may refer to what I did along the way to the graduation including some work that wasn’t entirely pure or perhaps not feeding people with the most God has given me.

5-6
This graduation ceremony/process went on to writing pages with words on them. These words included some that affected the conscience, growth, prosperity and life of those who read them. Now, at the end of the “previous year,” I was being given something on my garden/my life that would cause it to grow better.

This whole sequence reminds me of my pathway through former churches and now at CTC (Christ Triumphant Church). The whole process is now being celebrated with a graduation and completion of my training. My garden, where I meet with Jesus and commune, will grow even better this year. This is a very encouraging dream if I am interpreting it right. It fits with the prophecy given me by my current pastor that the best is yet to come in my life, that I am not yet finished with the work God has for me.

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What the Lord has shown me here is I am in a process of graduating, completing the training He has for me, and this coming time will be better than what I have already gone through.

WRITING DURING THE WORSHIP ENCOUNTER AT CTC LAST NIGHT
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I’m here. I’m in this room with you…the wind of the Spirit.

I like this. I like it when people set aside time to sit in My Presence. Just do that tonight.

I’m pouring into you the treasures of heaven:
•	Wisdom
•	Prophecy
•	Heavenly provision

I will come to you each time you come on Thursday night to the worship time. I want to sit together with you there. I love you and love to spend time with you.

IN THE SECRET PLACE TODAY
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You see, I am leading you in interpreting your dreams in a way that many can interpret theirs, many who will read your writings. I am having you seek Me for direction and guidance in interpreting your dreams, then looking up and thinking through what the things in your dreams might symbolize, and then, under My guidance, writing out the thoughts I give you. Many people can interpret dreams in this way. The important thing is to seek Me and let Me guide you. This is different than John Paul Jackson interprets dreams. He has a gift of interpreting dreams—like Joseph did. You don’t have that gift. Many people don’t, so they can relate to how you go about interpreting your dreams. This will be helpful to many. That’s why I want you to write this.

JOURNAL 7-2-05 Saturday

DREAMS ABOUT THE WORLD BEING DIVIDED INTO GRAY AND WHITE, THE TIME BEING SHORT, AND DISCIPLING OTHERS
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1. (4:30) I saw a small gray-white film/screen piece oval shaped. It was arranged or placed in something in a way that would block off what was in it…rather like it was placed in a container so that it fit snugly to divide the container into sections.

2. (4:54) These words were there as I awoke: “30 seconds of life.”

3. (5:12) These words were there as I woke up: “Pale gray film grass on weeds.”

4. (7:59) D and L and I were planning and doing a workshop with three other people attending. It was in a gym-like room, large and spacious. We had tables there where the people attending were sitting, and tables where we did some of our planning. 

I was playing music for them from my blue briefcase/suitcase. This suitcase was about 24” long by 12” high and 12” deep. It opened into two major sections and there were many compartments in it. I had opened it into the two major sections and placed it with one section on the floor, and the other section leaning against the wall. It was turned toward the attendees so they could hear it. To turn the music off I needed to push on a certain compartment.  When I punched the place to turn off the music, it was difficult to get it turned off. It just kept playing and I had to punch lots of times for it to finally stop. 

I was at the table with D and L showing them my blue suitcase which seemed to contain materials/books on reading and math. It also had compartments with cards (about the size and shape of credit cards) that contained games. The cards used to belong to K but she didn’t want them anymore. D was really interested in the cards and was looking at them. It seemed like he could take a card out of a pocket in the suitcase (there were many in pockets) and the card would open up something (like maybe a tiny umbrella).

At one point when I was with D and L I thought about saying to them “I’m married now” but realized I really wasn’t so I didn’t say it. It seemed my wanting to say that referred to being married to Jesus.

One attendee (a lady) had just recently gotten married. Her husband was at my house with others during the workshop time. I saw him there and he told me he didn’t want to be there. Later, as I talked with his wife, she also told me he didn’t want to be there and I said I knew because he had told me.

One woman was very shy to meet us and I empathized with her and wanted to make her feel relaxed and ok.

D, L and I were trying to decide what material we would present and in what sequence.

1.
This dream picture seems to be like a revelation to me since I was the only person involved. I wasn’t participating, but observing this picture. My first idea about it’s meaning is that this oval shaped film/screen which was a gray-white color was showing a division of the container (in this case maybe the container symbolizes the world) into two sections. The people on the gray side of the container are those who are not defined, unclear, are in the gray area between right and wrong, and may refer to being deceived, with false doctrines and not belonging to Jesus. The people on the white side may be those who are pure, without mixture, and righteous belonging to Jesus. The oval shape of the dividing screen/film shows the division is based on spiritual principles, grace, mercy and compassion. So this picture may represent people in the world being divided into gray and white areas.

2.
The phrase “30 seconds of life” seems to refer to the amount of time there is left in life. Perhaps this means that in my life I have only the equivalent of 30 seconds left before I am not living on earth anymore or before the Rapture. If this refers to the people in the world, as in the first dream scene, many of them may have a very short amount of time left in life.

3.
This film which divides the world container shows or divides out the flesh and works of the flesh. It could even refer to the fullness of iniquity if the weeds have gone to seed.

4.
D, L, and I represent those who disciple Christians so this picture may represent that. Three people attending may refer to those people who conform to, obey, copy, and imitate Christ, are in His likeness.  They are being discipled in a gym which refers to great discipline, to do something over and over, a place of training, exercise. Using tables refers to communion, agreement, covenant. Sitting down in chairs refers to rest or position, quietness. 

Playing music from my blue suitcase refers to prophesying/worshiping from the personal, the heart. It could also refer to this discipling time being temporary and that eventually we’re moving on.  The many compartments in the suitcase may refer to the many facets of learning in regard to following Christ. This suitcase of discipling was turned toward those who would listen to it. The music coming from it wasn’t easily stopped; it kept going even when I tried to stop it. The music refers to worshiping.

The blue suitcase seemed to contain books of knowledge and cards for games/fun. The cards would open up something to the one using it, perhaps some knowledge or understanding or revelation. The umbrella may represent covering and protection for the rain that’s coming.

My desire to say I was married seemed to refer to my desire to tell about my relationship with Jesus. One lady recently married had a husband who didn’t want to be involved while she did. Another woman was shy and I related to that shyness. The disciplers were deciding what material to present and in what sequence. 

So this whole dream scene refers to people discipling and those being discipled. It shows worship, prophesying, discipline and training, communion, agreement and rest. It was for those who would come and participate and listen. The possibilities were knowledge, understanding and revelation. Some wanted to be there and some didn’t. 

To put together all the scenes:

This dream picture represents people in the world being divided into gray and white areas. The  amount of time there is left in life is very short. The world is being divided out to reveal the flesh and works of the flesh. The fullness of iniquity is almost here. It refers to people discipling and those being discipled—for those who want to who will come and participate and listen.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that people of the world are being divided, the time is short, the fullness of iniquity is almost here, and people are being discipled.

JOURNAL 7-3-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT MY BOOKS BEING REVEALED AND THEIR EFFECTS
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1.	(1:32) Beth was the source of many book stories. It was finally exposed/revealed.
2.	(3:20) Large groups of people were without clothes as water was poured on them group by group. I was in a group of 4-5 with that happening, but I knew it was happening to others also.
3.	(6:30) I made up an adult bed and laid on the floor some throw rugs that had been standing on their sides beside the bed.
4.	I made up a child’s bed and arranged a pretty spread on top that was white with embroidered flowers in various colors on it. It seemed like there was a baby wrapped in blankets in this bed. I was straightening the covers but never got the baby uncovered or unwrapped or unwound. The wrapped baby looked like the shape of a wrapped mummy, rather rectangular, but smaller toward the ends. I never saw the actual baby or whatever was inside the wrapped bundle, but rather assumed it was a baby. It was not small, but perhaps the size of a 1-2-year old child.
5.	I was showing M about caring for a baby. The instructions involved a baby blanket displayed on a wall.
6.	There was some liquid drink in a container. Someone blew air into it and it turned the liquid into a bunch of pairs of nylon pantihose—some tan and some light green. I saw them folded and lying in a box.
7.	Some lady from church called me. I picked up a phone in K’s room but couldn’t hear well on it. I kept asking her to hold on until I could answer on a different phone.

1.	In this dream I believe Beth refers to me and I am the person this dream is about. It says I am the source of many book stories and that they are finally revealed to other people. This likely refers to the books I am writing currently. This is the setting for this dream series and I am the focus of the dreams.

2.	Large groups of people may refer to just that. They were without clothes meaning they were exposed and vulnerable to each other, not covering anything up. Water pouring on them means the Spirit was being poured out upon them. I was also having this happen to me. This speaks of revival on large groups of people. Perhaps my books will be a part of that.

3.	I made up an adult bed I believe refers to making a place of rest and salvation and intimacy, perhaps with my books, for adults. Adults refer to those mature. Rugs can symbolize a covering or covenant. I seemed to be putting them in place.

4.	I made up a child’s bed: refers to making a place of rest and salvation and intimacy for those who “become like little children” as Jesus said we must do to come to Him. This also refers to the books I’m writing, mentioned in dream scene #1. The white spread symbolizes purity and the flowers of various colors symbolize glory. This glory is displayed in many different kinds (colors) of people. The baby that wasn’t yet unwrapped may refer to that which isn’t yet finished being birthed in my writings—they are taking 1-2 years to be birthed.

5.	M is someone especially interested in my book(s) and would be one who cares about them. The blanket (covering for a baby—the books) displayed on a wall (barrier, obstacle, defense, limitation, unbelief) may symbolize that those people whom she represents (people from previous churches who might read my books) will need instructions or help dealing with those books.

6.	The drink refers to the food or water (Word of God) in a vessel (doctrine, tradition, form of the truth) which has the wind of the Spirit blown upon it and it becomes a covering to put on and wear. Some people become tan (dead, repented, born again) and some become green (life, renewed).

7.	The lady from church may refer to an angel or messenger calling, communicating with me. The reference to K’s phone may symbolize that K is not yet being able to “hear” the Spirit well now. This probably symbolizes I need to wait awhile on her to hear it.

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What the Lord has shown me here shows my books finally being revealed to others and the effects it has on them…revival, rest, salvation, intimacy, covering, born again, renewed. It indicates this takes 1-2 years time. Some people may need instruction to overcome barriers and unbelief to receive the books. K’s response may take better communication and time.

JOURNAL 7-4-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT TESTING GOING ON IN THE WORLD AND THEIR SPIRITUAL CONDITION
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(4:02) I was dealing with the testing/trial of a special secret thing to see if it could be tested properly. There were about 4-5 stages of the testing process. Our lives were at stake if it tested wrong. We were not allowed to be exposed outside during the testing.

The tests involved socks. In one stage of testing the top of one sock frayed out into lots of deep aqua blue threads, but it was something we couldn’t help so we were trying to show the judges that it wasn’t the fault of our testing process. We may have been competing with others to finish the test process perfectly first.

A judge came up to me and was talking about the frayed sock top and deciding whether to judge that ok or judge against us.

The participants in this dream were several people (who were not familiar or known to me) and myself. We were inside what we were testing, but I could see what we were doing as if I was outside viewing it too.

A map
A letter
(?) 	
STAGE AREA

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* * * * * * * *  (people sitting facing stage)
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Kansas City
Rapid City

This dream refers to my spiritual covering, my walk in the Spirit and in a pure heart being tested secretly. There are several stages to this testing process. My life is at stake if I test wrong so it is very important. This is a test of things inside me and from the inside of me, even though I can also see it from the outside as if I was looking at it objectively. The parts of my spiritual covering/walk in the Spirit (which came loose from the other part) showed the threads (what it is woven of) as having communion with God, having divine revelation. That is being judged as to whether it is ok and would pass the test. The decision was not given in the dream. The other participants in this dream were people I didn’t know but they seemed to be in this testing process also or at least involved in my testing. Perhaps they refer to those who have gone before me (cloud of witnesses) or angels. This is a dream to give me a picture of testing that is going on in my life right now, secretly, on the inside of me, involving my heart and walk with the Spirit.

This dream could also be referring to the hidden/secret testing going on in the world of everyone regarding their spiritual condition. Lives are at stake according to how people are judged. I am part of this but also outside watching it happen.

(6:33) I saw a quick dream impression then woke up. I tried to hold on to the impression long enough to draw it. On the right side of the scene what I drew showed something on a stage-like area (perhaps a stage show, or a church service) and people were sitting in front of it. Below this picture I saw the words printed: Kansas City, and under that I saw the words printed: Rapid City. On the left side I saw a box with words in it: a map, a letter, and ? (something I don’t remember)

This dream reminds me of the prophecies I have heard regarding large gatherings in huge stadiums where people are hearing the Word of God and hearing about Christ. These meetings would be like giving the people a map from Scriptures and a letter from God about how He loves them. The unknown (?) may refer to the hidden/unknown work of the Spirit.

The people sitting facing the stage area could be referring to the cloud of witnesses watching what is going on in the world. It could also refer to the world watching what is going on in the Christian scene and watching Christians. It could also refer to those who have been prophets and worshipers in Kansas City area over the years watching to see the results of their prophetic words and prayers.

The city mentioned may refer to Kansas City where this is taking place and going to take place. Rapid City may refer to this happening rapidly.

(6:55) I saw an impression that had a box with 2 rows. In the first row was the word RESET (the thought I had was about pushing a reset button on something to restart it). Below that was a row with four flags turned in different directions.

Reset
<\  <\  />  />	

This impression may refer to the reset button being pushed on the world to get the electricity of the Spirit flowing again to America or to the whole world. It probably refers to the world since there were four flags referring to God’s creative works, the world, all people.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of testing that is going on in the world (including me) of everyone regarding their spiritual condition. Lives are at stake according to how people are judged. The world is watching what is going on in the Christian scene and watching Christians. The electricity of the Spirit is flowing to the whole world.

JOURNAL 7-5-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT A MESSAGE AND FOOD BEING GIVEN OUT
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1. I was visiting a schoolroom. One little boy had me give a message to the teacher from him to pass on to someone else. I thought this was strange. Later I told the teacher I hoped they gave her all she needed for teaching as I thought she deserved it.

2. Someone left a bag with 4 large peanuts in my locker in a building which seemed like a bus station. I gave 1 to a gorilla which was near there, I ate 1 myself, I gave 1 to a girl who was there with me, and gave the other one to someone else. I made some comment that we need to have fun. Then I saw the bag had written on it that it was to be passed on to someone else. I saw 2 tall ladders which were criss-crossed.

I was in this scene along with several other people, so the focus is not on me, but probably on the situation portrayed. The setting is a schoolroom, so this is a dream for learning something. It has a message in it that is to be passed on to others. The teacher could refer to Jesus or the Holy Spirit. My desire was for the teacher to have all she/he needed for teaching/ministry. The reason was he/she deserved it.

In the second scene the setting is a bus station which refers to waiting, preparing, being made ready. In my locker (may refer to being inside me, in my heart) I found food and gave it to others as well as eating some myself. The comment about having fun may refer to enjoying giving out the food that is stored inside me. The food and bag were to be passed to other people too. The two ladders may refer to dividing out, separating out, judging those who hear the words/food given out and they can ascend or descend on what they hear. They are criss-crossed may refer to people being mixed together in the world even though they may be going different directions/ways. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of teaching ministry being passed on to others, and that we are in a place of waiting and preparing while doing that. In this process people are being divided/separated by what they eat and take inside them and they may ascend or descend by what they do with what they eat.

JOURNAL 7-6-05 Wednesday

I want you to write the scripture I gave you this morning:

Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?” (John 11:40)

You WILL see My glory, you WILL. Keep believing for seeing it in your own life, in your healing you have been declaring, in others’ lives in revival, salvation, renewal, healing, and many other victories I will give. You WILL see it with your own eyes and will experience it in your own life. I promise you! Now write the dream I gave you last night. Yes, I gave it to you and I will now show you what it means to you.

A DREAM ABOUT A PORTAL ROOM BEING BESIDE A BED OF INTIMACY
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1. There was a bed in a room which was part of our home. It was a double sized bed and was situated next to a corner. Beside it by the head of the bed there was a doorway open. I checked the doorway and found the door had been completely taken off and away, leaving just the hinges there. Through this doorway I could see into another small room which had a window letting in light which was shining into that little room.

  Window \
                   
   Door	
               |            bed
               |_________

The Lord began to show me that the bed was my place of rest and intimacy with Him. It was a double bed for two—Him and me. The door without the hinges meant there was a doorway there which would not be closed because the door was gone. The door was beside the bed. It was open to Him and to revelation (which was symbolized by the window with light coming in). He said this little room beside the bed was a portal or stairway up into the heavenlies and revelation pouring to me from that place. Through this doorway He will download revelation, heavenly treasures, understanding, guidance, protection, provision, wisdom, and knowledge. The key to the doorway is to be resting in an intimate relationship with Him, and watching/looking for what He wants to bring me through the portal room. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of resting in Him, in an intimate relationship, and He will bring revelation and heavenly treasures at that time.

IN THE SECRET PLACE
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The Lord showed me again the picture I saw previously in a vision. In this picture I saw, ahead of me, Jesus walking beside a sheep through a valley. He reminded me that I was that sheep and He was walking with me through the valley of life. At any time I needed to I could reach up and take His strong, righteous right hand, and hold on to it. He showed me the picture of myself there beside him holding His hand when I was so little I had to reach up high to take His hand. Then, as I grew, I kept hold of his hand all my life as I matured. He stayed the same all the time, holding on to me.

The song that kept going through my head from the time I got up this morning was:
His name is wonderful
His name is wonderful
His name is wonderful
Jesus, my Lord.
He is the mighty King
Master of everything.
His name is wonderful
Jesus my Lord.

As I read John 11:17-44 (the story of Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead) I was strongly impressed with the verses 41-42 where Jesus said:

“Father, I thank you that you have heard me. I knew that you always hear me…”

As I read that He impressed on my mind that He always hears me too…that He knows every word I say and every thought I think. This is because He loves me very much and I belong to Him. He knows those who belong to Him and He is aware of them and watches over them.

So You’ve heard me, Lord, all these times I’ve prayed for others, for myself, for church leaders, for specific people and needs, for our President, for Thy kingdom to come and Thy will to be done on earth as it is in heaven?  You’ve heard all my prayers, Lord?

Yes, My child, I have all your many prayers stored up here in heaven in My golden censer. I will soon have My angel fling that gold censer filled with your prayers (and others’ prayers) down to the earth and all those prayers will be fulfilled with My very best answers to them. That includes stopping the terrorists and exposing them. That includes stopping many evil things being planned and perpetrated on earth now. When My harvest time work is finished, then I will bring my pure and spotless Bride here to be with Me while I allow evil to reign for a time (the tribulation time). Then I will judge the people of the earth in full measure for evil will have grown to its fullness.

When he opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven for about half an hour. And I saw the seven angels who stand before God, and to them were given seven trumpets. Another angel, who had a golden censer, came and stood at the altar. He was given much incense to offer, with the prayers of all the saints, on the golden altar before the throne. The smoke of the incense, together with the prayers of the saints, went up before God from the angel’s hand. Then the angel took the censer, and hurled it on the earth, and there came peals of thunder, rumblings, flashes of lightning and an earthquake. Then the seven angels who had the seven trumpets prepared to sound them.  (Revelation 8:1-6)

JOURNAL 7-7-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT THREE BRACELETS
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I saw three bracelets in a picture before me. I wanted to click on them and open them up and learn what they meant or stood for or symbolized. I knew the area we click on, we enter. These three bracelets were white and were about ¾ of a circle. They started at a point and widened at the top of the bracelet, then gradually went back down to a point at the other end. They seemed to be about an inch apart and were suspended in air: ( ( ( 

In this dream there is no person involved. I am observing it, so it is likely a revelation for me to understand. Three stands for the Godhead, the trinity, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. They are absolutely pure. They stand together as One. These bracelets may stand for their strong right arm. “Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? (Isaiah 53:1) Bracelets are put on the arm, so these may symbolize that arm. In the dream my desire was to “open them up knowing then I could enter there.” Suspended in the air may refer to their not depending on anything else, but are self sustained. 

This is right. These bracelets refer to Me. We are One. You want to open Us up and enter here, like you’ve been reading about in Revelation 4:1 “Come up here, and I will show you what must take place after this.” That is a desire of your heart. This dream is a picture of that desire. Keep following that desire, and it WILL be fulfilled.

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What the Lord has shown me here is the desire of my heart to “come up here” with the Lord will be fulfilled as I keep seeking it.

JOURNAL 7-8-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT MY WRITING, WHAT THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL DO TO RELATE IT TO THE PEOPLE WHO READ IT, AND WARNINGS ABOUT DISTRACTIONS AND DIFFICULTIES
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(4:30) In this dream it was like each word had a “cloud like part” with it that automatically put in descriptive things about the word when it was printed out. It delighted me to realize that. I could put that “cloud like thing” on each word.

     WORD            front view                         WORD              side view
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My first thought is that this “cloud-like thing” is an anointing of the Holy Spirit on the words written in my books which give expanded understanding through the Spirit of what He wants each reader to grasp as they read. This is a dream of revelation to me about how He is putting in the words of my books His anointing that will open up understanding and application to those reading. If this is the setting for the rest of these dream scenes, then they seem to refer to my writing and what the Holy Spirit will be doing in relation to my writing.

(5:00) Several months ago I got (permission, commissioned, anointed, and empowered) to go to Vienna.

Vienna the name means “chosen.” It is the capital of Austria. Perhaps this symbolizes being chosen to go somewhere, perhaps through my books, or perhaps in person.

(5:24) I was working at a sewing machine. It was a dark aqua blue suede covered machine. I pushed a button and it closed up on its own automatically. I was looking for some indication of how to open it again. Then I heard some slight sound from my brother who was asleep in another room, so I got up to go there to see if he needed something or needed me. It was night time and I had on a light in the room with the sewing machine. I thought people from outside could see the light on.

In this dream I am the main person involved so it is about me. The main idea is about the closing and opening of the sewing machine. It symbolizes working at joining together people through spiritual revelation in a way that is easy/gentle to receive. Somehow I closed the work and was looking for how to open it again when I was drawn away to help my “brother.” This was during the night time, a time of darkness when it was hard to see, and I had a light on which could be seen from those not in my room, but “outside” –perhaps those outside Christianity. 

I was walking barefoot with some other person. We were crossing a street. It was mostly dark and hard to see. We saw a truck with a long flatbed/trailer for hauling stuff. It was coming from a side street and looked like it might turn onto the street we were trying to cross. It didn’t have its lights on. We crossed the street and began walking uphill on a sidewalk and came to a muddy area.

An unknown person may represent an angel or Christ. We were walking together during a time of darkness like right now on earth. The street refers to the way, the Christian faith, the way of life for a Christian. I was barefoot which means without words or my writing. This crossing may represent making a decision or change of direction. During this time of making a change a truck is seen. I’m not driving the truck or riding in the truck; I just “see” the truck. It represents a large burden, ministry, powerful and/or large work. Truck size is often in proportion to the burden or size of the work. This truck was made to carry a large burden or work, but didn’t seem to have that work on its trailer. It didn’t have its lights on—may refer to “without understanding or manifestation.” We (Jesus and I) made the crossing/change and began walking uphill on a muddy sidewalk. This may symbolize walking with difficulty caused by the weakness of the flesh on an uphill way. This ‘weakness of the flesh’ may be mine or someone else’s making the way difficult. It is on a “sidewalk” or a place walking beside the road, the way of life. This is not actually walking “on” the street/way, but beside it. This dream is about me since I am the only person participating in it. So it may be a warning dream of something to watch out for—something hard to see, something beside the way but not on it, something that takes a change of direction in the dark, something without manifestation or understanding, something that looks like it has a large work but doesn’t actually have it.

That’s right; it is a warning dream. Keep your attention and eyes watching for this “large work.” I will help you identify it and deal with it (as I am beside you in this dream). All of these dream scenes have to do with your books, your writing, your primary ministry now. Events will try to be used by the enemy to take away your words and make it difficult to write. People who are difficult and “high maintenance” people might try to trick you into thinking they are being cleansed and try to enter your home uninvited. Your Christian “brother” might seem to need you and take you away from the reconciliation (sewing) work of bringing people to Me. But your books are doing good too.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that my writing is going to bring much good to others, but there are also difficulties and distractions I am being warned about.

JOURNAL 7-9-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT CATS IN MY MOTHER’S HOME
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In this dream I was in my childhood home and my mother was there too, and perhaps my daughter. There were two cats in the house and I didn’t like the messes they made, so I talked to my mother about getting rid of them. I think my daughter wanted to keep the cats. Then I saw those two cats and two others outside the house on the north side in the yard. These 4 cats seemed to have dug lots of deep holes in the yard and they ran around in the yard. The emotion I felt was frustration and irritation with the cats.

The main person in this dream seems to be me. I am observing these events and responding to them to my mother and in my emotions. The main idea is about the cats, what they are doing, and the irritation/frustration it causes me.

If this situation represents the Church, then this shows self-willed unteachable people causing messes and showing habits or addictions or religious traditions which could be a snare to others. Since it is on the north side this may indicate there is spiritual judgment involved. My daughter may represent that part of myself that wants to keep people there even if they cause trouble.

If this childhood home setting represents my family, then it could be referring to my earthly family and that there are self-willed unteachable people in it causing messes and showing habits which could be a snare to others.

If this childhood home represents me, this may refer to characteristics in me that are self-willed and unteachable, causing messes and showing habits which could be a snare to others.

Home is with Me now, so this place represents being “in my home” with Me. The Mother is your Source, Christ. There are things in your life with Me that are irritating to you, whether it is in the world, the church, your earthly family, or within yourself. These irritations cause holes, ruts, ditches which are habits or addictions of the flesh, sins, snares, etc.  I want you to “see” in this dream that these exist, and will continue to exist, until you leave earth. Just be aware that they are there and seek Me as to how to deal with them when you see them: whether in your self, family, or church.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that in this world there are frustrations and irritations I will need to deal with in myself and others, and I am to seek Him about how to deal with them.

JOURNAL 7-11-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT PICTURES BEING ENHANCED REGARDING MY WRITING, WORSHIP, AND THE OIL OF THE SPIRIT
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(5:03) I was showing or looking at a series of pictures. I could touch something and enhance or add to the picture.

I was showing or looking at a series of pictures [memories, conscience, past experiences, imagination, circumstances]. I could touch something and enhance or add to the picture. The “something” I can touch to enhance or add to these is the Holy Spirit. He is the One who gives me revelation in regard to things I see (pictures). I am the person this dream is about and this enhancing what I see is the main thing and setting of this dream series. The rest of the scenes are “enhancements” or “additions” to what I see/know. 

J and I were in a car. He was driving. I was in the passenger seat. I would reach outside of the car on my right when he would stop. I would mix or smooth out stuff that seemed about the size and look of small pellets or beads in the space/area between divisions, and he would figure the size for possible purchase in the future. The area where I did this looked like a ladder laid down flat on the ground, only this area was higher off the ground like on a short wall. Looking from the top:

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My husband, Jesus, and I were in a car [representing my ministry together with Him]. He is driving this ministry car I am in. I am just a passenger being taken where He takes me. My right hand [natural, the strength of man or the power of God revealed through flesh] refers to the works/deeds for the ministry. This may represent the writing [works, deeds] I am doing with Him right now.  Perhaps each space/area represents a book I have written or will write, with a division between each book, like a cover to start and finish it. If so, then these small pellets or beads could represent the words, punctuation marks, etc. within each book. My husband, Jesus, figures the size for possible purchase in the future of each book. This may refer to the publication and distribution of these books in the future and Jesus’ calculating the cost of that process.

J and I were seeing music passing before our view. The notes were shown in pictures of animals instead of notes. We were singing those animal note/tones out loud as they moved past us. The pictures I remember were sheep picture/notes. It seemed like someone unseen was listening to us.

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My husband [Jesus] and I were seeing music [worship of God, action that proceeds from the heart] pass before our eyes [desire, revelation, understanding, the window to the soul] in the form of animal notes which were pictures of sheep [innocent, saved people, submitted, sacrificed] and singing the tones/notes they represent [CCC: see, see, see?]. Perhaps this means this is a revelation to us, an “enhanced picture” like in the first scene, and that I am being told to SEE. The someone unseen probably refers to Father God, heaven, the heavenly host, and/or the cloud of witnesses. So others are watching the worship of those who belong to God and we two are singing about it or prophesying about it out loud so others also can SEE. Again this prophesying or proclaiming may be a reference to what is being “sung” through the books He is having me write.

(5:21) I was working in Dad’s garage shop with an oil can in it. I was taking pictures of vegetables and using the oil can somehow in doing that. There were lots of shelves with stuff on them and I was sorting/looking through it. The stuff seemed to be things used in machine repairs, etc.

J was in a room beside the one I was in and there was a door between the two rooms. He also was working with similar stuff. There was lots of oil among his stuff. 

My brother was there, a smaller brother than adult. He leaned down with his hand on the floor and I stepped on part of it. C seemed to be there too going into my room and talking with me etc. This dream mainly was focused on whether we had oil and whether I could get more if I needed it from J in the next room.

I was working in Dad’s [Father in heaven’s] garage shop [place to store my car/ministry and be at rest]. I had an oil can [container of the Holy Spirit]. I was taking pictures [perhaps the enhanced pictures mentioned in dream scene one] of vegetables [field of labor, church, fruit on one’s labor]. I used the oil [Holy Spirit] in evaluating/seeing the pictures of what the church is doing. In this garage shop room there were shelves [storage areas] for stuff to be used in machines [work or motion, productivity]. 

The Lord Jesus was in a room [heaven, spiritual realm] next to mine  and there was a door [entranceway] to where He was. Jesus was also working on the work of the church and what fruit it was producing. Jesus had LOTS of oil/Spirit. 

My brother may represent my spiritual brothers, and C may represent my spiritual sisters. They also seemed to have an entranceway into the spiritual realm where Jesus was with lots of oil. My spiritual brother leaned down and put his hand [works, deeds, labor, service] on the floor [foundation, the Gospel, sound doctrine] and I stepped on part of it [I did something which bruised or hurt his hand: works, deeds, labor or service]. I put my foot [heart, walk, way, thoughts, offense] on his hand [works, deeds, labor, service]. Perhaps this refers to my way/thoughts stepping on the works/deeds of some of my spiritual brothers. I can imagine my writings might well do some “stepping on” some of the works of my spiritual brothers/sisters I’ve known in other churches.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a series of pictures which are being enhanced by the touch of the Holy Spirit. They are showing calculating the cost of the possible publication of my books, the proclamation of what is to be seen in the books, and the oil of the Spirit being available from the spiritual realm.

JOURNAL 7-12-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT HELPING STUDENTS WANTING TO LEARN
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I was helping vacuum students’ rooms before they arrived. The carpet in one room where I was working had gold colored carpet with large star shapes in a lighter color on it.

In an early group there were 4 students and I was having them tell their names to one another to help them start getting acquainted. We set up a table and chairs so we could sit and eat there. I had given out a newspaper regarding lunches and food possibilities to this earlier group of students.

I was like a guide for new students coming to the school. Two were there in this scene. In this scene with the two students I kept wishing I had kept one paper as a sample to show these other new students. I left these two new students with two other guides with whom could get acquainted while I checked on the lunch situation.

When the new students filled out their entry forms it seems there were some blank empty squares in various places on the page/form. I don’t remember much about this dream scene, but I do remember seeing these forms with blank empty squares in places.  

This is the setting of the dream: a place of learning where learners could come, live awhile, get cleansed, spend time in a holy place, and become Christians and/or leaders. The students are what this scene is about and I am helping them.

In an early group of learners there were those who reigned/ruled over the world, and were part of the kingdom of God. They came to this place of learning and found and showed their identities—who they were—to each other. We had communion and provision and rest together and shared the Word of God with one another. They received the news/prophecy (maybe my books and writings or maybe the Bible) regarding the Word of God for them. Perhaps this refers to those who are Christians before the Rapture.

In a later scene, I was like a guide, a teacher and helper for new learners coming to a place of learning. These were separated out people. I kept wishing I had kept a paper of news and prophecy to show them. I left them with the Holy Spirit who could get acquainted with them. I checked on the food, the Word of God, to see if it was available. Perhaps this refers to those who become Christians after the Rapture, during the tribulation. The “paper of news and prophecy” may refer to the Bible. In this scene I was like a guide through my writings which they could use for learning.

When the new students filled out their entry forms there were some forms with blank empty squares in various places on the page/form. These might refer to some who apply for entrance who have legalistic or hard or harsh places in them, without mercy.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of my being a teacher/guide for learners. Some seem to be before the Rapture when the Word of God is available and there is communion, provision, and rest together. Some may be after the Rapture regarding those set apart ones who don’t have the Word of God available and food is hard to find. I seemed to be trying to help them find food. My writings are for that purpose. 

JOURNAL 7-13-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT A GATHERING TOGETHER OF THOSE MARRIED TO CHRIST AND THAT THE DOOR WILL SOON BE SHUT
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In this dream I was in a room where I met with women who were members of a women’s group. This seemed to be a church setting. I was talking with the leader of the group and other women were there too. The leader and I discussed setting a meeting time for the group to get together. It seemed like there had not been a meeting for quite awhile. I mentioned that G was the one who often got things like that organized in the past but he hadn’t done that for quite awhile.  Part of the time I was talking to the leader, she and some other women were on an upper balcony-like area looking down to where I was standing. The leader told me that this group was just for married women. A woman came into the room just before the door to the room was locked. She was trying to find 2 specific women whom she named. She wanted to know if we had a list of members and we didn’t. The door was locked so no one else could come in.

One of my first thoughts about what this “women’s group” symbolized was that it referred to Christians who are the Bride of Christ. This would be why it was only for married women and not single ones. Single women did not have Christ for a husband. The leader of the group might refer to Jesus. Setting a meeting time might refer to the Rapture when we all get together. The leader and some women being on a balcony may symbolize them being in heaven while I am still on earth. The woman coming into the room just before it was locked may symbolize she came to be a Christian just before the Rapture [when the door is locked according to Scripture]. She seemed to be looking for 2 friends to see if they made it into the gathering. We didn’t have a list of members here on earth to show her.  

If this is the right interpretation for this dream then the setting for this dream is being part of the Church, the Bride of Christ, and relating to the others who are also part of it. I am involved in it, having come in towards the end of the “group time” [just shortly before the Rapture], and am part of it, learning about the others in the group and how they function. I participate along with many others. 

The second part of the dream was outside in a park-like area. While there I saw a woman raking [leaves?] and picking up large dead branches and moving them. It almost seemed like this woman was M. 

This part of the dream takes place “outside” the gathering of the church. I participate along with several other people. The woman raking leaves [dead words or dead life, dead doctrine, dead self-justification] and picking up dead branches that had fallen off the trees [those branches without life and not connected to the live tree of covering] represents those who are dead, not alive in Christ. It reminds me of John 15 where Jesus talks about branches that are picked up and thrown into the fire. Since M seemed to be this woman, perhaps this refers to people in a past church I attended who are dead (not alive in Christ)—a real concern of mine while I attended there.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am part of the Church as the Bride of Christ and that soon the door to that group will be shut. Outside in the world I see dead leaves and branches being gathered for burning, and I learn that Jerry’s new family has grace and redemption with new birth expected. 

JOURNAL 7-14-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT DISCIPLING, ITS EFFECT ON OTHERS, MY PATHWAY UNTIL NOW, AND THE THINGS I FEED ON
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Four people were going to study MasterLife together at my house: three others and myself. I drew together four chairs and we sat around a table. I went around the room and turned on all the lights I could to make the room lighter and brighter to see. P was one member, and I don’t remember if I even knew the names of the other two besides myself.  I was leading the group. One thing we did was pick a card (about calling card size) which were on my left on the table and pray for the person on that card. The next person would pick a card and pray for that person, etc. I put out on the table a bunch of different colored pills, purple and other colors, (which were on my right at the table) and began to explain the daily ones they were to take.

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The main theme of this dream seems to be the study of MasterLife which is a discipleship training study for leadership. It is to develop maturity in many different levels of learning to be a disciple of Jesus. It covers learning to abide in Christ, learning to pray, learning to study the Word, learning about fellowshipping with believers, learning about evangelism, and learning about missions to the world. It enables students in the class to also learn what their spiritual gifts are and how they might function in those gifts. (MasterLife is a study course written by Avery Willis.)

Four people may represent those learning to rule and reign in the world. The chairs represent resting and the table represents having communion together. P represents a church leader. Turning on the lights refers to revealing and manifesting spiritual understanding (i.e. “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” Psalm 119:105). Picking a card refers to facts, truth, revealed, wisdom about a situation—then prayer was given for that situation. Pills may refer to influence, medicine, healing. Purple pills may refer to ruling or royal, majestic or noble. So these pills may be indicating they should partake of them to gain influence for ruling and healing.

I was sitting in a car in a driveway and a woman was standing by my driver’s side window talking to me about MasterLife. She was very excited and pleased about the effects on her from studying the materials. She seemed like maybe a pastor’s wife.
					
This dream gives a picture of the effects of a person being discipled through discipleship materials and shows that being reported to me through a window (which represents revelation) of my car (representing my ministry). She represents women or the Bride of Christ growing through discipleship and her/their joy in that growth.

I was driving a car and looking for a place to park. I went one direction, then made a big turn around, and in doing so, I drove up onto someone’s yard or some grassy area, then back into the street. I thought I might park in front of a restaurant-like area where I saw a woman who seemed like maybe a waitress, and someone else, maybe sitting at a table. When I pulled up close in front to park, I saw the restaurant was up off the street level to about eye level, and in front of it was a curb area up to my waist level at least. The curb area was painted a dusty chalky red which I assumed meant it was a no parking area. The area was extremely small anyway. So I drove on further and looked down a sort of alleyway which was rather narrow. I could see (as if I were walking there) that there was a gate which went into the area I was headed for, so I decided to park near that area.

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This represents a picture of me looking for the place of my ministry, a place where my ministry (of writing, I think) should “park.” The pathway this search takes seems to go in one direction, then turns around on the grass (a revelation of Christ in this instance), and goes back where it had come from (which may represent going back to writing after many years away). This search looks at a feeding place but there is a sign there that it is not the place to stop. It looks for the “narrow way” and finds in that narrow way a gate which represents an opening into the correct area to enter (may be CTC and writing). This dream may be an affirmation to me about where I am now and what I am doing.  

I was washing some dishes and saw a tall slim clear transparent glass. It caught my attention like it was important.

	

Dishes represent those containers I eat food from. I am washing them to be sure those containers (Bible, books, sermons, cassettes, CD, movies, etc) are clean. I am especially drawn to a tall slim clear transparent glass. This may represent one specific source of “drinking” the water of the Word. This dream also seems to be showing me a picture of myself being sure my sources used for partaking of food and drink are pure, clean, and transparent. I can disciple and give to others of pure and clean food and water as I take that in myself. It reminds me of the importance of that.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of the discipling ministry of my life, it’s effect on the Bride of Christ, what my pathway has been, and about the containers I use to feed myself and therefore others. 

JOURNAL 7-15-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT FOLLOWING JESUS’ PATHWAYS
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In this dream there was a pathway being dug, what I am calling the “original” one. Then there was a woman’s pathway being dug right along side it. She was doing this each place he dug—like copying his pathways. Almost all the copying of pathways was done. They could be seen on maps.

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First thought: Jesus is digging the first pathway and I am following Him digging right along side Him, doing what He is doing, going where He is going. This is almost finished. My pathways are visible like on a map for others to see where I’ve been. This is a prophetic dream saying the walk through this earth life is almost finished for me and/or for the “woman” who may represent the Bride of Christ. 

When I was done writing, the clock said 1:11 and the Holy Spirit spoke to me that: “You are a prophet, you know.”  (#11 can refer to prophet)

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What the Lord has shown me here is that the time is almost over for watching and copying Him.

A DREAM ABOUT WATCHING EARTH EVENTS FROM HEAVEN
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I was at a camp teaching 2 groups of children several craft projects. Then I was across the road from them and heard the high noise level of one of my two groups, so I ran back across the road to where they were—dodging traffic. I was wearing a long white skirt. I had one group of children show and tell what they made to the other group. I then began to get the children to set up their chairs in one large group to watch a movie that was being brought in.

I was in a place of learning and having fun together with people who were separated out. They were making things and showing each other what they made. I was across the pathway from these children when I heard a loud noise or something producing an interference or alarm. Due to that I went across the road, wearing a white pure covering of grace, and joined the children, the gift from God, again. We set up places of resting to watch something God was going to show us.

My thought is that this scene is a view from heaven or a spiritual view of God’s children doing things for Him, and showing each other their works. Then they were being transported at the time of a great noise or alarm (the Rapture) in grace and purity. Then God’s children all prepared to watch what God was going to show them—like watching from heaven what was happening on earth after they were gone. This relates to the first dream by also showing that the time of walking our pathway on earth is almost finished. It is a prophetic dream.

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What the Lord has shown me here is another prophetic picture showing our time on earth is short and soon we will watch earth happenings from heaven.

IN THE SECRET PLACE
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There is a reason I haven’t shown you any plan for the time when you finish this book. You have been wondering since you think you are nearing the end of this current book. You will know the reason in due time. I DO have plans for you but I just haven’t revealed them to you yet. Keep listening; I will tell you soon. These dreams recently (the last couple of weeks) are part of those plans coming up. Keep walking forward doing every day what I show you to do (as in copying My pathway).

JOURNAL 7-17-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT PURPLE RIBBONS, JILL’S HATS, AND ANGELS
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I was watching a trial like in court and also watching a happening at my house. When I saw something take place at my house, then it triggered a response on the scene in the courtroom where it would be seen. In this scene the response was shown in purple strips, like ribbons, draped from a higher place where it was attached to a lower place where it was attached. 
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Just as I awoke I heard the word “mother.” I opened my eyes, looked at the clock, and it was 1:11. I immediately thought the dream was prophetic so I should write it down.

I awoke again and wrote that the things taking place in my house this time and triggering a response in the courtroom were "Jill’s hats." I don’t remember “seeing” them but just wrote down those words.

I awoke again and wrote that the things taking place in my house this time and triggering a response in the courtroom were angels. These seemed to be cutouts of the shape of angels
	
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Idea: the judgment is directly a result of what we do here on earth, so what takes place in my home, in my self, is transferred to the heavenly court where it is judged or weighed. These purple ribbons or strips speak of ruling/authority and royalty coming down from heaven to earth. The ribbons may mean a “reminder” of this to me.

“Mother” refers to the Source, or God, who is my Source. So this reference is telling me this dream/picture is coming from God. The clock numbers are pointing to this being prophetic since 11 can refer to prophetic, and since three one’s can refer to the trinity.

Jill: meaning is youthful/regenerated. (Scripture: Psalm 103:5 He fills my life with good things! My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!) 

Hat: covering, protection, thought, attitude. (Scripture: Isaiah 59:17a  For He put on righteousness as a breastplate, and an helmet [the hope] of salvation upon His head.)

So "Jill’s hats" may refer to a covering/protection over my head and being renewed and regenerated by this. It may refer to my life being filled with good things and my youth being renewed like the eagle’s—and this being a covering and protection over me. Likely this refers to the difficult times to come in these end time days…a promise that He will cover and protect my thoughts and attitudes and renew me daily…and that this is triggered as a response in the heavenly courtroom.

The angels (messengers, servants of God, helpers, servants of Christians, mighty, powerful) in my home, in my self, and triggering a response in the heavenly courtroom, shows God’s angels will be playing a part in my life and in heaven during these end time days. The angels may even be the servants providing the messages, protection, help, and provision needed during these coming days. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is I need to pray for reminding me of my authority in Him, pray for His regenerating covering over my thoughts and attitudes, and pray for His angels to help us. This is a prophetic word coming from God who is my Source.

JOURNAL 7-18-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT BLUE AND WHITE SURPRISE BOXES COMING INTO MY HOUSE
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I came up to the outside of my house. It was winter and snowy outside. At the front door it was hard to open it due to stuff on the floor inside blocking the entrance of the door. I shifted blocks of stuff so the door would open ok. Inside it had been set up to sell things like a Christmas bazaar by some girls. 

I saw in the room a chute/ramp coming down from somewhere up. It had an opening into the room I was in. Many boxes were coming down the chute and pouring out across the room. These seemed to be artistic boxes of things to sell or use. They were wrapped in white paper with blue ribbon.

Then I saw a place with signs: “Wanted artists here” or “Art wanted here.” (Art seemed to have a double meaning—the name Art, and art gifting).

I seemed to be the only person I really saw in this dream so I conclude that it is a dream about me, an intrinsic dream. The focus of the dream seems to be the artistic boxes coming down from heaven and filling me or my house. This is a picture of good or favor coming my way. The way or entrance into me or my house was blocked and took some work to “unblock” it. It seems there were boxes of stuff to sell or use. It seemed to have something to do with the arts or artists…those who get inspiration from God and make what He shows them (a book, a painting, a song, etc). Boxes refer to surprises. These boxes were each wrapped in white paper and blue ribbon too, so these will each be a surprise. They represent gifts that are pure and spiritual. So this is a dream to tell me about something coming now or in the future that is a surprise and is pure and spiritual. These can be used or sold for financial help (like in a Christmas bazaar). These artistic surprises are “wanted.” It may take “boldness” to access them.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of His favor coming to me now and in the future in surprise ways and perhaps artistic ways.

A DREAM ABOUT MY CHILDREN AND ME “GOING HOME”
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I was in a house. J came home and was in his room next to mine. I asked if he was going out that evening and he said no. His secretary was there helping with things. I didn’t remember her name but it was a strange and unfamiliar name. Then my daughters arrived home. B was having fun playing with her kitten. K and I were discussing art things she can do. She saw my notes on something (maybe artists wanted?) and inquired about it.

J could represent Jesus and He was in the spiritual realm right next to the room I was in on earth. This may represent a close relationship and His realm being right next to me on earth. His secretary could represent the Holy Spirit who was there helping with things. A strange and unfamiliar name could mean I needed to ask for help recognizing her name. Then my children came into this same place. This may refer to them coming into the same relationship with Jesus as where I was. It also could represent my spiritual children coming into the relationship with Jesus like I was.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of Jesus being in a close spiritual relationship with me and then my children (natural and/or spiritual).

JOURNAL 7-19-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT FINDING MY MINISTRY AREA IN THE CHURCH
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My mother, sisters, and I were in a line to get our food at a cafeteria-like place. We were walking by items for sale and saw jewelry. They were small jeweled pins about the size of tack pins for on lapels, etc. My dad said we could each pick out one pin and he’d buy it for us. I didn’t see one I wanted there, so I was waiting and expecting to find one later and get it.

I think this dream shows a picture of me in the church with my Source (God) and my sisters (those who are also Christians). We go together to get spiritual food and to do service, teaching, and ministry. At this place there are treasures, God’s gifts, and we are each told by our Heavenly Father that we can pick one out and He will buy it for us. I hadn’t yet picked my treasure out, but was waiting and expecting to find mine later. This probably refers to my not knowing just where and how I am to do ministry at my current church and I am waiting to find out what that is.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am in a church group where many have already found their ministry area to one another, but I haven’t yet found mine.

A DREAM ABOUT BEING IN A KING’S COURT AND EXPLAINING HIDDEN MEANINGS TO OTHERS
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(4:11) I was in a king’s court. There was a message transcribed. I could explain the code or hidden meanings to others.

The King is Jesus and His court is the place where He sits in authority and dispenses judgment and justice. A message is given out and somehow I could explain the meaning of it to others. This fits with the book of Revelation (the message transcribed) I have been studying lately which shows the justice being poured out on the wicked during the tribulation. This dream seems to be confirming to me that I do understand (know the code) and can explain this (hidden meaning) to others. I believe this is a confirmation that my understanding that He will not take me through the hour of trial and testing to come upon the earth (Rev. 3:10) is correct.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He has given me the ability to understand the hidden meaning in a message He transcribed, and I could tell it to others.

A DREAM ABOUT BEING ON A COLLEGE CAMPUS ON FOOTBALL GAME DAY
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I was on a college campus in my dorm room. It was very early in the morning (maybe around 5-6:00) when something awoke me. I wasn’t sure what time it was and tried to read my watch. I wondered why my alarm hadn’t awakened me or if it was still too early for it to go off. I went out of my room into a hallway looking for a bathroom. There were lots of people walking around. I started to enter a bathroom (there was no sign on it) then saw some young boys (maybe 7-8 years old) coming out, so I decided it was a boys’ bathroom. I went on looking for the girls’ one. I found one that was for women but wondered why it was not marked on the outside so others could see and recognize it too. Inside I saw lots of women. I found a stool to use, but the stools were very large, with dirty-looking water in them, and generally gross.

I saw two women in dresses very similar of red and green plaid-like design with dots in between the plaid stripes. One dress had a little blue in it also. One woman’s outfit had three pieces with one piece being a long coat. We discussed the similarity of their dresses. They said they were good friends, but hadn’t planned the dresses to look almost alike on the same day.

It seemed like a football game day. I saw lots of sheepskin jackets light tan in color with fleece around the sleeves, neckline and bottom. I knew these were popular to wear to games. They were laid out on display like maybe they were for sale. I decided to buy some candy bars to take back to my dorm room

The setting is a place of learning. The focus of the dream is cleansing, putting on our covering, and preparing for worshipping. I am the main participant in the dream along with many others. This place of learning may refer to the church. Many people are moving about in a hallway—which means they are in transition. The area where we get cleansed is not labeled or clear so that we can see it. The bathroom being dirty may mean some of us are not really very clean—the water we use is dirty water.  

The two women represent people being separated out, divided, and judged. Even though they looked similar on the outside, they might not be judged ready to go to the worship. The one with the 3 piece outfit and coat was conformed to the likeness of Jesus and covered, anointed. It might be like 2 different people in the church who both give the appearance of being Christians but one is, and one isn’t.

The football game refers to worship. Those who go there like to wear their sheepskin covering or anointing. Sheep refers to those being in submission to Christ. I wanted to get some sweet food to take with me. This may refer to hope and encouragement from the Word to put inside me.

This dream seems to be extrinsic even though I am greatly involved in the action of it. It seems to describe the church where some are learning, some are in transition, some are not getting cleansed with clean water, some have on the right covering and others just look like they do. The big game (the worship time in heaven) we are preparing for is for those who are covered with submission to Christ. Some may have the correct covering and some may not. The Word of God is our hope and encouragement to put inside of us.

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What the Lord has shown me here is the different states of people as the time draws near for the big game (worship in heaven).

JOURNAL 7-20-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT DISCERNING CHARACTERISTICS ABOUT PEOPLE THE LORD WANTS ME TO COVER WITH PRAYER
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I had some writing on paper which I held in my hands. I could put pressure on certain words with my fingers and those words would show characteristics about a person and the words would stay more visible than the rest of the words. The words would turn blue. I could “know” what those words were by feel—by hand pressure…with my right thumb.

I had some written information in my hands (works, service). I could put pressure on certain words and have spiritual or revelatory feeling, sensitivity, discernment, or conviction about those words and they would be visible in my sight, highlighted, noticed. They showed what a person was like and I could know that. What does this mean, Lord?

This is what it means, My child: you are now being given added or extra discernment to know what people are like, to know what is inside them, what is in their hearts. You know this because I give you sensitivity to them and enable you to “see” what is going on in their lives…especially if you touch that person (like put pressure on them with your hands) when praying for them. You can “touch” them physically, but you can “touch” them also by picturing them as you pray for them. I am enabling you to go farther in intercession now through this sensitivity to the “characteristics” or inner workings of people I lead you to pray for. The writing in this dream referred to people. I will show you the “spiritual—blue” characteristics of people I want you to pray for. Always ask Me if this is a person I want you to pray for with this sensitive “touch.” If not, only pray a surface general prayer, if they seek you for prayer. If so, then seek Me as to the characteristics inside them which I want you to pray for. 

I will show a picture to you of people I want you to pray for, like I did of Pastor Alan. You’re not a public intercessor; you are a private intercessor. Only talk to that person if I definitely lead you to. Otherwise just talk to Me about that person and what I show you to pray.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He will give me extra sensitivity and discernment about certain people He wants me to pray for. He will give me a picture of that person first, then guide me as to the condition He wants me to intercede for in regard to that person.

A DREAM ABOUT PLAYING VOLLEYBALL WITH A TENNIS BALL ON A COLLEGE CAMPUS
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I was in a yard of a college campus. A volleyball-like game was being played with a group of people on each side of the volleyball net, but they used a tennis ball to play with. Lots of people were watching and playing – there were many people around. I got the ball one time when it was hit out. I noticed the ball had holes in it and it was almost in shreds. It was the size of a tennis ball, but was hollow and part of the cover had come off of it so you could see bands of rubber or whatever it was made of and holes in between the bands. I threw the ball over to a guy near where I was standing to let him throw it back to the players since I figured he could throw farther than I could. We were standing under a tree at that time. He threw the ball back to the players.

A second time I had the ball as a whole group of us were walking. I gave the ball to a guy in a black jacket. He had his right arm inside his jacket and his jacket pinned like the arm was missing. I wondered if it really was missing or if he was playing a joke.

I noticed that I had on a white jacket, like a ski jacket, and a multicolored turban on my head with yellow and red in it.

This is a learning setting so I think I am to learn something from it, something of advanced learning. I am in a situation with lots of people where we all are learning. The focus of the dream was the game that was being played and the ball used to play it. It was extrinsic, but about my relationship to all these players. I am an observer and a participant. 

The game represents worship, spiritual warfare, striving or competition in a situation where we are to be learning. Some people worshipped with the wrong sized ball (representing what they used to worship). What they used had holes in it and was in very poor condition. It was hollow; it had little ability to do what it was supposed to do. And it was too small. Yet they kept playing with it. This may represent people trying to worship God without the right and necessary things to use to worship God well or rightly.

I was wearing purity, righteousness, with a gift of God and passion covering my thoughts and attitudes. One guy walking on campus had a lack, ignorance, and missing strength, lack of ability to reach out or help. 

It’s about worship—is it, Lord?

It’s about worship. It’s about the world, represented by the whole campus—the world is a place where all are learning things. Some people are worshipping but using the wrong size (not nearly big enough) and quality (holes in it) of that needed to worship. The ball represents the heart attitude and relationship with Me needed to truly worship Me.  Some watch and throw the ball back to those trying to worship—in other words, they just observe but don’t participate. Some are ignorant and lack strength, and the ability to reach out, and the power to strike out (no right arm). All are learning something, but some much more than others. In the midst of this learning campus (world) you are learning by walking around, observing others, catching and throwing the ball (worshipping), and doing it while clothed in your righteous covering, right attitudes, purity, giftedness, and passion for Me. What you are supposed to learn from this dream is that the world is made up of many many people who are doing different things than you are and who walk in various degrees of relationship with Me (which worship represents).

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of the world with many people in various stages and degrees of relationship with Him.

JOURNAL 7-21-05 Thursday

SCRIPTURES ON RAPTURE

According to the Lord’s own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. (1 Thess 4:15-17)

Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep, but we will all be changed - in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. (1 Cor 15:51-52)

But Christ has indeed been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep. For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the dead comes also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive. But each in his own turn: Christ, the firstfruits; then, when he comes, those who belong to him. Then the end will come, when he hands over the kingdom to God the Father after he has destroyed all dominion, authority and power. For he must reign until he has put all his enemies under his feet. The last enemy to be destroyed is death. (1 Cor 15:20-26)

But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. (Phil 3:20-21)

By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. (Hebrews 11:5)

Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him away. (Gen. 5:24)

Enoch, the seventh from Adam, prophesied about these men: “See, the Lord is coming with thousands upon thousands of his holy ones to judge everyone, and to convict all the ungodly of all the ungodly acts they have done in the ungodly way, and of all the harsh words ungodly sinners have spoken against him.” (Jude 14-15)

I am going to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. (John 14:2-3)

He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. (John 10:3-4)

(The two witnesses) Then they heard a loud voice from heaven saying to them, “Come up here.” And they went up to heaven in a cloud, while their enemies looked on. (Rev. 11:12)

(Jesus speaking) This is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left. Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come….so you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.  (Matthew 24:39-42, 44)

(Jesus speaking) At that time the kingdom of heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom. Five of them were foolish and five were wise. The foolish ones took their lamps but did not take any oil with them. The wise, however, took oil in jars along with their lamps. The bridegroom was a long time in coming, and they all became drowsy and fell asleep. At midnight the cry rang out: ‘Here’s the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!’ Then all the virgins woke up and trimmed their lamps. The foolish ones said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil; our lamps are going out.’ ‘No,’ they replied, ‘there may not be enough for both us and you. Instead, go to those who sell oil and buy some for yourselves.’ But while they were on their way to buy the oil, the bridegroom arrived. The virgins who were ready went in with him to the wedding banquet. And the door was shut. Later the others also came. ‘Sir! Sir!’ they said. ‘Open the door for us!’ But he replied, ‘I tell you the truth, I don’t know you.’ Therefore keep watch, because you do not know the day or the hour.

At that time the sign of the Son of Man will appear in the sky, and all the nations of the earth will mourn. They will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of the sky, with power and great glory. And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.  (Matthew 24:30-31)  (He gathers His elect to return with Him to the earth at His glorious appearing)

…While we wait for the blessed hope—the glorious appearing of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us to redeem us from all wickedness and to purify for himself a people that are his very own, eager to do what is good. (Titus 2:14)

I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and makes war. His eyes are like blazing fire, and on his head are many crowns. He has a name written on him that no one knows but he himself. He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood, and his name is the Word of God. The armies of heaven were following him, riding on white horses and dressed in fine linen, white and clean.  (Rev. 19:11-14)

He who testifies to these things says, “Yes, I am coming soon.” (Rev. 22:20)

SCRIPTURES ABOUT BEING SAVED FROM GOD’S WRATH

I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.” (John 5:24)

Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him! (Romans 5:9)

They tell how you turned to God from idols to serve the living and true God, and to wait for his Son from heaven, whom he raised from the dead-—Jesus, who rescues us from the coming wrath. (1 Thess. 1:9-10)

For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Thess 5:9)

Since you have kept my command to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the hour of trial that is going to come upon the whole world to test those who live on the earth. (Rev. 3:10)

But when he (John the Baptist) saw many of the Pharisees and Sadducees coming to where he was baptizing, he said to them: “You brood of vipers! Who warned you to flee from the coming wrath? (Matthew 3:7)

A DREAM ABOUT PREPARING FOR A PARTY AT OUR HOUSE
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My daughters and I were holding a party at our house and were making preparations for it. There was a cow and 1 or 2 calves in our house and we were trying to confine them into an area by blocking them with furniture. There were also 1-2 pet cats in the house. One daughter put candy taffy around on the floor in various places for the children to “find.” (like you would put out candy eggs at Easter) I was getting food ready for lots of guests.

The participants were the three of us. The focus of the dream was making preparation for the party coming soon. The three of us could all represent me, or it could represent us three. I believe they all represent me. A sub-focus of the dream was the animals to get blocked in their place with furniture, and the candy and food to get ready.

I was preparing the Word of God and teaching for people who would be coming soon. Slow change, prosperity and increase (cow, calves) were with me and I was working to confine them in the house where I lived (my heart). I was trying to hold these inside me with ease and rest.  I put out sweet things that taste good for the coming guests to “find” along with the solid food.  There were also some precious things in my heart (cats).  We would be celebrating together.

My thoughts about this dream: it represents my preparing my writings/books with sweet things and solid food for those invited to read them. While I am preparing these books, I am trying to rest in the Lord while watching for change, prosperity, increase and something precious to me. This could refer to heavenly prosperity and increase, earthly prosperity and increase, or both. Something precious to me represents doing the work the Lord wants me to do, helping the people who will read my books, and accomplishing the task to which He has called me. The time of celebrating all this is coming soon and I will get to celebrate it with all the “guests” who belong to Christ (up in heaven).

(Words which came later) “If you get the least of that, I’ll net you a purse of $10,000.”

I believe these words are a promise regarding the above dream: that if I get even the least of the rewards for writing and sharing the books I’m writing for others to read, it will be a full reward (10,000: full measure, full recompense, full reward on my trials and tests).
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Later: I was dreaming of writing out dreams, and then thinking it wasn’t really written, just dreamed.

I think that dreaming of writing out dreams is an affirmation that He wants me to do that.

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What the Lord has shown me here is there is a time of celebrating coming soon with all the guests who belong to Christ.

JOURNAL 7-22-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT VARIOUS INTERPRETATIONS AND RECEPTION OF THE WORD OF GOD WHEN IT IS READ
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I saw: STOR & _________ (associates?) in a picture in front of me. It was like the letters were standing up on the ground. Later: I saw letters on a brick wall.

In these two dream pieces I am observing something: letters. These letters are standing on the ground or floor or something, and the others are on a brick wall. This is an extrinsic dream to show me something. It involves words. Some are standing on the ground or on a level area and standing up themselves. Others are on a brick wall which may mean they are hitting a thick, hard obstruction. The thought that comes is that this dream is about the Word of God that I have been studying to try to learn what is the correct interpretation about the Rapture and if and when it will take place. This dream may be showing me that some words stand (in the life of the reader) and some words hit a brick wall (and aren’t absorbed by the reader). That reader could be me, or it could be each person who reads the Word of God. I have been reading authors on various sides of the issue of what will happen in the end times. They can take the same Scriptures and come up with different interpretations. Perhaps this dream shows me something about that.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that the Word of God (made of alphabet letters) are received and understood differently by different people.

A DREAM ABOUT CLEANSING THAT WHICH IS OUR COVERING
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I went to C’s house and was cleaning a bedspread to give her which I got at a garage sale. It was green and yellow with ruffles. I also cleaned something else, this time with Equal (the sweetener). There were other people in her house too but she was the only one I knew by recognition. 

C represents a Christian friend from a past church I attended. So this dream may be showing me something regarding other Christians I have known and know now...and ones I don’t recognize. The main focus was on cleaning that which is used to cover someone when they are resting in the Lord, are saved, are meditating, having intimacy with the Lord, at peace, in covenant with the Lord. This cover is a gift from God and brings life. This scene is showing me that sometimes that covering needs some things cleansed from it, that what they believe is not totally pure and clean. The reference to Equal may refer to: this covering needs to be cleansed equally for all.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that sometimes our covering needs to be cleansed because it is not totally pure and clean.

A WORD DREAM ABOUT BEING OPEN TO OTHERS WHO WANT TO SEEK GOD
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Words that came: “I understand you are open to others who want to seek God.”

This dream also deals with “words” but they are giving a message to me. They tell me that God understands that I want to be open to others who seek Him – maybe particularly those who seek Him and come up with different interpretations of what He has said.

But what do You want me to do, Lord, in finding the interpretation You want me to have of Your Word?

If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me. My Word is a lamp unto your feet and a light unto your path. My Word is true and without error. It guides, protects, instructs, and corrects. My Word never fails. People fail, but My Word never fails. It will always stand. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is that the Word of God is received differently by different people.

JOURNAL 7-23-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT LETTING MY BOOKS BE DISTRIBUTED AND THE RESPONSES
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I was part of the leadership with a church group. We recommended a lady as a possible representative of our group to another group to turn in each week our project or meeting place for that week coming. She was called on the phone and was trying to make up her mind while someone was waiting on the phone for her answer. This phone actually looked like a standup microphone and it was blue.

It seems that God placed a call to a lady (me) to represent Him to a group of people. This call seemed to involve speaking with spiritual influence in some ministry to others. Even though this seemed to be a “speaking” call, I think it might represent speaking through my books to other people in other places. 

Do you say “yes” to this call? 

I do, Lord.

Then I will make all the arrangements for you to speak to other people through your books. What I have told you in the darkness, speak it (through your books) in the light. What you have heard from Me in your spiritual ear, preach that through your books from the housetops. Will you do that? 

Yes, Lord. Show me what to do and lead me in this way you have called me to.

You will soon see that way opened to you. When you do, than ask Me if this is the way I want to open your books to others, ok? I will lead you all the way and provide for the “preaching” I want through these books. Trust Me.

Later: we were watching a program on TV showing a meeting with Jesus, and debating about having such a meeting at our house.

We were seeing a vision, message, or news showing a meeting with Jesus. We were debating, considering, thinking about having such a meeting at our house (in our hearts, in ourselves). This may show the reaction of people who read my books. It may be like seeing a meeting with Jesus that I had which I reported in the books. Then they think about and consider whether they want to have such an encounter in their own hearts.

Later: in this dream I saw a circular transparent globe-like thing. Metal on the rim, and water inside. The water was part-way up inside the globe. This water inside the globe seemed to represent me. It was standing on a base and could turn around facing any direction—but my situation (like the water inside) was always right side up, unchanging.
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My first thought: this globe circle represents the world and I am in the world while things happen to turn it different ways. But I am still there, right side up, kept in peace through the water of the Word, through Jesus. In relating this scene to the first dream, which shows the setting for the rest of these dreams, this may show a picture of my feelings and peace in the midst of my books being shown around the world.

I was at my Mom’s house. She gave me a stack of quarters for my use. I was so pleased! She did this upstairs in my old bedroom. There was a Christmas tree decorated and sitting on the green couch downstairs where the couch sat when I was a little child. I was putting a stuffed toy (a brown teddy bear, I think) under the tree and leaning it against the back of the couch. My brother seemed to be in this scene also…somewhere in this house.

God gave me revelation knowledge and I was pleased! This was given to me in a spiritual place of resting in Jesus, intimacy with Him. This was a spiritual gift and brought a season of rejoicing. It brought the hardships into a place of not being real and into a place of resting on something representing renewal and life. My brothers in Christ, fellow Christians, were involved too.  As this relates to the books being distributed (in scene 1) it is a picture of God giving revelation knowledge to me and then the joy of seeing that gift renewing others and helping others be born again.

Later: I was at a meeting of church members like from a previous church I used to attend. They wanted me to commit a large sum of money to their building fund. Many of them were saying they would give 1/5 of what they had to this. All I had to give was a few quarters and I was embarrassed to say that.

I was at a gathering together of people from a previous church I used to attend. They wanted works and service from me to help them build their church. All I had to give was revelation knowledge. If this dream relates to the books in scene 1, then it may refer to the reaction at my previous church or among people who used to know me, who looked to me for service and works (leading Discipleship Training). All I now have to give them is revelation knowledge through my books. This may not be what they are wanting.

Later: this time when I awoke I had been looking down into water.

This dream scene may reflect my looking into the Spirit or Word from up above, from a spiritual perspective. This may be the way I am to look at the books I’ve written as they are sent out and read by others—to look at it from a spiritual perspective. This could also mean I look down from heaven and see what is happening in regard to these books.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He is calling me to be His representative to others through my books being published and distributed and to look at this with peace and from His heavenly perspective.

JOURNAL 7-24-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT TWO ARMS REACHING TOWARD ME
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I saw two hands/arms reaching out toward me. Each was a left hand. One was light skinned and the other dark skinned.

The Holy Spirit taught me that these hands represent those people, dark to light skinned (including  all people on the earth), who are reaching/seeking the message of Christ that is in my book: Thoughts and Stories: On  A Life God Leads, Guides, And Protects. (Book 1). 

Then He led me to read on page 256 in my Bible in Deuteronomy 14 about how His people were to bring, at the end of the year, a tithe of their crops/produce before Him and basically give it to Him. Some years they were to eat it in His presence in reverence of Him, and every third year they were to give it to the place where He placed His name--and it was to be used for the Levites, the widows, the orphans, and the aliens. He was showing me He wanted me to now bring my tithe/first fruits of my year of writing (I moved to Lee's Summit on July 23, 2004) and give it to Him. He showed me that He wanted me to put it on a web site so people all over the world could have access to it and He could lead them to it.

So Beth started setting up the web site during the afternoon, and we are going to keep working on it until it is finished and ready for access.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He now wants me to put my first book on a web site so people all around the world will have access to it.

JOURNAL 7-25-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT A PROPHETIC PICTURE OF THE CHURCH NOW
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It seemed that some of us were looking at clothes for sale. One girl tried on a coat I liked and I said to her that I liked it. It was a kind of dove gray with white trim. It seemed like I was a piano teacher.

This first dream seems to be the setting of buying clothes for us to be anointed and covered with authority and protection. This could be a sign of God being with me. I seemed to be prophesying or ministering in the gifts of the Spirit. Some other people were involved but I seemed to be the main participant, so perhaps it is about me in relation with others.

Later: we were trying to set up a musical concert schedule. Some of the music was blank so there was nothing to play or perform with it. One musical number had words in a foreign language. Some wanted to fake a musical performance, but I refused. Just before I awoke I was aware of the words that Walter Schmuel was there.

Performing musically symbolizes prophesying and ministering the gifts of the Spirit and worshipping. In this scene a group of us tried to do this but there was no music one time and the music was alien to us in another case. Some wanted to fake a performance, but I refused. This reminds me of some of the worship experiences I have attended earlier in my life. Walter Schmuel is a very interesting symbol. Walter represents a prophet I know and Schmuel was the character in a book I just finished reading yesterday. Schmuel was a fake. He faked being healed to fool others into thinking it was a true healing. So I think Walter Schmuel symbolizes a fake prophet. I think this whole scene represents the response of some churches/people to the work of the Spirit in the world--fake not real, without substance.

Later: This dream scene took place at my childhood church. It seemed there had been previously empty places in it for 16,000 and for 5,000. They had modernized the building and were now about to hold a large meeting there. I talked with some people when I walked around outside and inside the building. At all the doorways there were lots of people waiting to get in.

This scene seems to symbolize the response of others to the work of the Spirit in the world now. What previously might have been empty now has lots and lots of people wanting to enter. It represents the fullness of being free in the spirit happening in some churches/situations. 

J was there. I helped a little child get covered up to rest a little beside where I was sitting. At one point in the dream I was eating some food. Later I was going to change my clothes into what I thought were more proper clothes to attend the meeting.

This may be a scene showing a picture of different types of people coming under the Spirit's working: one who got into the fringe areas of spiritual seeking, one who is just a little child and needs covering/anointing, one who needs to eat food, and those who need proper clothes/covering to be ready to go in.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture of "the church" now, including some being anointed/covered, including those who try to fake what the Spirit is doing, including those who seriously seek after Him, and including others who have special needs spiritually.

JOURNAL 7-27-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT WRAPPING MY BOOK TO GIVE IT AS A GIFT TO OTHERS TO BRING GROWTH TO THEM
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I was wrapping Christmas gifts for my children and putting them by the tree to be opened later. They were wrapped in green paper. I didn't see gifts there from others for their children like I had for mine, and wondered why not. I didn't want my children to be the only ones opening gifts. Somehow each gift wrapped in paper had a person's name on it, but they were wrapped so I couldn't see those names on the packages. There were many different sizes of packages.

These Christmas gifts are the books I am working on to give to my children--those who will read them and receive benefit from them. Right now the first book is being "wrapped" by being prepared to put on a web site so all can read it. The green paper speaks of life and growth through the gift. I didn't see the names of the people who will read the book(s) because I will not know who they are while here on this earth. The different sizes of gifts represent different sizes or amounts of benefit that will be received by different people.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am currently wrapping my book in a way to give it as a gift to many others to help bring new life and growth to them.

A DREAM ABOUT BEING A SINGLE WOMAN IN MINISTRY AND RESTING IN PEACE
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Another scene: I was at camp with K and showing her how I make my bed in the morning very casually and easily by just pulling the sheets up over the pillows. I was describing how I was taught as a child to be so careful and meticulous about making beds. My bed had blue sheets on it. I mentioned to K how terrible some of the attitudes of the campers were now--how different than it used to be.

Another scene: I was in my bathroom brushing my teeth when I heard K's voice in my apartment as she had walked in without knocking. She started talking, I thought, so I would know she was there.

In this dream I was showing myself how much more easily I was spiritually resting in salvation and peace in my covenant with the Lord than I did when younger. But I also saw that some other people didn't have that same attitude. As I was cleansing my thoughts and words in meditation I realized or "heard" a voice indicating to me the presence of this person (myself) representing worship and ministry of a single woman and having a difficult time financially. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is about my resting in peace now better than I used to even though I am a single woman with financial difficulties, but still participating in worship and ministry.

A DREAM ABOUT JESUS REMOVING OLD RELIGIOUS TRADITIONS FROM ME
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Another scene: I was in a beauty shop getting my hair cut and set. The guy showed how he cut the back of my neck to another person and explained how you cut it differently for a bigger head.

I think the guy cutting my hair represents Jesus or the Holy Spirit. He is removing old religious traditions and bad attitudes from me. He removed things from my past and my forefathers that were hidden inside me and is preparing me through His church.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He has removed from me old religious traditions and things from my past to prepare me in holiness.

JOURNAL 7-28-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT DOING ART PROJECTS ON THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL
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I was in a school as a student doing art. There were 3 areas to do an art project in. I did a drawing on a wood piece and used some kind of substance to mark on it that crumbled pieces off onto the floor as I marked with it. I scooted those crumbles into the corner so the janitor could sweep them up later.

The students seemed to be expected to do some art piece or drawing but were left on their own to do it. It seemed it was the last day of school so the students found no teacher there in their classrooms, just music playing or a movie. They could do an art project on their own.

Just before I awoke I saw the "teacher" standing outside the door of my room just about to come in. I saw her waist through the window section of the door and saw she had one or two wide bands or belts or sashes on it.

I was in a learning situation on the earth as a student learning the things I was to understand here. This was a school for those obeying Christ and in conformity to Him. I was to create something that would be life-giving and eternal while in the temporary flesh state here on earth. I showed this by marking or writing words and publishing them for a record of what I was creating. This manifested or revealed what I was creating/producing. Since this was the last day of school, this refers to it being really close to the end of time to create our work. While we worked there was worship and God was showing us something. Our teacher, the Holy Spirit, was near, just outside the door. She could see us and we could see her through the window of revelation and the door of Christ. She was separating out or judging according to what was on the inside of people.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that we who belong to Christ are in the last day of working for Him on earth and will be judged according to what is inside us, what we have become, what our character is when the Holy Spirit comes for us.

JOURNAL 7-29-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT THE COSTS SPIRITUALLY OF RECEIVING THROUGH MY BOOKS AND WHAT TO PRAY ABOUT FOR THAT
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"That would make each of those dresses for that evening around $100 each." (Words just before I awoke)

This says that in the evening, at the close of my lifetime on earth, my covering, anointing, authority and protection will cost the full measure of my power, provision, wealth, natural talents, and spiritual riches (such as faith, wisdom, spiritual gifts, etc.) This refers to the time right now when I am to give the full measure of who I am and all my time and effort and gifting into writing books and putting them on the web for others to read. This includes prayer for the people who will read my books. This is the setting (for the rest of these dream scenes) which shows me things to pray about for the people who read them.

I was at a school as a teacher. I had a navy blue round metal box (like for storing cookies or candy) with kids' stickers in it. I handed it to the principal of the school and told him what it was. Another day I wanted to use them so I went hunting in the principal's office looking for it--and didn't find it.

I was a teacher at a place of education. This could refer to being a teacher while on the earth, and I am teaching through the medium of the books I am writing. The navy blue round metal box is a spiritual vessel or container for doctrine, tradition, form of the truth. Inside this container was stickers for children. These stickers would likely be things given to children as a prize for learning well. I gave this box to the principal who might represent the "head person" at the school or Jesus. I wanted to use them to give to students later but I couldn't find them. This might represent that I am not to give them, but Jesus is. I am to pray for this.

I needed to put postage stamps on packages and was trying to use up old ones that were partially torn. I was trying to stick the pieces of the stamps together to make usable stamps on the packages.

Since my book is primarily made up of material from a long time back up through now, these stamps my represent the authorization God gave me many years ago to write the stories in my books -- and I am now putting that together in the first book we are preparing for the web. The rest of this current web book (Thoughts and Stories, bk 1) is a gathering together of things I learned in MasterLife and through other ways over the years. It does seem like this book is a putting together of many pieces from my past into a form that makes them usable now. This dream may represent the seal of God upon the book. Even though it is small and seemingly insignificant, it can still be powerful as God uses it. 

I was sitting in a classroom looking around at the layout along the walls. It had lots of shelves with stuffed animals and dolls. Some shelves had been built over windows, but you could still see out the windows in between the shelves.

In this dream no person was participating; I was just observing the schoolroom and the layout. If the schoolroom represents the world where we all learn, then what I see there is shelves with stuffed animals and dolls on them. Perhaps these represent things stored inside people from their childhood. Those things partially block the window. Window means revealed, truth, prophecy, revelation, and understanding. So this scene seems to be saying that what people learn and understand of truth is clouded or partially blocked by the things inside them left from their childhood. This is also a call to prayer.

This was a dream about sword fights that were expected by men in authority positions. This was also expected of their sons. Some woman revealed that her husband was mayor of a city that they had kept secret, so her husband would now get to (need to) sword fight in the order of authority also.

The main focus of the dream seems to be sword fighting. That would refer to fighting with the Sword of the Spirit, the Word of God. This was to be done by men in authority--and these are people like pastors, prophets, intercessors, etc. who have this authority given them to fight. The mayor of a city would be a civil authority in a city and he was to fight also. This city may represent places the Lord wants battle done. This dream may be showing a picture of the spiritual battle that needs to be waged to get my book to the right people and right places. Perhaps it is a call to prayer.

In this dream I was in a house and my daughters were there also. I was asking them about whether we should continue to keep our cats since they were kept in the basement most of the time. They came into the room where I was talking and sat down on the floor. They were around 9 years old and 6. 

Maybe in this dream these cats refer to the self-willed unteachable spirit which they have kept locked up down inside them from the time they were children. Their sitting down on the floor may represent getting down to the base or foundation their lives are built upon and resting on that. These children may represent people who read my book who need to give up their self-willed unteachable spirits and sit on the solid foundation of Jesus Christ. This is something I will pray about.

L came by and wanted some ice. I got out a package of pink frozen liquid and opened it for her. It was only partly frozen and was dripping on the floor.

L is a friend I have wanted to see grow in her relationship with Jesus. She wanted ice which represents the Word. What I gave her in this dream was a pink (which could represent a heart of flesh responsive to God) liquid (which could represent the Spirit or Word, the Spirit of God). It was in a package which may represent my book. I opened that package (by putting it on the web and making it available). Some of it was solid and some of it was lost by dripping away. This may be a picture of how some people like L may respond to the word given out in the book. This is also a call to prayer.

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What the Lord has shown me here is things I can pray about in regard to the people who might read and respond to my books.

JOURNAL 7-30-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT SAVING SEATS FOR FRIENDS IN AN AUDITORIUM
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I was in a large auditorium where speakers were speaking. But this auditorium also seemed to be in the back yard at my childhood home. I saw people sitting in the seats I wanted to save. When they left, then I saved those four seats in a front row for friends and myself to use. The seats seemed to be near the end of the row of bushes on the left side of the house back yard area.

This dream seems to focus on my saving a place of rest for myself and my friends from the past so we can hear and see spiritual words spoken in a great magnified way and learn about ruling and reigning in the world.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am being used to bring people from my past into a place of rest so they can listen to words spoken about ruling and reigning with Him.

JOURNAL 7-31-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT PREPARING TO PUT MY BOOK ON THE WEB FOR FOOD FOR OTHERS
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I had bought boxes of food to be prepared (rather like pudding or jello boxes) and a lady fixed the food from them at my house for a group of people - I think 4 people. There were 4 types of food fixed on the stove top in the kitchen. The food was served and the people were eating it in the dining room. This was an experiment or trial run to see how much food we would need to buy and fix for future groups.

My first thoughts are that these boxes of food represent the books I am writing. Perhaps the lady fixing the food for eating represents Beth as she fixes my manuscript for putting it on the web so people can partake of it, read it, there. Four types of food may represent this work of God (the book) being prepared on the stove (the heart) for ruling and reigning (represented by 4) with Christ. This was a trial run or experiment refers to our trying out this first book to see if there is anyone who reads it and responds to it. Then we will know more whether to put more of my books on the web also…for future groups.

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What the Lord has shown me here represents Beth and me preparing the book on the web for food for others as a trial run to see if there is a response.

A DREAM ABOUT ARRANGING FOR TRANSPORTATION FOR PEOPLE TO CHURCH AND BACK HOME AGAIN
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In this dream I was helping to arrange to bring people by car into the church for dinner, and then to take them back home. I was drawing a chart with names of the drivers and pick-ups to and from church listed on it, like:          	

The Pastor (unknown person) had me come into his office and discuss this. There wasn't a chair for me to sit down. 

I was outside with one man I was transporting to church and another driver saw him and stopped to pick him up there and take him on. We saw we could switch him to that car group. I said I would rather do the car driving than the cooking as long as the weather wasn't bad.

We brought our own experiences into the great "university" (the church) to share there. (4:44)

A group of us were performing the ministry of taking people into church or into a place where they could be ministered to and then returning them home again. I was drawing this plan out on a chart showing who would pick up whom and transport them. It's almost like it refers to planning discipleship (writing books) for people outside the church. I said I would rather bring them to the discipleship books rather than cook up the food for them. The Pastor represents God who asked me to discuss this with Him. There was not a place for me to rest, sit, when I went to Him. This might indicate I am to keep standing and keep moving, not sit and rest. Some people could ride with me (reading my books) and some needed to be transferred to other drivers (writers). Each of us writers brought our own experiences into this great university to share with others.

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What the Lord has shown me here is there are many writers of books to help people "come to church" by reading those books. There is a chart indicating who is to ride with whom. All this is under the directorship of Jesus. We each bring our own experiences into this great university where people come and learn.

A DREAM ABOUT THREE GROUPS PLAYING VOLLEYBALL AT MY HOUSE
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There were lots of people in my house divided up into 3 groups. Each group had a ball, like a volleyball, to volley around to each other up in the air. I went outside to look for a place where part of them could volley their ball so they wouldn't all be so close together inside. I didn't want the ball to hit a tall floor lamp and break it.

This represents things inside me (in my house) which are like Jesus and are worshipping Him (volleying the ball around). There is also a light inside me -- a lamp of revelation of God. In order to keep this light from breaking, I take part of the things inside me outside to worship. This seems to refer to the book coming out from inside of me so it can have freedom to worship publicly and visibly. This seems to refer to my first book being placed outside on the www so others can see it and have God manifest or revealed to them also and they can worship (play volleyball) also.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a dream that shows those things inside me which are like Him are being taken outside of me for worship in a more visible place. This will keep the light of revelation inside of me from breaking.

JOURNAL 8-1-05 Monday

A DREAM ABOUT IT NOT BEING THE RIGHT TIME TO BE SHOWN A NEW PLACE TO LIVE
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We were looking for a room to rent while we attended school. We looked at one place close to a restaurant where I thought we could just walk to it for eating. The landlord didn't seem like he was ready to show us rooms, like he didn't have any rooms made up/cleaned up. We were trying to figure out why.

I think this refers to the next place I am to stay here in Lee's Summit when Beth needs to have me move out of her house. I have looked around for a good place by reading about retirement homes near here. I wanted a place near the church (place to get food) and also a place near where I could go to eat in the evenings along with other people. I think the "landlord" is the Lord and He is not ready to show me a different place to stay at this time. 

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What the Lord has shown me here is that it is not time right now to be shown a new place to live.

JOURNAL 8-3-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT MY BAND OUTFIT
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We were on a band trip and were preparing to play a concert. I didn't know if I was to play with the band or not. I was told my band suit number was #94. A woman brought me 2 pair of pants that she had ironed for me. Both were gray with a bit of other color in tiny stripes. 

I saw a band member in a pink band jacket which was clasped at the neckline with a gold clasp. When I went to get my pink jacket for my band outfit, someone else had taken it and left a gray blouse hanging on the hook for #94. I needed to find out who had the jacket since I was supposed to wear it.

When I looked down at my legs I could see hair on them like I needed to shave.

I had not loaded an instrument to play so I wondered if the director had loaded it.   (5:55)

The words in my head when I awoke at 6:32: "Let's go live to Washington D. C."

After I awoke the song in my mind was: "Blessed Be The Name of The Lord."

I was the main focus of this dream. It seemed to be about me and my relationship/situation in regard to (playing in the band) prophesying and ministering to others in the gifts of the Spirit. My covering/anointing was somewhat hazy and unclear to me (gray pants) and my coat (covering, anointing, authority, protection) was to cover me with a heart of flesh (pink) but someone else took my coat and left their gray blouse (unclear, hazy, not defined). The band jacket was clasped with a gold clasp (glory or wisdom) at the neck (will). This refers to needing a covering with the wisdom and glory of God over my will. I was looking for that covering in this dream.

My covering (#94) was to be used for measuring for accepting or rejecting (others and/or myself) for the harvest and for ruling and reigning. 

My strength/support/spirit (legs) seemed to need shaving-putting away the nature of the flesh.

The band uniform is what others see on you as you prophesy and minister to them in the gifts of the Spirit--and this means through your books. Your uniform has to do with the harvest and helping others to be accepted or rejected in regard to ruling and reigning during the harvest time. What others see right now is hazy, unclear, uncertain and of the flesh, in the natural, in regard to your books. But there is a dividing/separating out going on through you. 

The pink band jacket with a heart of flesh and the wisdom and glory of God clasping over your will is what you are to wear. You just don't have that covering/coat yet to put on. Someone else has it right now and you are left with a top that is again hazy and undefined. That's ok. This will become more clear and defined as we go along. It's just at a hazy stage right now. In other words, you just don't know what effect your books (your outfit) will have on others yet. 

You see, you still don't know if you are to "play" with the band or not--whether you are to prophesy to others or not. You still don't know if you have an instrument and whether the Director (I am the Director) has brought an instrument for you. It is totally in My hands whether you have the outfit and instrument. You are just coming along and preparing as you can, then we will see what I do with that.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am still unclear about whether the books I am writing will be used to prophesy to others and help them or not. I am just to go along with Him and prepare and watch what He does.

JOURNAL 8-4-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT PEOPLE RESPONDING TO MY BOOKS IN THE SPIRITUAL AND IN THE NATURAL
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I could click on letters, words or images and move them to the left or right and this left a white spot where they used to be.

The letters, words or images may refer to those things which I have put in my books. Clicking on them seems to activate them to do something. Perhaps this means those letters, words, and images do something to the person reading them. It shows this action takes some to the left (spiritual) and some to the right (natural), so I think this shows a picture of some people responding to my books in the spiritual and some in the natural. But they aren't in the same place as they were before they "clicked" on the words and read them. I would guess the white spot left after they were moved represents something clean and pure being put in them. This dream is something I could see happening, so perhaps it is a prophetic picture to encourage me as I am preparing the books to be published on the web right now.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a prophetic picture of people responding to my books either in the spiritual or in the natural and having something pure left in them from it.

A DREAM ABOUT BUYING A BUS TICKET TO GO HOME
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I wanted to buy a bus ticket from Ft. Wayne, IN to my childhood home in the New Haven, IN area. I walked into the bus station and it looked a lot different than when I used to go there as a child, so I wasn't sure where to buy the ticket. 

There was a large round table with people around it in front and to the right when I entered the station door. To the left there was an area which looked like a restaurant eating area and perhaps cooking area or vending machine area. I walked around and between equipment and people until I found the ticket area behind it. I thought I should call home before buying a ticket and see if someone from my family was in Fort Wayne who could drive me home, but I didn't call.

When I went to buy a ticket at first I was told it would cost $.18 and then I was told $5.00.  The lady who was selling tickets said it would cost less if I had a maid (or some other qualifying factors which I didn't catch). I said I didn't have a maid. She said the ticket was to the Allen County Road (I used to live in Allen County as a child). She said lots of Loudens used to take the bus there, but no more. She gave some reason, like maybe they had all died or moved away or something. The Loudens lived next door to us as a child.

Even as I prepared to buy the ticket I sensed inside that I should call home first to see if there was someone in Fort Wayne who could drive me home instead of taking the bus.

My home and heart is with God up in heaven and that is what I am waiting for and being prepared for (being in the bus station). The ticket to get home is what I am looking for and wanting to buy. I know the ticket is my relationship with Jesus, but I also think the ticket might refer to death or the rapture which will be what gets me home. I would be riding the bus with other Christians going home also. 

"I have the impression I need to call home before buying the ticket" may refer to seeking God in prayer about the method He has for me to go home--perhaps a different way than on the bus. Perhaps He has someone "in town" with me where I am who will drive me home. I think this dream is suggesting I pray and ask the Lord how He wants to bring me home.

The two costs of the ticket to go home represent (18) putting on Christ, and (500) serving Him fully. The cost of the ticket could be reduced by servanthood.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I am still in the waiting and preparing period on earth before going home to be with Him in heaven. The main idea is that I am to pray and ask Him if He has a way to get me home without riding the bus which may represent death.

I want you to know that you will be raptured and you will not take the 'usual' method of getting to heaven--which is death. I want you to keep knowing this and believing this as you grow older and are more and more eager to finish this earth life and come home to be with Me. Do not think you will die a mortal death; you will not. You will be taken away up in the sky to be with Me as you have desired for many many years. Always 'call home' if you doubt this and think you might come some other way (accident, illness, etc).

A DREAM ABOUT A TEACHER FIXING HER ROOM FOR THE NEXT DAY'S CLASS
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I was at school as a teacher fixing up my room after the kids had gone for the day. I needed to stay 1 hour after school to get all my work ready for the next day. 

There was some drama/theater production given by the students being put on each evening that week and we were told we could go free on Friday night.

The children leaving school refers to the rapture when all those who belong to Jesus are taken out of the world. Their day of learning is finished. As a teacher I am, in this dream, staying 1 hour more to get my room ready for the children coming in to school the next day. The interpretation that comes to me is that this "preparing" for the children (those who give their lives to Jesus after the rapture takes place) is what I am doing by writing the books I have been writing for the last year, and putting them out on the web for the Holy Spirit to lead the "children" to them.  This is the 1 hour of preparation in the dream. Although I am doing the preparation now, the children won't receive the instruction (the books) until after I leave in the rapture. I don't know what an hour means in God's timing, but 1 refers to being first in rank and order and importance. Hour refers to time--the use of my time. So 1 hour refers to this "preparation" as being of first importance in the use of my time.

The Theater production refers to a display by the students (Christians) of their story for an audience (the world) to come and watch. Evening refers to this being evening time in the world, a time just before the darkness fully comes (as it will in the tribulation). Friday refers to the 6th day of the week. It is the day we get to go free (leave in the rapture and be free of earth life) at the time of that day's theater production. The 7th day, after the theater display by the Christians, is the 7 year tribulation time.

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What the Lord has shown me here shows that my time in preparing for the children who will come to the Lord after the rapture is right now first in importance in the use of my time.

A DREAM ABOUT THE STEPS OF DISCIPLING BABES IN CHRIST
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I was at a lady's home and she had a baby son. I helped her by holding him while she did something for a minute. I sat him on a table, held him up, and talked to him. He could talk some so we talked awhile. Then I held his hands and stood him on the floor and helped him walk to see if he could, and he did. Then I saw his mom and dad sitting there, so I handed him to his dad who fed him from a bottle as he held him.

The focus of the dream is the progress of the baby/child in his spiritual walk. I was participating, along with the child and his parents. The dream was not about me but about how the parents (God) and I were working together to help the child (a Christian). My part involved holding/carrying him, talking to him, holding his hands, standing him on the floor, helping him walk. These represent different parts of discipling the baby in his spiritual journey. Then the Father gave him food (the Word of God, foundational truth, and teaching). I think my part is done in prayer for the new babies in Christ that come after the Rapture and through things they might learn from my books. The Father will use this to bring the children to the Word of God and teach them foundational truths. I believe this is a dream to encourage me to pray for these things.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of the discipling steps along the spiritual journeys of all babies in Christ, both now and after the Rapture--and I am to pray for these.

A DREAM ABOUT BEING CLEANSED OF ANY PERFUME OF INFLUENCE I USED TO HAVE
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I was in a rest room and saw a bottle of perfume sitting up on a shelf or paper towel container on the wall. I took the perfume bottle down to smell it to see what fragrance the perfume was, and there was no fragrance. So I put the bottle back where I found it.

I was changing clothes (I think at school after work). I saw myself having on a white 1/2 slip bottom and a navy shirt top.

This dream is about me and a recent cleansing experience I went through. It is to show me that I was cleansed from what I confessed, and there is no perfume or influence in me anymore in that area. The clothes show that my covering is now pure and spiritual--covering all of me.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that I have been thoroughly cleansed from what I confessed to Him recently and there is no more of that within me. My covering/anointing is now pure and spiritual.

JOURNAL 8-5-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT BEING CALLED FOR BY JESUS
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Words in my dream: "I was called for…I was called for by the great Mark Harrison"

Mark: inherent meaning: martial; spiritual connotation: servant of God

Harrison: inherent meaning: son of the strong man; spiritual connotation: courageous

So the dream words here are telling me that I was called for by: the great One who is martial (a warrior), a servant of God, and the son of a strong man and courageous. To me that means I was called for by Jesus and I am to imitate Him and become like him: martial, servant of God, son of a strong man, and courageous.

A DREAM ABOUT GOD HAVING ALL THINGS IN ORDER
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(12.34) Words that came: "I have all things in order." (i.e. 1,2,3,4)

Always keep in mind that I have all things in order--in your life and in this world. Nothing is taking Me by surprise. I am prepared for all things, and I can keep you prepared for all things as you connect with Me each day and listen to Me.

A DREAM ABOUT GOD BEING FIRST IN MY LIFE AT IT'S BEGINNING AND END
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(1:01) Words that came: "First at the beginning and first at the end too."

I was first in your life when your life began, and I am first in your life at the end of it too. Whatever 'trails' you got on that took you off My pathway for you, you are now back on the right pathway with Me and I am first in your life. This is good. I just wanted you to see that.

A DREAM ABOUT FRUSTRATING RESPONSES TO MY BOOK ON THE WEB
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(5:30) I was in a beauty shop. I saw some evergreen greenery and was trying to arrange it on a stage-like area so it would show off nicely and look good. I tried not to put it on a bench-like area around the stage area because that was for people to sit on. Then I noticed that someone had moved the greenery and strewn it around the stage edge area in a zig-zag pattern. So I was trying to get it put back.

I was in a school. It was recess time in the gym and I was overseeing the students of all ages in there. But I also was trying to direct a play rehearsal with the first and second graders at the back part of the stage area and trying to have all the older students sit on couches in the front part of the stage area--sit and just whisper to each other so we could have the play rehearsal at the same time. Then I saw that the older students had moved the couches off the stage area and onto the gym floor and were being very rowdy and noisy. I was trying to get them to move the couches back onto the stage and to be quiet. But they weren't responding well to my direction and I was beginning to lose my voice from talking so loudly. R was one person among the noisy older students.

Both of these dreams were frustrating to me and got me upset about the way people were acting, and because what I was trying to do was being thwarted by them.

My first impressions about these two frustrating dreams is they refer to the responses coming from some people (probably in the churches) when I try to help them through my book. In the first dream I put out the book to offer eternal life (evergreen) for others. But one response to that was to tear it apart and show it in such a way as to hinder or try to destroy the purpose for it. That might be the response of some reading the book.

The second dream showed me trying to work with and help younger children (in the kingdom) in a place (gym) of great discipline and a place of training. This was done on a stage which could refer to being openly in sight of people (which the book will be when it goes on the web). The older (hopefully more mature, but at least longer) people in the Kingdom (the church) would not rest (sit on couches) and communicate quietly with one another. They moved their couches to the gym floor (a place of doing something over and over) and were noisy and rowdy there. These might refer to those who say they are Christians or think they are, but keep doing the same thing over and over and don't find rest in it. Seeing R in the scene (the only person I knew by name) may refer to churches like he attends that may well have some who come there over and over each week but cause noise and problems rather than resting in the Lord.

These two dreams may show some negative responses to my book(s).

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What the Lord has shown me here are some negative responses to my book: tearing it apart or causing noisy/rowdy behavior to cover up what is trying to be accomplished in the lives of others. This may come from older people (in the church) who don't want to listen to the word coming through my book.

JOURNAL 8-6-05 Saturday

A DREAM ABOUT PEOPLE BEING SAVED AND HELPED THROUGH MY BOOKS
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We were writing a story on a computer about a lady who needed help. As we typed out what to do to help her, it happened, and she was ok - saved. We laughed with joy.

We refers to the Holy Spirit and me. We work together in writing the book(s) and type out what is helpful to others. The lady represents those whom the Lord leads to read our book. The Holy Spirit already knew when we wrote this book together what those people would need, therefore we typed out what would help those people. We experienced joy as we watched this help others. I pray many will be saved and helped through these books.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of people being saved and helped through the books He and I have been writing together.

WORDS ABOUT RECEIVING WHAT THE LORD FREELY GIVES ME
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Words: "It's a smart/wise prophet who uses that which is free."

What is it that's free, Lord, that I would be smart to use?

The library, the offerings of training by CTC, the Social Security payments, contributions to your writing ministry by others who will give to it when they learn about it, and anything else I decide to bring to you from now on: foods people want to give you; help they want to give you. Many people are going to be led to contribute to you and the Dove Ministry you have now formed…receive it from Me with thanksgiving. Know that it comes from working for Me like you have been for this year.

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What the Lord has shown me here is I am to receive the things the Lord gives me freely and I am wise if I do that.

A DREAM ABOUT MY CHOOSING A BELL ANGEL ORNAMENT AT A CHRISTMAS BAZAAR
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I was in a school. The mothers of the children had a Christmas bazaar-like setup in a large room where I walked around and looked at lots and lots of Christmas decorations …bells, balls, etc. They wanted me to choose some to take with me. I chose a small gold angel shaped ornament that looked somewhat like a bell. At the door they gave a basket of decorations to each child as he left school on that last day of school. I realized the mothers had cut out many of the ornaments by hand from cardboard with printed pictures on them. I asked if the teachers had tested the children and was told no. They would test them at the beginning of the next school year instead. 

I was in a place of learning. I was one person among many mothers (my Source) who were in this dream, along with students (those learning) and teachers (those teaching). A Christmas bazaar is a place/event where there are many booths or places where people display what they have made and offer it to others to see and to possibly buy. But in this bazaar I was offered to have whatever I chose. There were many many pretty things to look at, but I only chose 1 small golden angel- shaped bell-like ornament. That represents choosing something from heaven, a helper and messenger and protector (angel), with glory (gold), and it is a sign (bell) indicating God's Presence. The testing was not yet finished but would resume again. I think this dream refers to living now on earth and what is happening (learning) and tests to come yet.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that we are in school and our Source is here too to give us needed things to function here. We are being taught and will be tested more. It is a picture of my choosing Him to be with me here.

JOURNAL 8-7-05 Sunday

A DREAM ABOUT DEALING WITH WANTING TO GO FORWARD IN OBEDIENCE WHILE HAVING THE FEAR OF DISAPPROVAL
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(3:44) I was in a large upper room. That's all I remembered.

(later) I went through a car check and paid a $10.00 fee for the check. I went on to work at a hospital. I took a hospital car back to the car check and had it inspected. I took another hospital employee with me. She didn't want to pay the $10.00 so I wrote a check for it and let her take the car back to the hospital.

I was riding my bike toward home. I was carrying a bouquet with a large bunch of orange (stiff like dried) flowers with long stems and around 3 shorter yellow fresh flowers which the car check man gave me.

I dropped the orange bouquet as I rode (I figured) because I was trying to navigate in a sidewalk corner street crossing area with lots of people to maneuver around. Some man picked up the orange bouquet and the bouquet was in the open trunk of his car. I saw it and told him it was mine. He was grumpy about it like he didn't want to return it to me.

If this upper room is the setting of the whole dream sequence then it may show things taking place in my Spiritual life, my thought life, my prayer life and my spiritual service.

I went through a check of my life and ministry (car) and gave my $10.00 (for full service) for this. I worked in a place of healing, a care facility, a church. I also had the healing ministry (car) checked and gave a check (faith-the currency of the Kingdom of God) for $10.00 (full service) for that too. 

Then I began working out life's difficulties (riding a bike) involving working around the direction other people were going at a place of changing direction (sidewalk corner street crossing area) and making decisions in the way I was going. I was given some fresh glory (3 yellow fresh flowers) that was a gift from God involving obedience and conformity to God, but also a large amount of dried glory (orange dried flowers) that was dangerous. I dropped the dried glory as I was changing direction and making decisions. Some stranger, probably a person of evil intent, picked up the dried glory and put it in the trunk (back) of his life/way (car) and he was grumpy about my telling him it was mine. He seemed to want to keep it and not return it to me. It was visible in the back or past (trunk) of his life (car).

This dream may show my thought life dealing with wanting to go forward in full faith in ministry to help others while holding on to fear that someone would have evil intent toward me and what I was doing and would present danger to me. This had to do with his past life which he wanted to keep in the trunk of his own car/life…and his disapproval in regard to my having it and exposing it.

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What the Lord has shown me here is my thought life dealing with wanting to go forward in obedience in faith serving Him while having the fear of disapproval.

JOURNAL 8-8-05 Monday

Yesterday at church we were offered the opportunity to receive prayer for a prophetic word to us at the end of the service. As I was standing waiting for that, Kevin Basconi came over to me and started praying for me. His whole prayer was about my writing (which I don't think he knew about). I don't remember nearly all that he said, but it included Psalm 45:1 about my being "the pen of a ready writer," and about a quill to write with, about seeing blank pages still to be written on, and there was more writing yet to be done.

The speaker for the service was John McGirvin and he spoke about not letting fear of rejection keep us from doing what the Lord is leading us to do. That spoke to me also about that concern as I allow my book to be put on the web. He also spoke about going to the nations, and I feel God will take me to the nations via the web.

Then in the afternoon Beth finished putting my first book on the web. We put many key words on the main page so it could be tracked by the search engines and people would be able to find it when doing searches for spiritual seeking. She is going to work more on putting the web site on the search engines next weekend.

Today I sent the web site information to all those I wanted to inform about the book (Thoughts and Stories: on a Life God Leads, Guides, and Directs) now being available. Today is 8-8-05 which refers to a new beginning (8 2x) and grace and service (5). The web site address is: http://www.geocities.com/JoanWhitacreRoyer and my book response email address is: JoanWhitacreRoyer@yahoo.com

A PROPHETIC PICTURE DREAM ABOUT THE BOOKS HE IS HAVING ME WRITE FOLLOWING ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
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(3:45) I awoke and knew I had a dream but I just couldn't put into words what I'd experienced. I tried to figure out the setting of the dream, where I was in it, and couldn't. The song in my head at that time was: "He'll wipe away my tears, He'll remove all my fears, He'll make all things new." I wondered if the setting of the dream was heaven because of that song, but I didn't know for sure. So I settled back down to go back to sleep.

(4:00) The words to describe my dream came to me, so I got back up and wrote them: It was about the experiences I lived being put into words and made visible after me in different sized fonts or caps -- like in "event-sized groupings" behind me. I was moving along to the left with these following me. I thought this dream was referring to my books.

     Me    [_________]     [_________]

(Later) The idea came that at times I can add more "groupings" behind me. I can almost picture them like wagons (slow moving and carrying something). They can be different sizes or even possibly different colors. I carry them with me wherever I go. They represent the writing I put into books.

I think these "groupings" coming along behind me where I go represent things that have taken place in my life that I put into writing, like in books. They involve fonts and caps which to me refer to letters I use on the computer. They are made visible behind me refers to these becoming books visible to others and those books follow me wherever I go. They are a part of who I am from now on. I was moving along to the left which refers to a spiritual pathway. These events vary in size and color (what they represent). They take awhile to form and move, but they do carry something to those who read them.

This dream, I think, is in response to the prophetic word given to me yesterday by Kevin and also to the work Beth and I did to open the web site for my first book this past weekend. Perhaps it is a prophetic picture of things to come. The song might be a promise about the coming books: that He will wipe away my tears, remove all my fears and make all things new for me.

What the Lord has shown me here is a dream picture, a prophetic picture, of the books He is having me write (about my experiences with Him) always being with me and following me for the rest of my life.

JOURNAL 8-9-05 Tuesday

A DREAM ABOUT SPIRITUAL WARFARE INVOLVING ME	
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I dreamed about being chased on horseback through a forest of trees and I seemed to be traveling among the branches and leaves of the trees instead of on the ground. I didn't see the horses, but just knew about them. Also I was among a group of people who were being hunted down and mistreated, so we hid under blankets and tried not to move so we wouldn't be noticed and caught. Those caught were given multiple cuts on their bodies like with a knife. This dream was so intense that after I awoke I had to fight a battle for a long time with prayer, declarations, and Scripture quoting to keep from going back to sleep and back into the dream. I realized it was a dark dream and wondered how it got through my protection and why I was allowed to receive it.

This dream seems to deal with me and places me in two different fearful situations which may have been to try to stop me from doing or being something (from giving my testimony). It indicates my trying not to be noticed or caught because of the accusations or sharp words that might cut me and hurt me. It seemed to be a dark dream and from the enemy to possibly scare me…probably to try to stop me from putting the first book out on the web site. The dream may be a picture of spiritual warfare taking place right now in regard to the book published this last weekend.

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What the Lord has shown me here is about spiritual warfare going on involving me and trying to keep me from feeling free to be seen by others and giving my testimony.

A DREAM ABOUT HELPING OTHERS GET HEALED AND CLEANSED
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In this second dream I was working in a medical care unit like maybe a free clinic. There was a box of file cards there with part of the cards white and part of the cards blue. I felt there needed to be clarification about what these files were for, especially the blue cards. It was not clear what they were for and if they were to be used in the clinic. I also helped a very young child who needed his diaper changed. 

The medical care unit refers to a place of healing. The cards refer to facts, truth, something exposed or revealed. White ones were pure and blue ones were spiritual. It wasn't clear what the blue cards were for and whether they should be used in this clinic. The baby possibly refers to a babe in Christ or a new believer and the diaper might refer to his covering, righteousness or spirit. Since the diaper was soiled, this could refer to the baby's covering being unrighteousness, uncleanness, or self-righteousness. This needed changing and I volunteered to help do that. So this dream seems to deal with helping people heal and become cards of information of pure and spiritual truth/facts - including dealing with unrighteousness in new believers.

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What the Lord has shown me here is about my being involved in healing, helping others with spiritual truth and becoming cleansed.

JOURNAL 8-10-05 Wednesday

A DREAM ABOUT BEING IN A SWIMMING POOL
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In this dream I was in a swimming pool along with an unknown man. We were both swimming in the deep deep part of the pool and it was wonderful and pleasant. I was sometimes under the water, and sometimes with my head above water, but it was ok. There was no fear (as I might have in the natural) but I was just enjoying it.

This dream is about me in relation to God. It is a picture of me being immersed in the deep pool of a Spiritual place or condition along with Jesus. It is a dream of encouragement to me and shows the Lord and me serving God together through worship, the gifts of the Spirit and prophesying.

What the Lord has shown me here is an encouraging picture of me being with Him in the spiritual realm (doing spiritual activities, serving Him, worshiping, prophesying, and operating in the gifts of the Spirit).

JOURNAL 8-11-05 Thursday

A DREAM ABOUT SEEING THE CONSEQUENCES OF THE CHOICES I MAKE
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(1:11) In this dream I was creating drama scenes like writing a play. I could see the scenes like they were happening as I wrote them. I could change a part (like an ending) and see how it looked. I seemed to be the only person in this dream.

The first impression that came into my mind, even as I wrote out the dream during the night, was that it might apply to something in the future that I am to do.

Writing may refer to something being communicated. In this instance the writing created scenes or pictures of events happening. I could see those scenes as I wrote them and I could change those scenes and see how the change looked.

This drama may represent my life or the lives of others I influence by my writing. Since I was the only person in this dream, it surely is about me. The main focus of the dream was the drama scenes I saw and influenced. The emotional tone of the dream was being pleased with what was happening.

This is what I want you to understand and know through this dream (and it is a dream given by Me): I am there with you as you write scenes and portray drama that is your life story. This refers to all the books you have written. They portray your life story for others to read. Your life story is like a drama lived out before others. 

You can change the events or outcomes by what you do and say. You can create in your mind ahead of time the various possibilities by taking certain actions, and then decide what you want the drama to be. It is your choice what you do. And it is your choice what drama scenes you write out and release for others to read. You may choose that too. What you choose affects others even as what they do affects you too. 

There is much interaction, but I already know the outcome. I have it all planned and My plan will be carried out even though you have choices along the way. You and I work together to create the drama scenes of your life. Would you like to "see" the outcome of scenes if you take certain actions? I can show that to you to help you decide what you would like to do.

Yes, Lord. I would like to see it so I could make the best choices.

Then I will give you a series of dreams showing you about choices you can make and what the outcome of those choices will be. Watch for these so you will recognize them for what they are. And this is one of the choices that you are making right now--that you want to know what those are.

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What the Lord has shown me here is that He will give me a series of dreams showing me the outcome of the choices I make before I make them. Then I can use that information to help me make the best possible choices.

A DREAM ABOUT GIVING JESUS FIRST PLACE IN MY LIFE
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(4:15) In this dream I am in a building and meet with some man to see about a place for him to stay. We look at a possibility #1, and then we look at a possibility #2.

I am the building and I meet with Jesus to see about what place inside me He will get to stay in: first place or second place. This is one of the choices mentioned in the first dream last night. 

I want You to be first, Jesus, in my life.

You saw a good example of that last night as you watched the DVD on the life of Francis of Assissi. He made Me first in his life and with that came obedience to whatever I told him to do. That is what you are saying, right?

Yes, Lord, that is what I want and that is what I am saying to You today.

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What the Lord has shown me here is about whether I want Him to be first place in my life.

JOURNAL 8-12-05 Friday

A DREAM ABOUT A MULTIPLYING BIRD
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In this dream I was inside a house looking out a large window (I think in the front of the house). First I saw a bird outside which looked like a hummingbird but was larger. It's coloring was in greens like a hummingbird. It was about 6-7 ft up above the ground suspended in the air. Then it became much larger and I saw this huge bird there. It's front looked similar to a stork with a long bill and neck, then it became a huge oval-shaped body, maybe 6 ft long and 2-3 ft wide with a large fluffy multi-feathered plumed tail. Along the top of the body there were many nests, maybe 8-10 nests, and on each nest sat a mature bird. In the tail there were many smaller birds mixed in with the plumy feathers. I kept exclaiming about this unusual bird and trying to name what kind of bird it was, but I could not think what to call it. I knew it was not an eagle. Later, as I looked at the names of some birds in the dream book, the closest I could come to what it's head and beak looked like might be a stork. I don't remember any colors associated with this huge bird.

Hummingbird: beautiful bird which can suspend itself in the air and which is enjoyable to watch

Stork--expectant: new birth, new baby; new experience; that which is forthcoming. They carry out God's purposes

"Yea, the stork in the heaven knoweth her appointed times." (Jeremiah 8:7 KJV) "Even the stork in the sky knows her appointed seasons." (Jeremiah 8:7 NIV)

Bird--Spirit: Holy Spirit; message. They can also refer to leaders or messengers 

"…for a bird of the air shall carry the voice, and that which hath wings shall tell the matter." (Ecclesiastes 10:20 KJV)  "…a bird of the air may carry your words; and a bird on the wing may report what you say." (Ecclesiastes 10:20 NIV)

Beth said she thought the big bird may symbolize CTC. To me this big bird refers to lots of things being birthed from it, lots of mature birds, nests with eggs to be hatched, and growing birds too. This can refer to my books which are being used by the Lord to hatch and grow what He wants in the lives of many. This also could refer to my church where He is doing that also. It also could refer to the church universal doing the same thing. This bird will be beautiful like a hummingbird and will be suspended in the air for all to see.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of that which is coming to carry out God's purposes. It will birth God's message and carry it to others. 

A DREAM ABOUT TREES WITH GREEN, YELLOW AND RED LEAVES
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In this second dream I saw a group/row of deciduous trees on my right and in front of me that were thick with bright green leaves. There were sections or patches of red and yellow in them which were also bright clear colors. There was no mixture of the colors but each was in its own area. They made me think of fall coming, however no leaves looked dead or brown or faded, just bright green, red, and yellow.  

Beth said these were the three colors on a traffic light. These trees refer to people, especially those in leadership. They are the ones sheltering God's people. Their words are words of life and a testimony about God. Their words bring life and renewal if they are green; they bring passion, zeal and enthusiasm if they are red; and they bring a gift from God if they are yellow. Some leaders bring green, some bring red, and some bring yellow. They are all clear and bright and beautiful and are in an area that is their area or territory. They may represent different leaders and/or different ministries/churches. They may serve like a traffic light--some saying go, some stop, and some caution. My book ministry may be like these trees also, acting with words of testimony in the lives of people who read them.

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What the Lord has shown me here is a picture of ministry with words and testimony bringing life, passion, and a gift from God into the lives of those who read or hear the words.